some days really take a lot out of me. I can't decide whether I want company or not so I find myself sitting in the corner of Mr C's. it's almost as rock'n'roll as Finns. the best thing about Mr C's, though, is Guitar Hero Wednesday. oh yeah.

in other news I heard The Ting Tings for the first time ever yesterday & I think they are superduper.

I really don't know what to do with myself today. I feel really hot. I don't know which bus to get on at the moment. there's some stuff I could do in Bournemouth but I am getting kinda bored of it there.

haha. I totally forgot I had a chelsea in 2005 until I saw _thechelseas. I even found pictures of it in my old yahoo briefcase. well, kinda.

do you know what my eleventh biggest pet hate is? people who put non-sale items in sale sections! there is nothing quite as annoying as finding a cool pair of low-rise skinny black jeans on the trousers for five pounds rack & then finding they are actually twenty pounds. I can't believe some people are too lazy to walk an extra metre to put items back in the correct place.

another thing that is annoying is people who steal bows & gems off hair accessories. seriously, why bother? (incidentally, I think I will rejoin hairclips - it was my favourite community back in 2003).

as you can probably tell, shopping was pretty crap today. I didn't find any plaid ribbons for my hair.

but fab face food made me feel good

yep. I love me some katie_hatie. mwah. (see pictures in makehermine & suicide_pinups) so I have a new userpic made by laciviousfacts/christianpalko.

& eh, what else..? I know Jacko is wacko but I want Thriller quite badly.

my swimming lesson yesterday went really well. in an hour I swam a length by myself. there was a lot of shrieking & tears beforehand but I felt good when I did the length without stopping or sinking. speaking of which, I was really ill last night. I drank a lot of pool water. even my chocolate & cherry soyashake today failed to make me feel better. chlorine does not taste good.

I might have to work another weekend. poop. but,the time is passing so quickly at the moment. I can't wait until Halloween. & after that I am going on holiday.

yayay. I am going swimming tomorrow. I packed my spiderman swimming bag with my favourite teal bath towel & swimming costume. I had to go & get the next size down in swimming costumes 'cause where I have lost some weight my swimming costume revealed a little too much when I stretched my legs. & I don't want to get a ban before I learn the breast stroke.

I am super-annoyed that I worked yesterday 'cause the people who didn't come in are getting paid the same amount of overtime as me as compensation for the inconvenience of being on call. how about some compensation for the inconvenience of working over my weekend. but, ah, I shouldn't complain. the extra money is going towards some furniture for our spare room. I am going to turn it into a study so I can focus more thoroughly on my coursework next year. as soon as I go into the lounge I fall asleep.

today I fell over in front of my colleagues as I left work. well, it wasn't really my fault - some guy was walking towards me & I moved aside to let him pass but he walked right into me & put his face an inch away from mine & made a funny growling noise. it was so shocking that I lost balance. I wasn't upset 'cause I've got use to anti-social behaviour, but it's embarrassing to fall on your bum.

I am addicted to Oatly's Healthy Oat Chocolate. it's a shame it's so bloody hard to find. the closest place that does it is nearly four miles away (which I guess isn't too bad but it's difficult to get to).

I ended up going into work today to do some technology testing & like most tests I have ever taken part in, the systems were not working. so I ended up doing my regular day-to-day stuff. I am quite pleased that I managed to catch up on my backlog (well, nearly).

& I was happy to see that my miniature roses have bloomed. I was almost ready to give up on them but they got better over the weekend. I thought I might have overpruned them but I hadn't. they look lovely today. I think reading The Secret Garden last week inspired me to take care of them more. I wish I had a garden to grow some more things in.

the local Wilkinsons has Montagne Jeunesse lucky dip packs. they are £2 & you get four products in them. they are superduper. today I got Frizz Miracle Conditioning Hair Mask & now my hair feels smooooooooooooth.

I was searching for some Migala mp3s & found one of my most favourite tracks ever; Last Fool Around. it reminds me of being nineteen/twenty & drinking on the beach late at night.

Today is a day of disaster -I'm on the same bar. Old known people pass by, it's only my cousin that I call, as he goes to buy cigarettes and bread.
And through the glass, women look upon their shoulders I should be doing something else, in these times.
But, I'm sorry, it is the best I can do -I wonder if I can pay this bill- couples speak about their past. And it's hard to speak without anger, of these times, yes, it's very hard to speak without anger.
But I am glad that some are together and have children for their happiness.
I know I would be better doing something else, more than reading poetry. Like the girl I was here years ago with did. I'm glad some like them got married.
Now through the glass, women look upon their shoulders should I be doing something else, in these times?

I sometimes wish I could see my sister a little more often. she's really helpful when it comes to helping me buy accessories & hairdyes. I take Matt shopping with me but his answer to everything is I don't know so I get a bit stressed.

I've been going into NL daily over the past fortnight. I think it's a sentimental the head office is in Weymouth thing (plus, I've decided I need to get out of the office in my lunch hour & NL is one of the few places where I am guaranteed not to walk into a colleague). but I get all confused & end up buying shirts like the ones I have at home. shirts like this:


& I reckon I should get some Smart Pure Purple & Smart Fiery Red & get myself a Pia-do

maybe that's not a very good photo - you'd best look at generic "emo" girl again.

today I was asked if I can work next weekend. I looked at the calendar & for some reason I thought I was doing something on 30 August. I couldn't figure out what so I said I was available to work, but I would rather not.

I suddenly remembered on the bus home that on the evening of 30 August - I am going to my ten year high school reunion. I am almost surprised to be going. I didn't have a particularly fun time at school, but hey, it might be too good to miss.

Matt is frowning at me 'cause I am listening to Frank. it really helps me chill out. I go to sleep within ten minutes when it's on my stereo. she's a nutcase, but man she's good.

I am also still reading The Wind In The Willows - it's a very hard read despite being a children's book. well, not difficult - but hard to endure at some points. it's like listening to an elderly relative. you don't want to upset it but you wish it would shut the fuck up.

I've had a pretty busy week. I've done a lot of overtime. I've made ten pounds selling books (which I then spent on a couple of gingham shirts). my application for council housing has been accepted but it's hardly worth me bidding for the next two years as I am not high priority.

I had my mid-year assessment at work (this surprised me as I still haven't had my 2007 review). it lasted ten minutes, it probably could have lasted longer but I told my supervisor I have no ambition & I am happy to have a satisfactory ranking.

Matt has been making delicious meals this week. he's such an awesome cook.

I am really looking forward to the bank holiday weekend. woop. three days off. yay. it's so nice to have a bank holiday off work (especially being a bank clerk). I've worked my ass off this week, so tomorrow I am going to be as lazy as I want.

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LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Nina
Birthplace: Poole
Current Location: Poole
Hair color: brown
Righty or lefty: righty

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Heritage: unknown
Shoes you wore today: Vans Pink Flamingo classic slip-on
Your weakness: other people's problems

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
Your most overused phrase: awesome
Your thoughts first waking up: I can't wait to get back to bed again
Your bedtime: 21:00-22:00 weekdays, anytime on weekends
Your most missed memory: a few old friends & my parents getting along

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: neither
McDonald's or Burger King: neither
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: neither
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: neither
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: neither

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: no
Cuss: more than I like
Take a shower: yes
Have a crush(es): no
Think you've been in love: yes
Like(d) high school: yes
Believe in yourself: yes
Get motion sickness: yes
Think you're attractive: no
Think you're a health freak: no
Like thunderstorms: when I am inside, I do

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: no
Gone on a date: if being out with my husband counts
Had sex: yes
Gone to the mall: I walk through it everyday to get to work
Been on stage: I have stood on a stage
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
Eaten sushi: no
Been dumped: no
Gone skating: I put my skates on, but I didn't make it to the front door
Gone skinny dipping: no
Stolen anything: no

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: not for a long time
Been caught "doing something": I'm often caught "doing nothing"
Been called a tease: not since I threatened to tell someone the ending ofThe Deathly Hallows before they finished reading it
Gotten beaten up: not for at least a decade

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hope to be married: twenty-eight
Number of children: none, please
Describe your dream wedding: one that's over quickly

LAYER NINE: IN A GUY/GIRL
Best eye color: grey or green
Best hair color: ginger
Height: taller than me
Best first date location: botanical garden
Articles of clothing: collared shirts with rolled up sleeves
Best first kiss location: outside

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people I could trust with my life: two
Number of CD's I own: one hundred, I reckon
Number of piercings: nine currently
Number of tattoos: two
Number of times your name has appeared in newspaper: three that I know of

NSFW

sometimes I do random google searches in order to find emo porn & boy did I hit the motherload today.

I searched site:burningangel.com emo & found this beauty:
burningangel.com/fs/kylee/_emo_slut/main.html

I noticed the /fs/ in the link & decided I should search site:burningangel.com /fs/ (this brought up a broken link - I used my initiative & added main.html on the end of the address)... so...

burningangel.com/fs/adahlia/main.html
I haven't mentioned recently how much I love Adahlia Diamante so I thought I would remind you.

I also stumbled upon a kellykuntface gallery
burningangel.com/fs/catra/main.html

saucydwellings is pretty neat. I'd like my own place to decorate, but I'll only decorate when I have found my home. every place I have ever lived in has felt like a hotel (admittedly a hotel where there are no maids). it doesn't bother me so much but I'd like to splash paint around.

sometimes I look at different properties & think that person looks like they belong there. I don't think I belong to anywhere.

my friend says I look like I am my home. I guess that's good enough for me.

I am finally parting with my Beat Generation books. I don't enjoy them anymore. I will try to sell them at work & if that fails I'll leave them in various public places with a note inside.

things I like being with b (the letter b was brought to me by demon_lover)

barn owls

belt buckles

berets & baker boys

Bennetts Water Gardens

bedtime

Blood Brothers

Brighton

biscuits

boi_band

babysinead

blossom

Body Shop's body butter

blusher

babydolls

books

burningangel.com


comment if you would like a letter

yeah I should've dyed my hair tonight & gone shopping. but I am tired. I am already counting down the weeks until my next holiday (thirteen). why is the first week back after a holiday so miserable? I can't concentrate.

sometimes I wish I could teleport. it would be so much fun, I could do things as they occur to me.

this week has been busy. I came up with the idea for ShakeAWednesday at work (well, my colleague Elliott came up with the name, but as I am older & scarier I have stole it from him). I spoke to one of the staff at the ShakeAway head office about a possibility of a discount for my company - he's going to speak to the franchisee of the local store. word has got around the office - people are liking the idea. I have even talked to one of the senior managers about joining the ShakeAWednesday club.

I went to a pub quiz with some of my favourite people. I didn't know the answers to any of the questions, but I recognised a picture of Chuck Norris.

I often wonder how people manage to get such good bargains in supermarkets. is there a scheduled time when clothes & food are reduced? or do they spend hours in a supermarket all day? or do they know something I don't?

a few weeks ago I bought a £4 neon orange T-shirt in George. I was quite proud of myself, but the next day I saw a lady with the same shirt in her trolley for 50p! where did she find it? I ran into the sale section looking for more bargains but I couldn't find anything in my size for less than £5.

& sometimes I have been in the supermarket when the intercom announces sushi & sandwiches have been reduced in aisle three but when I get their the shelves are empty. empty.

I used to work with a lady who often came back from her lunch break with 20p pyjama sets & one time she bought a giant cauldron for 5p (when you plugged it into the mains a witch jumped up & down in it). she said she just finds herself in the right place in the right time. I think she was lying. I am sure there is some skill I don't know.

I say this 'cause I wanted to get a Hello Kitty top

the website says it is available between 29 June & 27 July. so I went in early Monday morning (figuring that must be when it is reduced) I saw a line of Mum's with it in their trolley's. they were pushing eachother out of the way - it was brutal. what chance do I have against those animals?

anyway, I am going to see if I can get some skinny jeans.

in the meantime Prick have finally got around to interviewing somebody interesting (the last interview I read was kellykuntface's in January).

prickmag.net/sabinakelleyfeature.html
prickmag.net/sabinakelleytattoos.html

I don't feel too good at the moment. I am sure it will pass, though. I think I have had too much sun. I went out for two jogs yesterday & I am aching today. I feel like I've done something productive though, so that's inspiring.

argh, I ate so many carbohydrates this afternoon. I think I will burst. but I had a supergreat day on a Greenslade Pleasure Boat (my first cruise!)

I also saw The Dark Knight which I thought was really cool.

Matt got me an ace Vans Hawaiian Bag. now I can be a real bag lady. I have always wanted a big bag but for some reason I always end up buying tiny cute ones. Matt's so practical.


eep - hibiscus is so pretty

I am showing signs of sunburn now. that's not good. I remember I chucked out a bottle of aftersun a month ago. gah - I am so silly.

I am looking forward to Watchmen. Matt lent me the graphic novel a while back & I think Rorschach is such an interesting character. but the movie doesn't come out until March 2009 (why are movies always hyped up for such a long time before their release date? it's annoying especially when there are so few movies I want to see).

well my little rant about the lady at the Civic Centre has been removed. about two hours after the whole experience I just let it all go. yes I still think she was rude but, well, look at what she deals with as part of her job. I'd be a git if I was a civil servant too. in fact, I'd be even more of a git.

I feel nice & calm now thinking about how in seven years I might have a flat. & if I don't I should have completed my degree. sometimes you've got to look at the bigger picture.

I forgot to say, one of the books I got Matt for his birthday was called Change The World For A Fiver (this was the book that offended him the least). it's quite a sweet little book. it's strange that people are so wasteful. I mean some people leave the tap running as they brush their teeth - I have never done that, even when I was a little girl I only turned the tap on to wash out the toothpaste. it doesn't make sense to have the tap on. I am not being a martyr but I seriously can't understand the point of leaving a tap on when it's not in use.

& energy-saving bulbs too. hello? you can get free energy-saving bulbs almost everywhere. Matt often tells me about electricity companies sending out bulbs to all their customers (as he has to deliver about one hundred on his post round). even in the Civic Centre you get two free bulbs for filling out a staff satisfaction survey.

it's really quite astonishing to see something made so terribly simple, yet not be used.

on a completely unrelated note, when I was in my late teens I did a very memorable dare. my dare was to drink a For Goodness Shake (at least I believe that is what it was). it was the most disgusting drink I have ever tasted - if you would like to see for yourself go to forgoodnessshakes.com/sample.aspx. & you too can vomit in your hand like I did.

I have listened to Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley about fifty times in the past week. I am addicted.

today is Matt's birthday. I got him a lucky cat keyring, two NES games & three books (one was a political humour book which he found offensive & not in a funny way). so yeah, that present sucked but I blame his ridiculous sense of humour - it confuses the hell out of me. next year he's getting linen shirts & boxer shorts.

I was really chuffed that I managed to get Megaman 2 for 50p. I also got a game called Maniac Mansion which Matt could remember playing when he was a little boy. awww.

we have had a couple of visits from Matt's twin brother this weekend. it was great to see him as he's often so busy. we are going to see The Dark Knight together later this week. I am looking forward to it.

I was supposed to be going to Brighton tomorrow but it's so frickin' hot I might just lay around in my underwear drinking rooibos tea. yummy. well actually, there's so much I am supposed to be doing this week & I don't feel like doing anything. Matt bought an XBox360 for his brother & it has a broken discdrive so we got to take it back. &, uh, there's the council house application to hand in. also, I need to be measured for a bra (I still haven't got around to doing this 'cause it has been so hot last week I didn't go into town).

I keep telling myself not to let another holiday go to waste, but if a holiday ain't for rest then what is it for?

ShakeAway Poole opens next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am superexcited about having a ShakeAway within walking distance from my job. yep.

& also, 25p suspender belts. woohoo. I have a few now.

I weighed myself yesterday morning & I have lost another half a stone. I seem to be so lighter in the morning (no, I hadn't just taken a dump). I can't figure out my actual weight 'cause I seem to go up & down by a few pounds everyday.

I better pester Matt now. I have seen some rainbow shorts in the LaSenza 99p knicker sale.

I have just cleaned that bathroom & it's back to it's old white colour (except the silicon seal around the bath). I must admit it looks good with the new white shower curtain.

I never want to clean but I am always proud of myself when I do.

I think I should get some new towels & a bathmat to make the place look a little bit tidier.

I need to walk off the excitement now.

weeeeeeeeeee next week I'll be on holiday.

Matt thinks I am totally crazy but I bought some anti-wrinkle cleanser today, I was going to buy some moisturiser too but I don't know which one to use (it's all so confusing). everyone tells me I have no wrinkles, but I can't help but think I don't look as fresh-faced as I used to... then again, I have spent the last three years in insurance & banking.

I went for a walk to the beach today. man, I am so glad I did. I really need to get exercising again - it feels so good. I always feel calmer after a good walk/run.

tReds had some IC shoes for £10 in their sale today. they were so cute. I tried them on & sat for a good minute thinking are these really appropriate for work? the short answer is no.

I saw an old friend I used to work with outside FreeSpirit. he was a bit of a playboy & was always telling me about his out-of-work activities. he's a totally great laugh though. I don't think he could remember me that well. I stupidly looked in the window of FreeSpirit & saw some ultracute mambo underwear. oh my. I think my friend was a bit shocked about the glazed expression that came over my face.

I have a day off on Monday but I am not going to be having fun, that's fo' sure. I am completely overwhelmed by the amount of things I need to do. but luckily my walk has chilled me out.

I am going to wrap my Mum's birthday present now.