that girl

panda_pie @ 2005-02-24T18:08:00

2005-02-24T18:09:38Z

from now on i have a new journal
pomple
i will no longer be using this one
please add me

panda_pie @ 2005-02-23T14:02:00

2005-02-23T14:03:41Z

how sexylicious is my boyfriend

panda_pie @ 2005-02-23T13:43:00

2005-02-23T13:43:09Z

from now on this is friends only

panda_pie @ 2005-02-21T15:52:00

2005-02-21T15:55:41Z

im tired
im ill
i miss ash
its cold
and the snow stopped
today sucked
i fell asleep
the smell is fading
i wanna be there

'so deep that it didnt even bleed'

my cat scratched me
my dogs a moron
people are annoying me

i miss ash really bad
and nothings looking good

panda_pie @ 2005-02-20T16:38:00

2005-02-20T16:45:37Z

this morning i woke up and felt extra crummy, i asked my dad to phone my gran to say i couldnt go coz i felt so ill i couldn't move, so he phoned and she thought i was meant to go last sunday
silly
so i almost cried a little bit cause i missed ash, but i didnt cry because i know he wouldnt have wanted me to
i got up and had a bit of milkshake and a piece of mango for breakfast
then we went to knayton
because its in the country and we have friends there and there was 3 inches of snow
steph and graeme live there and they have four kids
annie
john
josh
and jed
josh and jed are never there but i dont care coz they are scals
they even have birberry perfume stuff
i saw it
and it stinks
annie is the cutest kid ever
shes 8 and really sweet
johns ok, hes 10
i think either josh or jed, one of them is the same age of me
but i dont know
coz they look the same
so i had a really cool talk with steph
then played out in the snow with annie
and i missed ash bad
but i think the country air was good for me coz i feel a little better
so i've just come home
and im soaking wet and cold
but happy that i can see ash
i wish he was here

panda_pie @ 2005-02-19T16:32:00

2005-02-19T16:40:36Z

i believe the last two days were the best of my life
ever
Ash left this morning
and i watched the train till i couldnt see it anymore
then i mooched around town
i went into woolworths
and bought a dinosaur toy
its so cute
then i met up with roseanna
and she made me eat
i do admit i felt better after
then i went to trax
and sat on the sofa and listend to placebo and burst into tears
but no-one knew
coz my head was under my hoodie hood
then sandy came back from asda and could tell i'd been crying
and he gave me a hug
and asked me if i really loved ash
and i said yes more than anything
and he said im glad, you deserve to happiness
especially after you exes
and i was like thankyou sandy, that means so much to me
he really is my best guy mate
or as we like to call it, he's my gay best friend
hayley came into trax
and we sorta avoided each other for about 15 mins
then i almost threw up
and decided to got home about 3
so i went to say goodbyr to roseanna who was with haz
and i said sorry to haz
and she said sorry to me
and we hugged
and we made up and im happy
i guess i was all stressed with my exams and stuff
and insanly jealous of her and tom
but thngs are cool
and now its snowing
i hope its a snow day on monday
its hayley and toms 2month anniversary tomorrow
so i say happy anniversary to them
i miss ash so bad
it makes me wanna cry
but i got his tshirt
and it smells of him
and i love him
and and
yeh

panda_pie @ 2005-02-19T13:46:00

2005-02-19T13:46:25Z

just
wow

panda_pie @ 2005-02-16T14:29:00

2005-02-16T14:42:48Z

so ya
i've finished my exams
the psychology was hard
im in the middle of tidying my room so it looks like a bombsite
my piercing no longer hurts *touch wood*
im a getting my hair cut tomorrow
so its like yeh cool
and then ash is coming
im really nervous but its gonna be cool
havent heard anything from stupid boob head bitch
aka hayley
since tuesday when she tried to pretend everything was ok on msn
and you know what
i dont care
i've realised i dont need her to survive
i can live my own life
with other friends so ahahahahahahha
i win
on other news
i rock
i dunno im so happy
my dad saw my piercing from a distance
and said what is that on your face
and im like: uh its some cream, for my spot
and ran out the room
so i dont think he's suspected yet
twat
oh yeh and last night i went to see the play bouncers at the theatre
it was really funny
at the interval i went out and phoned ash
and after i came off the phonei went over to were my mum was smoking
and she was like how come you're all happy
i was like, talking to ash does that too me
so we went back inside and i was walking up the stairs
and these girls were coming down, they were like heavily made up and stuff coz all the 6th formers from some school were there
anyway thay took one look at me and 'jesus' in a tone of utter disgust
and i was like
ow
i only thought of a comeback later
which pissed me off a bit
my mum should be dropping my nimrod cd and my £30 off today
but yeh
so im all happy and excited and nervous
and should carry on with my room

panda_pie @ 2005-02-16T08:18:00

2005-02-16T08:23:16Z

so im sat here now
my dads just been yelling at me coz i accidently broke a plate
ive got my biology exam soon and im gonna fail
i found out my lip isnt infected
which made me feel better
yesterday was actually pretty good
apart from when i was alone
after my 1st exam which was ict
i went down to the library and started talking to laddi
we were talking about how guys and girls are really complicated
he thinks im a bit weird
but he always laughs
im getting my hair cut tomorrow morning
so it wont be a stupid poofball anymore
in a way i wish i wasnt, or if i had an earlier appointment
coz then we could meet ash at leeds
i am so nervous
about everything
my house
my dad
my mum
my stepdad
where i live
most of all me
im at that point of nervousness that i feel sick

panda_pie @ 2005-02-15T16:29:00

2005-02-15T16:43:31Z

my lip piercing's gone infected
my computers being slow
i failed my business exam
am going out with mum for dinner
then am going to theatre with mum and fred(stepdad)
am gonna ask fred if i can have my pocket money in advance
as i dont want to be broke when ash comes
so hopefully he will give me money
i bored
and alone
and i've been sat staring at this fucking screen for almost two hours
and what really pisses me off
is i know i can do it for longer
im so pathetic
and the stupid pus is fucking annoying
what does it think it is
oozing out of my piercing
luckily its not alot
but whatever
just
yeh
so
annoyed
at
nothing
in particular

panda_pie @ 2005-02-15T12:39:00

2005-02-15T12:45:59Z

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panda_pie @ 2005-02-15T12:33:00

2005-02-15T12:38:51Z

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panda_pie @ 2005-02-15T12:22:00

2005-02-15T12:32:47Z

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2005-02-15T12:22:16Z

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panda_pie @ 2005-02-15T08:11:00

2005-02-15T08:17:36Z

so yesterday was fun
i've decided im gonna become hardcore emo
im now a vegetarian/vegan
meat kept making me feel ill anyways
yesterday was fun
went to trax
hayley didnt show up
coz she was broke
her boyfriend has a car?
anywho
so yeh there was sandy, tripp, whitey, rob, roseanna, somegirl(i forget her name)
and witey, rib and tripp were all haveing arm wrestling contests
twas funny
then they all started making fun of me coz im emo
but in a jokey sense
then atreyu came in, and i ran up to him and hugged him
but accidently ran into him
which is like running into a brick wall
so now my lips all bruised on the outside but meh
im kinda worried
coz ash said he would phone last night
and he didnt unless i read it wrong
i'll go check
....
nope he said see ya later
i was wrong
but i dunno he didnt answer my text
maybe he had no cred
fuck im being all stupid and paranoid now
and i gotta revise
fucking exams

panda_pie @ 2005-02-15T08:10:00

2005-02-15T08:10:47Z

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panda_pie @ 2005-02-14T15:26:00

2005-02-14T15:33:38Z

so i did my exams
then i went into town
and bought part of ashes present
i saw some people from my old
the really popular pretty types
that used to be you're friends in primary school
and then ditch you when you get fat
so yeh they looked at me
and stared at my lip stud
then after i walked past them i heard them laughing at me
and loads of people gave me strange looks today
luckily there werent many chaves in town
well there were
but they were all in mcdonalds
so i didnt go in
then i came home
and my head hurts
i try not to be prejudice against anyone
even if they are chavs
and people i dont particulary like
i dont start taking the piss outta them coz of their clothes
people have the choice of what they wear
thats why i cant understand why chavs take the piss outta so called 'moshers'
i dont know
people are just people
everyone has different tastes
so why must people discrminate against each other
IT'S FUCKING STUPID
it just makes people upset

happy valentines day?

2005-02-14T08:20:17Z

im sat here eating a hot dog
which cant be healthy
but i dont care
me and loz were talking about lip piercings
apparently you're not meant to have alcohol
or oral sex
because it stretches your mouth
its kinda hard to eat the hot dog
i guess even if i was at my old school
with no exams this week
i still wouldnt be able to see ash
because their half term was last week
whatever
i smell like antiseptic cream
i have and exam in an hour and 10 mintues
and im nervous as hell

panda_pie @ 2005-02-14T07:50:00

2005-02-14T07:50:39Z

The glove compartment isn't accurately named

And everybody knows it.

So i'm proposing a swift orderly change.

Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm

And all i find are souvenirs from better times

Before the gleam of your taillights fading east

To find yourself a better life.

I was searching for some legal document

As the rain beat down on the hood

When i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget

And that's how this idea was drilled into my head

Cause it's too important

To stay the way it's been

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade

And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all

And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide

Lying awake at night

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade

And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all

And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide

Lying awake at night (up all night)

When i'm lying awake at night.

Title and Registration by Death Cab for Cutie

i love you more then you will ever know

more than i can express

panda_pie @ 2005-02-13T14:39:00

2005-02-13T14:39:37Z

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 3 people about this game.
• Ash is the one that you love.
• Tripp is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about clair.
• sandy is the one who knows you very well.
• hayley is your lucky star.
• just another star is the song that matches with Ash.
• watch the world is the song for Tripp.
• and i is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and wonderful is the song telling you how you feel about life
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panda_pie @ 2005-02-13T09:59:00

2005-02-13T10:00:16Z

tis me and my new lip piercing

yaaay

i have to wear a plaster on it and pretend its a spot when my dads around

i would leave the house today but i have too much to do

hayley ditched me again that fucking bitch
i cant be arsed with her anymore

she obviously doesn't care about out friendship she hasnt tried to phone

but whatever
i honestly truely cannot be bothered with her anymore

on other so called 'fun' news a cut on my thumb has become infected

so my dads out gettin antiseptic cream

if that doesnt work he's going to have to stick a hot needle in it to let the pus out

how....lovely

i think i may be getting my haircut sometime this week

on either monday,tuesday,wednesday if my mum remembers

im so nervous about my exams and Ash coming up

oh yeh and i need new shoes
totally unrealted

but i don't know
my brain has been so scrambled lately

i cant believe she did it again, it hurt really bad

thanks for being a friend hayley

im sorry i assumed you would actually want to meet up like we arranged

im sorry i didnt realise you would rather hang with ur boyfriend

bitch

panda_pie @ 2005-02-12T19:50:00

2005-02-12T19:50:52Z

me: hi hayley, look i wanna say im sorry

hayley: what for?

me: for thinking you'd come to trax and see you best friend when all you wanted to do is be with you boyfriend

hayley: i thought you would be mean to him

me: i said i wouldnt talk to him

hayley: what you wanted me to ignore him

Me: no i said I would ignore him, i wouldnt be a bitch to him in front of his face just coz i dont like him, coz that would hurt you, i do care about you you know

hayley: oh

Me: yeh well its not like i cried much or anything *hangs up*

so yeh this was a conversation between me and hayley on the phone about an hour ago
after she ditched me again for tom
most of my other friends dont like her
but i dont know
she hurt me
again
im too hurt to be angry

but ash cheered me up
yet again
i swear i would be a wreck without him
i love you ash

panda_pie @ 2005-02-12T17:25:00

2005-02-12T17:38:49Z

so today i wne to work and got shouted at lots
then i arranged to meet hayley and said i would phone her after work
after work i phoned hayley and she said she was in tiymaster
i asked who she was with and she said tom
i was like oh, forget about meeting up
and shes like why?
and i sid coz i dont like tom
and shes all like well you have no reason not too
and i said he called me an obsessive, over posseive bitch
and she slike what did you call him
and i said yeh but i didnt mean that
and hes like well how do you know he did
and im like coz he wasnt as hurt as me
so then i hung up
later i foned her and said i was at trax and that i could meet up with her coz i didnt have to talk to turner
and she said i thought you didnt want us to come
and i said it'll be fine
so like an hour later i foned her to ask where she was
and she asked me where i was
and i said at trax, i tought u were coming here
and she said i didnt say i was going to come
and i said oh. okay. bye and hungup
then i went in a corner and cried
and julie one of the youth workers came over and cheered me up
then i left to go shopping for the purple shoes
but they werent there
so i started walking home and got jumped on my clair and sand who gave me a hug coz theyd seen my crying
and tripp and whitey were there
then i went and got my lip pierce
and came home
now im tlaking to ash
and his mum talked to my dad
and hes defiantly coming up next thursday
which makes me all kinds of happy and nervous
but yeh
i cant be bothered to bitch about hayley and turner
i wasnt even ebgry just deeply hurt
she said that i had no reason to not like him
i have no reason to like him
me and haz had this both talk and both agreed that neither of us like each others boyfriends
she obviously forgot that
i cant be bothered with her anymore
shes ditched me too many times
haz i will still be here when it all goes wrong
but for now
i'm not

panda_pie @ 2005-02-11T18:08:00

2005-02-11T18:09:01Z

so yeh heres my weekend
work
come home
do nothing
tidy my room
do some more nothing
revise
do i.t coursework
do business work
sleep
wake up
go shopping with dad
do nothing all day