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Well, Purim here, in March. I went as Morticia Adams, with long black hair, red lips and long black dress with cool sleeves. I think I might still have the dress, actually.
We were clubbing, and then I decided I needed peanuts. So we went across the street from the club to one of the 24 hours kiosks and got peanuts. Then I felt ready for some more dancing, and we went to some gay club that was very cool. I remember that none of the girls was actually gay, all fag hags. I ended up making out with a cute gay boy in the ladies room after he borrowed my lipstick and I told him it looked good on him.
It was long ago. Good Times.
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| My myspace friend Dr. Evil tells the world of the sexiest movie EVER! |
[05 Oct 2008|09:43am] |
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I laughed so hard I was crying!!! This guy is HILARIOUS!!! LMAO!!! He sent it to me, I HAD to share.... ROTFLMAO
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| Tokio Hotel fans have trully lost it |
[03 Oct 2008|12:33pm] |
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Tokio Hotel fans have trully lost it!
Well, I must say I barely managed to drink my coffee this morning, I was laughing hard.
Apparently there's a new trend among some Tokio Hotel fan girls, and this is seriously an amusing one! Some random girl sets up a Myspace account, in the name of some other people, that are claiming to be a -- wait for it-- SUPPORT GROUP for this little teen fan, because, they reveal the 'secret' that she has slept with a member of Tokio Hotel, and now they are here to SUPPORT her. They send out friend requests and bravely support the girl whose secret encouter is out ( told only by that same group ). You don't need to be Poirot to figure out this little wannabe ( so far I have seen two, but I would bet more will come with their "shocking secrets") set up the account, and is enjoying a her new nonexisting ( well, it exists in her head) 15 seconds of webfame.... It's pathetic, but highly amusing!!
Anyone want to create a support group for me? I keep dreaming of having sex with Marilyn Manson, surely that requires some support!!!!
This was exactly my reaction!
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| Weird night and a bad morning |
[02 Oct 2008|11:37am] |
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I had a BAD dream. I was having sex with Marilyn Manson WHILE watching Shane on the L word on DVD... Why couldn't it be the other way around? Having sex with Katherine Moennig, and ignoring Mansons DVD, cause if I was having sex with her, I would not be looking anywhere else... And then I woke up with THE worst headache of my life. It was so bad I was worried something was wrong. My right side of the head was exploding. I took some aspirin and then Lola came and lay ON my head :-) and I fell asleep again. And
this is the second day I wake up with weird and deep scraches on me. Last night it was on my thigh, and today a really deep scrath on my arm, that was actually bleeding. I have no idea where they came from, as Lola and Betty don't scrath and my fingernails aren't long. Alien abuctions? ( joking)... But I am interested what the hell is it that's happening during night that I end up bruised.
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| Anxiety, sadness... the usual |
[01 Oct 2008|12:29pm] |
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My relatives from Germany are coming in two weeks, and I am very very on edge. It's gonna be tough. I am very anxious about everything. I wish I knew how to control it, but I don't. And even if I manage to somehow control it, my subconscience screwes me up big time again and again, with my dreams.
I had a dream about my Dad tonight. I realised his birthday is close... I haven't heard from him in years. It's sad, but now I am almost scared to hear him. So sad to love a person who is a stranger to you. Weird feeling. I remember him well, I do love him, yet I don't know him at all. Mom tells me how much we're alike in behaviour, and that's really the only way for me to figure out who he is... I have no other idea.
Do I miss him? I suppose... But how do you really miss someone who wasn't really there in your life? And with my life and the extremes of the changes in it... it's even more difficult. However I do know I love him, and a memmory of him always brings tears to my eyes. I guess the feeling of loss and missing on something is there. I just don't let it take over too much...
Goddamn it, PMS makes me so emotional, so messed up... And when you add it to a messed up and emotional base that is me, you get one hell of a weeping sorry mess.
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| One day at a time |
[22 Sep 2008|08:02pm] |
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I often heard the expression "One day at a time", but never really understood it, to be honest. I do now. I find a lot of comfort from this strategy. Cause if you start looking at the really big picture, the future, you panic, think I can't possibly make it! But if you think, ok, today is about doing the best you can today, and so every day, the future is less daunting, you don't think of it as a huge overwhelming monster coming your way, it's just quietly coming, flowing and you're flowing with it. So one day at a time it is!
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| Butterfly is the symbol of change |
[21 Sep 2008|07:56pm] |
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If I can't change my past, I will at least not have to read it here. I deleted everything I wrote here. I only got glimpses of some phrases, but it could have been written in tears and blood. So much pain and so many misfortunes...
Deleting those painful things and events is good. Unfortunatly they will not be forgotten, but I don't want reminders of them anywhere.
Lets hope from now on the events I write here will be much better than the past.
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