After 5 months, i quit.
I know its a short period but i really cant take it anymore.
Think anyone who is in the know will know where i am.
Think the only person who knows what i am going through is OB.
Of cos the next second person who knows best is my precious.

After 5 months, i decided to quit cos i dun think i like my job.
In fact i think i hate it.
And i think i cant work with my boss.
And i think the next place i am going to is a better place for me.

When i leave, i no longer have to be an overpaid sales coordinator doing lots and lots of paperwork.
When i leave, i no longer have to be a salesperson selling wagons wagons and more wagons.
When i leave, i no longer have to be a telemarketeer calling new suppliers up to see whether they are interested to take part in events.
When i leave, i no longer have to be an events organiser doing atriums and events.
When i leave, i no longer have to suffer the eccentric and bad mood swings of my boss.
When i leave, i no longer have to suffer the demanding requests from my boss.

When i start in the new place, i hope i will be able to focus more on my buying job.
When i start in the new place, i hope i will be able to learn more things.
When i start in the new place, i hope i will be able to see things from a new light.
When i start in the new place, i hope my boss will be a good leader instead of being eccentric and bad mood swings.
When i start in the new place, i hope that there will be better opportunities for me to prove myself.
When i start in the new place, i hope i can be treated with respect from my boss.

I am sure she still have misunderstandings about me.
But i guess i reach to a point where i just want to leave things as it is.
Cos i am just tired of explaning and i realli dun think i have done anything wrong.
And if she still thinks that i am leaving cos of money, then so be it.
And if she still thinks that she is the victim, then so be it.

Thanks OB for realli listening to me complain and complain and complain over and over again.
And of cos i will still be here listening to you complain and complain over and over again.

Thanks precious for being with me yesterday although i was being so quiet and i really dun wan to talk about it.

Me think i need some me time although i am supposed to go to a colleague's BBQ and an ex-classmate's birthday dinner tomorrow.
Me think me will skip both events tomorrow.
Me think me dun have the energy to entertain further cos of the this tiring emotional week.
Me think me still hate mind games after so many years.
Me think me will feel better after this weekend.

Me hope that my new company will not mind me joining them later cos i have a current boss who will be travelling and needs me here to finish up my things and can only let me go later than my 1 month notice and me is mentally tired of further confrontations that me agree.

you are the reason that is keeping sane these days.
you are the reaon that is keeping me calm these days.
you are the reason that is keeping me going these days.

and yes you are the reason that is making me feel loved.

no one else but YOU BB!
:-)

Not a good weekend afterall.
On my side, its fine but not for my bb.
My heart really aches seeing him like this.
Never have i seen him so angry.
Never have i seen him so hurt.
Never have i seen him so lost.
Never have i seen him in so much pain.

I cant seem to be able to type everything out cos i am feeling the pain as well.
So many instances, when i see him, i just felt the tears in my eyes but i told myself i cant cry as i have to be strong for him.
No matter what happens, bb u know i am always here for you.

I hope bad things will go and good things will come.

Cant believe this is actually happening to one of my pretty close classmates from NAFA.
Her wedding was supposed to be this Saturday but it has been called off.
Reason: Her supposedly husband feels that life without her is better cos he was spending the whole of last week with his friends. Therefore he decided to call off the wedding.
What kind of fuck reason is that???
Bastard.Coward.

I am still in shock.
Really.
Didnt expect this to happen to her.
They have been together for 5 years.
It feels like i am watching Sex and the City all over again.
Just that the bastard is not as suave as Mr Big.
I really cant comprehend this whole issue.

Could really feel that she is very lost and hurt while talking to her this noon.
All i can say is that its his loss not hers.

Keith if u are reading this, u suck! big time!
And no i will not lay my hand on you cos its waste of my time and energy.
May you continue to be a bastard forever and never ever get someone like her to love you as much.

I owax believe in karma.
What goes around comes around.

My dear gurl, u have to take care ya?
I know its not going to be easy but u have to continue your life.

Been wanting to blog about the China charity show i watched on sunday but been trying to pull back.
Its really sad thinking of those people over there suffering.
And it was so tough watching the show without any tears.
I have to keep flipping the  channels cos i couldnt stay in Channel 8 for long.
Its very heartbreaking and painful to watch.
Nothing fancy about the show.
No fancy entertainment.
just purely singing. live singing in this case.
Which i was surprised but glad about.
Cos this is all about having a charity/donation show.

Please give a helping hand if you have not.
The lines are open until 1st June.

The silly old man has went on an adventure at JB with his other colleagues.
Its their annual DND and they have ventured to some spring resort for the "celebration".

He will only be back at Sat noon where i will venture to his place for more gossip and endless chit chat!

Therefore i will be alone for this evening and tomorrow morning/noon.
What should i doo..?
Hmm..shopping at dorothy perkins or topshop since there is a sale going on??
Or back to home to chill and type some reports/plans etc..

Hmm..i am getting excited over this whole thing that i recently mentioned to the silly old man.
:-)

It was great with u giving me the support i needed after telling you my dreams, etc.
Somehow i knew that you will support me and give me the encouragement in what i did and will do.
Although i was afraid that you might chide or tell me i am naive (like some people did) in having those dreams, but you gave me nothing of that.

Thanks for the silent support and listening ears.
It certainly made me understand you and our relationship better.
I guess thats the reason why i still love you so dearly after 16months.

:-)

Thanks for the beautiful singaporeflyer ride over the weekend.
simply love and enjoyment.