well from what i am aware of he was really harsh on people who were involved in these crimes.
so involving himself in those crimes was pretty stupid.
I thought it was a good decision to resign. But i think his wife should leave him hahaha

tags: eliot spitzer, writer's block

my journal is now




comment to be added =)

tonight was the best fucking night at beat it ever.

i was gonna see still life projector, but then i decided not to b/c i was hungry and we (kristal and myself) went and ate chinese and then went tojerrods new house in pasadena and then we went to austins house in LA and then we went to the hustler store b/c they have a cafe there and we saw ron jermey outside the hustler store,and then we took austin home and then we went back to jerrods and then i took kristal home and came home.

these nights have been adventures, anytime we go out it never turns out how you think it will. LOVE IT!

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got into the RCC cosmetology program for march.
**sigh of relief**
i'm gonna rock their motherfucking pants off!
today i smelled like paris hiltons cooter(hahahaha kristal i love it)
maybe thats why i got lucky and got in the march classes.

sunday night sucked. but me and michele have hott as fucking shoes.
i have never been so miserable about spending 30.00 in a week
freshmanyear is basically all bookwork,this journal entry is going everywhere.
i need to get laid, not that you care or anything,but if you dont like that fuck off its my goddamn journal. I think its funny someone said they dont know if they can handle the all girl situation at the rcc cosmo program. i went to an all girl HS bring it on. i think thats lame. your in college grow up.
today kristal and myself are going to still still life projector. JERRY is hott..
i need new jeans, so shopping online will be going into effect asap. MICHELE i love your apt.

I am getting tired of not meeting someone, not necessarily someone to date,but someone to be close to.
My tummy hurts,i think i got gas from the dinner i ate. I have traffic school on thursday from like 10-something bc i drive through red lights like an asshole...i really need to start paying attention to these things like red lights and stop signs. Its back to flip flops b/c the cute shoes hurt. =\
I have a crush on the guy who dances like MJ at beat it. but i'm sure hes a dickface like his friend who has a problem with my yellow jacket. but i saw them peeing in the parking lot on sunday night and it was really funny. there was a huge puddle after,which was not so cute. i hate del taco.

mood: thankful

first bummer of the year...40.00 taken out of my purse O_o hmm
someones going to get killed.
my car needs an oil change,i really dont want to take it to the dealership. i hate dealerships.
i think i might need new breaks.
i have a new best friend, he is Wonderful with a capital W.
i have the best group of friends.
i want to get the otherside of my lip pierced,but i dont want to take care of it...lazy ass.
i need to get a job,but i wont.
i'm hungry,but i'm talking myself out of getting something to eat.
fucking mike said the internet in wyoming sucks so he didnt even try and do anything about. lazy ass.
i hydroplaned in my car at least 3 times last night,and then while outside beat it i was threated to get the cops called on me bc i wouldnt get off the side walk...
i hate the rain,when i have places to go/be.
i have been itching uncontrolably on my arms. =\
lazy has become a part of my everyday life,its no longer something i do occassionally,its there.forever.fuck!
i truly hate myself right now.
my throat hurts.
i like to bitch.
i'll pretend everything is cool,b/c i dont want to be asked about it.
my dad is going to kill me eventually this year,so love me now b/c him walking around making me take his blood presure telling me it wasnt even this high when he had his stoke,is making me so paranoid and its going to kill me.
i need a vacation, i want to take a road trip to las vegas, i am sleeping in my car most likely one of the nights i am there to save on money,anyone wanna go? haha i bet you nobody does especially after i said sleep in the car.fucktards.
i have a major crush on someone right now,but i wont let them know this ever.......b/c the repeated thing i seem to encounter is they find out i like them=them hating me. so i'll keep this cute fact to myself.
why the fuck did that cuntfaced jose try to mad dog the shit out of me at del taco last night.
why are people sooo needy,i dont understand some people i know.
my jaw still hurts from the X



lessons to be learned.

mood: curious

so i have this feeling your never going away
no matter how much
or how hard i push
your still there
why?
because you care?
please dont make me laugh
the only person you have ever cared for in the years i have known you
is yourself.
Maybe i was asking too much from you?
i cant find it in me to say i love you
but your more then willing to say it to me
stop making a mockery of love.
you dont know how to love someone.
my heart is giving up soon, b/c i have no more faith in you or anyone else at this point.
i have never felt this empty and cold in my life,when everything around me couldnt be better.
i only have memories of regret at this point, hold them close to you and cheris the time you have with someone. dont take it for granted like you did. love them like you wished someone loved you.
I hope you know everything you have is based on lies and deciet.
I'm glad you can look at yourself in the mirror and feel no remorse.
Not many people can accomplish something so horrible.

none of this will matter because you will assume i will be over it in no time.
your wrong. i'm already over it. it died. so i dont know why you keep trying to make me relive the painful memories i once forgot.

why is sam still calling me!!!!!
blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!
go pay attention to your girlfriend you evil fucktard

mood: heated music: suzanne vega-caramel

well i finally got my christmas tree and am barely putting up lights and stuff lol
i got all of my shopping done,my cell phone is down heres my house number 909-920-1234(my direct line).

i got myself a purse yesterday and when i got home it had a wallet and credit card holder in it,its not really my style so i'm gonna give it as a christmas present to my mom she goes through wallets like toilet paper.

in other good news.....my dad is going to buy me a new computer chair,my other one took a shit on me. i'm so fucking staving right now this is rediculous but i have to wait till some lady is done cleaning the salt water fish tank.
i want a new gucci/ and or prada handbag...the new ones look sooo pretty, this is annoying.

i almost bought this jacket yesterday for 100.00 it was a sailor style jacket with the white stripes it was navy blue,mega mega cute. but i got 2 purses instead. one is boucle by bcbg and the other one is gold and its by xoxo its so great i love any bags in gold right now. and shoes too. =) <333

i found a dolce and gabbana bag i lost last month <3 thank god.


i have also decided how i am going to do my hair woot woot!
ciao!

mood: anxious music: le tigre-tko

well i have just realized i'm very happy.
my friends are the best seriously i've been sitting here thinking about all of them and like how different things are since i've met all these incredible people,its almost like a good life changing experience,i feel like i should right now,they really make me happy to be myself. i feel like a real 19 year old when i'm with them,not like people are expecting me to be more then what i am,you know?

feels good to know there are people who like you,for you. without expecting you to be more then what you really are.

mood: cheerful music: gwen stefani-hollaback girl

omg why is it i am always lucky enough to read all the stupid shit i'd never want to. your a traitor. yes you,you know exactly who you are. I already dislike a lot of things you do, but to add insult to injury you took her there...to one of my favorite places in the entire world. your a peice of crap. i'm so mad at you right now,i know i'll be over it in like 2 days or whatever,still your a shitty person. i would never take someone else to palermos. thats respect bitch. but no you dont even...bleh! whatever.fuck you sam. i am so mad at you right now,and no dont call me b/c i said fuck you sam.


**screams** people are stupid. I am getting more and more used to people just doing stupid stuff all the time. I have so many thoughts going on in my head right now,i'm just seriously really annoyed.

i love not being healthy,fuck being healthy.i'm losing weight and thats all that matters <33 i went shopping today,but only today it wasnt for me =) i got christmas presents for my mom and dad,but i'm not finished yet.

I got this email from my grandma it made me laugh

"Would you like to join your sister and my 9 other grandchildren in agreeing not to exchange Xmas and birthday gifts. We just xchng email cards and notes. I thot since you don't have a job and money of your own you might like to join us. You don't have to if you don't want to. We're all short on cash but not on love so this has worked well for us. Glad you are feeling much better. "

its cute,but i said "no" and that was it so i got this "Thankyou for your honest answer. I found the brevity rather rude. " lol
like me saying "oh no thanks i'd rather get presents" would have been any better? if i had said that i would have just been outright selfish sounding,and even if thats what i am......i'd at least like to put a better spin on it then that.

mood: amused and annoyed music: the postal service-such great heights

yeah thats funny,anyways.
so far this weekend was really great
thursday i went to tiger heat and hated it,but i passed out flyers with jeff....and omg that was so much fun,the people were crazy. too much for me. then on friday jeff had his improv acting,which was freakin hilarious,i loved it,then we went to this asian town in hacienda heights and took these pictures and stuff soooo much fun we need to do that again next friday or something and this time i'll be packin the 1.00 bills. lol
so after we did all the picture taking kristal and jeff spent the night and then on saturday we went to bakers which is fucking heaven...and took kristal to work,and then jeff and myself went shopping, came home smoked,and then he left i dont remember where he went,but i went to bed and then i was too tired to go out. But jeff is here again,sleeping with punkin =) its cute. hahaha and tonight i'm gonna go to beat it with kristal and maybe erica? yeah i duno we'll see. =) hopefully she'll go and have a good time with us.

so me and sam broke up,yeah boo hoo,whatever.
i'm living back home with my parents. which is ok b/c they were really cool about the whole thing. i've lost 20lbs in less then 2 months so take that! lol sorry i'm really happy about it =)

hmm i made lots of really good new friends like kristal,michelle,jeff,blah blah blah...
i have this other thing too on myspace. heres the link if your really interested in looking at it i suppose http://profiles.myspace.com/users/8221047

i lost my job(s) yeah i my boss threatend me and one and there was no point to keep the other ones so now my occupation is being a drunk on the weekends in clubs with my friends. its so much more fun.
hmm lets see what else. i went shopping today and spent money i dont have i got a pair of dickies(jeans) they are really cute and super comfy!),and i got a pair of jeans from the gap. so i was a happy camper.
anyways i fell asleep at like 8:45 and woke up at like 4 this morning and now i cant go back to bed.

and nobody is online for me to talk to either =*(

bye bye for now

mood: awake music: interpol-slow hands

you truly dont know how stupid you can really be at random moments until your in a car full of people and cant remember the word apostrophe so instead you say "a comma in the air."

mood: amused music: sondre lerche-wet ground

today i'm 19!!!! weeee

i always try to be your friend in some way,even though i dont always go to far out of my way neither do you. It seems to be that when i often put myself out there, the more willing i am to reach out and try the more you reject me.

I recently lost my job,but i wouldnt expect you to empathize with me. I dont even expect you to read this and if you reply i'd be surprised, you should know who you are but even if you do reply i wont give in to that and let you know that its you. You never even ask how i am or anything, ever. if you want me to fade away just say the word and i will quit wasting my time.

mood: confused

seriously lately i have been feeling so empty i went out with turkie tonight and victoria too and its like i'm so happy and when they are gone its like nothing. i dont get it. i tried going back to school and that fell through,i'm living on my own now,and my mom lost her job =\ right after they just bought an additional house,yep gret timeing.... i wish i had more friends that i could just hang out with and talk to that would be pretty nice. but i hardly ever get to hang out with the friends i do have. and i'm sure that if i had a friend who was there when i was able to hang out that they would think thats pretty shitty i only hang out when its convieniant for me instead of them. its amazing you can have everything you need and still feel unfulfilled, i figured if i had everything i wanted i'd feel better,but as soon as i get what i want its like i dont feel accomplished i'm over it and on to something else. i suppose it is just me being selfish,but i dont really know how to stop wanting and taking,and then feeling empty and dead inside. i have 2 jobs now ...yeah that sucks,i had always hoped it would never come to this but i have no choice.

mood: you wouldnt understand

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O	Orderly
C	Courageous
T	Tender
U	Unusual
R	Respectable
N	Natural
A	Amazing
L	Legendary
S	Silly
T	Tempting
A	Ambivalent
R	Refined
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mood: dying

so i got an apartment with sam and i just cleaned out my clothes i cant believe i have 6 trash bags of clothing i'm getting rid of.....bleh... out of like the 10 pairs of 7 for all mankinds i have i only kept 2 pairs..i got rid of tons of jeans my god i cant believe it made absolutely no difference in how messy my room looks o_0...thats bad

when you've finally after years and years of stocking up on shit you never needed to begin with when you get rid of it,your shit still looks the same from when you hadnt cleaned......talk about discouraging.i have to go through my handbags next theres nowhere to keep over 100 purses in my new apt.then i have to sort out the shoes.............god

i hate this moving business already and i still have 2 weeks to go. i've always lived in the same place my entire life,so this is all new to me. HOPEFULLY i wont have to do this too many more times. LUCKILY i get the closet though,and sam gets a dresser thing. =) i cant wait until its all over with.**sighs**

holy moley! i got an apartment!(with sam) and were moving out on the 25th!!! OF THIS MONTH! how fun/scary i'm gonna be on my own kinda..hehe you know what i mean.

on another good note i have 3 pairs of manolo blahniks on the way so hopefully i will get them before i move out.i'm also working mega mega hard at work carlos mencia is here for 2 weeks and last week we had dave chappelle. in 2 weeks we have dane cook at then pablo francisco for 2 more week and this time hes on last comic standing. its weird how a lot of more bigger comedians went to last comic standing this year. and then greg aka buck star went to every audtion luckily they dropped him from the show b/c he sucks. its gonna be really weird at the ontario improv b/c thats where he works i wonder how people are gonna treat him. i never really liked him too much he called me christmas tree and also hes way too cocky about his material.
my sister got a new car =) and she was promoted to manager at work. its weird she and i never really got a long THAT WELL before i started working with her. i got a new marc jacobs bag i love it, it is cobalt blue. and i almost got a pair of marc jacobs shoes but then i declined. =\ anyways i'm at work right now so i'm gonna get going but i've been so busy this post was long due.

mood: tired