Well, Dr. Danger is not only a sexy motha-shut yo mouth! But he finally got me to sleep before midnight and I didn't wake up until like 1 pm! OMG that means I slept like 12 hours. *cries* I feel so rested I'm flat ironing my hair people. THIS IS BIG! Not only do I wanna kiss him cause he's hot, I wanna kiss him for finally giving me a great night's sleep. I love you, Dr. Danger. If you weren't bound by your Hippocratic Oath I'd jump your freaking bones.

Edit: I'm such a fuck up lmao I sent the doctor an email asking him why no one was answering his office phone because I was thinking it was 4 pm. It's 4 AM!!! Well now it's 6:22 am. *sigh*

This is the original email I sent him:

Dr. Danger,

Sorry to have to resort to email. but I've been calling your office from 1pm - 4pm and have not been able to reach a live person. I also called the service # and was on hold for over 10 minutes without being able to leave a message. I didn't realize it was this hard to get in touch with you or your staff. Anyway, the reason I was trying to reach you was because last night I took the 15 mg of temazepam you prescribed along with the 50 mg of Vistaril and slept like I hadn't slept in years. I haven't slept more than 3 or 4 hours a night in years. I slept last night for 9 1/2 hours and when I woke up today I felt like a different person. Sleep deprivation caused me to have physical pain, mood swings and depression (more than the usual) and today I feel a lot less pain and I woke up in such a great mood. Only pain I feel is just my arthritis and old car accident injuries. I felt so refreshed and rejuvinated that I actually took the time (45 minutes!) to straighten my hair by hand because I cared about how I looked since I wasn't so exhausted

I just want to make sure that this regiment is ok. I hope so because if I can sleep like that every night who knows what I'll be able to get accomplished. So let me know if there's a problem with taking the 15 mg of temazepam with the 50 mg of Vistaril. Just to make sure we're on the same page I'm taking 1 mg of Klonopin 2-3 times daily (as needed for anxiety), Wellbutrin XL 300 mg, Invega 6 mg, Vistaril 50 mg and Restoril 15 mg at night. I seriously felt like a champ this morning and I can't remember the last time I felt so good after waking up!

Thanks for all of your help doctor and I also thank you for seeing me on a sliding scale. I appreciate that you understand my situation more than you'll ever know. You are not just a good doctor, you're a good person too. You are the first psychiatrist I have ever had such an honest rapore with and I feel positive about being your patient. Thank you for caring about my mental health and wellbeing over the bottom line. I will pay it forward. Feeling better makes me want to be nicer to people and be helpful. It's a ripple effect all from one simple action. Ok, enough of the sappy stuff :P Hope you have a great week and please get back to me and let me know if all of this is ok. :)

Ugh! WTF I'm a retard! So I had to do a retraction! This is what I said:

Dear Dr. D,

Oh My God, this is soooo embarrassing. There's nothing wrong with you or your staff. It's ME!

Please disregard most of the previous email because I had no idea what I was talking about. It's rather humiliating actually. I have hurricane shutters on my windows and I can never tell if it's day or night. I thought I had slept from like 11 pm until like 9 AM. I was trying to call your office for hours to let you know how it had worked out and to ask some questions, but I couldn't understand why there was no answer! Duh! I called like 7 times between 1 am and 4 am! *facepalm* I was doing my hair and playing music as if it was like 2 in the afternoon! I was so excited that I thought I had slept all night that I kept trying to call my grandparents whom I thought weren't home (they were actually asleep in the bedroom!), I can't believe my family didn't wake up to check on me. I was so mortified and confused when I realized what time it was. I only realized it because I called a friend and she told me it was 5 am and asked why was I calling at that hour. Go ahead, laugh it up! It *is* funny!

I'm seriously not a lunatic, Dr. Danger, I'm just confused and a totally disoriented regarding time at the moment. I thought I had slept a whole night! I was so excited. Maybe I felt so good because I finally got much needed REM sleep and that's what made me feel so much better.

Now I just feel so depressed and angry at my body. It's like I'm in a struggle to get my brain to act normally. Well, whatever "normal" is. About what I said in the other email:

"Thanks for all of your help doctor and I also thank you for seeing me on a sliding scale. I appreciate that you understand my situation more than you'll ever know. You are not just a good doctor, you're a good person too. You are the first psychiatrist I have ever had such an honest rapore with and I feel positive about being your patient. Thank you for caring about my mental health and wellbeing over the bottom line. I will pay it forward. Feeling better makes me want to be nicer to people and be helpful. It's a ripple effect all from one simple action."

I meant all of that. I do feel very grateful and blessed that you are helping me. I am just at my wits end. I can't live like this. What is wrong with me?! Why can't I sleep? So, I guess the 50 mg of Vistaril and the 15 mg of temazepam wasn't enough. Tonight I'm going to to try again but I'm going to try 30 mg of the temazepam. What do you think of this?"

I am such a doof. :(