Saturday, January 6th, 2007
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1:38 pm - ok so here is the deal....
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Im sure everyone on my friends list on here has Myspace....so if u wanna know how im doing read my blogs on there cuz its getting old having to post everything twice...and livejournal is kinda GAY now..myspace is all I check anymore...so we will see how important I am...
www.myspace.com/addicted2guurls thats my webpage...see ya on the flipside
current mood:  exhausted
current music: Life Is Killing Me ~Type O Negative
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(taste the raynebow)
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Friday, September 22nd, 2006
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10:23 pm
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blah blah blah....working alot ...gettin a cellphone sometime after payday which is thursday ...so if anyone wants the number let me know...just posting to let yall know im still alive and fucking kicking....hahaha
Pe@ce!
current mood:  bored
current music: ~Texas~Primer 55
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(1 skittle | taste the raynebow)
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Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
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9:24 pm - ~*I wanna find something Ive wanted all along...somewhere I belong*~
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The hours dwindle away like minutes...seconds rather, when you are with me. Every kiss...touch...smile...hug...fading, the time passes so quickly. Never enough...yearning for so much more...wanting...needing...aching...my heart is sore. What is this I feel inside when you are around? Unable to move...breathe...afraid to make any sound. If it is a dream, I dont want it to fade away. So open my eyes...show me its real and make it stay. The power you possess within, is frightening yet intriguing. I want to know how you crept in without me seeing. I love being around you. I hate it when we must part. Now I think I realize how you sneakily found your place and tiptoed ever so carefully into my heart.
*end*
CRB
current mood:  optimistic
current music: reptile~NIN
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(taste the raynebow)
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Sunday, September 10th, 2006
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1:42 am - ~*Enigma...mystery...puzzle...*~
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An encircling enigma about you
waiting...wanting to become revealed
Remove the shroud...effortlessly
carefully...disregard all that you feared
Ill listen ever so paitently
while you recall every little detail
Open your mind...put up the mast
be willing to let your heart and soul set sail
Confide in me...I am a friend
safe with me are your secrets
Dont be shy...I am always here
Live your life without any regrets
Dance like no one is watching
Love like you've never been hurt
Live life one day at a time
Never lie down in the dirt
If you should find yourself there
pick yourself up, dust off and do it over
There is no amount of pain to great
that could make you never recover
Ive learned all this in such short time
Im living it right now as you read
Sure it hurts...I never denied that
but I wont quit on the one thing I need
The thing I speak of comes from our heart
the purest and most unconditional love
Such a wonderous and amazing feeling
a gift from our God up above
A gift...a present...a trinket...
something to forever treasure
To see such things in motion
must give our God great pleasure
One of my main goals in life
getting others to really believe
Make them realize fully
that love is a beautiful thing to recieve
I shall not stop or take a rest
until my quest is through
Although Ill slow down and walk awhile
that is, atleast until I can convince you.
*end*
CRB
current mood:  curious
current music: Alice in Chains~Don't follow
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(taste the raynebow)
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Friday, August 18th, 2006
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5:48 pm - yeah about that....
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yeah so i havent posted in a long ass time on here...I dunno why..im ususally on myspace mostly now...I have my reasons I guess...I am still alive tho...::sighs:: Atleast I think so...
current mood:  weird
current music: Alice in Chains
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(taste the raynebow)
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Friday, June 9th, 2006
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8:43 pm - hmm...
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Friday, November 18th, 2005
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11:45 am
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11:41 am
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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
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2:51 pm
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hey everyone i should have internet at my house very soon so hang tight for a bit and maybe ill catch ya on there someday....
peace out
current mood:  aggravated
current music: the sounds of typing
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(taste the raynebow)
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Thursday, August 25th, 2005
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2:01 pm
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for all of you who dont know.....i live in navarre now and somehow ive misplaced my address and phone number book so anyone who wants to call me go ahead,....im home pretty much all the time....330 484 2905....until i find my book i cant call anyone who's number i dont have in my head...lol
soon ill be getting a cell and ill give the number then....after that ill be getting the net again....yay cant wait....I MISS EVERYONE!! ::wah::
current mood: bored
current music: ani~anyday
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(taste the raynebow)
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Saturday, July 9th, 2005
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5:59 pm - moved again....lol
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yeah so we are no longer in lorain but we are now in navarre...staying with jess's brother and his wife and we got a little black kitty kat...her name is Astara...and she is so damn cute..at night she will move ur hair away from ur neck and try to drink from ur skin...she sucks on ur arm hand any skin that is close to her and i think she does it cuz the first time she did it we gave her milk so i think she is trying to be all slick about it now...i dunno..but its too cute and we got a collar for her but she is too small for it...lol she is the runt...like all our animals
Geoff and RJ are being assholes and not letting us have zero back and saying that he was malnourished and all this bullshyt which everyone who knows me knows that is sooooo not true...i would never treat any animal mean...i hate fucking stupid people ...grr...so now if we want him we have to go to court and fight for him but there is no guarantee that we will ever be able to get him back. and it breaks my heart everytime i think about him, but we are not able to do that right now....our financial position sucks hardcore right now....i just hope that people can understand that i really cant do anything about it right now...and i hope that he and everyone can forgive me....god knows i love him like he is my own child...love you my baby boy...mommy's so sorry ...i g2g im crying and i cant be doing that anymore....peace!
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(taste the raynebow)
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Saturday, June 18th, 2005
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2:31 am
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just wanted to let everyone know that i am still alive and staying in lorain with my drag momma....cant really post alot now...just wanted to let the ones who care know.....love ya all
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(2 skittles | taste the raynebow)
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Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
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12:46 am - blah quiz....
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12:00 am
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APRIL 3RD AT THE INTERBELT.......REAL GIRL DRAG CONTEST.....SHOWTIME BETWEEN 11:30 AND MIDNITE....BE THERE
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(1 skittle | taste the raynebow)
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Friday, March 11th, 2005
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10:03 pm - Real Gurl Drag Contest
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I FOUND OUT THE DATE FOR THE CONTEST IT HAS BEEN MOVED TO APRIL 3RD SO EVERYONE NEEDS TO BE THERE IT IS A SUNDAY AND ITS AT THE INTERBELT....SEE YA THERE...::MUAHZ::
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(2 skittles | taste the raynebow)
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12:42 am - Correction......real gurl drag contest...
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THE CONTEST I SPOKE OF IN AN EARLIER POST HAS BEEN POSTPONED AS OF RIGHT NOW.....I WILL LET YOU KNOW WHEN THE NEW DATE IS AS SOON AS I FIND OUT....
current mood:  blah
current music: KSHFISGFIUSGFOQHADOI
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(taste the raynebow)
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12:22 am - Go Away...you tried to take the best of me...
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Once again my so called "mother" has taken my sisters away from me. I guess she really wants to lose all her children. When they are of age to leave, I can guarantee they all will and then maybe she will realize that she fucked up. Hopefully she realizes before its too late or she is gonna be really lonely. She uses my love for them against me because I'm gay. She thinks by threatening me with this, that I will give in and I won't anymore. I am 22 and she treats me like a child. It's always about her getting her way and this time and many other times she hasn't and it pisses her off. Oh well ...Grow Up!
Apparently now she has a problem with Jay and I sleeping in the same bed at her house, even tho we have twice before and nothing was ever said. I can't understand why she thinks taking my sisters away is gonna change me. It isn't and she needs to realize how much she is hurting her children, especially her youngest daughter, the one who looks up to me the most. She cried her heart out because she didnt want me to leave but she is mature enough to understand why I did. I had to stand up for myself and make her realize that she doesnt and never will have control over my life. I'm tired of the lectures and the pity parties for her. "Oh my daughter is gay"...feel sorry for me...Boohoo! SHUT THE FUCK UP! You are to love you children no matter what. No one wants to live with like you with your fucked up version of religion and your stereotypes. I grew up and found who I am and what I believe and if you dont like it...TOO DAMN BAD. I was not put on this earth to please you or anyone else but myself and right now its ALL about me. I'M HAPPY I HAVE SOMEONE THAT I LOVE WHO LOVES ME BACK and its obvious that you will never be happy unless everyone is miserable like you....
current mood:  pissed off
current music: Mindless Self Indulgence- Your problem now
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(2 skittles | taste the raynebow)
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Sunday, March 6th, 2005
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1:41 am - REAL GIRL DRAG CONTEST.......
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SUNDAY MARCH 13TH AT THE INTERBELT THERE IS A REAL GIRL DRAG CONTEST...I AM IN IT....EVERYONE NEEDS TO BE THERE SO I CAN WIN....LOL.....WISH ME LUCK
current mood:  determined
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(5 skittles | taste the raynebow)
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Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
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11:57 pm - A Very UNmerry birthday to me.....
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well I guess I shouldnt have expected anything more just because its a different year.
I wish things were different, like when your little everyone...and i mean everyone makes a huge deal outta your birthdays...the whole nine...cake ice cream balloons presents party favors party hats your favorite meal....everything. No one forgets...especially the people that you are around 24/7.
This time it was so depressing...the only person that knew outta the people i live with was my adorable fiance. No one else in the household knew until i mentioned it, but by then it really didnt matter.
I got three calls...that i know of...cuz my roommates are being assholes when it comes to giving phone messages. I say if your too damn stupid to write down messages on the message book that i left downstairs then dont answer the fucking phone...
newayz on top of that...no cake no ice cream no presents no nothing...JUST FUCKING SNOW...::grrs::
I am SO happy that we are leaving ohio soon.
The past few birthdays have been horrible ..yes, but this one definitely tops the list.
Yes a few certain people have acknowledged my birthday and those people know who they are and i am thankful for them. When your little everyone makes it "your special day"...well answer me this
have you ever spent "your special day" balling your eyes out because your own mother didnt think it was important enough to let you come over and spend the day with your family? didnt think so...
current mood:  disappointed
current music: not happy birthday...thats for sure..
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(2 skittles | taste the raynebow)
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Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
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12:32 am - something to consider...
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Incase anyone wants to know....or if anyone cares. Jess and I are considering moving to California. An old friend of mine called today and asked if we would be interested in moving with them to San Diego and getting an apartment down there. It is a serious possibility as of now. Number one because of where we are at now and two because Ive alwayz wanted to get out of Ohio. Another thing is that Jess used to live there when she was younger and would like to go back and My Dave lives down there and I would be able to spend time with him. Of course some things have to be discussed before it is final but it is as of now in serious consideration for us both.
Oubviously I have concerns....Ive lived in Ohio my whole life...everything i know and love is here. But i figure if we dont like it we can alwayz move back and if we do like it we can alwayz visit. I think that a few things will be accomplished if we do go. I will be able to overcome my fear of large bodies of water and i will not be so depressed when winter comes around. I hate that more than anything. I might even go to school for my culinary arts dream....::sighs::
well just wanted to give everyone the heads up if it does happen sooner than expected...
current mood:  contemplative
current music: Humble Neighborhoods-P!NK
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(4 skittles | taste the raynebow)
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