David Duchovny is still so, so, so hot. : D

Soul: horny
Melody: The Hoosiers - Cops and Robbers

Man, I must have a writer's block, if I can't even write a simple journal entry. It pisses me off. I say that a lot.

Soul: grumpy

Coffee/Green Tea/Sushi/my Nikes/Books/Computers/Luna Sea/Kokia/Acidman/Hyde/Supernatural/House/Beer/my leather jacket/Pocky/sunshine/birds singing/ylangylang aroma oil/Gundam Wing/teh Gay/horses/guinea pigs/my bed(seriously, I love my bed)/papayas/....

Life would suck so much without these things.

Soul: good
Melody: Tourbillion - Heaven

I've probably said this before, but I hate reality. That's my sole problem with life. It's a big problem, but at least it's just one. I hate reality so much, I've never lived in it. 95% of all time, I'm not really here. Oh, I work, I talk, I laugh, but my mind's not really there.
This is also, why never feel like I belong. Or never find a place I really like. I'm constantly searching for somewhere I belong. Someplace better than where I am right now.

Mostly, I dislike reality, because it is so boring. I hate boredom. Is there a phobia for that? I can't stand being bored. It makes me feel like I am dying on the inside. And I get bored so easily. Bored with work, bored with food, with people, with music, with books, with life.

I find something new, then I indulge myself until I'm full, get bored with it, discard it, move on to something new. The thing is, once I'm bored with it, there is no way it's ever gonna change. Once I sucked the feeling of excitement out of something, I don't care anymore. The moment something is not new/exciting anymore I get depressed. Or the other way round, I don't know.

This probably makes me a shallow, easily distracted and unstable person, with absolutely now control of my impulses. No wonder I got diagnosed with a bipolar disorder. Manic, depressed; excited, bored; nice, mean; love, hate....my personality only nows extreme emotions. Everything in the middle doesn't count. I am an emotional person, I follow my feelings, even if I don't talk about them much. I do what I feel like doing. And either you're with me or you're not. If you're not, well too bad for you.

I'm not complaining. I am what I am. I don't believe in the whole concept of changing people till they are like you think they should be. Of course, you only want what's best for them. You know what's best for people? Being true to themselves. One should learn to accept one self.

People only want to change you, because they can't deal with you. I don't expect from people that they change. If I like someone, I like them for what they are, not for what they could or should be. Or for what I think I could make them to be, so that they fit my desires.

People trying to change me piss me off to no end. I like you, but I would like you more if you would be like this or that. You either like someone or you don't. You love someone, or you don't. You hate someone, or you don't.

Of course, people can change, if they decide that by themselves. But people have no right to expect others to change for them. And it makes me angry, that so many people think they could tell us how to behave, how to look, how to think. But what makes me even more angry is that so many people actually listen to these people.

Anyways, enough of that. I really need to study for my test in economics, I'm totally behind. I hate getting bad grades and I've got far too many in this subject already. Bad grades meaning C's. Yeah, I'm a stuck up bitch for thinking that a C is a bad grade. Too bad.

Soul: contemplative
Melody: Tegan and Sara - Walking with a Ghost

I love Angel. Can't help it.

So, my arm is healed. Wow...really all I have to say. My life is so eventfull. Oh and....I love Angel and Spike.

This sucks. My arm is in a cast and it hurts.

Yep, still obsessed.^^

Soul: amused
Melody: Gackt - Mizérable

Your Mind is Purple

Of all the mind types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world. And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don't always use it! The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

You Need Some Purple in Your Life

Purple will make you feel ambitious, independent, and creative. And with a little purple, you will project an aura of individuality. If you want more extravagance, you've got to get a little purple in your life! For extra punch: Combine purple with green or orange The downside of purple: It can evoke sad feelings The consequences of more purple in your life: You will feel an increase in your artistic abilities You will find balance in the most chaotic parts of your life You will feel calm and will be hard to disturb

Your Heart Is Purple

For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection. If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength. Your flirting style: Sincere Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive What you bring to relationships: Understanding

Soul: amused

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Unusual Deaths in 1983

* A diver on the byford dolphin oil exploration rig was violently dismembered and pulled through a narrowly opened hatch when the decompression chamber was accidentally opened, causing explosive decompression.
* Sergei chalibashvili, a professional diver, died after a diving accident during world university games. when he attempted a three-and-a-half reverse somersault in the tuck position, he smashed his head on the board and was knocked unconscious. he died after being in a coma for a week.

Natural disasters in 1983

* I-94 Derecho

People who died on July 14 (various years)

* 2007 - John Ferguson Sr, former professional hockey player
* 2005 - Cicely Saunders, English Nurse, physician, and writer
* 2003 - François-Albert Angers, French Canadian economist
* 2003 - Éva Janikovszky, Hungarian novelist
* 2003 - Tex Schramm, American football general manager
* 2002 - Joaquín Balaguer, President of the Dominican Republic
* 2000 - René Ríos Boettiger, Chilean cartoonist
* 2000 - William Roscoe Estep, American Baptist historian
* 1999 - Gar Samuelson, American drummer
* 1998 - Dick McDonald, American fast food entrepreneur
* 1996 - Jeff Krosnoff, CART driver
* 1994 - César Tovar, Venezuelan Major League Baseball player
* 1993 - Léo Ferré, French singer and songwriter
* 1989 - Frank Bell, British educator
* 1984 - Philippe Wynne, American musician
* 1984 - Ernest Tidyman, American writer
* 1975 - Madan Mohan, Hindi Film's Melodious Music director
* 1974 - Carl Spaatz, American Air Force general
* 1968 - Konstantin Georgiyevich Paustovsky, Russian writer
* 1967 - Tudor Arghezi, Romanian writer
* 1965 - Adlai Stevenson, U.S. Presidential candidate
* 1954 - Jacinto Benavente, Spanish writer, Nobel Prize laureate
* 1939 - Alphonse Mucha, Czech painter, decorative artist
* 1917 - Octave Lapize, French cyclist
* 1910 - Marius Petipa, French dancer and choreographer
* 1907 - William Henry Perkin, English chemist and inventor
* 1904 - Paul Kruger, Boer resistance leader
* 1887 - Alfred Krupp, German munitions manufacturer
* 1881 - Billy the Kid, American outlaw (b. 1859?)
* 1876 - Thomas Hazlehurst, English Methodist chapel builder
* 1850 - August Neander, German theologian
* 1834 - Edmond Charles Genêt, French ambassador to the United States during the French Revolution
* 1827 - Augustin-Jean Fresnel, French physicist
* 1817 - Anne Louise Germaine de Staël, Swiss author
* 1790 - Ernst Gideon Freiherr von Laudon, Austrian field marshal
* 1789 - Bernard-René de Launay, governor of the Bastille, murdered during the Storming of the Bastille (b.1740)
* 1789 - Jacques de Flesselles, French provost (assassinated)
* 1780 - Charles Batteux, French philosopher
* 1774 - James O'Hara, 2nd Baron Tyrawley and Kilmaine, British field marshal
* 1766 - František Maxmilián Kaňka, Czech architect
* 1742 - Richard Bentley, English classical scholar
* 1723 - Claude Fleury, French historian
* 1671 - Méric Casaubon, English classical scholar
* 1614 - Camillus de Lellis, Italian saint
* 1575 - Richard Taverner, English Bible translator
* 1370 - Duke William of Austria
* 1274 - Saint Bonaventure
* 1270 - Boniface of Savoy, Archbishop of Canterbury
* 1223 - King Philip II of France
* 937 - Arnulf, Duke of Bavaria
* 664 - Deusdedit of Canterbury, Archbishop of Canterbury