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lj doesn't like my html. it's reading it funny. anyways, sorry to annoy you all more with more posts...
and a test <a href
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| fudged up the last post ;) |
[12 Sep 2003|08:43pm] |
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guessing i'm going to mess this up a couple times :/ sorry all. been busy on all kindsa crazy stuff, all crazy stuff going on lately, if you read mel's (somavenus') journal, you might know. anyways.... sorry to pop back onto my livejournal by making a test post :/ miss you all still. anyways... hope this post works.
if yer interested in the client checkout weblogimages.com now and then, it's my baby of a project lately. yeh, I should probably give out some freebie accounts to cool people who are friends :) if you're interested in some freebie image hosting, lemme know and I'll hook you up. Text me a msg on my phone @ <a href
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| testing an lj client i built. |
[12 Sep 2003|08:30pm] |
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been busy on all kindsa crazy stuff, all crazy stuff going on lately, if you read mel's (somavenus') journal, you might know. anyways.... sorry to pop back onto my livejournal by making a test post :/ miss you all still. anyways... hope this post works.
if yer interested in the client checkout weblogimages.com now and then, it's my baby of a project lately. yeh, I should probably give out some freebie accounts to cool people who are friends :) if you're interested in some freebie image hosting, lemme know and I'll hook you up. Text me a msg on my phone @ <a href
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[16 Apr 2003|02:08pm] |
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) kaiju8 saved the day ;) thanks for checkin' ma man.
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| huuuuuuge favor :D |
[16 Apr 2003|01:47pm] |
anyone bored reading their journal right now? i need some help from the outside world.
http://www.medicaidpractice.com
http://www.carbonecars.com
http://www.carbonebmwonline.com
if they DO come up, lemme know.
if NOT, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, give me your nameserver information...
in windows.... right click my networkplaces, properties, and the DNS tab, there should be TWO entries, post them both to me.
response ASAP is super appreciated.
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| another interview...... |
[20 Mar 2003|11:23am] |
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went in to the same company for another interview.... now i'm waiting at the library near by for mel....
bah, computers that are all locked up, you can't even use the start menu, but..... knowing what aweful things you could do to the PC, i understand what the deal is with that lol.
gonna try to find a javascript telnet thinger, cause i -need- telnet, w/o a port out into another world, i'm just sitting at a IE machine for another half hour. maybe i'll read more slashdot, w/o a job, i've been pumpin' slashdot like a m0f0 lately, hehe.
mood = annoyed, because it's -funny- as all get out kids playin' mad games on these pc's. blip bing bong ping p0ng b0ng jing sling bang b00m slam b0mb crash schlaaaping. it's annoying but, it's great. there was never anything as fun as games at a library when i was a kid. if they did have a computer... definately did not have games.
anyways.... the second interview went well. a little more technical granularity than the first interview, which is good. i'm better with the technical schtuff anyhow.
so, here's an email i sent to the mel meister, i'll pass it along to you all if you wish to see what went down...
( saving ya some space on ye old friends page... i know it can be a commodity, especially when I get chatty like a chatty cathy doll )
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| interviews = some weird andrenaline rush |
[18 Mar 2003|02:17pm] |
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it's weird interviewing after giving interviews. you know a little more how the guy on the other side of the table feels. i don't know if it gives me any real advantage, but.... at least a different perspective.
anyways.... i think it went well. damn, i was there for at least 90 minutes. which is probably a good sign. i think most people would want to get a stale candidate out of there pretty quick, i know from giving interviews, that... they're a chunk of time out of your day. which can often suck if you're busy.
talked to three different people, 1 the guy whose job i would have, 2 the big boss with the hot sauce and 3. the sales guy, or at least the guy who seems to work most intimately with the clients.
#1 guy was nice. we had a fun conversation, talked about using different technologies for web dev. they're using a smidgen of cold fusion and a lotta "inline perl" (if that's the right terminology for it) for dynamic web, but, they want to move towards PHP, which is where I come in. this guy is moving on to do systems maintenence via contract thru the company, so... in effect, he'd be taking care of the servers, and i'd just have to worry about straight-up development. which is cool, then I don't have to be bothered with upgrading and setting up shit, just code it on down the line. we also talked about web serving with a linux box at home. he noticed i have my portfolio webpage on my linux box at home, and was asking me about it, like, do I have a static IP, what's the upload cap, just BS'in, i guess he wants to set up a webserver at home.
#2 guy, the big boss. he was kind of the "rah rah shish koom bah" company cheerleader, I think I had a good conversation with him. He explained a couple of their current projects and was asking me if I had the skills to implement them. I brought along some printed out screenshots of my workflow and showed them to him to demonstrate this is how i go forth with a project. I think it was apporpriate, cause they were screenshots from my phpmediax (go check it out, the php mediax site check it, and that has a user-login and administration abilites, and he was asking if I could do just that. also, he asked what I wanted for a salary, and I -hope- i didn't ask for too much.
#3 guy, the sales guy. he was cool. now, he knew how to give a good interview. he had good questions and really kept the banter going. asking me how about what would you do in this situation, what if the client asked you this question, what if the stress is really high and there's 14 priority jobs how do you react. i think i did ok. he was nice to talk to though, made some small talk, we talked about video games a bit. that's cool.
also, as a side note... those guys must've read -everything- on my online portfolio, cause, they all asked about one particular line in my bio where I say that i'm looking to relocate. so, when they gave that question, I gave a "rah rah shish koom bah" for central new york and said of course i'm willing to stay here for this job, i just wasn't sure if I'd be able to find a web company that could use my skills here. even guy #3 (i do know their names, at least their first names, but, numbers are good, secret agent man) asked me "how did you get started into this line of work?" and I went to give my anecdote about how I slung my first line of code when i was in the third grade, and he knew the anecdote, i put it in my bio, which is way lengthy, i'm surprised anyone read it. if they read that, they must've been at least partially interested.
anyways.... they said they'd make a descision by the end of this week. which is pretty quick, so, i guess i'll keep my fingers crossed :D
i sent in a follow up letter after too, hope it helps.
anyways... just tryin' to shake the weird post-interview adrenaline rush, maybe I'll go play some vice city. i'm supposed to clean up the house for the mel meister, but, i dunno if I've got the schutz-pah (sp?) to do it. i'm worn.
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[05 Feb 2003|10:16am] |
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well, there is some good news... i'm going to be able to pick up a good interim job!
w00t! melanie's boss has a side business doing network/database schtuff, and he's going to hire me to fix up an access database for a non-profit.... i start either next monday or next friday, err, maybe shortly after that. this is good. #1. i want some non-profit experience, some places ask for that. #2. melanie's boss seems like a nice/funny guy, and i sorta know him, well, at least i had dinner with him one time at a christmas party for mel's work. #3. it's almost three times the pay i was making, which will help me accumulate some cash for moving, assuming i can't find paid relocation or get my parents to help (they've been begging me to move forever, so, they -might- help, i owe 'em money, so, that's another story).
anyways.... still lots to do at home.
the portfolio is a goddamn mess. i realized another really good portfolio piece i made that i've gotta clean up, an application for analyzing PET scans (sorta like a CAT scan, but, PET scans measure the metabolic activity of cells) in 3d which I made for University of Columbia school of medicine (thru my job at nth dimension). but, the GUI sucks on it.
here's the to do list.... more for me, but, i plan on showing you guys this stuff when it's presentable...
1. Modeling.
------- Paper Bag (working on a 3d model of a crumpled up paper bag)
------- Roman Soldier (model of a legionaire, for a character studio example)
------- Iraqi Map (gonna make a 3d map of the middle east, plot current events according to location on it)
2. 3d Code. (luckily i'm pretty caught up here, more clean up than coding necessary at this point)
------- Iraqi Map (gotta finish the model first, thank god for nasa satellite images)
3. GUI Redesign.
------- Rubiks cube. (cube looks great, gui looks like someone threw up on my application)
------- PET Scan (as above....)
4. MySQL / PHP / Other web shit.
------- phpMediaX (my little open source project i'm trying to found)
------- briar hill signworks page redesign / cleanup / photo-addition.
5. director code.
-------- thumbnail viewer (my dad has made his own collection of clip art [of mostly horses and other equestrian bullshit, he's gonna try to sell the artwork, he just needs an interface for people to use to pull up the art / save it. i'm draggin' my feet on this one, lost about 10 hours of work from not saving [god that's dumb] and since then i've lost my motivation)
anyways.... i'd go down and play some PS2 in celebration of scoring some work, but.... looks like i have so much work to do otherwise, i'll feel way to guilty to play video games.
peace!
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werkin' on my portfolio and resume today. i kinda hafta start my resume from scratch to show the bredth (sp?) of what I can. I can put the list of skills on my resume, but, who's gonna believe me w/o a portfolio?
so, i've got a couple real-time 3d examples i can use. I made a rubik's cube game, which is the best example, that hits home to people, cause everyone knows what a rubiks cube is. I also have a physics real-time example with a trebuchet.
i need a really good php/mysql example, so i'm making a piece of opensource software akin to phpBB(.com) -- but, it's more of a deviant art clone. it's going to be a bulletin board software that allows users to sign up and submit artwork, comment on other users artwork, etc. the point being that maybe I can toss that sucker on freshmeat/sourceforge or some shit and get a little attention / point to a URL where a potential future employer can see that I can infact make good reusable code for a dynamic website.
i've lost my good web contracts, so... i'm gonna touch up my father's webpage (briarhillsignworks.com), and maybe I'll try to get in touch with some people I can get some quick web work from. I've been a delinquient at keeping in touch with my contacts, but... as you guys know at LJ, i can often forget to keep in touch. I forget to keep in touch with my own family sometimes. I just get lost in whatever i'm working on at the time.
anyways..... poor mel has to go to traffic court today. and she's so worried. i would be too if i were her. in fact, i'm nervous cause she's so nervous. the best i can do is be there for her and give some big hugs. she's doin' the same for me, cause i'm nervous as shit cause i don't have work right now.
gah. anyways.... i could sit here and vent and all forever, but..... i've gotta get to work on my portfolio stuff. wish i had stuff better together now, so i could start 'spamming my resume out' if-you-will. but.... that'll come soon enough. i plan to really scour the web for work elsewhere in the US cause, i'm sick of where i'm living right now. plus, if I could score a decent job, my parents might be willing to help me with some money to move. which mel and I would -love- to do. I'd just love to move sooooo much. anywhere, i'd move anywhere to get a job. plus, there's a serious lack of industry that needs my kind of help where i live now. central new york -- armpit of the universe.
alright, love you all.
-d
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[31 Jan 2003|01:21pm] |
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well guys....
today is pay day for me, and... my boss couldn't pay me, cause he doesn't have the fuckin' dough. said he'd pay me next week, and i sorta trust that he will. if he doesn't, i'm gonna go ballistic.
so, alas, i'm at home, and i'm going to re-write my resume, try to tidy up shit for my portfolio, and get the show on the road.
i'm depressed i didn't get paid, and i'm depressed cause i liked that my job was kind of experimental and weird, even if it is low paying, but...
i'm happy to open a new chapter in my life. and with the skills i've gained, there's no way i can get a job making less money than i did before. so, i'm gonna grab my bootstraps, grit my teeth, and find a better job.
when the going gets tough -- the tough find a new job ;)
love you guys,
-doug
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| the blackdragonxx79 challenge. |
[14 Jan 2003|08:12pm] |
sorry i've been a complete lj delinquient :P i'll try to catch up sooooon, try try my best.
anyways... the blackdragonxx79 challenge!
this random person messaged me on aim, i have no clue who the heck they are, but somehow their name was in my buddy list, mysteriously. anyways, the challenege is to message this person on aim, and have a random conversation with them, and post it as a reply.
so add them, send them a message, and, have a rando convo before they call you an "ass" and block you (heheh), and then paste me the convo you have with this person. there's no need to be rude, but, be random.
anyways... if you're up to the challenege ;)
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Blackdragonxx79: hello
i5yq: yes?
Blackdragonxx79: who is this
i5yq: protocoldroid, aka doug.
i5yq: who is this?
Blackdragonxx79: its jake
Blackdragonxx79: hello
Blackdragonxx79: r u there
i5yq: i'm trying to place you.
i5yq: yeh.
i5yq: ....do i know you from deviantart, or livejournal? maybe newsgroups?
i5yq: do you use any of those?
Blackdragonxx79: no
i5yq: hmmm... i wonder how i have you on my list, ever remember addingme to yours?
Blackdragonxx79: k
Blackdragonxx79: hello
i5yq: hello.
Blackdragonxx79: how old
i5yq: i'm twenty two.
i5yq: and you?
Blackdragonxx79: im am 11
i5yq: lol, no kidding.
Blackdragonxx79: ye
i5yq: it wasn't all that long ago i was 11.
Blackdragonxx79: coll
i5yq: i used bbs's to go online though, no fancy-schmancy aol messenger in those days ;-)
Blackdragonxx79: hey:-P
Blackdragonxx79: ass
Blackdragonxx79 signed off at 8:03:17 PM.
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we're using the goddamn try-and-buy version of db2 at work, and... it's good for 90 days.
well... i must've installed it for the last time 90 days ago from today, cause it friggin' died today. noooooooooo! the linux box it's running on has been up for...
[db2inst1@ndn db2inst1]$ uptime
10:16am up 52 days, 3:23, 2 users, load average: 0.01, 0.32, 0.34
50 days, so that's probably the last time i noticed how many days are left in the trial, and now...
our fuckin' deadline is the 22nd -- a week and a day away. and the last thing i wanna do is hafta re-install db2, what a pain in the ass. total pain in the ass.
i might just port my shit all over to mysql to use for the time being. i'm so much more comfortable w/ mysql, and i can do it quicker, but... my boss can't know.... he's such an IBM fan, that.... he'd be totally bummed to hear we're using an opensource database.
oh well, it's my problem to fix, i'll be the one who worries about it. :/ such a major major bummer.
hopefully our hookup shows up tonight... i totally will need a big ole smoke out to bring balance to the force tonight.
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| freezepop |
[06 Nov 2002|08:08pm] |
freezepop kicks ass. it's just like, very very happy electronica, supa blipy, it's nifty. anyways... one of my highschool friends, jesse, who goes to WPI is actually friends with that band. and i just heard them on the electronica channel on "music choice" (a buncha commercial free music on my cable system).
that's pretty awesome. i hope they do well,
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| divamisa rawks :D |
[05 Nov 2002|06:11pm] |
...that's somavenus's sister, for those of you who don't know ;) twin sister in fact! twins! :D
she let mel borrow some space on her credit card so I could get a paid account again :) i'm glad mel and I are anti-more-credit-cards, but... alas, sometimes you need a credit card for schtuff like that.
so... i started updating my style so far only this page has been redone, but... it's looking half-decent thus far...
...and I updated my LJ icons a bit, weeded out some old crappy ones, and uploaded two new ones.
anyways... i gotta clean my keyboard tonight, this is grody, but... i have sticky keys, yick. i do spend a lot of time at my keyboard, so the sucker does have to be cleaned regularly, although it's a pain in the ass :/
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| ...back from the dead! |
[31 Oct 2002|04:00pm] |
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i know i've been such an LJ delinquient...... -major- delinquient, but...
i'll be back. i've just been lost in my work, and i've basically completed my project. i'm done freaking out (if you see my previous posts) and i've just been working on stuff that -I- want to work on. like... pumpin' up my personal webserver/webpage/etc.
which... you should check out if you're bored. note, this stuff is a -little- slow cause it's coming off a 200 mhz linux box that's on a capped cable connection, but... -please- still participate in my stuff :D please please!
check it out...
first, i pumped up the deathstar (deathstar is the name of my linux box, btw) homepage... (i still yet have to attatch the updated homepage to the site index, but.... regardless)...
http://deathstar.kjw.org.uk/deathstarlayout.php
i made a little dynamic news items thing for the homepage, and, also a shoutbox for the homepage.... so you can leave a shout if you wish :)
i also added a forum, using some open source software called phpBB2, which you can find my little forum @...
http://deathstar.kjw.org.uk/phpBB2/index.php
and.... just to top it all off, i also set up an IRC server on my linux box as well, it was kind tough to get going, but... it's up in all it's glory, i even added services to it too... like nickserv, chanserv, botserv, etc.
so, if you want, download mIRC (which you can get... here or d/l your fav irc client) i also plan to add a java IRC client to the webpage, at some point...
the irc addy?
deathstar.kjw.org.uk ------- port 6667
join me in #programming, or make your own chan and invite cool people ;) i rarely use regular IM programs (like AIM or MSN messenger) lately, cause they seem to bug me (i get interrupted when I least need to be), so... IRC would be a really cool way to interface w/ me ;)
anyways... check out my toys :D love you guys, peace!
http://
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| ...getting nervous. |
[21 Oct 2002|12:25pm] |
man. i'm starting to lose total hope in the company i'm working for.
aside from the fact that my boss is totally no good at delegating the workload... and aside from the fact that he doesn't have a clue about how much work goes into the programming, and on and on....
...I'm just losing hope that this company is going to make any money at all. I don't make dick for dough at the moment (if you count all the hours i work at home, i'm literally making like $1.25 / hr) , and although I actually enjoy the work (i'm programming, for those of you who haven't seen the 1300 mega geek posts about that).... I'm getting pushed just a bit too far. I'm getting asked to do things I just can't do in a timely manner.
also, my boss is asking me to basically stop working on the app i'm working on, and start working on another project. no one else can pick up where i've left off -- i'm the only one in the office who even knows -anything- about director pretty much. fuck it, i'm the only one in the office who even has a clue how to code..... this is a major problem because of this fact -- it's NOT DONE. It's just not usable, yeah, it might be 80% done, but... without that last 20%... it's not an application, it's a pile of code that doesn't do what it's supposed to do.
and my boss wants me to hand-off the job of designing the GUI of my (i call it mine cause i'm the only one who's worked on it) application to his graphically-design inept 17 year old son. this, i take as a major insult.... seeing that I not only have real world experience in design (designing web pages, and it doesn't hurt that I grew up the son of a sign crafter, and even worked for my dad designing/crafting signs for a year) and I went to school to study fine art for 2 years. I have more artistic ability in my friggin' toe nail than all the combined artistic ability of everyone in the office. anyways... it makes me mad, cause i'd like to go in and do it myself, cause... if this company doesn't work out -- I'm takin' that friggin' app and adding it to my portfolio -- and fuck yeh, i want it to look good.
anyways.... i do hope that shit works out with this company, but... my level of hope is dwindling quickly. i'm starting to consider what I'm going to do with myself if this doesn't work out. I'd hate to go back to doing shit-hole data entry jobs and fuck-hole-treated-like-a-piece-of-dog-shit-retard-with-added-leprosy-and-disease jobs after doing something that I genuinely enjoy.... I'd really like to compile what I've made while doing this work and send it along as a demo to some "big-shot gaurunteed some dough firms". like.... Industrial Light and Magic, or EA games, or Gas-Powered-Games or something. Maybe I'd have absolutely no shot what-so-ever, but.... I'm sick of not having a gaurunteed anything in my life, hell, it's half the time that I'm excited when melanie and I can eat some food that's not hamburger stew or toast.
anyways... i'm pissed at work right now, and so i can't concentrate, and if I can't concentrate, I can't get any fucking work done. check my last posts about mathematics -- no one, and I mean no one, can do that math without having a serious clarity of mind. this is what i do all day, nearly. so i'm ticked off that i'm ticked off, so it's a vicious circle and....
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recipe for my mood right now:
4 Tbls Nervousness
2 Qts Frustration
1 tsp Pure Anger
5 Cups Insecurity
Put Nervousness, Frustration & Anger in a food processor and blend on high. Slowly mix in Insecurity for 20 minutes, or until smooth. Put into a lobster pot and bring to a boil, lower heat to a simmer, and let cook all day long.
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| who kicks ass at solving algebraic expressions? |
[19 Oct 2002|04:15pm] |
alright, i've got one right here... cookie to the super genious who can figure this out, or help me figure it out...
xPos = middle_v[1] + (sin( pi*FI/180.0 ) * cos( pi*THETA/180.0 ) * R)
yPos = middle_v[2] + (sin( pi*FI/180.0 ) * sin( pi*THETA/180.0 ) * R)
zPos = middle_v[3] + (cos( pi*FI/180.0 ) * R)
(middle_v = the vector position of the sphere, i.e. middle_v[1] = x of the center point, etc)
these represent point on a sphere which can be manipulated by changing the values of FI, THETA and R (the radius)
assuming that I know the value of the xPos,yPos & zPos, the center point of the sphere and the Radius, how do I solve/breakdown the equation to get THETA and FI knowing those other values?
anyhow... this is relatively challenging :)
theta = theta
sideways theta = FI
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| hmmm. |
[14 Oct 2002|10:10am] |
i'm getting closer and closer to finishing my project for work, but... there's still thousands of lines to sling. like robert frost
The code is dirty, quick and cheap.
But there's another error beep,
and lines to sling before i sleep,
and lines to sling before i sleep.
anywho.... I miss my livejournal, I wanna get the project somewhat finished so I can behave like a normal human being again. I'm like a robot lately, if you don't talk to me about mathematics... i respond with an error, hahaha. anyways.... anyone who's gone down the serious code tunnel knows what i'm talking about :)
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