| i have a house i signed |
[Jun. 19th, 2008|08:19 pm] |
papers only a for temporary house but that means i will have space. YAY and my other puppy
this means i will be offering beer and pizza to any willing soul when it comes time to load the evil truck, and unload the evil truck. which is looking like 7/12 saturday
or sooner.. not sure yet... so much to do....
yay house with a yard. |
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| masks |
[May. 3rd, 2008|08:53 pm] |
don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the masks I wear.
For I wear a thousand masks, and none of them is me.
I give the impression that I am secure.
Confidence is my name and coolness my game.
But don't believe me.
Beneath lies the real me -- in confusion and fear and aloneness.
But I don't tell you this because I'm afraid to.
I am afraid that you will think less of me, that you'll laugh at me.
I'm afraid that deep down I'm nothing and I'm no good.
Yet only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you are kind and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you care.
Who am I, you may wonder. I am someone you know very well.
I am every man, woman and child you meet.
------- Author unknown |
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| hm |
[Mar. 25th, 2008|02:28 am] |
Norwescon was fun. still tired.still insomniatic.
had fun with some flirting, have a CHUZZLE for ransom.
may get a call. may not. Ball is not in my court. and I am ok with that. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2008|10:26 pm] |
Good Enough"
Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.
Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no. |
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| up and a little to the left |
[Jan. 18th, 2008|12:01 am] |
yep that is permanently emblazoned on my body. my tattoo.
and my dog is defending me in his dreams.. little sleep growling and barking... heh heh... |
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[Jan. 15th, 2008|12:18 am] |
The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
But I
I love it when you read to me
And you
You can read me anything
The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb
But I
I love it when you sing to me
And you
You can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
You ought to give me wedding rings |
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| looking forward |
[Dec. 24th, 2007|12:32 am] |
well one week from now i will be staring in a mirror at the back of my neck and I can't wait. there is this beautiful thing that happens occasionally in Oregon.. they give you back money.. yep.. well i am getting a tattoo. next saturday at industrial tattoo in vancouver. to be followed by some drinks at the dublin. i can't wait.
i have been suffering what a friend defined as life chaffe. where most all situations in my life are driving me to a sheer intolerance of any and all people expectations and realistically if someone expects something out of me i want to tell them where to put it.
in part i had gotten very used to not being alone. i have been alone for a long time now and i miss human contact. i miss cuddling. i miss smooching. i miss innocence. i miss carnal activities. i miss someone hugging when they see me at the end of the day. i miss talking at night in bed about stuff.
i know it will happen again. just not sure when. i feel bearish most times. have bagged on hanging with friends as i didn'tfeel up to new people. i am karaoking muchly. going to start moreso.
have some decisions coming. not happy with work. looking at some options. one being massage school. one being law school. going to take the free Lsat i found to see how i do. then work on some more decisions.
well that is all.. oh and the first of many tattoos Venus demittendorf flaiming and engulfed in flames. |
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| one time only |
[Oct. 27th, 2007|11:01 am] |
1 question...
1 chance...
1 honest answer...
That's all you get...
Ask me 1 question.
Any 1 question, anything,
no matter how crazy it is.
An honest answer.
No catch.
Except one. All comments will be screened so your question stays private between you and me, and only you will get to see my answer to your question.
But I dare you to repost this
and see what people ask you. |
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| magical beast - story people |
[Oct. 27th, 2007|10:59 am] |
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this is a magical beast that holds the secret of light & shadow in a safe place in her heart & when it has been too long grey, she starts to dance & laugh & cry & sing & the sunlight fills her up & spills in wild abandon back into the world again |
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| alive |
[Oct. 22nd, 2007|07:25 pm] |
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in the coffee shop. hi all. |
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| memories |
[Oct. 13th, 2007|11:51 pm] |
Late Night
In the end, I think that I will like that we were sitting on the bed, talking & wondering where the time had gone.
always and forever this will make me cry. |
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| me and my head |
[Oct. 9th, 2007|10:50 am] |
so for all that see me on a regular basis, my head will look GNARL for a while.
I had small outpatient surgery yesterday. so i have gnarl scars and stitches right now.
kinad loopy.. plans for later today include hydrocodone, pink floyd, fractal mode on the computer...
i am good. my head feels like an alien is trying to escape. yee hah. |
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[Sep. 16th, 2007|12:17 am] |
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Film and TV Crew
2.
Costume Designer
3.
Set Designer
4.
Plasterer
5.
Drywaller
6.
Carpet and Upholstery Cleaner
7.
Special Effects Technician
8.
Vending Machine Servicer
9.
Hospital Service Worker
10.
Mover
11.
Sheet Metal Worker
12.
Automotive Painter
13.
Sign Maker
14.
Auto Detailer
15.
Website Designer
16.
Housekeeper
17.
Autobody Repairer
18.
Glazier
19.
Tailor / Dressmaker
20.
Potter
21.
Pet Groomer
22.
Craftsperson
23.
Fashion Designer
24.
Jeweler
25.
Stock Clerk
26.
Security Systems Technician
27.
Plumber
28.
Actor
29.
Desktop Publisher
30.
Airport Ground Crew
31.
Gunsmith
32.
Animal Trainer
33.
Cartoonist / Comic Illustrator
34.
Animator
35.
Dental Lab Tech
36.
Automobile Assembler
37.
Miner (Underground)
38.
Lighting Technician
39.
Security Guard
40.
Printing Press Operator |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2007|07:27 pm] |
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if you know me and want me to have your number please email or post it here or text me. there was an accident.. my phone is not coming back. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2007|01:41 am] |
I once knew a girl
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
Someday you will be loved |
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[Jul. 13th, 2007|09:28 pm] |
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Broken toe OOOOUCH |
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[May. 14th, 2007|05:24 pm] |
i am alive, and good, i found a liquor store that always carries Strega.. happy dance.
really trying to figure if i can afford to drive to denver, and if i can afford not to. i miss my brother.
oh and if you want to laugh, go to you tube and look for funny cats. |
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[Apr. 24th, 2007|09:21 pm] |
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Nearly under i am shrinking current total 13.8 lost. |
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