shemara

Current Mood: lazy
Current Music: Dango Daikazoku

Well I’ve been seeing this one thing every now and then where people will take a certain number of people and write about them but they won’t mention their names.  I didn’t think I would ever do this just cause I’m not good with talking about people, but after having several things cross my mind last night I decided I wanted to give it a try (even though every person on my list probably doesn’t read my LJ, but that’s ok).  Also, there will only be 5 people on here, but that’s also because besides family there are only 5 people that I really know well enough to say anything about.  So yeah . . . I’m going to try this out.

1. You’re a good friend but you can be annoying at times.  I enjoy your company most of the time but there are a few things that you could work on.  You’ve also tried really hard but it just never worked.  You were never open enough for it to work.  You always hide things behind a smile and act like you’re in a good mood.  You’re like me in a way but where I just don’t show emotion you hide all your different emotions behind that smile and happy attitude.  You might have had a chance if you would have just opened up and not hid so much.  Learn to show when you’re upset and stop holding it inside.  It’s ok to get upset sometimes.
You also need to learn how to act around girls.  You’re cluelessness around them just makes me laugh sometimes.  Just realize that some of your actions aren’t the best when it comes to how girls feel.
Also, don’t test people just to see what their reactions will be.  Sometimes doing this can have more of a lasting effect then you think it will, and it’s defiantly not always a good effect.

2.  You’re a fun and interesting person.  The way you watch and read people frightens me sometimes but at the same time intrigues me.  You’ll probably go far with your life but first you’re going to have to get out from under your parents’ wings.  Find a good job so you can pull away from them because I feel that they are holding you back.  You’re an adult now so they shouldn’t have so much control of what you do.
Also stop worrying about you-know-who.  True you always fight but that’s just how it is.  I feel the more you keep trying to be friends the more there will just be strife between you.  Instead just stay calm when you’re around him, ignore him if you have to.  He does have to grow up at some point, and hopefully that point will be sometime soon.
And on a side note; just because it always makes me laugh.  You are the only person that I can talk to more in person then online.  Of course you already knew this, but I wanted to state it again.

3. You know more secrets about me then anyone else.  I’m not sure if there is anything hidden from you anymore.  But that’s ok, we always need someone that we can confide anything to, and that’s you for me.
Keep drawing.  You’re really good at it, especially perspective and coloring.  You’re perspective skills always make me jealous, but then again straight lines hate me.
Also remember that you don’t have to find someone now.  High school is just a faze of life and not everyone, actually a very small percent, ever find who they truly belong with.  Usually high school relationships don’t make it past the first year after graduation.  I know that’s a sad thought, but just remember it.

4. You’re the only person that I could ever RP with, everyone else I can never open up enough.  You’re one of the only ones that I would ever drop everything and just sketch a picture to make you feel better.  Though you can be loud at times, which is ok (I seem to attract those sort of people), it just makes you more interesting.
It’s funny how much on the same wave level we are.  You’re the only one who thinks so close to the way I do sometimes and it makes the conversations exciting and fun.  You’re also the only one who has given me so many nicknames, and ones that match your own as well.  It’s really fun to pick one of those nicknames and then act like the two of them would act.
Also, never stop writing.  You’re really good at it and if you keep it up you might be able to get somewhere with it one day.  I enjoy reading all of your stories and I’m sure others will too.

5. True, I haven’t even seen you in over a year, but I still consider you a close friend.  You were the first one to show me things that quickly changed my life forever.  You made me start seeing things in a different way, which made middle school and the beginning of high school a little rough to get through, but I got through them non the less.
Along with that you were the one who first got me really drawing.  I had been drawing pretty much my whole life but it wasn’t until I saw your artwork that I really started to branch out in what I drew.  Thanks to that I am a lot better drawer today.
I hope to see you again soon.  Not seeing you in so long and not getting to barely ever talk to you brings a sad feeling.  So the next time you’re in town or on the computer I hope we can hang out or talk more.