After 21 hours of back labour, because the stubborn little girl decided she wanted to do things her way - Stealthbit was born at 11:51 PM, healthy, whole, and happy :) She's adorable, and I'll get pics up when I can. Elfbit and Wigglebit think she's awesome, and that makes me so happy - I'm so high on mommyness right now, haha! (that or having been awake for 26hrs, with little cat naps since then :) )

I'll write up more about it when I'm more coherent - but I wanted to let y'all know she's born, and we're all fine! :)

Will tell you when s/he's born!

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1. Baby's dropped sometime in the past week.

2. Nesting is definitely setting in *holds self back in attempt NOT to injure self AGAIN by giving in more often than is physically okay for her*

3. Thought I'd have to pay nearly 400 to get and fill a prescription for something I need to have.
...Managed to do it for 20.

*so filled with yay*

37 weeks on Friday - any time between now and the end of June.

*nervous and excited*

so much yay.

Bro in Law and niece coming for the afternoon tomorrow, gotta remember to call the school and the bus people to let them know she won't need picking up and won't be in.

Went to ICAN meeting tonight with a few ladies, was fantastic, got to talk to and listen and am kind of on baby-high right now.

right, I need to go to bed. Now. G'nite!

That means Ads, or paying not to see ads. I don't know about anyone else around here, but the ads slow my computer down a lot, which is really really annoying.

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Guess what? being any form of not-straight is apparently something they frown upon, too! To wit, Bisexuality, among other words, have been removed from the LJ Popular Interests page. Link goes to a grid showing pre-strikethrough numbers and current ones.

There's a Protest being organised. If you're for it, please pass along the word!

EDIT 19:08 EST: Apparently the Interest band has been lifted so that's at least one thing to relax about. For now. :)

The band Five for Fighting is generously donating $0.40 to Autism Speaks each time THIS VIDEO is viewed. The funds raised will go towards research studies to help find a cure for autism. When you have a moment, please watch this informative clip, featuring touching photos of a beloved daughter and her family.

Please, PLEASE watch the video, have your friends watch it, families, post this to your journals. My daughter isn't technically Autistic, but she has something that's just a bare step above it. I am thankful every day that she is (albiet slowly) learning to communicate. I think she's roughly at the level of a three year old, now (she turned Five today), and that only because she's gotten Early Intervention for her Developmental Delay. I worry every day that she'll never catch up, and my heart breaks for all the friends I have who have children who have Autism, or work with children who do. It's so difficult - and the thought that people ignore this very real, horrible thing, devastates me. There are insurances who refuse to pay for Much Needed Therapy to help these kids. The earlier it's caught and they get the therapy, the better chance they have of leading more full, interactive lives with the world around them. Every day counts, and there are so many who are slipping through the cracks because they are just that. So Many. Please do what little you can, watch the video, watch it lots of times, leave it running in the background, get other people to watch it, donate to your local or state Autism societies, learn more about this so you can help parents who have children who they love desperately, and who sometimes drive them absolutely crazy because they love them so much, and yet feel like sometimes they just can't get through.

Boy, that got longwinded. But I just.... It's been a rough day, a sick child who's got trouble understanding simple concepts that any other her age would - is so very difficult to deal with. I'm one of the lucky ones. Please help those who aren't.

Thanks.

That would be me.

I DID IT! WITH MYSELF AND I DID IT I DID IT! I managed, my own measley compuNOTsavvy self, to GET MY EMAIL BACK!

...It only took me Five hours. Mostly because three of them were faffing around with discs trying to find one that'd actually burn. I ended up backing up elsewhere on my computer. *sigh* need more discs.

BUT I DID IT.

....only to find this in my email. (scan down for the article)

That made me so angry. It's not fair, people like me who are in crazy pain all their lives with no explanation finally finding one is NOT drug companies making up diseases in order to sell stuff.

So pissed off.

Damn you, NY Times. Damn you to freaking hell.

Also: Heath Ledger. :( I just heard apparently he'd been clean for over a year, but was having trouble sleeping because of filming and stuff, so .... sleeping pills. The poor man died just trying to get some sleep. *Wibbles*

ptsd sucks
trigger words suck
being terrified when I should be happy sucks
looming badanniversaries suck

gonna try to sleep it off now before I pull a River Tam, like I feel on the edge of. Cos.. y'know, mass carnage is kinda looked down on, y'know? And nobody's around to take care of me if it goes the way of whimpering in a corner either.

I hate december.

SO, remember that poll, about the weird cravings? Yeah, wasn't pregnant.

However, NOW I am. Pregnant, that is. Just finished my first trimester, actually. So yes, Stealthbit is on his/her way! Sorry I didn't get 'round to making lots of personal phone calls, but with the kids being sick, phones going out, holiday crap, more phone stuff, and crappy basement flood crap... yeah. Forgive me?

Please read on, this is important:
I've got a lot of stress in my life right now (much of which I DON'T blog about), and need y'all's support in this. Even if you might think my choice to NOT have another c-section is wrong, I know in my heart of hearts (and after TONS of research and doctors talking) this is right for my baby, me, and the rest of my family. You protesting against my choice will cause more stress, and I'll have to remove you from my flist for it, because I don't want any complications and the stress during pregnancy is never a good thing. Please respect my decisions, I'm giving y'all one chance with this - I'm not going to stop being friends with you, but if you do go against my wishes as here stated, I will take you off my flist for the duration of my pregnancy in order to protect my baby and myself from unneeded stress factors that could cause harm to us.

If you don't feel like you can keep your mouth shut, let me know and I'll just do that now so we can avoid later unpleasantness, and see you after the baby's born! :)

<3 to all!

EDIT: THE C-WORD is not to be used to me in this journal, Please. It's a MAJOR TRIGGER word, especially if proceeded by words like "you will have a (Trigger word) right?" even if they're proceeded by "if this nasty unavoidable thing happens". I can't distinguish that kind of thing, that's why it's a trigger. Please understand. I'm sorry I wasn't clearer before, but I was trying to be all PC and nicey about it. Perhaps bluntness is better.

Flood. Nasty Sewagy Flood. ARG. Doing Damage Control - have tehlils helping wrangle the kids. Prolly going to live in the livingroom for a while. Again. Didn't we just go through this? *cries*

It's about that time of year again and I've just been reminded somewhat unintentionally by alison_sky - so! Help me? VOTE IN MY POLL!!! I'm leaving this unlocked so you can send folks over to give me bunnies too :) -- However I will say this - if I don't know the fandom or characters, it may not get written or become something entirely weirdificated - but yeah. I need bunnies, I don't want to write a single story but a group of 91283742 stories.

Thanks for voting!!!!

Poll #1069292 NaNoWriMo
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: None

Give me a word or phrase

Give me a fandom and character or pairing

Or you can just give me a few more words and/or phrases :)

Tick?

Am screening comments cos in case there's ideas in 'em!!!!

ME: *sitting at table, waggling a foot absently whilst reading*
WIGGLEBIT: *giggles and starts 'shaking hands' with foot*

ELFBIT: TRAITOR!

MATE: I know... how about when we get the kids to bed.. you uh...
ME: Nip out to the corner store to get some I.C.E.C.R.E.A.M.?
MATE: You read my mind!
ME: We've been married SEVEN YEARS, and SEVEN's the number of PERFECTION, so OBVIOUSLY we have a PERFECT MARRIAGE! Also, I can read your mind.
MATE: Well, it's better than a lot of people's.
ME: Hey, joan cleaver didn't have fibromyalgia.
MATE: but you don't have eddie haskel.
ME: WHY DON'T I HAVE AN EDDIE HASKEL
MATE: You don't want an eddie haskel.
ME: YES I DO! HE CAN BE PLAYED BY DAN RADCLIFFE!
MATE: *insert husbandly groan of amused eye rollyness here*

MOVIE = A;KDSJF;AKLSJD;KLJA YES!!!!!!!!

I am very happy, despite the couple of things I wish they'd been able to keep in.

It was well done.

It didn't slaughter Dumbledork's character like GoF did.

I am filled of yay.

...And last night I dreamed people were made of sand, and umbridge was trying to wash us all away, but we held strong.

Then again I only got about four hours LOL.

I am yay.

There are pictures! me and tehlils went with her sister.

In costume. (I was Bellatrix, she was random gryffindor partier :) )

(PLEASE to be ignoring the fact I hadn't fully laced up my corset yet, and thus look icky belllyful. I'll try to fight my way into the costume again sometime with it laced properly, but the laces kept breaking so I had to go with loose lacing :( darn postpregbelly)



( But wait! There's MORE!!!! )

I'm trying to read through all the Harry Potter books before the new one comes out (less than two weeks!?!) - and JUST finished Sorcerer's Stone last night (Hey, I live on the west side of the pond, give me a break).

Anyhow, right at the end, after all the cool and semi-cool stuff happened, a bit of Harry's conversation with Bumbledork Dumbledore smacked of foreshadowing, at least to me.

Page 300 - American Softcover.

"...-Quirrell said [Snape] hates me because he hated my father. Is that true?"

"Well, they did rather detest each other. Not unlike yourself and Mr. Malfoy. And then, your father did something Snape could never forgive."

"What?"

"He saved his life."

(Bolding mine)

SO here's my hypothesis. This is foreshadowing the final book (Hasn't Rowling said that she had the end written before she finished writing the first book?) - in that Harry and Draco are a history repeating itself somewhat differently of James and Snape.

Now, the fact that Draco seems to be following in footsteps similar, but a bit less brave, to Regulus Black (I really do believe he's the one who switched the lockets - but either way he wanted out of the Death Eaters, and was killed almost immediately for it) - and so unless Harry saves him (Wouldn't he be the only one TO save him? Shipping concerns aside, he's the only one who saw what happened up on the tower - I'm sure he could find a LITTLE mercy for Draco, considering just because they had a schoolboy rivalry, doesn't mean they want each other DEAD.).

I think I got myself lost somewhere in the parenthesis. Anyhow - I predict that Draco won't die, because Harry will save him (quite possibly in the nick of time).

Just my thoughts. And the fact I really want to see him survive. After all, Rowling wished him a happy birthday - and why would she wish him a happy birthday in the 2k's if he dies before y2k?

Today, I did battle.

No, that isn't right.

Today... I tortured. I mutilated. I cut limbs off a living being one by one, leaving stubs in my wake.

Where there was beauty, there is now devestation. Small bits of life, cowering like a child behind their mother's skirt - even as she is cut down. Desecrated.

Today I did terrible, awful things, in attempt to make a better world.

I mutilated so there would be the keeping of a life.

I tortured, on the whim of those who are as dictators over me. I dare not say benevolent, for if they had been so, they would have allowed life without desecration.

Today I hate myself, more than I have done in a very long time.

I wish the wounds I received would scar, but it is likely they will heal, leaving no trace of themselves in memory.

Only the scar on my mind, and the desperate hope that life will thrive despite torture.

That someday I can be forgiven.

I may never forgive myself.

Translation to the Mundanes: - cut about three feet off my Yew. :( Not Happy, but I had No Choice. It was that, or letting them tear him out.

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