I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long
I've been guessing - I coulda been guessin' wrong
you don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
does that whole mad season got ya down

I feel stupid but it's something that comes and goes
I've been changin' - think it's funny how no one knows
we don't talk about - the little things that we do without
when that whole mad season comes around

so why ya gotta stand there
looking like the answer now
it seems to me - you'd come around
I need you now
do you think you can cope
you figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless
bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

I feel stupid - but I think I been catchin' on
I feel ugly - but I know I still turn you on
you seem colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
will that whole mad season knock you down

so are you gonna stand there
are you gonna help me out
you need to be together now - I need you now

now I'm cryin' - isn't that what you want
I'm tryin' to live my life on my own
but i won't
at times - I do believe I am strong
so someone tell me why, why, why
do I feel stupid
and I came undone

--Mad Season, Matchbox Twenty

Due to unnecessary drama at college, this journal from this date forward is friends only. If you would like to join the madness, just leave a comment.

::Scuttles off into the night::

Here's everything the card says:

DROP AREA PASS

You have been assigned to the Crossroads or Farside Residence Halls. Follow the directions below when you arrive on campus for the start of Orientation.

Remember, check in begins at 8:30 AM and ends at 12:00noon.

1 from the main entrance:
>bear right onto Loop Road.
>Proceed a little over one half mile.
>Your drop area will be on the left before the cobblestone.
>follow the directions of the Orientation staff in gold shirts.

2 Check in and unload:
>Orientation staff will guide you to your check-in location.
>Once you have checked in, unload your belongings from your car to the edge of the Drop Area.

3 Once Unloaded, head for the Main Parking Lots:
>Turn left out of the Drop Area.
>Proceed around the Loop Road, going straight through one stop sign.
>The Main Lot will be on the left.
>There will be signs and staff in gold shirts to guide you back to your residence.

The residence halls do not have elevators, and there will not be enough staff to assist in moving you in. You may want to bring a cart or dolly, and a couple of family or friends to help. (I don't think we need to worry, Kait, because by the time you get there I'm sure I'll be done moving in ~_^)

Leave this on your dashboard!

(So I guess that means you do need one of these cards. I think you should call...someone...in transit and let them know that you never received your information and see what you should do. Yes.)

Now, Geoff is here, so I'm going to go now. ::heartsandrainbowsandloveandhappiness:: He's showing me all his hi-tech geek stuff. XDD

I'm a tad slow today. I'll blame it on the fact that GDN's other personality, Nicole, has been busy.

Came back from feeding the pets, and the person the perp pretended to be was OL. Didn't notice for a good five minutes. ^^;; Then IMed real person, but this person is on away. so I'm questioning one of real person's friends to figure out if perp was real person or imitatior. However, this friend doesn't really know much, and neither does ANYONE. So it seems more likely that perp wasn't the person they claimed to be. but can't be sure until I can question real person's (ex?)__friend or real person themselves.

So yes. Anyone confused yet? XD

I have set a trap. Friend of person is going to IM person if they come back from away (if I leave before they do) and ask if they know my screenname. If not, case closed. If they do, more investigation needed. Actually, either way more investigation is needed. I wanna know WHO the perp was if not real person...

Yeah. So. I'm just a little excited about tomorrow. And a little anxious and nervous. But mostly just excited. XD

I'm doing a few last loads of laundry. Tomorrow I need to pack my alarm clock and pajamas...I think that's all. ::ponders this really quick:: I'll have to double check to make sure I've got everything. When dad gets home I'm going to start packing up the van. XD How exciting. ::rolls eyes.::

Yeah. So I picked out a monitor today. Almost got a 15" flat panel for $199 (after a rebate, of course. -_-;; ) but settled with a 17" flat screen for like, $100. XD Because space is not really an issue, and the flat screen is bigger for less money. So yes. I can't wait to use it and whatnot.

Various college missions:
Find someone with PS1/2 and DDR.
Find someone with a car.
Make better friends with my roommate (yeah, that should be #1...)
Hook up my computer.
Set up my room.
Do a little college dance.
Sleep.
Wake up.
Do another college dance.

Yep. Sounds about right. XDD Obviously those are NOT in priority order. XD

XXDDD I love Vincent and Thurston. XD

Yeah, that line has nothing to do with anything, but I just re read "A Day Off", and it makes me laugh every time.

Nothing happened today. Well, I'm sure something happened somewhere, but no where near me. Tomorrow I'm to go to the bank with dad to switch my account so I can use an ATM card (did he wait long enough? Answer=yes. I now need to withdraw money ANYWAY to get the books I need. ::Sigh:: ), and then go to Best Buy and get a monitor. And probably a larger surge protector. Because, duh. If I get a surge protector with like, ten slots instead of six or howevermany I've got, I'll be able to fit both AC Adaptors, and probably whatever other stuff I need to plug in. ::Rolls eyes:: I'm a genius. A slow one.

But yes. After teaching Essie to ignore herself, and all my friends signing off AIM for various reasons, I went upstairs and took a nap. And slept 'til nine. Then got up and made macaroni and cheese. XD Then sat around for a good two hours while Alyssa talked on the phone. x_x

Watched Adult Swim. Now I'm here.

I told you my day was boring! DID YOU NOT BELIEVE ME?!

Yeah. So Essie invited me in a chatroom with her and Christina, but then Christina had to leave...so it was just Essie and myself.

And I decided to ignore myself because I was bored. XD So the conversation went like this:

( Don't you wish you knew what I was saying? )

I am so on crack. ::nod::

( Edit: Just taught Essie how to ignore herself. )

Now we're BOTH on crack.

...especially since I almost typed 'solly'. ^^;;

Anyway, I've got a new AIM screenname. I'm not giving up the one I use now, but in case, as AIM likes to do, it won't let me sign on under "QuatreRaberba04", I'll either use "SubjectOfTowels" or (this is the new one) "G Detective N"

Hmm. Can anyone guess where THAT one came from?

Moving on, my muses have been strangely silent lately.
Vincent Muse: No, we HAVEN'T! You've just been ignoring us!
Sirius Muse: Yeah, and we don't appreciate that much, y'know!
Nicole: ::looks out the window:: Aww, there's a cute little kitty outside!
Sirius and Vincent Muses: OI! Stop that! ::Flailflail!::
Vincent Muse: You still owe me that 'abomination' story! It'll be fun!
Sirius Muse: And you still own me that one story!
Vincent Muse: ::Glare:: She owes you nothing. She's written more stories for you than she has for me! ME FIRST!
Thurston Muse: ::walks in:: Oh, Nicole! There you are.
Nicole: Oh, hey Thurston Muse!
Vincent and sirius Muses: ::Facevault::
Thurston Muse: ::sits at table with a mug of tea:: I was wondering if you couldn't start that story about my first day of teaching.
Nicole: Maybe later. Right now I'm kinda sleepy. I still have to pack.
Thurston Muse: Understandable. Just wanted to make sure you didn't forget.
Vincent Muse: Hey! HEY! DON'T IGNORE ME! ::Waves hands in nicole's face::
Nicole: oh, have you seen the two loudmouths around? They've been awfully quiet...
Thurston Muse: Ah, I've grown rather used to tuning them out, so I really couldn't tell you.
Nicole: ::Shrug; goes back to looking at the cat::
Vincent and Sirius Muses: ::Make faces at Thurston and Nicole; flail around; throw things; throw tantrums; throw eachother...::

Yep, all in all a fairly quiet day...

Figures! When I close down the office and do detective-y things on my own, the perp shows up!

Perp is cleverly ignoring me, so I don't know how far this questioning is going to go. It would help if some of my informants were online to give me information and to help me corner this person, but unfortunately I am working alone.

>_< And my new computer has been packed away. I hope the new monitor will come with a power cord, because if I take the one for this monitor my dad might kill me. I already stole jumpers and the tower's power cord from the old computer. ^^;; Ah, well, I'll find out tomorrow.

FUCK! The perp just signed-off AIM. ::Shakes fist:: WELL SCREW YOU TOO! YOU'LL NEVER ESCAPE GDN! ::gives chase::

Oh...man....oh...

::melt::

Just had a professional, full-body massage..::dies:: I could've had that done all friggin' day. *_* I think, seriously, everyone should get a massage every so many years or something. If you do it too often I'm certain it would lose it's greatness (of course, this was my first professional one, so I dunno..), but once every like, ten years, would be fantastic. I mean...I am so relaxed right now I could just totally melt. It was so relaxing and wonderful and ::gush::

Oh, then I got to come home and show dad my trenchcoat. He thought it was really cool and a good deal, so XP to my mom. XD

Anyway, yes. Massage=heaven.

I really want to change my theme. I think that'll be one of the first things I do when I get to Purchase (I mean, after all the stuff I have to do. XD) Still not 100% sure what it'll be, but I wanna use Ingrid's Vincent/Thurston chibis. XD So I'll probably scan some Dragon Knights and Clover, plus Ingrid's artwork of puppies and V/T, and use b&w as a theme of somesort.

Tomorrow I'm packing up the new computer. I'm getting a monitor on Friday, the VCR is staying sealed until I get to college. ^^;; Still need to sort through some of my clothes and decide what's going and what isn't. ::sweatdrop::

AAAANNNNDDDDDD...I hope Purchase sells "You've Got To Read This" on campus. The discussion isn't until Monday, so if I can buy it I can read the stories I couldn't find. I just dunno if they'd sell it since it isn't a college book. ::sigh:: Ah, well, I'll just blame it on them. XP

( My battle cry! )

Anyway, yes. DUDE. I just went shopping with the intention of buying a sweatervest that I saw in the mall the other day...

...and instead I came home with a $35 dollar TRENCHCOAT. It rocks so hardcore it's almost SCARY. Of course, mom's mad at me for doing this, because she said I should've saved my money to buy 'other things' but screw that. Usually I can resist certain temptation, but this trenchcoat..I was expecting it to be $60, and when it was only $35 I was like..."Must...have...NOW!"

Hell, next summer I'm gonna get a job anyway, and if books cost $500 I still have plenty in my account to get them...and this coat was TOTALLY worth it. ::drool::

::heartsandstarsandrainbowsandbunnies::

AND I get to go have a massage at 5:30. ::grin::

I just need to figure out how I'm getting anything else I need for school now that my mom is going to the wake. ::ponders this:: I wish I could go. >_< ::Hugs Kait::

But...yes...gah...::loves the trenchcoat::

Gah...Devon...I know there was *something* I was supposed to LJ about and I FORGOT. So, if you or PiPC or Harvey remember, be sure to let me know.

First off: I feel bad because today was one of the best days I've had in a while. Despite the fact that you and you had really bad days. I know it's stupid, which is why this is a weird type of day. I had a blast, but just sitting here right now I feel really sad for both of you. Just know I love you both very dearly.

So. Hung out with Omar and John and Devon today. John has been dubbed, for the Detective Story, Harvey the Photographer, but he's the annoying kind that always gets kidnapped and needs to be rescued. So yes. There was that.

Bought a VCR and "Spirited Away" with Omar and John while Devo was at play practice. Fun times in Wal-Mart. Omar purchased Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers. XD Mmm, hobbit!slash!

So we came to my place and I had John and Omar watch Spirited Away. I love Haku. Like...more than I should. ::Laughs:: He r0xx0rs. And I'm still so MAD that he and Chihiro can't remain together because they're like...one of the only straight couples I endorse.

Then I picked up Devo while Omar and John finished the movie, and Devo brought his PS2, DDRMax (John had Konamix), and Gitaroo Man (sp?).

Here's what I need to LJ about:

Devon....did THE most SEDUCTIVE DDR dance EVER. In the WORLD. It was sex-hay! He had everyone turned on. XD It was to "Remember Me" (or is it "Remember You"? Or am I just making that up?)...and damn...it was...gah. XD Amusing, and strip-y. He took off his shirt and humped the pad and...dude...it was great. I wish I had a camcorder. XDD It rocked my world!

So then we played Guitaroo Man (i'm gonna spell it different every time!). That game ROCKS! I sucked hardcore at it, but it was so much FUN. Omar rocked the house with his skillz, though XD. So, we played that for a bit, and then put in LoTR: TT. DUUUDEEEE...yeah. Everyone already knows the greatness. It was fun. We couldn't help but make fun of some parts, and I know SOMETHING was said/done at this point that I was supposed to LJ about and I forgot! ::sob!::

Today was a good day.

Went out to dinner with dad. He started flipping out about 'am I taking enough credits' because I foolishly mentioned to him that I (as of right now) have Fridays and weekends off. ::Sigh:: I tried explaining things to him, but like usual, he didn't listen.

But yeah. Hanging with Omar, John and Devon was great. Definitely enjoyed myself.

Oh, and I need to make Devon/Gamera slash. XD

I cannot WAIT for my massage tomorrow. I'm so SORE from Tennis yesterday...::dies::

Today I'm snooping around with PiPC (bad_omen) and Sidekick Boy (gamerahsc)! So, arch-nemisis (himemiya_chan), you better not be up to no good or we'll fry yo ass!

Oh, and I'm hanging out with Charlie and John too. XD

Am planning to get a VCR. Yes. And possibly 'Spirited Away'. ::hearts::

::twitch:: It's so damned EARLY.

Oh, Secretary (pocky_slash), you're in charge of the office today while PiPC, GDN, and SB are out on the case! SO NO EXTENDED BREAKS! do you HEAR ME? I don't care if the damn Sandwich Hut EXPLODES. You are NOT to leave the office closed for more then..oh, I'll be nice and say 30 minutes at a TIME. And you have to be in the office at LEASE two hours between breaks.

And remember, I'm GDN, so I *will* find out if you closed the office longer. ::Glare::

QuatreRaberba04: Did I kill you?
Puppet523: No I'm taking a coffee break
QuatreRaberba04: How many GOD DAMNED BREAKS do you NEED?!
Puppet523: I'm a complicated person you wouldn't understand
QuatreRaberba04: I wouldn't need to if I FIRED your ass!
Puppet523: You need me for this case
QuatreRaberba04: I don't! I have your information filed away!
Puppet523: but but.....
QuatreRaberba04: Stop taking so many damned breaks!
Puppet523: ok ok
Puppet523: jeez
QuatreRaberba04: Excellent...Now get me some coffee too! Maybe if you ASKED if I wanted some when you LEFT I wouldn't be so honkin' mad!
Puppet523: how do you take it?? two sugars and a horse tranq
QuatreRaberba04: Oh. You're funny.
QuatreRaberba04: You and my secretary are just so fuckin' hilarious.
Puppet523: Can I have a secretary?
QuatreRaberba04: no! You're my partner! We share an office! she's technically your secretary too!
QuatreRaberba04: And just how many people do you think'll work for no pay?!
Puppet523: ahhhhh.....ok....understood

I'm closing the office for the night. ::Grabs hat and trenchcoat and heads out the door::

Arch-Nemisis! I know you gave my PiPC amnesia!:

QuatreRaberba04: There you are, PiPC!
Puppet523: I know you're probably talking to Geoff.....
Puppet523: ???
Puppet523: ::puzzled::
Puppet523: PiPC?
QuatreRaberba04: Partner in Preventing Crime.
QuatreRaberba04: Didn't you read the post?
QuatreRaberba04: ::Gasp!:: YOu have amnesia!

And to top it all off, he reads "A Day Off"..^^;;

Puppet523: I've seen some pretty gay stuff in my day
QuatreRaberba04: Really?
QuatreRaberba04: Watching that gay porn, are you?
QuatreRaberba04: I think you should read "Of Lights and Shadows" That'll give you a better idea of my...talent...
Puppet523: ok
Puppet523: GAY PORN ROCKS MY SOCKS!!!!!
Puppet523: WOOOoooooOOOOOOO!!!!

I <3 my PiPC!

Vincent Muse: ::From other room:: NICOLE! NICOLE!
Nicole: ::Who was just sneaking around being GDN (Great Detective Nicole):: What?
Vincent Muse: ::Enters the room dragging Thurston Muse, kicking and screaming, behind him:: We just got this smashingly funny idea...
Thurston Muse: We? WE?! I had NOTHING to do with this! In fact, I'm totally OPPOSED to this! I hope she KILLS you! ::Tries to writhe out of Vincent Muse's grasp::
Nicole: Man, if Thurston's reaction is any indication, this is gonna be one helluva story..
Vincent Muse: ::Grin:: Oh, lets just say it involves a certain boy having an allergic reaction to some lubricant...::cackles::
Thurston Muse: ::BLUSH!:: SHUT UP! What are these IDEAS that you come up with?!
Nicole: ::Dies laughing:: Oh...man...I will have to write that, you know..
Vincent Muse: I know.
Thurston Muse: ::Facevaults:: What? NO!!
Nicole: Yes. XP
Thurston Muse: ::Sob::
Nicole and Vincent Muse: ::cackle into the darkness::

::Curtain close::

Vincent Muse: ::Creeps in, pulls Sirius Muse off to the side.:: Hey. I got this crazy idea...
Sirius Muse: ::Rolls eyes:: And that's different from any other day how?
Vincent Muse: ::Glare:: Listen to me, would you? ::Sirius Muse is silent:: What if we teamed up against Nicole. Then we'd both get a story written.
Sirius Muse: ::Scoff:: I don't want to be in a story with you!
Vincent Muse: We wouldn't be in it. It'd just be very general, so it could apply to either of us.
Sirius Muse: ::ponders:: I kinda like that idea...
Thurston Muse: What are you two doing over there?
Remus Muse: Yeah...::They join Vincent and Sirius Muse.::
Whispering: ::Ensues::
Muses: ::Agree to work together::
Nicole: ::wanders into the room, oblivious:: Hey guys! Glad to see you're finally awake!
Vincent, Sirius, Remus and Thurston Muses: ::Evil grins; grab Nicole and tie her to a chair::
Vincent Muse: ::Leans over and whispers in Nicole's ear:: Now...if you value your life you'll do exactly as we tell you...

::Curtain closes::

Nicole: ::Opens the door to her office to find...A BLANK E-MAIL waiting for her in her inbox:: ::doesn't notice:: Son of a Bitch! What do I PAY you people for?! I need a freakin' janitor or something...::Sits down at desk and shuffles through case files:: No progress...no progress....::notices blinking screen on computer:: What's this?...::opens e-mail:: Nothing?! No one sends a blank e-mail unless...they're PURE EVIL!! ::Gasp!:: It can only be...ARCH-NEMISIS! ::saves e-mail as a new case:: I will DEFEAT YOU! ::shakes fist into the empty office::

Now then...WHERE THE HELL ARE MY EMPLOYEES?!!

(Oh, did I mention Rebecca really wants to see Bowling for Columbine? Booya.)

Everyone should thank their lucky stars for the movie "The Crow". If not for me wanting to watch that movie, I would not have received the phone call from my roommate.

She sounds like a sweetheart. She's not into anime, but she HAS seen Princess Mononoke, and was interested in it, and would like to see more. I'm going to show her Spirited Away and some of my other anime. XD She's very open-minded, although she's never read Harry Potter.

Kait, get this: I told her about you and me, and her BEST FRIEND is going to Purchase too! And they're like you and me! AND they both wanna see RENT, so I told her we could arrange a weekend where the four of us went into the city. Oh, and her friend (Elise I think her name was) is really into Harry Potter, so that's a plus. XDD

Rebecca really sounds sweet. ^_^ And she's taking some journalism courses (she's debating between Journalism and a Music Major XDD), so I might have Journalism with her. XD And she loves music, so her and I are going to have an extensive CD collection. XDD She's bringing a minifridge, and I'm taking care of the TV and VCR hookup. I feel bad, because she's tried to call like 50 times and I'm always OL. ^^;;

But I explained to her my unhealthy addiction with the internet, and she understands. XD

Also, she loves writing as well. So, we've got two of my biggest things, writing and music, in common. And she's open to anime, and DUDE, she plays guitar! She r0xx0rs, literally. XD Now all I have to do is find a PS2 somewhere with DDR...::ponders::...

So yes, that was my Roommate Experience. I'm even more excited about going to college now. XDD

House: ::Is silent::
Nicole: ::looks around:: This is...very strange indeed. Vincent Muse and Sirius Muse are not fighting...in fact...none of my muses are anywhere to be found...I just hope they're still around. ::fretfret:: Maybe it's better that they aren't since I've got to start packing.
Thurston Muse: ::Walks in from the kitchen with a cup of tea:: Speaking of packing, you might want to be careful what you mention, because without Vincent and Sirius fighting, even that inspired me.
Nicole: Thanks for the warning.
Thurston Muse: ::walks back to the bedroom::

Anyway, I began packing some stuff today, and have determined this:
I have too many damned graphic novels. x_x I can't get all the books I want to bring to college to fit in the HP box because of all my graphic novels. Oh, and Dragon Knights is 17 issues long. ::happy!bounce!:: But yes. Packed the luxury books I want to bring, and started packing my writing stuff.

Oh, Kait, "Back To Me" by Nine Days. There are a few references to 'she', but otherwise, it's spot-on.

No developments in the detective case. Once again my office is dead. ::pouts::

I know there was something else I was going to post about, but I've forgotten it by now. ::nod:: Ah, well.

Edit: "Wanna Be" by Nine Days
"Crazy" by Nine Days

Just read the lyrics and we'll pick and choose later. ::nod::

I just need to take a minute to gush about something.

I am so incredibly proud of 'Eulogy', it is not even funny. I am so, so proud of that story I can't even begin to form it in words. It doesn't matter to me if it only gets like two reviews (Although I'm pretty sure it has more than that already), or howevermany. I am just so satisfied with that story, and I just...am so happy and, for once utterly proud of myself and my work.

Screw Purchase's Creative Writing Program. I don't need it to do this. (And neither does Kait, but I'm sure it'll prove useful ~_^).

And although most the people who have commented/will comment on that story will probably never look here, I just want to take the time to thank them all. Seriously. Especially the people I don't know, because so far their comments have been exactly what I hoped to hear. My story moved them, and my story was 'amazing' to them and explained the characters so well. They agreed with Sirius's character development and Remus's eulogy. They loved it.

And the fact that these people who have never spoken to me before in my life can take away exactly what I wanted them to from this story really gives me hope that if I want to be a writer, I will be able to do it.

I can't...even begin to express how utterly pleased I am with that story. Essie, and all other who always begrudgingly read my stories, you need to do me the favor of reading this one and leaving a comment. Because as of right now, I think this story represents exactly where I want to be as writer, exactly how I feel about Remus and Sirius, and damnit, this story, despite its sadness, is making me so bloody happy right now.