I never know what to put here...
This journal is becoming rather too obsessed with my love life at the moment. This will stop soon, probably when I decide to have another self-enforced period of "not even trying" as opposed to the current "lots of things almost happening, but nothing really happening."

Just had coffee with J (43-year-old guy from church) - managed to get across the message that I didn't want a relationship with him, but was happy to be friends, which was nice.

Feeling quite guilty about the situation with F - I just feel I needed a few days to sort my head out, but I should have told him that. Airse. And I don't have his contact details, I just promised I'd see him at choir next Wed. Aaiirrsse. Anyway, I have now decided that I don't want to start a new relationship now unless it's one that I want to be permanent - I can't do short-term, as a Christian or as a person, it would just feel wrong.

B and I went out with seven American girls last night. Seven very friendly, very tactile American girls. And they all hugged us after we'd walked them home. So that was good. It was all strictly friendly though - again, since they're only here until May, nothing's going to happen from my point of view (probably).

Edinburgh University Symphony Orchestra need a new librarian, and I have been asked if I'd be on the committee. It's tempting, as there's so much stuff that could change, but as a non-student I don't feel that comfortable with it, and don't know if I'll have time - I will probably end up doing it if nobody else from Symphony wants to, though. Grr. (Although it does mean being on the committee with S...)

*mental note: must control scary stalker tendencies*

Well, this is a controversial one. Usually, I like these people individually but don't agree with their views (as with my friend Michael whose wedding I was at.) I don't believe we have any right to force our views upon others - this rules out evangelists. If people seem definitely interested in Christianity, or haven't had a chance to hear about it, then by all means tell them, but you have to give them space to make up their own minds. Christianity should be spread by example, not by rhetoric. I don't get along with people who take the Old Testament and all its prohibitions, bans and outdated traditions more seriously than the New Testament. I don't get along with people who take Paul's meditations on the life of Christ more seriously than the New Testament. There's a theme developing there. The most important thing for me about Christianity is the teachings of Jesus - these are what make us Christians, not the Bible. I hate disagreeing with people, but feel with these views that I have to. Their priorities are wrong.

Otherwise, went to church and sang and had our quarterly communion, then spent most of the day hungover, playing Grand Theft Auto (damn, it's addictive). Got a Radiohead CD for £7.99 and three Bob Marley CDs, £4.99 for the pack, in the HMV sale, which was the week's top bargain.

Dixon's were nice to me - I bought two print cartridges, and they had a three for two offer on, but only the two left that fitted my printer, so they gave me a note saying I can claim the free one next time they have it in stock.