[mood| 
irritated]
[music| This Time Tomorrow - The Kinks]
After only 6 weeks of this writing class I see that I've sunken more and even more into this crap-like shell, no longer flirting with the idea of being a writer. Every time I see a pen meeting with paper I physically cringe, my mind goes blank, ideas, thoughts, the imagination, all just stop. They all are leaving me either out of fear or stupidity, I haven't quite figured it out yet... The passion for writing had a hard time getting its self into me and the liking of it has momentarily left me, for good, I'm not sure of.
But all of this isn't good as I have to finish this class, I don't like to not end things... I guess. Though maybe that's the problem, thinking about all of it way too much until there is just nothing left to contemplate about and being too perfect about it. But I also doubt this, as I don't give a single thought to any of the paper's/story's/scene's until the due date.
I'm going to do that number thing as everything is short and separate.
1] I haven't been doing much of anything as of late. A LOT of baking though, cookies, cakes, muffins nothing too out of the norm. I could go for a really good Brioche and all of its buttery-flaky goodness, right about now, maybe later today. :D
2] I may be going to France to a Pastry school they have over there, I just to figure some things out before it's a GO, so we'll see. If I do end up going sooner rather then later I will miss The Dark Knight when it comes out. Sad that I think about missing a movie over going to France... but yes, I don't try to figure out too much of what's going on in my head. Why bother it?
3] Speed Racer is coming out tomorrow, and happily I will be seeing it next week in a IMax theater with a friend, it should be rather kick ass if I do say so. Just looks like a fun little movie,Visually, very appealing.
4] And yes, it is official, I pay for things I shouldn't have to and when I have no money to begin with. So while my brother gets to take a flight back to Chicago, to go to some girls Prom, because she had asked him. *smacks self* I get the nice bill of having to pay for her damn corsage that he is getting her. He has no job, and yet, what, he is able to go places and do things that cost money left and right. It's not as if we have it. It just pisses me off I suppose, I'd like to just go back to Chicago for a day or two. ><;
And that's about it. Ohhh, and I made some Icons that I was really pleased with over at![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif)
fiction_icons. Making some more pretty soon hopefully.
Peace out peeps!
irritated][music| This Time Tomorrow - The Kinks]
After only 6 weeks of this writing class I see that I've sunken more and even more into this crap-like shell, no longer flirting with the idea of being a writer. Every time I see a pen meeting with paper I physically cringe, my mind goes blank, ideas, thoughts, the imagination, all just stop. They all are leaving me either out of fear or stupidity, I haven't quite figured it out yet... The passion for writing had a hard time getting its self into me and the liking of it has momentarily left me, for good, I'm not sure of.
But all of this isn't good as I have to finish this class, I don't like to not end things... I guess. Though maybe that's the problem, thinking about all of it way too much until there is just nothing left to contemplate about and being too perfect about it. But I also doubt this, as I don't give a single thought to any of the paper's/story's/scene's until the due date.
I'm going to do that number thing as everything is short and separate.
1] I haven't been doing much of anything as of late. A LOT of baking though, cookies, cakes, muffins nothing too out of the norm. I could go for a really good Brioche and all of its buttery-flaky goodness, right about now, maybe later today. :D
2] I may be going to France to a Pastry school they have over there, I just to figure some things out before it's a GO, so we'll see. If I do end up going sooner rather then later I will miss The Dark Knight when it comes out. Sad that I think about missing a movie over going to France... but yes, I don't try to figure out too much of what's going on in my head. Why bother it?
3] Speed Racer is coming out tomorrow, and happily I will be seeing it next week in a IMax theater with a friend, it should be rather kick ass if I do say so. Just looks like a fun little movie,Visually, very appealing.
4] And yes, it is official, I pay for things I shouldn't have to and when I have no money to begin with. So while my brother gets to take a flight back to Chicago, to go to some girls Prom, because she had asked him. *smacks self* I get the nice bill of having to pay for her damn corsage that he is getting her. He has no job, and yet, what, he is able to go places and do things that cost money left and right. It's not as if we have it. It just pisses me off I suppose, I'd like to just go back to Chicago for a day or two. ><;
And that's about it. Ohhh, and I made some Icons that I was really pleased with over at
fiction_icons. Making some more pretty soon hopefully. Peace out peeps!
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