| My life in boxes... |
[30 Jul 2004|03:23pm] |
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Silent Hill 4 - The Suicidal Clock Chime |
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Box 1 (Shoebox) - Phone numbers, Random notes to myself and others, Trinkets such as ticket stubs and receipts (I'm weird...). Looking back at old receipts makes me think back to the times when I bought those items. Gifts of a wonderfully artistic fashion (mostly from Laura). Random musical catalogs/advertisements.
Box 2 (A bigger shoebox) - Part of my video game collection (PS1 and PS2), Computer software, Erratic musical CD's (mostly just burned things I've collected [Demo's, Promo's]), Some movies.
Box 3 (Large paper box) - Some of my books, and my writings (musical or prose).
Box 4 (Large paper box) - Will probably hold my boxed computer games and more books and magazines.
My CD's are all in a booklet, and it scares me to have the majority of my collection compacted like that, and easily stolen.
Packing my life from the home I've lived in for 16 years is an interesting affair. I'm seeing Ben from the wee tot to the bigger wee tot. I honestly don't want to move, but it will only be for a year then I'm coming back to UT Austin. Plus, I'm getting better at not feeling so negative about the whole situation.
Other than that, my lack of posting is probably due to steadiness and well-being my life as of late. The band is doing very well and we have a show August 28th with Averse Sefira, so contact me if you're interested in show information. Most importantly I am finally close to the love in my life, and oh, how I will treasure this time. I'm in a period of seeing where everything takes me...I'm terribly curious...
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[28 Mar 2004|11:54pm] |
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I keep having this strange image in my head. Well, it's more of an image or essence of some place. It's some sort of strange completely empty underground passage. The walls are long strips of wood that run vertically, and the only light comes from candles. It's very old, and somewhat medieval, but it reminds me of some of those long empty corridors made of wood from the old Wolfenstein games. Either way, it's incredibly vivid, and won't go away. It's been associated with a lot of music, particularly Xasthur, which is where I think it came from. The song "A Walk Beyond Utter Blackness" in particular has that dark claustrophobic wooden hall with dim candles feel....
Of no interest to anyone but me really...
Missing you darling, I guess I'll talk to you tommorrow. Hopefully tonight, if you ever get home...
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[08 Feb 2004|03:55pm] |
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We're playing the Extreme Texas Metalfest on June 13th. It will be at the Engine Room in Houston. Check out www.extremetexasmetal.com for more information as it comes up. Yeah, so I'm looking forward to this. I wish the band was in a central location, then I could really put my all into it. It would be something to fully occupy myself with.
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| Interesting perspective |
[29 Aug 2003|05:34pm] |
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Aarni - Myrrys |
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"Who could ever tire of this heart-stopping transition, of this breakthrough shift between seeing and knowing you see, between being and knowing you be? It drives you to a life of concentration, it does, a life in which effort draws you down so very deep that when you surface you twist up exhilerated with a yelp and a gasp.
Who could ever tire of this radiant transition, this surfacing to awareness and this deliberate plunging to oblivion - the theater curtain rising and falling? Who could tire of it when the sum of those moments at the edge - the conscious life we so dread losing - is all we have, the gift at the moment of opening it?"
-Dillard
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| Yowza! |
[01 Aug 2003|03:46am] |
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Mr. Bungle - Violenza Domestica |
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I want to live in Mike Patton's head.
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| My queen, my angel |
[28 Jul 2003|04:02am] |
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maudlin of the Well - The Ocean, The Kingdom And The Temptation |
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Undine and Underwater Flowers
The waves speak quietly to me
When the tempest sleeps deep beneath.
I wish that I could give to you
The sun before it weds the west.
My tears mingle soft with the sea
Though I dream that you could taste them.
Lay with me our bridal bed
Dance a moonlit path thereon
Lay with me above the dead
That drift with tides kiss upon.
My undine beauty, thou hast seen
The coral kingdoms, silence, peace
The moon and stars I would forsake
To gaze into thy starry eyes
The azure sky seems not so deep
As azure oceans, amidst sleep.
-Maudlin of the Well
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| Birth Pains |
[14 Jul 2003|06:14am] |
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Maudlin of The Well - Girl with a Watering Can |
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Hmm, leaving to South Padre Island in a couple of hours probably, once the rest of the family wakes up.... Not much else to say. I'm not looking forward to it too much, but it should be nice, I just won't have Morrowind for 10 days hah... Oh well, farewell for a little while.
( Some cool lyrics )
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[28 Jun 2003|06:06am] |
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Esoteric - Stygian Narcosis |
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Hmm, so I'm gonna try an all nighter. Not too sure why. This is always the hard part...when you feel like you SHOULD be asleep, but aren't. Gotta keep myself busy so I'm gonna go play some Medal of Honor I think. Hopefully the parents won't notice. I may check back later.
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| This is about how I feel right now.... |
[22 Jun 2003|05:58pm] |
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Nokturnal Mortum - The Child Of Swamps And Full Moon |
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[14 Jun 2003|03:14am] |
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Nokturnal Mortum - Veles' Scrolls |
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http://www.italianblackmetal.org/modules.php?name=News&file=article&sid=248
Well there is some really shitty news to start the entry off with. Man, that really just pisses me off. He'll be missed.
Moving on...
Went to Dallas on Wednesday to see Peter Gabriel. I've been raised on his stuff ever since I was born, so I have a natural liking towards it, especially the earlier stuff with Genesis. The show was pretty amazing really, I left suprised at how much I enjoyed it. There was so much energy, and it really got my goosebumps going a few times heh. Overall it was just a damn good show, I won't go into a big review here. It was weird being in Dallas too, thinking that that may be my place of residence in a year if I attend UNT, which seems likely if I get in.
I really have nothing else to say. I havn't done much lately. The heavy rain today was awesome, definately brought up my mood a bit. I've got a lot going on in my head, I'll clear it up a bit before I really talk about it.
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| Open window |
[08 Jun 2003|07:32pm] |
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Extol - Reflections of a Broken Soul |
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The result of boredom.... Here's a survey.
( Read more... )
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| Into the hole...AGAIN...haha |
[08 Jun 2003|05:34pm] |
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Extol - Grace for Succession |
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Man, yesterday sucked and today is even worse. I sat around all day til like 6:30 pm when I just layed down for like 4 hours. I don't remember falling asleep at all, but all I know is that I woke up at like 10:30 after about 45 minutes of sleep and got up and took a shower. At one point I ate a hamburger, a hotdog, and a whole fucking thing of dip. God damn, that sucked, I felt so sick and couldn't get to sleep til like 5:30.
Woke up at 2, and have done absolutely nothing, and it's already 5. Summer is starting to hit, I guess it's needed but I feel so out of it. Summer started as shit, and I just hope it dosn't turn more into shit. I've done more than I usually do, which is ok, but eh, you know, things suck.
I wish I wasn't so damn na?ve; I guess I get that from spending so much damn time to myself. Trusting people sucks, I need to learn how to trust myself better. Fucking people. I want to throw up.
It would be fun to take away all the clocks and watches in my room, and cover my windows and just live like that for like a week or something. Just to see what happens in my head...
Extol is the only thing that makes me happy, maybe I'll turn into a fucking Christian, it seems to help them out.
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| Replacement |
[07 Jun 2003|05:35pm] |
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New picture, layout and all that crap. I love the new overdramatic name.
So, my friends can be real assholes. Just when you think you're gonna do something that will help you out, it backfires. Robbie is quite the arrogant fellow, and to add to that Hup clings to him completely and bows to his every fucking word. All I heard from Hup when he was over was either complaining or condescending comments towards any of the other 6 people that were there; shut the fuck up, ass, people make mistakes, and you are FAR from perfect. Besides that little group (Robbie, Hup, and Allan) bitching at me because they ran off (without telling me) to my house at midnight when David, Dan, Michael and I were still downtown, the night was rather enjoyable. But it just kind of made me want to not have to talk to ANYONE. Seclusion isn't a good idea, but I think I want it.
I'm gonna play with my nintendo ladder candy game; thanks M Borel.
Made some recent cd purchases which was nice...
Esoteric - The Pernicious Enigma (Quite possibly the most unsettling music in existence. Self- Proclaimed "Psychadelic Ambient Funeral Doom Metal". Absolutely torturous, the double disk is 9 songs and 115 minutes long. Uncomforting, but in a good way. The music is so massive and layered, and so god damn slow and drudgy.)
Meshuggah - Chaosphere (Their most addictive album, I can't believe I waited this long to get this album. The one word that can truly be used to describe it is Machine. The whole album feels as if some frightening machine is poking and proding at your body. I'm really into disturbing music lately.)
Gentle GIant - Octopus (Joyous 70's prog rock. Good contrast to the more demented stuff. Some of my favorite songs from them, these guys definately have a completely disturbing aspect, but it is oh so cheery.)
Thyrfing - Vansinnesvisor (Hmm, I like it better than Urkraft, but I still think these guys are given way too much credit. A bit of a darker atmosphere, which makes it more enjoyable, and there are more clean vocals.)
Genesis - Foxtrot (Only listened about twice, it seems a bit jumbled together, but the 23 minute Supper's Ready definately makes it worth it)
I feel like this song....
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| So few see me |
[05 Jun 2003|11:05am] |
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Esoteric - A Worthless Dream |
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There's nothing like waking up to some disturbing Esoteric and the rain. Any time you feel down, listen to these guys, there is so much more wrong with them.
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| Letting go |
[04 Jun 2003|12:56pm] |
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I feel so sick to my stomach.
I don't know what to think.
I don't know how to say goodbye, and I will have to do it so much.
I regret having not been there...
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| Thoroughly Entranced |
[23 May 2003|12:25am] |
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Negura Bunget - 'n Crugu Bradului I |
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Everything is really overwhelming lately.
So much seems to just be changing in front of me, and I can't help but keep my eyes focused forwards.
I have to prepare myself for the fact that I can't really just take it easy. So much needs to get done, and I don't mind that so much, I'm just angry at the time this chooses to happen. Why couldn't I be more busy last year when it was needed. Finally, when I get something I have desired so much, I happen to have all this other shit to deal with. I care too much to let other things get in the way. I've really been enjoying the way things have been going, but I just wish I could make those around me happy.
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[11 May 2003|08:48pm] |
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So friday night was really the greatest experience of my life (except for Germany, but that was 3 weeks, this was 2 hours). This will be long, but this just isn't something that I want to forget.
Dan and Joaquin and I arrived at the Backroom at about 7:30 and waited outside to get in at 8:00. I ended up meeting Peter (guitar) and Martin Mendez (bass) before the show, and talked to them a little and got autographs on my Orchid and Blackwater Park booklets. The doors opened and we went into the line. I met Joe, who came with a couple friends. It was cool to talk to him again, he's going to the Houston show tommorrow, lucky bastard.
When we got in, it was still another 45 minutes or so before the first band came on. Alex got there just in time, I havn't seen her since Wurstfest in October. I didn't even know the bands name, but they just sucked. The first song was like some 15 minute punk song, how they think they can pull off a 15 minute punk song is beyond me, and believe me, they didn't. They only played for about 20 minutes thankfully.
After about another 25 minutes of waiting Yakuza came on, and with them came an Alto and Soprano saxaphone. I thought they should be pretty interesting, but it was a horrible attempt at some bland artsy hardcore shit, with saxaphone. The best thing about them was that I got to see a guy headbang, not in tempo, with a saxaphone in his hands; that was awesome. Their sound was shit as well, and you couldn't tell what was going on except for the constant screams of the singer and frequent squeeks of the saxaphone. They played for too long (30+ minutes) and by this time my back was hurting really bad.
Lacuna Coil came on in their horribly cheesy costumes, and stupid looking hair styles. But they were pretty damn good, and some people were really getting into them, so that made the show a bit more enjoyable. The best was when Christina (the singer) would just look directly into your eyes with her beautiful eyes while singing, she's really cool. They were good, I just couldn't get past the matching costumes with zippers and buckles and what not.
We waiting for about another 30 minutes, and I talked to some guy who was in a blues band with his girlfriend, they were nice. People inevitably began chanting "OPETH OPETH OPETH!!" and in about 5-10 minutes the lights dimmed and they walked out at 12.
By this time I didn't know what to think and my stomach had a funny feeling heh. But Martin hit the hi-hat twice to open with Leper Affinity, I just went HOLY FUCK!!! Time went by so fast, and the 9 minute song seemed to only be a few minutes. I was naturally screaming my head off to every fucking word. I usually don't get into concerts too much, but fuck this was Opeth. Considering this was their first show in Austin, Mikael seemed suprised at the reaction, people were spazzing out very nicely. I was lucky enough to have been front and center throughout the whole show, which is what I was hoping for. Next they played Advent, I would have preferred Nectar off of Morningrise, but oh well it was great regardless. It was weird, during the slow parts of the songs (this was during the whole show), they would slow down quite a bit, and the guitars had this really muddy yet clean distortion that made it sound really mysterious and creepy, I fucking loved it, the music just completely took over my body; I was in complete euphoria for the whole show. I missed the big vocal harmonies in Advent but it was great hearing the jazzy part in person.
Next was Deliverance I believe, which was definately one of the heavier songs, naturally. The end especially was intense, and they shortened it from the cd length thankfully. The clean vocals during the second half sounded way better than on the cd, even without the harmonies.
I think that The Drapery Falls was the next song. This was what I was waiting for, and it was so emotionally intense. Peter threw water on everyone at this point, and so all my sweat was running into my eyes, thus causing me to have my closed for the majority of the song, which made it a pretty indescribable experience. I don't think anything will ever match seeing them perform that song. After the show when I met Mikael I thanked him for playing it, and informed of how much it meant to me that they played it.
Godheads Lament was next, and it was a lot better than I had expected. Great song normally, but live it was just so much better, and definately a lot heavier. Finally we had a break when they played Credence, which was fucking beautiful, especially with the extended ending. The ending somehow morphed into Bleak, and everyone freaked out. A Fair Judgement was going to be the "final" song, and it was soooo good. I like that song so much more now after they played it, the ending was slowed down a bit and was very drudgy and extremely intense. They left, but everyone knew they would encore, and of course they did.
When they came out I asked Mikael for his pick that was laying on the ground and he handed me the one he was playing with, the guy to the right of me was like "Awww, you motherfucker" but he ended up getting a drum stick from Lopez at the end, heh. By this time I was leaning on the front monitors ready to just pass out, but I let out my final amount of energy when they opened up Demon of the Fall....holy shit. What a song to go out with, shit that was fucking incredible; sooo intense.
They ended the song and it was about 1:45, and they shook peoples hands as they were walking out and left the stage. I couldn't walk at all, and was sooo dizzy. I went straight to the bar and got some water and talked to Alex, and Dan and Joaquin about how orgasmic that was. Euphoria and dizziness finally began to fade.
I went out to the tour bus and Peter came out to begin the meeting and autographing. Next came Martin Mendez, and finally Mikael came out. I got pictures with all of them, except Mendez, who was in the bus, I guess he's shy. Got to talk to them all for a little; all really modest and laid back, very easy to just hang out and talk with. I was so in awe of the fact that I was talking to Mikael. Yes, I'm a fanboy. Yes, I was freaking out in my mind (hopefully not making it obvious). I couldn't help it, the guy has done a lot for me.
Got home after having some fun on the road (which was barren of people, had to take advantage of that). Passed out immediately; sweaty, stinky, and very sore. Here it is Sunday, and I'm still fucking sore, and my voice is finally kind of back to normal. That, was a GOOD night. Once again, excuse the length.
Setlist (I believe this is the order):
Leper Affinity
Advent
Deliverance
The Drapery Falls
Godhead's Lament
Credence
Bleak
A Fair Judgement
Demon of the Fall
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| Booyah Grandma |
[17 Apr 2003|04:52pm] |
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| Value Packs of 10 |
[16 Apr 2003|04:31pm] |
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Porcupine Tree - Piano Lessons |
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Driving home I saw a guy with a bumper sticker that said "Don't be a Pain in the Boat". I wanted to shoot him.
I really dislike days where your mind is just kind of blank, and you have nothing to say. Today I was just tired and bah, didn't have anything to say. Maybe I'll just go to sleep in a little, getting about 20 hours of sleep would be really cool.
Saw House of 1000 Corpses on Friday (hahaha) and Phone Booth on Sunday (HAHA!!). Both of which were horrible, but that's ok, it was fun. House was just an attempt at ultra shock value, which reminded me of Texas Chainsaw Massacre, though not nearly as well done. Sorry, but I just love Texas Chainsaw Massacre... The booger queen chose Phone Booth, so I can't be blamed for that one.
Pissing off obnoxious ghetto people is fun as hell.
Off I go! I need to work on this recording more diligently.
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| Yes... |
[08 Apr 2003|09:25pm] |
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Old Man's Child - My Kingdom Will Come |
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Badass.
Oh, new format. I love my new image!! If anyone finds more pictures of houses like that, send me links!
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