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| NEW LJ |
[24 Mar 2006|06:44pm] |
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Add me if I add you, please, or not. It's 'fkdup'.
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[24 Mar 2006|05:58pm] |
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I've decided on Burbank. I can't wait.
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| Mark helped me buy my first car ;-) |
[22 Mar 2006|09:00pm] |
As of now I am officially a Mark representative. If you ever need any fragrance, make up, skin care, hair products, accessories, or any other Mark products please let me know. Here are a preview of some products:
 Self Sanctuary Spa $6
 Powder-Matic Loose Face Powder $8
 Mega Volume Root Lifter $5
 Glow Baby Glow Luxe Hook Up Lip Gloss $5
They're all really great products and remember your helping a poor girl buy her first car!
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[18 Mar 2006|07:46pm] |
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Love lost, i'm sure.
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[17 Mar 2006|10:40pm] |
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pretty exhausted, pretty sure a change is due
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| Contemplation: |
[28 Feb 2006|09:44pm] |
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Will I ever have sex with a black man?
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[03 Feb 2006|08:04pm] |
Knowing this body
is like foam,
realizing its nature
--a mirage--
cutting out
the blossoms of Mara,
you go where the King of Death
can't see.
-Dhammapada
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| My life never ceases to change |
[08 Jan 2006|10:59am] |
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I'd say that every other 4 months I become a new person, achieve a goal, fall in love, and create a new dream for myself. I'm loving life right now...just living, not worrying about complicated dilemas of my past. I know for sure what I want to do with myself and I know that I'm going to do it. All thats standing in my way is well...high school. Maybe I'll jump on the bandwagon and finish early. I think the ridgity of the schedule is poisoning me.
"Remembering, remembering, that sweet world so bitter to taste"
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[10 Nov 2005|08:17pm] |
I believe that marijuana has the power to change the world. It brings so many people together. I love it, I never want to stop smoking it. It was put on this Earth for our happiness. It's natural, it won't harm me.
If anyone is curious about smoking, let me personally smoke you out. Do it for the good of the planet!
Save the Earth, smoke some herb.
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[10 Oct 2005|05:42pm] |
Floating cloudy necks
Makes us believe we're not
Apart from real games
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| Rule number 17: |
[05 Oct 2005|08:43pm] |
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If you buy a silver pipe in Rocky point...on the beach...next to the Playa Bonita Hotel...then you SHOULD be worried about inhaling lead.
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| Rule number 88 |
[05 Oct 2005|08:20pm] |
Never, in the entire time that you're high...ever EVER say...
"Might he be gypsy?"
"Gypsy he may..."
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| Rule number 46: |
[05 Oct 2005|07:49pm] |
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If you begin to throw up while inhaling on a pipe--stop smoking!
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[01 Oct 2005|07:32pm] |
Just blazed.
Boyfriends are hard
But now single and fabulous
Makes great high times
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[29 Sep 2005|10:31pm] |
Luis and I broke up. We couldn't handle the distance. It was too hard. I'm not strong enough, and neither is he.
It occured to me while reading the most angsty teenage poetry just now that you shouldn't get sad over a good thing that ended. Because really all good things must come to an end at sometime. Luis and I were a great couple. My first love. I will always remember him for the rest of my life. Even writing about him in the past tense is extremly painful, but I know time will heal that pain. In a couple months he'll be lost in my memories.
My emotions are so all over the place right now. I jump from being optimistic about the future hurting over the fact that I probably won't see him ever again. I thought it would be an easy break up with him since I wouldn't have to see him everyday, but having someone completly dropped out of your life is fucking horrible. And it happens too much to me.
But there is a constant in all of my relationships. Out of the total of three I've been in, everyone has said goodbye to me in Mexico.
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[11 Sep 2005|02:41am] |
One day a little thief jumped out of his hobbit. "Good day ol' grass-hoppa. What turns the ol' soul out of its cabbage patch?"
"Bills thief, bills! I musn't have the time to talk to the likes of you nor fool around with your foolish games. My mand is clattered with things. To my dismay, you are NOT a part of it!
Foolish grass-hoppers. Always jumping into the hookah smoking catterpillars.
Don't they feel its tumbling-tumble? The high reeks of reefer but my blood hits the fall. When logic and proportion has fallen us all to bed.
Go ask alice when shes ten feet tall.
REMEBER WHAT THE DOORMAN SAID
feedyourhead
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[05 Sep 2005|09:31pm] |
I just got back from visiting him in Mexico. All is well again. I don't know what the fuck I was thinking. Seriously! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!?
It was such an emotional weekend. I cried like a lot. Ha. Well, on Saturday we got into a fight over something stupid, I don't even remember what it was, but I wrote him one of those "Why the fuck do you do the things you do" type of letters, and went into my room and locked the door. A couple minutes later he knocked asking to come in, said he was sorry and I was right. Then we did a make-up make-out session, and fell asleep holding eachother. *sigh*
On Sunday night we started talking about past relationships. I don't know what it is about me, but I guess I like being sad because I forced him to show me a picture of his ex. She was pretty, sort of plain, but still pretty. Of course I had to know more so I said "How was the sex?" and he said "Ahhh, it was good." I asked why (stupid stupid stupid) and he said "Because we both knew eachother really well, she knew what I liked and I knew what she liked" Ahh, that crushed me. Cuz they waited like 4 months to have sex. Well, too bad I have no self control. Oh well. But later that night we went to Catholic mass for an hour. I didn't understand shit since it was in Spanish, so my mind kept drifting to his ex-girlfriend. I'm way too jealous. Seriously. So I get sad again, and he realizes it and tells me "Don't worry honey, she means nothing to me anymore"
But then later that night we talk and I tell him that I want to get to know him better. So we ask eachother questions, and he asks me questions. He finally asks me about my dad, and he makes me tell him which gets me sad again. Blah, it's weird that I told him since I only tell Amanda pretty much.
At about 2 AM, I wake up to this noise outside my window. I thought I was dreaming, but I wasn't. He's outside my window with his brother, who is playing a guitar. Luis sings me two songs in Spanish. It was my first sernata, and it was soooooo romantic. Thats the thing about dating Mexicans, they do the sweetest things.
I love how when he sees me smile, it makes him smile too.
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[27 Aug 2005|06:40pm] |
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[23 Aug 2005|03:47pm] |
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Yesterday to my surprise Luis came to visit me. It was a very strange visit, I surely did not expect it. I opened the door from my shower, walked into the living room and saw him standing there. I was happy, excited, but something was different. I no longer felt the same way about him like I did when he lived in Tucson. I don't know what it is, but I think we both felt it. He spent the night, and we talked about our relationship a lot. We agreed that we liked eachother still, but we both knew realized that there was no way that it would work. We're still toghether, but I don't know how long. It's a shame things couldn't work out for us.
( RIP Charlie Shaw )
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[20 Aug 2005|03:35pm] |
Wow I really haven't updated in a long time. Not much has been going on anyways.
But some good news finally came into my life. I get to see Luis next weekend! Yay! Now I have to crash diet though...oh well.
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