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[Jul. 27th, 2005|11:14 pm] |
well...he's all dead sleeping next to me...
im sitting
not feeling like sleeping for the next 3 hours
think ill go out for a smoke..or something
we had a fight or 2 or something in a raw
then we understood that we got no reasons for fights
it is jus because we love the drama)
today was one of the longest days for i rememmber i dont know how long
i waited for everyone today
something like 7 hours of my life were completely wasted
im going to spain in two weeks)
by myself
me and some group and they found some female to be in the same room with me
'cause being alone coasts more.
and then army.
anyway i want him to wake up
but i dont see that happen in the next...um...tomorow when he'll get up to work..
i hope i got something out of this day
oh.and i failed my driving theory. |
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|01:49 pm] |
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| | Dj shadow-midnight in a perfect world | ] |
this,is my girl nad'
this is me
she is far away now(. in the pics above we went to drink our big asses off.
anyway,dont feel like talking
Myspace is Gay. |
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| on this cloudy day... |
[Jun. 13th, 2005|09:48 pm] |
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| | maybe it is something | ] |
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| | Venetian Snares | ] |
Through time passes:
I get to explore life more and more:
Every fact that life wanted to hide:
Im getting to explore:
Nothing stays hidden:
Everything clears in the end:
I will find the truth:
Its somewhere near:
Even if now it seem so unclear |
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[May. 22nd, 2005|11:02 pm] |
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| | i dont know... | ] |
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| | smashing pumpkins | ] |
the real beauty is always there
just turn a ear to see
its is so pure and so nostalgic
of the times that used to be
it was so simple and so true
but now we dont see the reason
of being what we are
you probebly forgotten of what we thought we are
you probebly forgotten of what you thought can be
erased the reason
erased the will
only ashes left
from the thing that kept me free...
*** *** ***
i saw "WAKING LIFE" today. |
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[May. 7th, 2005|03:18 pm] |
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| | amiee mann | ] |
LIVE-JOURNAL
take the 'live' out..
a place where i dont want to write whats going on with me,just a journal. I opened this page by mistake
and saw that not only me thinks that way
oh fuck it
i just dont feel like talking
all the time
dont feel like telling
or maybe this is just this summer,and in winter ill start whine again
but
who knows
life are okey,the drama and me
maybe im even happy
well
ta ta |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2005|04:42 pm] |
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| |  my feet just cant stop moving) | ] |
I know ill be alright
i know ill be just fine
through all the confusion
ill find my way out
as blurred as it seems
i know it will be clear
i know ill be alright
no metter what
last night i went to a break beat party,down in tel aviv
it was FUN. |
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| Dear Artyom |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|11:17 pm] |
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| | juliana theory-jewel to sparkle | ] |
זהו.
סגרתי מעגל בחים שלי.
"אמרת"אהבה עוברת,כמו כל דבר אחר,זה ככה אצל כולם,תמיד
וגרמתה לי להאמין שזה באמת ככה.
אז זהו,שלא.
אולי ככה אתה רוצה לחיות
בלי אמונה,בלי תקווה
אבל אני לא.
אנחנו לא עשויים מאותו החומר בייבי
כל האנושות בנויה על תקווה,על אמונה בעתיד טוב יותר
וכך גם אני
אתה לא יודע מה אתה רוצה,ומה אתה חושב
אתה חי לפי רעיונות של אחרים
ואני לא רוצה אותך ליד
אני יודעת שהכל יהיה טוב
יהיה טוב איתי
כי מצאתי מישהו
שנילחם בתחנות רוח כמוני
אז יאללה
חיים נחמדים לך
ושגורלנו לא עוד יצטלבו |
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[Mar. 27th, 2005|07:50 pm] |
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| |  high | ] |
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| | god i feel sick..aaa | ] |
No.dont miss him.stop it.
You spent with him the last 4 days.
96 hours.non stop.
what more do you want??.
Cut it off.
stop being silly.
Dont miss him.
Youre grndpa is going for two months for Arizona today,spend some time with him.bitch.
You got school tomorrow.
Stop listening to songs he likes.
Stop it!! |
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| ho ho im back!^^ -it just didnt feel like lj |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|10:48 pm] |
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| | kasabian | ] |
sunset on my face... *
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cool afternoon breeze... *
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Air is playing in my headphones.. *
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a beautiful rose in my hand.. *
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walking alone home.. *
- i love this moments... *
when im alone and feel like i *
have something to hold on too and *
everything is simply...beautiful *
,and simple *
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[Feb. 19th, 2005|10:53 pm] |
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| | sneaker pimps | ] |
i never quite sure about anything i do.
i just want to believe and not hesitate in my actions...
maybe its because from time to time i find some new side of me that contradicts something else..
today i made another -desicion-...not to continue with my eLecTroN~iCs studies(gosh i hate that..) and go study what i want..not caring about a place of work in the future but about my sanity and being true to myself
im sure that ill get whatever i want only if ill want it hard enough..
and i dont know...money is not the most important thing to me,-well..money is good ..i need money for making things the way i want 'em to..well,i just wanna be happy about everything=).
and ill do whatever i can of creating the world i want for myslef.
i dont wanna grow old.
all this responsibilities
giving up on childhood dreams
this is not something i see for myself
i wanna do what i want how i want and think what i want..-be whta i want
and...i will be that way.
hope not to sellout to the world around me
and hm..not to the subject..*what a night i had*)..with *him*)
oh.....my sweetie)
i hope the shitty side of my personality wont come out so that i wont hurt him,and confuse myself to death
im masochistic-sadistic by nature
buhahah |
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[Feb. 8th, 2005|06:13 pm] |
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| | my own | ] |
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| | smashing pumpkins | ] |
pure and simple
dont want nothing more
just tired
im going through something...i even stoped carring if i smoke or not..
everything ends
take the bad out of good
every action got its reaction..both ways
just living day by day..doing what i have too
trying to keep up with the world
even if ill think myself as an outkast
ill still go with the flow
everything changes
you think all long the way something
then few moments of understanding can change everything upside down
even if you think to try again
you'll still come to the starting point,where the circle ends.
**hah,my mom told me that my brain is fucked.well..many ppl tell me that..but i dont care what they think,maybe i am..or maybe its them
whatever keeps me sane or not..
but at least im true to myself
<3 |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2005|06:23 pm] |
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| |  i miss you like hell | ] |
It was my birthday yesterday
voohoo im 18 now
i didnt really celebrated it yet (like with my folks grandpa and co. but thats not called much of a celebrating)
my grandpa is so cool he is like 70 and in two weeks he is going to arizona to climb this canyons or whatever
aww i love him so much<3
and he brought me cashhh and thats always good.
i dont know if i will celebrate
tomorrow me and ma girls we will go out somewhere
i guess it will be fun
i had plans for friday celebrating with all the bunch
but..i'll see about that in the last minute)
bye now
x
*updated just to keep my mind from going crazy missing you*
ohhh... |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|06:20 pm] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
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| | audio bullys | ] |
-i went to donate blood today...they didnt take it//..it has low hemoglobin or something...bummer...
-i miss *him* right now..i saw him only couple hours earlier..but...i want more...
-i dont know what to do with myself right now...dont you just hate this feeling?..no actually..i dont wanna think what to do..im not interested in doing something right now..maybe ill go sleep
my philosophical thought of the day:*where is the truth?*
after all this movies and talks with people.. and my thoughts..thats what ive been analyzing in the last two days..*not letting myself to go deep on this now*
well..bye now
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[Jan. 20th, 2005|10:46 pm] |
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| |  geeky | ] |
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| | trainspotting soundtrack.. | ] |
heya))pics of me...yey...they suck like hell.. its on webcam ..but anyway..i tried not to pose ..but on the last pic..oh whatever...here i am)
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[Jan. 18th, 2005|02:58 pm] |
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writing your thoughts is evil. it helps you understand the crap thats in your head..and confuses more..so i better not.
but i cant help it...so just a little.... PS: i wanna call him...but i dont know what to say...it is all not the way it should be..we were supposed to be happy by now..but..i dont know what..
PPS: i should really get better now.i got this huge test tommorow that i cant fail..damn..i just dont wanna do nothing...i just wanna...dissapear... |
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| gosh...will i ever stop to write this shit here?)) |
[Jan. 10th, 2005|09:17 pm] |
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you know i love you...you know i fuckin' care..i want a world for ourselves...well...this too...may be my moment wish.im dangerous..keep your distance...im a confused little girl..but right now...i love you.yes i am...maybe its just an image that i created...but i want it so much to be true.
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[Jan. 9th, 2005|10:34 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
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| | weezer | ] |
look into my eyes...
no theres nothing you will see)
im hollowed like my brain my soul and my love...
no i dont hate myself...and this is no kind of depression...there's no such thing...its just me...
and everything's too dramatic...too over rated...
too over thought..everything is so obvious..only if you wanna look...dont wanna judge no one...i just dont understand...im gettin' sick...i wonder if somthing might help..
i need some shine...some understanding...i want someone to come..and tell me the truth..about everything i need to know...or maybe...this is the plan for us...i dont know what i need..and what everything's for...maybe its wrong to know...my unending drama...-nothing but the world i've created for myself in my head |
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