Date: 2007-05-14 10:44 Subject: When people die, and we can't feel Security: Public Mood: contemplative Music: Explosions in the Sky - Your Hand in Mine Tags: i love old men!, rl, work

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5 months since I last posted? So this isn't a proper comeback thing. But thought I'd just drop by to say hi to whoever is still around on this site. I didn't even thank people whose Christmas cards I received. I hope mine got over?

It's crazy how the older you get get, the faster time just slips a-fucking-way. Honestly, I lack the energy to make my LJ what it was. It is already past 3 BLOODY YEARS OLD. DAMN, it's been awhile. Which puts a record of 30 entries per year? Sad, I know. Some people have as many in a month. Grandfather's 2-year death anniversary recently. Time is so scary.

( Excuses time. )

Been driving in friend's car again, after a break of a couple of years. Realize I can't do the same with motorbikes - sent one into the mud. But I'm in one piece, so all's good!

Went to Batam, Indonesia for a mission trip. Was nice to get away, despite how short the trip was. Visited homes, orphanage and the church which all went by really peacefully. Relaxing. Also volunteering pretty regularly, particulary with recovered Mental illness patients.

Uh, relationship life is very complicated. I have my foot in 3 boats, all of whom I really don't deserve. Think sooner or later they/I will walk away, but for now, I hope I don't mess up because it's getting complicated. Will blab on in detail in a f-locked post if I have the time.

I drew lesbian porn (sort of), but gave it to a friend who promised he would find me a hot babe. (Which he did. But if I went out with her again, either I'd kill her or shave my head. Get thee to a nunnery!)

Phantom of the Opera was SO BRILLIANT. Damn, I loved it to bits. Was supposed to go again with my girlfriend but the only $120 tickets left were circle 2 and above, so we've decided on something else. Still, I've booked tickets to see King Lear because IAN MCKELLEN IS COMING TO SINGAPORE OMG I COULD DIE. Hot, hot, hot old man! YAY!~

On another note, can't give a shit about Harry Potter anymore, don't even think I'll bother to read book 7, somehow. Am I leaving fandom for good? Don't think so, but will probably be gone for a really long long time. ETA: But still, thank you for fic, Kath! ♥

It's easy and despairing to see the world as it is. Would it be better seeing it as it could be? As much as the Millennium Campaign is very noble and sweet, I think it works just about as much as the "One" campaign. NOT GONNA HAPPEN, SRY. Linkin Park's new "What I've Done" video is a sweet attempt though.

I love how my entries have no link AT ALL.

Happy Mother's Day, all mums. :)

Oh by the way deleted anyone who deleted me because I was dead. No hard feelings.

Shadafakup

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Date: 2006-11-25 23:22 Subject: BOOKS! And Christmas stuff Security: Public Mood: high Tags: festivities, polls

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I am a happy person. YES, it's not a typo.

Reason 1: Prison Break.
LOVE that series. Do I have to repeat it is fantastic? It scared me half to death and ate my heart out. Michael. T-bag. Nick. LJ. HOMG. And my family just finished marathoning season1 with me. Time to download S2! Thank you fluffyllama!

Reason 2: Borders 40% discount. (Insiders working for you are always GOOD GOOD GOOD things. I'm sorry I was told too last minute to take bulk orders.)
It's been a LONG time since I've spent MONEH, but this felt so good. $200+ worth of books. OH MY YESSSSSS. Books books books! And I still want more!

So since I'm feeling generous and high and nice (hahaha, never thought you'd ever live through the horror of seeing me use such terms on myself, did you?), for the first time in this journal history: CHRISTMAS CARDS!

Poll #875070 Historical Poll! Um. Christmas. Yeah.
Open to: Friends, detailed results viewable to: None

Hi, I'd love to have a card, and my name is:

My address, separated by commas, therefore is:

I have a prompt, but I accept the fact you might not include it due to inspiration "issues". But it's ok, since you've already offered a pre-apology:

I feel like being a nice person, and will send something back. ♥ Here is my email for you to send your home add to:

I can verfiy all information I have provided is true and am assured it will be kept confidential:

Not obligated to send me something back, I promise. And a few RL people will be getting stuff anyway. Yays.

Also, regarding prev post. Thank you for the pity-comments (heh), as well as the rec to hp_art_daily, whoever you are. (LOLZ, thank you.) But about painting, my patience and skill added up together is about as long as A-Z on the keyboard, so, loads of incomplete stuff.

ETA: And hd_prophet? What? I thought it was like ... Who are you people? ♥♥♥

I'll be gone for a short holiday, so I hope I'll get to send things out on time, and hope it won't turn out too shitty, cause I'm really bad at these things.

( These may be useful, or if you're feeling clicky. )Happy Birthday to inviere! As well as a belated happy birthday to dea_liberty! :)


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Date: 2006-11-18 14:25 Subject: Fandom (OMG WUT), Art: Harry/Draco - Absence of Presence, PG Security: Public Mood: pensive Music: The Faint - Erection Tags: art, fandom, harry potter, harry/draco

*Fandom

Hello.

I can't believe myself, but ..

Happy Birthday, welcome back, cheer up and thank you for being around anemonesque! ♥

Fandom: Harry Potter (LOLZ. It's been 2 years! And first not-slacker art?)
Pairing: Draco/Harry
Rating/Warnings: PG

( Absence of Presence )

It was supposed to be erm, a cheer-up picture, but the characters grew rebellious streaks and refused to look anything close. Harry wanted to look miserable, and Draco wanted to have a bad dream, so here. Harry can't help himself undressing and tries to make Draco more comfortable. But, he couldn't stop himself and he's pathetically touching Draco's hair. HEH.

Ahahah, my mom asked me what's with me and the "odd themes", following some other picture she said looked really lesbian-y. First time I'm actually doing digital colouring seriously, and my mom said I was lacking. Sigh.

AM PAINTING!

As in, with proper paints! Mom wants me to for anger therapy. Cheaper than counseling! So, picking it up again after 2 years. It's fun, I've always enjoyed it though I'm not particularly good at it, like everything else in my life. But I feel like finishing this:

( Mutated cubism )

My art scanner really really sucks. That was started 2 years ago and has been collecting dust! It originated from ( this. )

You know how people normally paint bowls of fruit, but I'm like, wut, who needs more of those. Then I realized nobody wants to see some glass mug and oranges either. :<

In other news:

Jerusalem and gay rights! HOMG it's like JERUSALEM. Which is particularly interesting.

My phone just died. Saddest thing ever. Someone buy me a new phone?

George Clooney's the second sexiest man alive twice. ;p

REALLY REALLY WEIRD new sex toy. Seriously a WTFF moment.

So. Anyway. <3 anemonesque (just because) and starsofnite for always waking me up, softplaces for your wonderful ;p encouragement, and blacklightsout and bluejaye7 and hypersensitive_, ok I should stop now. Happy belated to novembersnow! :)

ETA: In case no one sees it, Xinnie is wonderful at drawing Draco in a skirt.


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Date: 2006-11-05 12:32 Subject: Bittersweet Migraine Security: Public Mood: touched Music: Tony Vincent & WWRY Cast - Bohemian Rhapsody Tags: family

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Remember, remember the 5th of November!

I just re-watched V for Vendetta. Love that movie. Bittersweet ending are my favourites, and I think the ending was beautifully done. So anyway, this obviously means I'm not studying, but I bring you some study tips!

( HowToStudy.Com )
Created by Lydia

I am completely undeserving of how nice my sisters are. They're possibly the sweetest things ever. My family is after all the only reason why I'm not rotting in some Reform Training Centre right now.

And Hannah's so damn cute. She asked me to do something on Neopets for her, getting this sidebar that is not yellow, and I did because I wanted to. Later, she asked me if I got mine, I said, "No, because you can only do it for one account." And she somehow felt so guilty, so ( she did one on paper for me. ) So bloody adorable she is.

Anyway, good luck for exams to the rest of you! (I think this is the Singaporeans filter) Or, OR you could just crash and burn with me. :)

ETA: This is precisely why I love the Internet AND Xinnie-sue. Brad Pitt and Edward Norton singing "Penis".

Shadafakup

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Date: 2006-10-11 15:09 Subject: You are only as good as your last fight. Security: Public Mood: recumbent Tags: fights, motorbikes, rl, world issues

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No, I'm not. But I think I might want to be. I ought to be. Plus the site is kuul like pwhoa.
Running the 10km mini-marathon thing in Dec though.

My godaunt and godsis brought me out to have a one month belated birthday lunch; to celebrate another uncle's birthday, with people old enough to be my grandparents. ;) I think hanging around with "the older generation" is becoming a trend. Pleasant nonetheless - I'd very much rather this than getting pissed at some "uptown" club.

Got into 2 fights recently. Thankfully, no one has seen me, or I'll have no friends. Somehow my family have developed some kind of tolerance drug. But, my mom thinks I may actually kill someday if I don't control myself. It's one thing when the leash around my neck doesn't appear to be there. It's another when my mom actually says it with a serious face. But, I've found out that lighters are good weapons against street psychos as long as you stick them up the right places. Still, my best advice is - run when you can.

Just a thought: blood smells ok, pus stinks.

It's better now but oh bloody haze. Sometimes I couldn't even see the trees across the road at night. Can't imagine how bad KL must be. Or Jakarta, which has about a grand total of 5 days a year where the air levels are actually healthy. I loathe the Indonesian government and their ineffectiveness. Loved what the Greenpeace activists did, (blow smoke at the minister,) but I think they should take it a step further. The government rates their effectiveness against preventing slash-and-burn farming forest fires as a FOUR out of ten. RIDICULOUS. I'm not even sure they deserve a 0.5. And they say they've spent "thousands of dollars" and did "whatever they can". BULLSHIT. Economic loss for neighbouring countries can reach 14-fucking-BILLION. Inefficient, corrupt, ass-brained fucktards.

That aside, I've booked tickets to see the PHANTOM OF THE OPERA. Oh yes, yes, yes. Oh what'll I do without credit cards. ;p So awesome. Going to watch two dance performances in the next week as well. YAYES.

Anyway, point of this post - I have received a biiig piece of news. So, am probably going to practise a self-imposed computer quarantine to study. ACED my studies with minimal studying. No actually. A, C, E, D are my actually grades. May try to study in the near future, because people only see you as good as your last fight. You probably won't miss my one-month or so disappearance since I do this all the time. Apologies for the birthdays I'm going to be missing, though.

Oh. Yeah. I forgot. My parents may reconsider my Harley Davison policy ever since an acquaintance recently kicked the bucket in a motor-accident. The tragic thing was that it was a week after he got his bike.

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Date: 2006-08-24 23:38 Subject: Energy precedes matter? I'm Invincible! Security: Public Mood: enthralled Music: Blessid Union Of Souls - Hold Her Closer Tags: amusement, art, birthdays, polls

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I am UNSTOPPABLE! GODLIKE! I can bleed for 5 days without dying. Also, because I can switch to "Plus" just for the heck of it. FILL POLL IN. THX.

Poll #805583 Energy preceeds matter?
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

If there was a body I could feel/love.

If Atlas holds up the world, who holds up Atlas?

Did the chicken or the egg com first?

Did you read about the man with 2 fully functioning penis?

Who's your Jesus Christ?

Now that the randomness is over and done with.

Happy Birthday seidolon! <33333 ( Here lies a slut, at your complete service. Worksafe. )

If not for Li, who thinks I can draw, I won't have all the picture references he's tossing my way. There're probably a hundred things wrong with the picture, but, she's a slut! Therefore, excused. ;p Sorry Em, it's the only thing I could pull out of my ass for the moment.

Also, Happy belated to gssq, and instigation3089 for the 29th, if you're still around. :)

On other notes, I've booked tickets to two of the Esplanade centerstage dance performances in Oct! XD But, does anyone know how to get good discounts? Working there? I want my mum to come along, but she says its too expensive.

Now I've got to run, so reply to all other comments, later!


Shadafakup

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Date: 2006-07-30 22:12 Subject: Yo, flist. We're gathered here for gay pr0nage and movies. Security: Public Mood: distressed Music: Garbage - Sex is Not the Enemy Tags: chinese serials/movies, fandom, gay pr0n, harry potter, movies, world issues, wtf

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"Yo, Blair."

Don't you just love Bush's greetings? S1ru5ly. I'd talk more about how I feel about what's going on in the world now, but it's a lot, and slightly depressing.

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In the light of, uhm, certain questionable content my sister seems to be bringing home from school sources. I can't believe 10 year olds are writing like .. ( Gay pr0n, possible explicit content, tread with caution, Duh. )I don't know what disturbs me more. My whole family excluding my dad reading all of this and not having much reaction, or the fact that she is 10 and writes better than A LOT of people you find on the net. emmagrant01 has a good example; that is to say she writes better than people who are paid to do so. There's more, including bloodplay and lustrous trysts in numerous fandoms which is just .. well ... *ahem* Needless to say I'm speechless.

What are kids doing in school these days, really. And just how much do they know, I wonder. Like starsofnite commented how she'd seen a review that went along the lines of "All the good authors these days are getting younger". I know you can't protect them, but won't you still feel odd reading pr0n written by 10-11 year olds, who are supposedly still in the "innocent" stage of their lives? Blame it on the great proliferation of writing on the Internet, or the popularity of fanfiction (in part caused by the Harry Potter craze), or perhaps even society's values nowadays. It's not just Singapore, I'm sure.

What're your thoughts?

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I've been watching a lot of television lately, and even following drama serials! Still, I have always been really fond of Return of the Condor Heroes 1983 (Andy Lau & Idy) and RoCH 1994 (Louis Koo & Carmen Lee ♥). I think I had a crush on both Yang Guos before, because he is such an adorable character, and from then on, I think I've enjoyed Andy Lau and Louis Koo movies more than I should.

Aside from taking a guilty pleasue in following serials like Gateaux Affairs, To Get Unstuck in Time, Healing Hands and I forgot what else, I've watched Chinese movies too. (Now you see why I'm so busy, huh. So not working.)

How can anyone not enjoy Throw Down (柔道龙虎榜), which was directed by Johnnie To, with it's ( adorable scenes. )Plus they had a really cute scene with a 3 person piggyback to free a balloon. :) Now I'm just waiting to watch Election, which is on Triad Warfare.

I don't think I go to talk about Perhaps Love (如果 爱), directed by Peter Chan Ho-sun, when I watched it first. ( Yes I thought it was beautiful. ) Oh, and Jacky Cheung has a really unique voice, and I absolutely love the piece 你是爱我的. LISTEN! It's heartbreaking.

K, later I'll be on more Stephen Chow crack. :p RECOMMEND me good Chinese/HK movies. It's even better if you have links or videos.

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And oh ( I MUST SPEAK OF THE GREAT ASDHJKFLDSF )WAH. I MEAN. Think of all the things you could DO to Johnny Depp if YOU WERE ALONE IN A WASHROOM WITH HIM. And you ran away.

I want to watch "The Beat My Heart Skipped" but it's about PIANO and CLASSICAL music and IDENTITY and no one will ever want to watch it with me. Plus, I just broke up today, so.. That leaves little options.

Anyway, about Daniel Radcliffe required to simulate sexual ecstasy while riding a horse naked in Equus. Frankly, I think he can't act for NUTS. And to have to live up to Anthony Hopkins. I have absolutely no idea what the director was/is thinking.

Oh, and 101st entry! To commemorate that I celebrated Tony Vincent's Y birthday by watching whatever clips of him I could get, switched to the Fight Club moodtheme, and ran 10km during the Shape run. Ok, ok, walked half of it.

I noticed that I've had a few new friends. Comment? So I'll know what you're here for.


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Date: 2006-06-04 22:49 Subject: So our taxes go to ..... craptastic policemen. Also, <3 Ian Security: Public Mood: restless Music: The 69 Eyes - Feel Berlin Tags: amusement, i love old men!, movies, rl drama, singapore

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"You begin reclassifying your life into 'that will make a good blog entry' or 'that won't make a good blog entry'. Suddenly your life isn't your life anymore.
-Douglas Coupland, on why he doesn't blog

Thank goodness I'm actually lazy with the updating - I can't imagine thinking about my life in terms of journal entries. As I type this I get tired, yo.

Anyway, as for General Elections, I don't give a shit. I'd opt for apathy and peace rather than "more democracy" anytime. However, on the topic of where our taxpayers money goes to, I'd have to rant a little. Especially on our so called "effective" police force.

Just some weeks ago, Jiao Bin and I were at Choa Chu Kang, when there was this fat Indian man soliciting for donations. So Jb, being entirely jiao, suggested we "fuck with him". Since I'm bored, and Jb can get really amusing if he chooses to be, I said fine.

The next couple of minutes or so, the swindler, wearing a hand-made name tag, and a shirt that has no organization badge, proceeds to whine about prostitution being an evil and all; how we would I feel if someone we knew was forced into prostitution blah blah yada yada. Effective perhaps if he wasn't such a bad speaker. All through Jb is smirking, and I'm just staring at him with one eyebrow raised. He gets frustrated.

( If you must know what happens. )We leave him to fume, but I'm mildly irritated; and when I just want to make life difficult for assholes, I do. So I call the police and lodge a report. The tell us to stay at the location, and that they'll send the patrol car out.

( We Wait. )

Ehhhhhhh. Uh, right. Wtf. Don't they have police in Choa Chu Kang itself?

It's not the first time the police are so freaking ineffective. Like the time when there was a gang fight at West Mall, all the glass was broken, tables were thrown, and blood splilt before they arrived. Thank god the ambulance was there earlier. I can't remember how many times I've managed to escape getting caught during fights, raids etc. Though of course we can argue how that's actually a good thing.

And yet, they are so free as to go around calling up the parents of children under 17 who are outside after 11pm. Geez. I wonder really, what's the main purpose of our police. Randomly hauling people up for "illegal gatherings"? (Which by the way, you can get caught for if you're doing nothing in groups of more than 3. So couples can do anything in the wee hours of the morning, but sadly not threesomes.) Probably more of "for show" than anything else I suppose.

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Anyway, it's past a year since my grandfather's death. I still think SHE killed him. I still hope she kills herself in the most horrible way possible, because I won't dirty my hands. I think whatever sadness there was is now full-blown hate, and I keep imagining her in the most grotesque of situations. It isn't helping, but there's nothing left.

Hannah and I came up with a book, coupled with illustrations to remember him. Maybe I'll post it someday.

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In lighter notes, I've watched both X-men and Da Vinci Code recently.

So, ( X-men first. )As for the ( Da Vinci Code ) utterly, utterly boring.

Ahem. Ian McKellen. Pwnd.

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Now, I'm on the way to a church retreat in KL. Maybe one day I'll actually convert back to Christianity. Kisstianity maybe. Meanwhile, I'll just continue ignoring religion and all it's rules and all it's mess and talk to fake gods. Yep. Oh yeah, occasionally go onto Neopets. I miss the once active LJ.

ENJOY THE HOTNESS THAT IS THIS FOR NOW. I seriously mean it.


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Date: 2006-04-16 22:01 Subject: Kiddie Porn and AVATAR Security: Public Location: LJ, where you keep your friends close, but your comps closer Mood: uncomfortable Music: SR-71 - My World Tags: amusement, avatar, fandom, world issues

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I just want to say something.

Kiddie Porn.

This time even the deputy press secretary of the United States Department of Homeland Security Brian Doyle was arrested for sending child porn via the Internet. Nasa's HQ was raided. Some guy was even arrested for the possession of the written porn. (*cough* Sounds like anybody in fandom?) In the increasing trend of more and more high-profile cases where people indulging in child porn are caught, I can't help wondering if it's because there are more people doing it, or more people fighting it.

There's a very much blurred line, I'm thinking, between what is considered "ok" and what is not. Different countries have their own regulations, although I still find the written porn one strange. I'm not sure where my stand is on video manips and photograph manips is though. It's totally wrong if your kid or younger sibling got accosted by some guy with the line "Hay, look, Harry Potter's doing pr0ny things. You should too." But there are specialists marking the Internet for people who search for both real or virtual porn on the net. So any of us people looking at pr0n by searching can be caught. Quite a rude shock.

I must say though, I can't stand reading about adults molesting children. I was absolutely disgusted when I read about the father who quoted parts of the Quran to rape 5 of his daughters (aged 12-15). It's horrifying to read about live molestation chats where people have live videos of them touching kids, as young as 18 months. I mean, wtf? How do you ever get a kick out of that?

I'm thankful for the recent crackdowns both overseas and Singapore, of course. But I do wish they'd do something about the child trafficking still going on. Yeah, Singapore is trying to make it illegal to go to offshore Indonesian islands (Batam's no secret) to fuck kids cheaply. There's not law yet, but they are trying. Still, there is not enough being done for these children. And I don't know what to think of as priority. Getting children off the streets and giving them food, or saving them from sexual abuse. Relatively, the first seems much more important. But .. yeah.

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Done with that. I am currently an "Avatard". As in, totally addicted to Avatar: The Last Airbender. I really should't take so much guilty pleasure in watching a cartoon/anime, but hell, yeah, I love that story. It hasn't gotten to the point where I watch the episode "Southern Air Temple" over and over just because Prince Zuko takes off this shirt, but I'm inspired to get into a new fandom. Ooh, shiny! This, is ironic, because the main character is 12, and most of the others are teenagers.

But Avataaaaaaaaaaaaaar.

Gah.

( Well, I did take time out of my busy schedule to attempt to talk to God. )

Happy Easter all! I hope you got your religious refreshments. :) And if you want something more secular and humourous, take a look at the 2006 Peeps Diorama Competition.

Shadafakup

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Date: 2006-03-08 20:45 Subject: Have a good International Women's Day Security: Public Mood: working Music: Garbage - You Look So Fine Tags: amusement

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Happy International Women's Day!

I realize I don't have much to say about it. Women's rights are still violated in so many places, and there's really almost nothing we can do about that. Even for those who try, it's not easy to get the word out. It's still a pretty lonely world out there for women who make it to the top in a mainly male dominated world. It's almost like raising a glass of champange to celebrate your bittersweet solidarity.

Yesterday, I was reminded what a "lousy" woman I make when Joseph had to sew my shirt button back on when it dropped. But really, what is it being a "real woman"? I just wonder how people will define "being a woman". Ah whatever, I really have nothing intelligent on this topic.

On lighter notes, that day my cool Physics tutor was writing bar jokes on the board and then I was like "You read this month's FHM!". The whole class roared with laughter while he just stood there and stared. Plus the expression on his face?

OWNAGE!

Though in retrospect, it wasn't very nice of me. Still, he's really amusing, and is always coming over to talk to me about all kinds of stuff, so I guess I'm forgiven.

I watched Brokeback with the guys who I watched erm, lesbian stuff with. I'd elaborate, but I don't have the time now, although a couple of them were disturbed they didn't find it "eww" as much as they thought they would. Anyway, about the Oscars, I'm glad Lee Ang won best director, and in a way I'm glad Brokeback didn't win Best Motion Picture, because then the hype would really be overrated. Brokeback winning Best Original Score was a joke, but I guess the rest of it was ok. Sadly, there weren't enough fashion disasters to laugh at.

( Here, have some fun visual puns to guess at. Cute, I promise. )

I .. should go and study.

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Date: 2006-02-14 11:55 Subject: Happy Valentine's Day. And my journal is now, two! Security: Public Mood: content Music: Jimmy Eat World - The World You Love Tags: amusement, festivities, rl, world issues

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Happy Valentines Day.
I have much love for all of you, although there are a lot of people who aren't really around anymore. :3

It's a little late for celebrations, but I hope everyone had a happy New Year and enojoyable Lunar New Year.

For my very first post of the year 2006, I also celebrate the anniversary of my journal turning 2!

Wow. 2. I never expected LJ to capture my attention for so long. I'm the kind that loses interests quickly, so 2 years is quite the surprising time, I must admit. However, LJ has considerably lost it's luster for me. Occassionally great communities pop up, there's great fandom tidbits, and I once in awhile I get sickly entertained by these kind of things.

Of course, the real world is just about as ( exciting ).

Recently I went to the recently opened Ministry of Sound - supposedly the coolest club in town now. Nothing has changed in the 3 years that I haven't been clubbing. It's still the same kind of guys and girls in there, amidst a grander environment. Same pick-up lines as usual, though I admit I enjoyed myself a bit. I suppose it may be because I suffered from some sense of nostalgia. Honestly though, I don't get the draw to clubbing, or the addiction.

Casanova was pretty cool. It was a nice, happy, clean, wholesome comedic fun. I doubt the original story would have had such a Disney ending, but for once I didn't mind. I still want to watch The Constant Garderner and Walk the Line. I .. haven't been paying for my own movies for about a year now. Mehhh. I am teh sux. And Brokeback Mountain is coming out here in 2 days, although I think I'm watching it on Sunday. :)

I went for our so-called "Bachelor's Dinner" tonight with the usual guys, since we decided to go some place near. It was cute, but we lead such sad lives. ;P Oh, I got an anonymous door gift this year. No one in my family caught whoever left the card and chocolates at my gate. I don't know if you're the same person who gave me the book last year, but aww, thank you. <3

It's now 1.42am? *ignores medication and doctor's advice* I didn't notice I was on the phone for that long. Oh, who cares.

WAHAH. I picked this off emmagrant01 - National Lampoon's reporter asks Dan, "How big is your wand?" and laughed insanely at all those who didn't get it. XD Take a look.

Now that I remember, I must mention I love Love LOVE THESE. Someone get me one for Valentine's! :D They amuse me to no end.

As your caring and concerned friend, here's a friendly piece of advice: Try not to get heartbroken, it has been proven such emotions can kill. :) Have a lovely Valentine's. And if you want something slightly more HP and hardcore, there you go. Also, if you're free and want to spare a minute, here's the Marriage equality petition.

Lastly, have a go at ( the coolest toilet EVAH. )

Shadafakup

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Date: 2005-12-25 11:11 Subject: Merry Christmas all Security: Public Mood: satisfied Music: Story of the Year - Swallow the Knife Tags: festivities

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MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I've forgotten how to do fancy html, but who cares?

And here's a awesome clip that you must watch, because the guy playing "We Wish You a Merry Christmas" is a amazing. Click!. It's cool, trust me.

( So you generally won't read this if you don't want to. )

Happy holidays everyone. :) I hope you Christmas Eve was as pleasant as mine, and your Christmas Day even better.

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Date: 2005-10-18 02:21 Subject: Bloody hands! You are in no way, obligated to read this. Security: Public Mood: RAWR! I'm predatory! Music: Maksim - New World Concerto (Antonin Dvorak) Tags: fights, rl drama

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And I’m not sure where to begin. (That is why this sentence starts with an "and", I suppose, but not really.)

So it’s actually hard to type this because both my hands are injured. There’s fresh blood coming out from the one on the right, but as long as none gets onto the keyboard or mouse, it’s easy to ignore.

See, I met this guy last night. (Not met actually, he accosted me.) I told him to go away, but he just kept bugging me to get a drink with him or something – I don’t remember. For convenience sake, because his hair reminds me of one, I’m calling him Mr Cockroach. So he grabs hold onto my arm, and by this time I’m trying to walk-the-fuck-away but he was in my way and grabbing my wrist.

If you knew me, you’d know I get angry, and violent pretty easily. ( It’s not that I want to hit things, most of the time. )

I didn’t want to start a fight (ok, I did, but not so early in the day) so I just walked off to Burger King, and asked the lady if there was a toilet nearby. I couldn’t go back to work with a bleeding hand. She took one look at it gasped and gave me a whole wad of tissue paper. (She was kind of pretty.) By now some of it has dripped onto my shirt. Had I really gotten cut so deep? Or I’d probably try to hit him really hard anyway.

Thank god he didn’t follow me (or it was possible I might have fossilized his face?). Hate Cockroaches. Even good-looking ones.

As for getting my right hand injured, well, today I climbed over this fence about half a body higher than me. But I was somehow pissed ( and you might not want to bother reading all of this. )

I’m not sure what’s wrong with me lately. I’m just so strangely, ( happy. )I must do something about sneering and ignoring nice people though. And finish what I set out to read. Or maybe I should do fanfiction. (Does anyone have bloodplay fics?)

This morning, when David (who my friend dumped onto me) called and sounded piss-drunk, I actually did what I hardly ever do - told him straight in the face that I didn’t want to talk to him. That may or may not have arisen from the fact I call him Mr Green Nipple, because he hast a chest tattoo. The tatoo may have actually looked sexy if he didn't talk like that. By the way, is anyone going for that Chinablack ladies night event? I don't feel like going ... Kind of need an excuse though.

Did anyone else read Chin Yong Kiat's incredibly selfish and stupid ( forum letter? )I wish he breaks a leg. Or a neck.

I wonder what’s with all the brackets. Maybe I should be more pretentious by formatting them in italics. Oh well there goes, since I’m bored anyway.

( And lastly, a very amusing 'needs' meme, which I stole off notsurewho )

And somewhere in the search, I found my name in a Final Fantasy Advent Children (which was omgwtfbbq so nice) fanfic, where I get rescued from drowning and then have CPR performed on me by Tifa. Ya, so I wish.

ETA: Dying of t3h crackage.

Shadafakup

And I can't decide if I should friends-lock this thing, because I've journal publicizing h0rs *cough* on my flist. Welcome to the new friends. :> Like I said, comment, and you'll probably be added. I'm deleting a couple of the old though, who I never talk to, or have already deleted me. The point of journals, is for interaction, ins't it? Anyway, these are probably fandom people, who I can occassionally harass, if need be.

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Date: 2005-09-07 09:45 Subject: Wake Me Up When September Ends Security: Public Mood: moody Music: Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends Tags: ooh aren't tags so kewl, rl drama

*74 (Yes! Finally a numbered entry! For those who h8 nonsensical posts.)

( oh wau )

So. It's not as if the Green Day song by the same title of this entry was brilliantly written and superbly meaningful. I just thought it appropriate for the mood.

( I retrieved my lj password today. )

Some things changed while I haven’t been on LJ. I practically stopped my obsession with the news, getting bored with finding the statistics on who died where or how. It's not that I don't know what happened, I just don't want to delve into details. (Also read as: I can’t bear to talk about the tragedies because anything I say will sound like I’m being pretentiously sympathetic, pissed off over stupid minor details like Kayne, or something or another. I’m not as eloquent as some may make me out to be.)

Lately I've done a lot of de-focusing (if there's such a word). From people as well, maybe. Strangely, I got myself tangled with some other guy I never cared much for, and when I just walked out, I actually felt slight guilt.

Oh, these strange times. Hah.

Btw I’ve been playing random computer games. Almost everyone on my MSN list is blocked, but I’m on “Appear Offline” almost always. And on Eyezmaze, I’ve Hatched out thingy 146-147 and everything before. I blame you, multirain and aerocranes.

Anyway, I lost my wallet this month. I pray the person who picked it up and kept it burns in hell. Also, I hope I don't have an address in there. I liked that wallet, fuck. Now I've to get replacements for my EZ-link card, my ATM card, my library card (I think), my AmEx Platinum (SHIT), house keys (see the address issue now?) and miscellaneous memos. Plus my favourite photo of Hannah was in there. And photos of people like stead!Vanessa, Jan, John, Joseph, Alvin, Yvonne and a couple of neoprints. You're so going to get stalked. BAH. I am sad. Wh0re yourself and I’ll consider not spitting the angst all over your favourite baked pie.

Oh. I got third (in other words, lost) in the CCK district Toastmasters prepared speech competition, which ironically, I did an impromptu presentation. (Not because I'm a lazy ho', of course.) Apparently we all got very coveted trophies because they are made of metal and shipped from Toastmasters International USA. Whatever.

I'll be working (commission based stuff) again after my piano and school exams. I’ve to pass both, so I need to get my butt off the fence. (The fact I’m actually half-serious about trying to do something about my current state scares me.) Then, I hope I get to go USA.

COMEX. The electronics! The shiiiiiiiny new gadgets! Oh, by the way, I didn’t go. That weekend was just so busy it felt like I was actually doing something. But I want to watch Eric Khoo’s Be With Me, which was the opening film at the 2005 Cannes festival. It opens on my birthday. This means something. YAY. Not that I know who Khoo is, but lesbians! And schoolgirls at that. Hot! They are kind of cute. I sekritly visit this and Victoria’s Secret (as if I need to give you the link). Well apparently everything is not so secret now. Right now I have a crush on my neighbour’s girlfriend. Sort of. She gave me a love!cigarette.

This is the part where you skip to the next paragraph because I’m going to insert random shit here. dsafjkhfjklahfjlalfa. In a Eureka moment: I found most dancers have zee beeg boobies! I have HORRENDOUS anger management skills. And because I’m actually considering turning into a man cropping my hair, Edward will sponsor my haircut if I cut it so short I can spike it up like .. uh, a boy. Aren’t strikethroughs VERY irritating?

Thanks to everyone (and those out of lj as well) who sent me nice random emails that gave me the illusion made me feel loved. I wasn’t going to mention any LJ user in this post so that I’ll appear unbiased and officially returned. You can quite snorting now, thank you. This will be short ANYWAY. Loff to saoni (omg your art) and hypersensitive_ and sorry about not coming back before your birthdays. xinnie_sue, does this entry mean I get to .. well, you know, you know. Oh yeah, I have no idea at all who the anonymous comments directed to me are from. Seriously. But that was a pointless announcement since the posters are anonymous and probably aren’t going to tell me even if I went down on my knees.

Ahhhh. Do that again. I forgot everything else. Per usual. Oh ya.

My birthday's tomorrow. I want a 3000 piece jig-saw puzzle that isn’t your heart mailed in an envelope.

Wake me up when September ends. I’ll be in a hotel.

Shadafakup

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Date: 2005-02-14 11:59 Subject: Love, love, love and so much more love Security: Public Mood: loved Music: I HAVE NO SPEAKERS DAMNIT

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This is an example of a nonsensical entry.

Happy Hallmark Valentine's Day to all.



I hate this day quite a bit, but this year didn't go that ugly. I didn't add to more lonely souls to our lonely planet, which is a great start, really.

ANONYMOUS, I have so much love for the package I received in the mail. It's disguised so well I seriously don't know who it is from, but if you are anoymous please own up because whoa, this has so made my day.

Thank you for "Love Speaks Its Name", a collection of gay and lesbian poetry. It's beautiful, and hardcover and very lovely to look at. THANK YOU. It'll be nice if you own up because I want to have sex with you thank you and shower you with MAH love, really. <33333

saoni, I have no time to reply to you now, but yes, I received your package, THANK YOU! I sent you a reply, but I guess overseas mail takes a long time. *loves*. And please let me remain on your f-list, sorry I can't reply so soon, but WTF a power outage occured and the non-existent electricity ate my entry = I'm rushing for time.

I will reply to all the comments in the previous entry when I get online again and read the journals of those who commented/replied to the poll because if you have time for my nonsense, I'll definitely make time for you.

Ok, now since anonymous made me feel so "loved", I'll do a random anonymous meme. I don't expect anyone to reply to it, though it'll be nice.

Go and do something anonymous for anyone this week. You can say what you did here, or just remain even more anonymous. Make someone's day this week, and consider it International "Friendship/love" week or whatever. Pimp this if you want. :)

Or, you could take the lazy way out and just post an anoymous comment here saying I would have liked to do *censored* things for xxxljdude (fandom, RL, random, whatever!). You could also go I would like to do unspeakable things to Draco Malfoy - I'm sure he would appreciate it if he could.

Make someone's day.

And because I hate IP logging (I tend to avoid commenting when people log IPs *paranoid*) it's off. Have your fun.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone. You are completely loved by me. Especially these RL wonder-people: Jon, Xinnie-sue, Baka-sama, Mei Yi, Janice, Sam (plus a lot of ;) respect!) and Najiah. (The people I've seen recently actually.)

♥


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