I have been letting the spam kind of clog up my comment box. I have over 65,500 spam comments to go through. If you've posted something to me like between 2006 and 2007 and you never saw it posted on here, well, it's because it's in the always lovely spam queue. I used to put it off because it would lock up my WP, but now I have like no excuse since they only show it 20 comments at a time. I just have to go through it 20 at a time and see what people have spammed me with. Some of the comments are actually sweet, if they weren't attached to spam, I might actually let them post to the site, but I'm not into the whole promoting spam thing.

I guess I better go now since we need to walk the dogs. I hope y'all are having a good night.

I received my first packages from Alloy and Amazon today. All the clothes that came today fit. Yay! If you want to see them, they have all been posted here in separate blog entries. If you don't feel like sifting through those twelve entries, then go to my Flickr and check them out. They're so purty. :) I also, like I said, got my shipment from Amazon today which contained the OneRepublic, Katy Perry, and Metro Station CDs. Yay.

So why do I shop online and through catalogs instead of in stores? You get a lot better deals in catalogs and online sometimes than you do in stores. And when you're looking for a specific size that doesn't come in stores offline, then it is better to do your shopping online where you may have to send the clothes back if they don't fit than to be so disappointed when you go to a real store and find clothes that definitely do not fit.

My mom checked with me to make sure I didn't "overspend", which according to my estimates from how she described how much money I should have saved, then I didn't. I spent the exact right amount. Of course, I got loads of stuff. All it takes is a keen eye to the sales and you can get a lot of stuff in just a few short purchases.

I've wondered if I have a shopping addiction, but I don't think I do. I think I know when to stop. Of course, that's usually when I reach my limit of how much I can spend. But I rarely overdraw my account, so I think I'm doing a bang up job. Don't you?

I can't wait until my other stuff gets here. I still have 6 DVDs, 1 CD, 1 sweater, 6 books, 1 bookmark, and some shirts that I ordered that haven't gotten here yet. They should be here soon.

Columbia House can't give me my information about the overcharge on the DVDs yet because they said I didn't give them enough information on their form. They wanted my full address to match up my account. So I sent it. It'll be another two days to find out why they double charged me. At least it was only $2.45 too much, but still $2.45 is a lot when you haven't had a lot of money. (Or any money.)

I pulled a muscle in my arm last night. Ugh! How? Well, I was changing clothes, and it just happened. Very painful. Maybe it'll feel better soon, or so I hope.

Welcome to the wonderful world of people who shouldn't care do, and people who should care don't. Apparently, when I did a search of some keywords related to the recent sentence of Benito Albarran, his case isn't well known among activists for the abolition of the death penalty. It is, however, known to those who want to rid the country of illegal immigrants. They (the activists) wanted to execute him pretty much for just being here and committing a crime. Let's forget the facts here. First of all, he has been described by doctors as being mildly retarded. Second of all, he has also been diagnosed as mentally ill. Now, just in case you haven't read anything about the death penalty and who its okay to execute lately, it is not okay to execute anyone who is mentally retarded...and in a way, you're not supposed to kill the mentally ill either.

How do I feel?

Well, I've never been pro-death penalty. I've always hated it. I believe the only being who should be able to determine if a person should die is God. Now, if God chooses to send a lightning bolt or something after Benito Albarran for killing the police officer 3 years ago, then He can do that. However, a state, a judge, or 12 people, who apparently didn't pay attention to the facts of the trial, should not get the opportunity to kill a man for his crimes. I know he did it, but that doesn't matter. You shouldn't get executed for committing a crime, especially if you're not necessarily in control.

He claimed to basically be possessed, so his attorneys tried for Not Guilty by Reason of Mental Disease or Defect. He thought that he was the Devil. Now, does that sound like something a sane man would say? No. I know that there is not really an official test that is 100% reliable to see if someone is "crazy", but there are tests to see if a person is mentally retarded, and his results came back that he was.

Of course, I know to some that doesn't matter because he's an illegal immigrant and therefore "has no rights as a human being". Well, he does. Everyone has rights. You can deny it to kingdom come, but it's true. We are born with inalienable rights no matter where we're born or where our official country of residence is.

And why is it that the judge in Albarran's case just flat out ignored that the man is retarded? I don't really have any answer to that. I do know that, even if he didn't get an automatic appeal, she just guaranteed him one. Maybe even a new trial, if other judges don't do the same thing ignoring that he's got some brain problems. Oh, and she ignored that a juror lied. Was that even responsible?

I just wish we lived in a country where things like the death penalty were abolished, where people were more concerned about the well-being of their neighbor than getting rid of people who came here "illegally" by any and all means necessary.

Having nothing to do with this post: Oh, and by being called sexist by the group of women who say that I have to like Palin 'cause she's a woman, just further infuriates me. They're all for making statements about Obama because he's got little or no experience, but they don't see the same things in Palin. They also don't see how other women could be a bit ticked off that the alternative to Obama basically another 4 years of something we don't even like NOW. I don't see why I should have to fake a smile about a woman who I don't think I would even like if I met her, considering that she supports everything I abhor (gun rights, etc.) and just seems fake, but maybe that's the beauty queen in her ticking off the feminist in me.

Oh, another thing that has nothing to do with the initial post, is that my clothes from 2 places have come. Three pairs of jeans fit, but five did not, even though they were ALL the same size and from the same brand. The three bras did not fit, even though they're the same size as some I have now that do fit. I am still waiting on my clothes from Alloy, and my other purchases from other places. I have to quit shopping because I need to have some money in the bank when my next bank statement comes. I have a feeling that when my mom sees all the stuff I have purchased, she's going to demand that I give up my check cards. She finally let me have them back, after taking them away for three years, and she's going to get so upset by my purchases, but I haven't had the opportunity to actually buy things for myself in a year and a half, except for groceries. I don't think I've gone overboard, and I may send some of the clothes back that I ordered because they probably won't all fit. I am keeping the DVDs (Gilmore Girls and an enrollment package from CH), CDs (Metro Station, GG soundtrack, OneRepublic, and Katy Perry), and books (the Twilight saga, another Stephanie Meyer book, and a cookbook) I ordered. I know it's going to tick my mom off, but I just had to get the stuff.

Oh, and one more thing, has anyone ever joined Columbia House DVDs? I just joined and they double charged by check card for the enrollment. It was only $4.90 total, but it was a little unnerving that they would charge me $2.45 twice. I get it if it didn't go through the first time, but it went through the first time, so it's a bit weird to me. I sent them an email asking them what was up, but they haven't told me yet. Of course, I only did that this morning 'cause it only happened this morning. I would like them to explain it to me quickly though because I don't like having a lack of control over my funds.

I would like to introduce the world to five new message boards. I know, you're probably thinking "Janet, did you not take your meds? You just said 5 boards!" Well, they're different...sort of.

They're "open", but they need themes and suggestions.

Societe Board - a board for those 20+
No More Bedlam - a psych/mental health board
Digitalized Scrappers - a forum for digital scrapbookers
Kiss My Tiara - a board for those 18+
The Water Cooler - a board for those 16+

And Celestial has officially closed.

Well, I think it's been sealed. My fate as a voter, that is. I was all prepared to vote for McCain because I REALLY do not like Obama. I mean, admittedly I was closer to him in my political beliefs than I was McCain, but I was just so annoyed with him and some of his choices, but McCain has sealed my fate as a person voting for Barack Obama.

How did he do this?

He chose a woman, which, as a former Hillary suporter, you would think would bring me to his side, but no, it didn't. He did not choose the RIGHT woman. He chose a woman who isn't even that woman like. Did he really think he would trick people by choosing a former beauty queen who doesn't have much experience outside of a town of less than 6,000 people who is all the things that Hillary wasn't? I don't think so. McCain is supposed to be smarter than that, but he clearly is not. He is ignorant of the kind of people he is supposed to be attracting. Many of the Hillary supporters were not conservative, in fact, most were not. They were centrists and liberals. You don't exactly get those voters by picking someone who is just like a person who is currently in office that those people cannot stand.

*sigh*

I went to church today, after two weeks of not going. I didn't go 2 weeks ago because I literally fell asleep while getting ready. I didn't go last week because I had gone to the YSA dance in Booneville the night before, and if you know anything about traveling with Fibromyalgia, then you know how difficult it is to ride in a car for like 3 hours each way. It was so difficult and I was so exhausted and in so much pain that I just about was in tears. I mean, I had fun and I would definitely do it again, but I just have to be more aware of how my body works next time.

I missed out on a YSA activity yesterday because of my Fibromyalgia. The activity was going canoeing. Now, admittedly, it wasn't going to be a good idea for me to go in the first place since I cannot swim. It's also not a good idea because I am deathly afraid of water, even shallow water. I mean, the only water I can stand is the kind in the shower or in a cup. I have taken swimming lessons before, but the only thing I ever learned how to do is blow bubbles and float. I don't think that would have save me if anything had happened.

Oh, guess what? I'm getting bumped from my Sunday School class. Apparently, I don't have to be in Gospel Principles anymore. I can now go to the YSA Sunday School class. Yay! I will be with people more my own age, but I'll miss my old Sunday School class and teacher. It was so much fun.

I'm not going to Family Home Evening tomorrow night. :( I have no ride and I kind of need a week off, if that makes any sense. I thought about going to Sarah and Anthony's new place this evening, but I don't think I'll do that either. I mean, I miss seeing them at Institute since they got married, but I don't think I feel up to going out tonight.

I didn't take my Klonopin before I went to church today. So, how did I do? Fine. I didn't even realize that I hadn't taken the pill until I got out. I felt relaxed and calm throughout the whole thing. Of course my mind kept shifting to various projects outside of church that needed to be done. Not exactly keeping with the whole keeping only the spirit in mind sort of thing, but I guess it's okay to do my focus that way.

I wish I could go back on Adderall, but it's contraindicated for people with the particular psychiatric problems that I have. Apparently, it can make mood swings and psychosis worse. It never did before, but you can never really say never with psychiatric problems. In fact, it is best to expect the unexpected.

I think I'm going to have a Family Home Evening thing at home tomorrow night. I don't know how my dad will feel about that since FHE is basically a Mormon thing and he is so not a Mormon. I think he'll be okay with it, since my idea is that we watch movies. Of course, I want to watch the movies I picked out, and he'll want to watch the movie he picked out. Maybe I can get him to see things my way, though.

I've added lots of plugins and widgets to the site, if you haven't already noticed. I wanted to make this place cool and fun to be at, and have neat little features. I wish that I could get some of the Facebook stuff to work a little better on here since I'm pretty much a Facebook addict.

I need to upload some more images for my new project of doing digital scrapbooking. I'm going to try to do it in Photoshop or Paint Shop Pro, instead of Photoshop Elements. I know a lot of people who do it use Elements, but I just don't really like it. Besides, I would have to buy the thing after like 28 more days in order to continue using it, and that would just suck. Especially considering that I have other things in mind for how to spend my money.

I wish I could figure out how to see where my Alloy package is. I keep checking UPS with the code that I was given, but it's not working. :( It works fine with other companies, but it's not working with Alloy.

Uh-oh. I better go take Xander out for his "constitutional". Oh, yay! Mom is going to do that today. That's good 'cause my feet hurt really bad. I guess I should walk Willow one day when she feels kind of crappy. She'd probably appreciate that.

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I’m not serious about the bidet thing. It just is something that came up on the way from the Stake Center to the “Secret Government Project” on Thursday night. So what exactly is a secret government project? It’s basically my way of saying, having fun, but not telling people what exactly we were doing to have fun. Don’t worry, it was nothing dirty. It was just a little get together thing. You wouldn’t believe how many people were texting us and calling us to see why we’d left Institute early. Of course, we were a little suspicious. Maybe if we had all sat on separate rows, then no one would have gone, “Where’d they go?” Ah, I don’t know.

It’s college football season, which, if you know me, isn’t my favorite time of year. Admittedly, I will watch the games, sort of, but I don’t really enjoy it all that much. Mainly because I associate football with Auburn football and my dad’s attitude when they do anything that is not scoring points for them. I know a lot of people just love it to death when they can sit back and watch the games, but not me. I would rather watch movies on Saturdays.

Well, I ordered clothes yesterday from Alloy and a DVD thing and CD from Amazon. So what did I order? Lots of shirts, I’ll try to take pictures when they get here. As for the DVD thing, I got Gilmore Girls 1st Season and the soundtrack to…wait for it…Gilmore Girls. Yeah, I know, probably a little dorky, but GG reminds me so much of my mom and me. I mean, we are almost exactly like Rory and Lorelai. Of course, our relationship is not quite as healthy as theirs is, which is saying something since their relationship would not be healthy if it were real. My mom and I are close. Really close. We’re best friends. We’re kind of lucky like that, but it also holds us back at the same time. How? Well, my mom and I won’t do things sometimes because we’re afraid to upset or leave the other one behind. Also, we drive people crazy by finishing each other’s thoughts or totally leaving a subject up in the air to the other people around us. We will have finished it in our heads, but we don’t necessarily say what we’ve done or thought or whatever.

I was going to go to Family Home Evening on Monday night, but it’ll be Labor Day and I don’t think Jennifer is going, so I would have no ride. Not many people are going. Most people have stuff to do that night. Probably family stuff.

Oh, one of the non-secret things that Jennifer, Caleb, Jamie, and I did on Thursday was going to Bridge Street Town Centre. I took a bunch of pictures while we were there. My favorite is the one of the “lake”. I also like some that I took of Jennifer and Caleb sitting/standing around. They honestly look like they’re from an Old Navy commercial. They’re posted at morrisfamilyphotos.net under Fun. The only bad thing about that night was that I was wearing new shoes and I walked A LOT. Well, when you have on new shoes, particularly ones that rub on your feet, you get blisters. So I’ve been walking around with Band-Aids on my feet for the past couple of days. Not fun. But it’s cool. I guess it’s the price you pay for socializing, even if the socialization isn’t as much as the darn therapist wants.

I finally got to do something last night that I hadn’t done in a long time. I got to make my famous macaroni and cheese. Not the store kind, but some that has a lot of REAL cheese in it. Yay! Of course, it’s totally unhealthy, but sometimes you have to have unhealthy stuff.

I had to stop going to Hollywood Video for a while, which was kind of crappy, but I recently started going again and restarted my MVP subscription. We rented 1408 last time, and it was good. Very funny movie. No, I’m not joking, it really is a FUNNY movie. My dad was a bit scared and weirded out by it, but then when I said I thought it was hilarious, he was more scared and weirded out by me. Haha. We had to take that movie back today, so I rented Enchanted and Penelope, while my dad got Beowolf. Such a guy movie.

I’m sitting here staring at the word count number, trying to reach the beloved 1000 mark, but it’s alluded me so far. As of a couple of seconds ago, I had only typed 782 words. I really have to come up with some more words if I expect to get to 1000, don’t I?

Is there an easy way to make all your entries tagged properly without going back and redoing the tags on them? I’ll have to find out.

Do you know what song does not appear to be a favorite among my church friends? “I Kissed a Girl”. I guess that makes sense. It’s a fun song, though. You don’t have to take yourself seriously when you sing it. I think it would be a cool song for the Karaoke Concert Series, but I didn’t suggest it because KCS is a YSA thing, and the YSA doing a song about a girl kissing a girl would probably be frowned upon by the church.

I want to listen to music while I’m sitting here typing my life away, but I can’t. I don’t have headphones and my mom is sleeping just a few feet away. It would definitely wake her if I started playing some of my music, though she claims she can tune out the music I listen to. I don’t think she can do that when she’s not consciously aware that it’s MY music.

Oooh. Just a few more words and I shall reach the coveted, lovely, and wanted 1000 mark. I wondered something as I was sitting here typing so many gosh darn words. How long does it take you to write a blog entry? For me, if it takes more than 10 or 15 minutes to write a long entry, then it’s taking too long. Seriously. I mean, I’ve been typing this for like 7 minutes now. Not long at all. Type fast and have a short attention span shall be my new motto.

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I need jaw surgery. I don’t know if I’ve ever brought that up on here or not, but it’s something that I need. I mean, I SERIOUSLY NEED it! We’re not talking about something for cosmetic reasons. This is for medical reasons. I have a crossbite and an underbite. It’s fixable with braces and jaw surgery. Before I pay anything to get braces, though, I’m supposed to find out if I can have the surgery. Well, in order to find out that I can have the surgery, I have to have 2 workups done by the orthodontist and by the maxillofacial surgeon. I don’t think my mouth has changed in 8 years since they did the last one, except that I no longer have wisdom teeth. But in order to do the workups, I have to come up with the money to pay for them since neither doctor accepts Medicaid, and even if they did, I’m too old for Medicaid to pay anything dental. (Medicare still may cover some of the costs, if they choose to.) I have trouble eating, big surprise, I know since I’m so big, but it’s true. If you stick a slice of ham, no matter the thickness/thinness, I can’t chew it without getting my hands ahold of the piece of meat and pulling it out of my mouth to simulate the action that my front teeth are supposed to take when I chew. Now, this has become normal for me at family gatherings and when I’m making a ham sandwich, but it is nonetheless very annoying and embarrassing. My mom told me it’ll be a month before she’ll know if I can even schedule an appointment to have a workup done because she doesn’t know if I can do my own finances. (Yes, for those of you who have been paying attention for a long time, my debit card and checkbook are now being taken care of by me. I guess that she’s finally over the great eBay debacle of 05 or 06.) She does not seem to understand that my mouth HURTS every day all day. My teeth look okay from someone looking straight at me, but if you look at an xray of my mouth, you can see that my teeth point straight out instead of downward/upward. I am always having to take something for my jaw pain or, in some cases, having to ignore it because I’ve taken too much that day or I’ve run out of Percogesic and we can’t just run to the pharmacy and get me anymore. My gums are bright red because of the fact that so much strain is put on my mouth. This leads to dentists and hygienists telling me that I don’t brush my teeth or floss them enough because it is so very evident that I have gum disease. I may have it, but I’ve had it since my first tooth came in. I probably won’t get to have the workup until after I turn 25, in less than 6 months (yes, the thing up at the top says 23, but I was too lazy to change it 6 months ago). Why THAT long? Well, I had an idea that I would have a birthday party, and I’m not changing my mind. You only turn 25 once and I am determined to make mine not suck, even if it does mean that I am going to have to live with pain for another 6 months. I mean, I’ve known that I needed this surgery for about 13 or 14 years now, I’m sure I can try to live, however painfully, for another 6 months.

I get to hang out with my friends tonight after Institute. Yay! Normally we go eat somewhere afterwards, but tonight we’re going to go watch a football game and possibly eat while watching it. That should be interesting. I’m not really a football fan, but I am a fan of hanging out with nice people, so I can definitely do that.

I’m working on two websites other than this one right now. No, my manic streak has not started. I haven’t been manic in a LONG time. I just decided to start two projects that had good intentions behind them. One is for the YSAs of the LDS church to add pictures of YSA stuff to. It’s at ysaphotos.com. The other is a photo album of my family and our lives. It’s at morrisfamilyphotos.net. I’m still adding photos to them both, especially mfp.

I wish it was tomorrow already so that I could place an order for clothes. I know my mom has placed some for me in the past week from other places, but I found some really cute shirts, and since it is no longer my responsibility to pay for all the meals that this family eats, I can now spend my money on stuff for me. I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking, why not spend the money on your workup? Well, let me tell you why, it’s because I only get a few hundred dollars a month and quite frankly, that ain’t gonna cover 2 workups.

Okay, so I’ve updated, which I really need to do more often, so thank you, Ranee, for telling me to update. And for those of you who wondered, the glasses that I referred to wearing for so many years are the SAME prescription that was done in 1999. They worked well until recently, and my eyes haven’t really changed all that much. I got lucky that while we had no cash flow, I didn’t get a lot worse. As for the replacement glasses, they have not yet been finished as the wonderful ones they made me did not pass initial inspection. If they had, I would be wearing them right now, instead of going without any. (I don’t usually wear my old ones anymore because they are a bit blurry.)

Oh, and for those of you who are wondering, I’m planning on closing Celestial and Taboo. I don’t really want to sell them to anyone, as they’re both my babies. I would just like for them to close peacefully. I will still keep this site open. Even if the name of it is silly to some. (It still means a lot to me.)

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Okay, so the joining of the church wasn’t exactly a rash decision I made. I’ve been going to this church off and on for like 14 years and taken the lessons 4 or 5 times (taking them again right now because I’m a new member) and not joined until the fifth of July. It was pretty awesome. I thought I was going to drown for a split second, but then I didn’t so that was cool. I’d never heard the 2 songs I picked for my baptism until the baptism, but I’ve heard one of them twice since then.

So, where have I been? Well, your friendly neighborhood hermit…is hermit the right word for an agoraphobic? I think it fits. Anyway, back on topic, I have been going to church stuff lately. Family home evening on Monday nights with the YSA (Young Single Adults) and Institute (Bible study) on Thursday nights. I’ve also been at the bridal shower and bachelorette party of one of the girl’s from church, and the ring ceremony and wedding reception of her and her new husband (who I also knew). So is my therapist pleased that I’m being MORE social? A little, but not quite. She told me I need to go out MORE. I’ve been going out 2 nights a week, plus church, groceries, appointments. Am I not allowed to be at home at all? I mean, seriously. Sometimes I’m going to need a break from the socialization. I definitely will need a break from the Klonopin I have to take in order to socialize.

Guess what? I’m going to be getting a new pair of glasses soon. Woohoo! I haven’t had new glasses in 9 years. Luckily, my eyes hadn’t changed too much. I had less of an astigmatism and more myopia. Not too much more, but the changes in my eyes were enough that the doctor said I definitely needed a new pair, which is so good ’cause quite frankly I was getting a bit tired of those glasses. Don’t tell the glasses, though, I would hate to hurt their feelings.

I’ve been having problems with tension and TMJ headaches lately, too. Bleh. My family doctor was out of town when they were at their worst, and the other doctors in his office wouldn’t see me because they said TMJ problems could be handled by the dentist. Hello, I couldn’t afford to see a dentist. If I can’t afford to see the dentist for a good old fashioned check up then how am I supposed to fork over hundreds of dollars on a new splint? I’m seriously doubting the intelligence of some people at this point. So I went to see my doctor when he came back from vacation. He told me that I could use a splint from the great and wonderful Wal-Mart. He would not prescribe anything for the tension problems because he was afraid that my mental health drugs would interfere. So I talked to the therapist about getting headache meds through them and she said that though it was possible that my doctor MIGHT use psychotropic drugs to treat headaches if I asked, it was highly unlikely. Apparently, most of those doctors have a policy of only prescribing drugs for psychiatric issues. So basically, I’m…what’s the Mormon word for screwed? (I’m having to redo my vocabulary so that I don’t use as much vulgarity. I mean, I wasn’t cussing like a sailor, but I did use some words, and I’m not supposed to now so I’m trying to cut them out.)

So why is the title of this “Everything is Awesome…”? Well, if you’ve ever met a Mormon, especially one from the great state of Utah, then you probably will know the answer. It’s a very popular word to use. You say something and people are like “that’s awesome” or sometimes the missionaries say “sweet”. It’s cute. What’s odd is that converts do it, too. I guess you just get used to hearing it being said a lot so you end up saying it. I don’t know.

My mental health has been doing a lot better. Well, that’s excluding the freak-out session at Sarah and Anthony’s ring ceremony/wedding reception. If I had taken the Klonopin, I would have been fine, but I thought I’d be okay. My therapist had said that I could stop taking the Klonopin as much since I’m, wait for it, having fun with my new friends. I don’t think that I’m going to stop taking it anytime soon. I mean, it took me six years in college to get over the fears there, and I’m sure that I’ll have them when I start back.

Speaking of which, I shall hopefully be returning to school in a few months. My dad’s disability came and we’re going to use some of it to pay back A&M from where they dropkicked my butt from the Social Work program but decided to rebate my money to the loan folks, which caused me to owe them quite a load of cash. I will hopefully be able to get back into UAH. I need to get back to school. If I go back to school in the Spring semester, then I shall be studying psychology and art. Yay. Everyone thinks I’m doing it to become an art therapist, but that’s not the truth. I am going to study those things to become a therapist and learn how to better use my digital camera and do graphic arts. So I’m doing one to hopefully become a career path and the other so that I can do things on the computer and with my camera better. Of course, I’ll have to save up and get a new digital camera because mine is apparently not good enough. It doesn’t have a lot of shutter speed differential, so it’ll be my goof off camera. Or I’ll let my parents have it.

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I figured out that the swelling was due to the Seasonale that I was taking for medical purposes. I also found out that it was causing me to have severe joint pain. So, I went off of it. I can only take a pill that has no estrogen in it because the estrogen will basically suck the calcium out of my bones. That basically leaves Ortho-Tri-Cyclen. I can’t take it because it causes my depressive moods to get MUCH worse and MUCH more prominent.

I’ve been fighting with the insurance to take a new anti-depressant and anti-psychotic. The Cymbalta and Abilify quit working. My psychiatrist recommended Pristiq (brand new) and Risperdal. He didn’t realize that my insurance company would not pay for the Pristiq