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Oct. 12th, 2008 @ 12:38 am More Than A Footnote
Current Location: Morningstar Hall
My disposition: tired
My tunes: Melissa Etheridge -- Scarecrow
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It's been ten years since Matthew Shepard died of injuries sustained in an unspeakably vicious attack. Ten years.

His story deserves to be remembered as more than just a footnote. It is a warning. Not against homosexuality, or against being open about one's sexual orientation, no. It is a warning against what we could become if we allow bigotry and hate to dwell in our midst without comment, without challenge.

The above video clip is a dramatization of Dennis Shepard's statement to the jury at the trial of his son's killers. The full transcript of the actual statement can be read here. It's very difficult to read, but it's really something.

The Matthew Shepard Foundation.

Do not tolerate hate and injustice. Refuse it. Fight it. Remember.
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[info]naamah_darling
Oct. 11th, 2008 @ 05:03 pm Cock Pics
( You are about to view content that may only be appropriate for adults. )
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[info]lou_weed, posting in [info]amateur_nudes
Oct. 11th, 2008 @ 09:30 pm (no subject)
ДОБРО ПОЖАЛОВАТЬ В НОВОЕ СООБЩЕСТВО "ТОЛЬКО ГОЛЫЕ ПАРНИ"
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[info]mykonos, posting in [info]nakedchicks
Oct. 11th, 2008 @ 03:56 am Love.
Current Location: Morningstar Hall
My disposition: sleepy
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Oh, you have all probably seen the news, but I want to celebrate it here:

Connecticut High Court Grants Marriage Rights for Same-Sex Couples

That link includes a wonderful tearjerking video of the plaintiffs hearing about the ruling, crying on one another, and then proposing to each other. Beautiful.

Also beautiful is this:


It's an ad calling for the defeat of Proposition 8 in California. Quoting the Bible really doesn't impress me, but this is done very well, and with one of the few passages that has ever really touched me. (And I know it's venal of me, but the boy on the right at 2:06 is completely dreamy-adorable awww!)

I have hope. Hope is not a certain thing, that's why it's hope, and not knowledge. But I hope that this is a thing I will see made right in my lifetime. Bigotry, discrimination, hate, lies, it won't end, but perhaps I will live to hear, in person, a man refer to "my husband," a woman to "my wife."

People very occasionally ask why I even care, when I'm straight* and married. Why does it matter to me? I don't personally gain anything by supporting the right of someone else to get married. It's supposedly not my problem.

I can only ask, what do the enemies of equal marriage fear they will lose?

I gain nothing, but I lose nothing. Love is love. Love is sacred in itself, it is already sacred. Legality, the sanction of the law, these mean nothing on a moral level, they add no weight, when it has already been made holy and when all its weight and gravity has already been born. In fact, I feel like I lose something when others are unjustly deprived of rights which I have, but did nothing to earn.

Those who object on the basis of God's imaginary and fallible law reveal themselves as liars, cowards, and selfish fools, that they would deny the petty material protections afforded by law on the basis of a love they believe is misplaced or wrong. If their god is so loving, a god of love, if they truly believe in this fairy tale, why would they disown any love, when to do so is to spit in the face of their own god and all that he supposedly stands for?

It is hard for me to understand how anyone who has ever been in love could possibly censure or condemn anyone else's love simply for existing. It is hard for me to understand how anyone could believe that love of any kind, can possibly soil the institution of marriage, whether it's religious, social, or legal. Love is the most transcendent thing we can experience in this life, and romantic love is only a very small part of that spectrum.

In fact, I don't understand why they need to bring their god into it at all. Belief in a deity is not necessary for love, is not necessary to defend it against those who would destroy it, is not necessary to believe in a god in order to wish the best for your fellow humans. I don't understand why some people insist that it is. I don't understand why people don't understand that if there is no god, if love is just a human thing and nothing more, that makes it no less precious and no less meaningful.

All of this is rhetorical, of course. I neither need nor want explanations of their flawed logic. It is enough to say that they are wrong factually, legally, and morally. (I have very seldom met anyone I understand less than, and anyone less loving, than the religious fanatic.)

It is enough to celebrate, today, a small step. It is enough to hope, today, for many more.

* I'm not that straight, though a lot of people don't really seem to think about that when asking me silly questions.
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[info]naamah_darling
Oct. 11th, 2008 @ 04:22 am Fancy.
I got my Vabbian armor set finally.



That character is definitely broke now..

Double faction for AB this weekend! (double the transfer, apparently)
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[info]cometdust, posting in [info]guildwars
Oct. 10th, 2008 @ 03:31 pm (no subject)
While i'm thinking about it after reading the last post... why do people always post a long story and all kinds of previous guild drama when it comes to recruiting for guilds?


I think more people should go on the idea that less is more.


Yeah... so how about that sweet faction weekend thats going on? I'm gonna be a Sentinel of the Kurzicks right away. :D
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[info]ophidic, posting in [info]guildwars
Oct. 10th, 2008 @ 12:29 am [info]xweb2
My disposition: predatory
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[info]my_happy_places, posting in [info]nakedchicks
Oct. 9th, 2008 @ 10:45 pm Hef's new twins
My disposition: optimistic


Details:
http://fleshbot.com/5061320/hugh-hefner-trades-girls-next-door-for-live+in-19+year+old-twins
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[info]my_happy_places, posting in [info]nakedchicks
Oct. 9th, 2008 @ 09:42 pm Brief SPN 4x04 reaction (SPOILERY)
Brief SPN 4x04 reaction (SPOILERY) under the cut )
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[info]ifyouweremine
Oct. 9th, 2008 @ 11:09 am selling copies of my genesis layout magazine?
My disposition: curious
My tunes: david bowie - under pressure
so i was thinking while i'm trying to become gainfully employed again i might try to sell autographed copies of my Genesis magazine spread that is the *only* magazine shoot i've ever done (and probably the only one i ever will do). what do you think the likelihood of me getting $50/signed copy is? there are only 50 left.

a fairly NWS picture from the shoot )
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[info]tassypink
Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 11:54 pm Isabella and Chrissy



ISABELLA AND CHRISSY

Here is a GALLERY featuring two friends named Isabella and Chrissy.
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[info]montbella, posting in [info]nakedchicks
Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 04:08 pm Jump Rope for Abortion?
My disposition: tired
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Hello Pro-lifers,

I was wondering if someone could help me... Does the American Heart Association donate to Planned Parenthood? I was convinced that some of the money from the Jump Rope for Heart actually goes to PP. I can't find that anywhere on the Internet, but I was so sure. Does anyone have any information / know where I could go to find this information? The American Heart Association puts on Jump Rope for Heart in schools all over the place.

Thanks for the help!
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[info]shaquib, posting in [info]prolife
Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 02:16 pm Black Cats
Current Location: Morningstar Hall
My disposition: awake
My tunes: Shriekback -- Coelocanth
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Yes, yes, one more, and then I will move on to other things, like chewing off my leg.

Yesterday's kitty, Hecate, has proved to be a boy kitty. This does not affect his adoptability in any way, except that, you know, he has nards that will have to come off at some point. Keep the word circulating.

And while you're at it, you might remind people of the following, from [info]ishottheserif:

for the northern hemisphere, samhain -- more widely known as halloween -- is the end of this month. please, for the love of all things Holy, if you have a black cat -- do your best to curtail your cat's outdoor activities during that week, and a few days after. there are still people out there who will harm these innocent creatures during this time of year simply because of the color of their fur, due to certain beliefs about black cats.

in my lifetime, i have had a few black cats leave the house as normal during this time of year, as samhain draws close.... and never come home again. protect your pet and (arguably) the cutest member of your family - keep your black cat indoors around samhain.

also, please be aware that many animal shelters WILL NOT let anyone adopt a black cat during the week of (and in some cases also the week after) samhain.

in memory of Mystery


That's good advice, there, though I am sad that it's hard-learned. Cat-hating, superstitious jackoffs: they're out therem folks. World is full of 'em.

Also, I want to direct your attention to a Seattle kitty who also needs a home, and she is also black! Via [info]cmpriest, who also knows the virtues of awesome black cats:

Billie was surrendered when her owners got a divorce, and she’s unlikely to land a speedy placement because her family returned her with a complaint of litterbox issues. (Though after a few days in the shelter it became apparent that Billie’s “litterbox issues” really amounted to nothing more than a preference for a very clean litterbox.)

Here’s what her listing reads: “Billie and her siblings were rescued as feral kittens several years ago. All were tamed and adopted. Mom was spayed. Billie was recently returned to us because she was urinating in the house and her parents were divorcing. Billie has made another visit to the vet to see if we can clear up her urinary tract infection. Billie is staying at Next to Nature in the West Seattle Junction. You can visit her there. Please email mehud7@aol.com for more information on this beautiful girl.”

Anyway, this pretty, blue-black cat — who reportedly bears some resemblance to my own feline overlord — is available at 4543 California Avenue SW, down the block from Easy Street Records in West Seattle. She probably needs to be an only pet in an adults-only household, but she’ll make a most excellent companion for someone out there.

So if you’ve got room in your life and in your home, and you’re within range of Next to Nature, please consider taking a look at this poor darling. Her adoption is processed through the Friends of the Animals Foundation. It costs $100 and includes spaying or neutering, testing for FIV/FeLv, first vaccine(s), flea treatment, cat carrier, collar and ID tag, and a certificate for first vet exam.


So, you know, if you're in the Northwest, or have friends up there, there's two black cats who I am sure would be more than happy to come and match your decor. They're black, they match everything!
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[info]naamah_darling
Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 12:23 pm if ever there needed to be further proof I have issues
Current Location: 94306
My disposition: crazy
My tunes: Stargate SG·1
This is Miss ConductMiss·Conduct



for whatever reason when I think about her I tend to see this )
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[info]my_happy_places, posting in [info]nakedchicks
Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 12:21 pm $1000 Of Stock

$1000 Of Stock
Originally uploaded by sandossu
i think this sums things up pretty accurately. bwahaha.
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[info]tassypink
Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 05:02 am Ugh.
Current Location: Morningstar Hall
My disposition: tired
My tunes: Collide -- Tempted
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I'm hungry with no desire to eat, tired with no desire to sleep.

Picked out colors for the main room in the new house this evening, and in the next couple of days I will be getting paint samples so I can test my theories on an experimental area of wall. The painting starts in earnest this weekend, and I expect it to be done in about a week.

I am not-so-secretly wigged out by the pressure of being the one who has to pick this stuff out. Sargon has a really good eye for color – better than I think he thinks – but he doesn't picture things in his head the way I do, so it's hard for him to visualize what I'm talking about when I describe things. Nothing on him, it's tough even for me to do it. But it's up to me to do it, and to get it right, because our resources of energy are finite. We aren't going to want to do this after we move in, I know this about us.

Earlier, I ran across a bit of pithy advice I got from one of my own alter-egos: "It's either risk or drudgery, Darling. Life's a cocksucker like that."

Thanks, Nick. Isn't it just? And sometimes it's both at once.

To offset my griping, some fun links.


Punk rock turtle!
This guy is so cute. It's a turtle with algae growing on his head. [info]ursulav needs to see him.

John McCain uses the song "Barracuda" in his campaign. Heart tells McCain to fuck off. This is not real, it's a spoof, but it's fucking hilarious.

The picture that won the internets. Geeks killed Cookie Monster. Sexy, sexy geeks.

Dogs in an elk. The story of one woman whose dogs climbed into an elk carcass . . . and wouldn't come out again. I was almost in tears at the mental imagery.

Custom-engraved moleskine journals. Really cool. I want one.

I want one of these, too. It's a miniature skeleton. I would totally corpsify it to make it look like a dead, preserved fairy.

And on that note, I'm for bed, and a better tomorrow. Cheers!
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[info]naamah_darling
Oct. 8th, 2008 @ 02:05 am Awesome Halloween Cat Seeks Awesome Owner in Portland, OR
Current Location: Morningstar Hall
My disposition: AWWW!
My tunes: Jill Tracy -- Extraordinary
ETA: Kitty is, in fact, a boy kitty. So, we can't call him Hecate. Widdershins, maybe?

Hi, everyone. Meet Hecate. She's an awesome Halloween-themed kitty who appeared in the Portland, Oregon area in the middle of a coyote and owl-haunted field, and who needs a spooky-cool -- and hostile wildlife-free -- home in which to kick it.

HecateKitty3

I was all prepared to write some gripping text to soften you up for this, but thankfully, my work has been done for me by the wonderful [info]snowcoma. So, it's over to her for the tale:


I found Hecate in the middle of a field a little after midnight. I was in the car with my roommate, going on a grocery run, when I spotted an owl perched on a wire right by the road. Being an avid birder and a complete nutcase, I flailed and squealed and Tim loyally turned the car around just in time for us to see the owl swoop down over the field and disappear from sight. I scrambled out of the car with my dinky pocket flashlight, and began tromping through the mud in the direction where I'd first sighted the owl.

Suddenly I noticed a little black shape hunkered low to the ground off to my left. A sweep of the flashlight revealed that not only was the shape not a shadow, it was staring at me with orange eyes. "KITTY!" I declared, completely ruining the spookiness. She stayed low and still as I approached, and skittered away from my hand at first, until a lucky lunge on my part landed my scritchy-fingers behind her ears. Suddenly, we were old friends, and she started to follow me across the field, tail held high. Every time either Tim or I stopped, she was there, winding around our ankles and purring loudly.

Tim picked her up, and as we both petted her more thoroughly, I noticed how thin she was, and that her fur was full of burrs. Spurred on by a hooting across the street from the field, I crossed to the sidewalk, and spied one of the nearby residents. I asked if she was his cat, and he informed me that she was no ones cat, but that his daughter put food out for her sometimes. I walked back to the car, my mood sinking as I knew what this meant. She wasn't a beloved pet out for a midnight stroll, she was just another one of the millions of strays that are left to die alone by the people that should rightly be cherishing them.

She followed us right up to the car. I started to cry, because I knew I couldn't give her a home. I turned to Tim, who was murmuring consolations. "What we're trying to tell ourselves right now, that someone else will come along and do something, is what everyone else says when they walk away. There is no one else. Either it's us, or it's nobody."

We drove to the store, no longer thinking about food. We'd made up our minds. Emerging with disposable litterboxes, canned food, flea shampoo, and the few groceries that we remembered, we drove back to the field. I wasn't even done calling "Here, kitty!" when she ran out of the bushes right by where our car had been parked before. I put her in my lap, and we drove home.

Now, pertinent cat stats! She's a young female longhair, I haven't been able to determine if she's spayed yet. She's been given worm medication since she got here, and I'll be flea-bathing her ASAP, though she doesn't have a noticable infestation. She is litter trained.

She is very affectionate, and she never stops purring when humans are in the room. She's playful without being aggressive. She eats with gusto and doesn't seem to have a problem digesting wet or dry food. And best of all, she sucks her paw like a thumb. She takes her front paws, pulls a back paw to her mouth, and suckles one of her toe pads while kneading the air with her front paws and purring. It is more adorable than baby Jesus, I swear.


Halloween cat! )

HecatePumpkinEyes
She is so gorgeous, I swear, and she sounds so incredibly friendly that I'm getting a contact snuggle-high just from reading about her. I am totally smitten, and want to just smorsh her in my arms and snorgle her all over. I love black cats, and those bright pumpkin-colored eyes are just amazing. You couldn't ask for a more wickedly wonderful kitty.

We need to find her a home, because she's sort of being kept in [info]snowcoma's bathroom, and the landlord doesn't know and would probably not be overly pleased by this. I'm a big believer that doing the right thing shouldn't get the person doing it into trouble, so I'd like to see this furry littl gal find someone who can give her a permanent home real soon here.

So, all y'all Portlanders who were lamenting that you couldn't take in the teeny-weeny keeton, maybe you or one of your friends would like an incredibly friendly Halloween kitty to greet trick-or-treaters and provide year-round furry awesome? I have a really strong and serendipitous feeling she's sort of meant for one of you. I'd like to know who that is, because I get a little weirded out when I get these feelings, and it's a little embarrassing to be wrong.

I would so be begging to keep her myself if I were anywhere near there. I mean, the cat sucks on her back foot like a thumb. Do I need to explain to you how badly that makes me want to explode with delight, and I haven't even seen it?

Spread the word, eh? And if you know any good Portland communities to which [info]snowcoma could crosspost, please mention them!

You can reach [info]snowcoma either via LJ or via email at snowcoma@gmail.com.
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[info]naamah_darling
Oct. 7th, 2008 @ 05:20 pm imbibing.
My disposition: salvaging the day
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i failed to mention that i quit drinking 8 days ago in my last post. with a projected depression in the economy, my own depression in regards to lack of work and how it stresses my personal relationship(s), not to mention how much money it ends up costing - i quit. unless you know someone who's hiring a professional alcoholic i'm on the wagon. wish me luck!

damn, i'm going to miss red wine at my birthday dinner.
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[info]tassypink
Oct. 7th, 2008 @ 02:46 pm it's official, i'm broke.
My disposition: cranky
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i checked my bank balance yesterday thinking i had more money than i do - and low and behold i'm overdrawn by something like $400 (including the 10 $33 overdraft charges which basically covers it). what's worse is that no one will cash a personal check my friend wrote me to help me out because it's not a payroll check - and if i put it in the bank it'll just get swallowed and i'll only have a balance of say, -$200 instead.

i had to get a prepaid phone when i lost my job at tantus because i gave up my old phone since they supplied us with shiny new iPhones. i still had a $60 check from them that i could cash at a check cashing place today, but that left me with $58 in cash when i need $70 to cover the phone. fucking sweet.

this economy isn't anywhere close to turning around, not for another year or so at least. it's scary...and definitely the most uncertain time i've seen in the market that i can remember (at least since i was old enough to comprehend it all). i've blasted my resume to every job i can find and i've applied for jobs that require no experience. my other coworker who was let go moved back home and is escorting. i'm thinking about stripping. oh, i'm sorry, dancing. but with my anxiety issues, especially relating to icky men that i don't know touching me, i'm not sure that's the best thing for me to do.

i wanted out of my old industry but it looks like i may have to go back in.

more rant back here )
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[info]tassypink
Oct. 6th, 2008 @ 11:33 pm (no subject)
I'm sure we've all seen this one quite a few times: "Right to lifers only care about babies in the womb. They could care less about them after they're born." I know it's a wrong statement, but what's the best response to it?
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[info]buffyangellvr23, posting in [info]prolife