Ah, home. I'm sitting in my comfy bed right now, and I couldn't be loving it more. I am so glad to be home. I have missed it so much! I am very tired. I'm about to hit the sheets, and just watch the telly until I drift off. I love being able to call Australia home.

I think that tomorrow we're going to have this HUGE family get together...Nick has no idea what he's in for. My family is crazy! They're loud, out-going, and SO humourous! I don't exactly know where I fit in the bunch. Seeing as that I am nowhere NEAR as loud or out-going! I'm also glad that Nick doesn't mind my sarcasm...because he'll be hearing A LOT of it here! My whole family is very sarcastic. But, I'm sure that Nick can handle it. ; )

I am way too excited about tomorrow though. I mean, I haven't seen any of my relatives in 5 years! And Jake is just down the street from my aunt and uncle's house. So, tomorrow morning I'll probably run down there and see him. Oh the fun! Haha.  

We just landed, and it's about 8:30pm here. I am SO excited!! I cannot wait to be home! We're staying at my aunt Emma and my uncle Sam's house. It gorgeous. I always wished that I could live there. They're very wealthy, and their house shows that off! Haha.


Well, it's time to go get our luggage, but, I'll post later!!

YAY! Tomorrow Ace is coming home. It's been weeks since I last saw him. I really miss him. I also just found out that he'll be coming home on Mother's day too. Which is awesome! I really wish he'd move back to London. I mean, not that I don't mind going to Ireland to see him, because it's beautiful. But, I just wish that I could see him more often. You know? I mean, being away from my twin brother is tough, and I cry sometimes because I miss him so much. And after the death of my neighbour's son, and them losing a son, and a brother. Because they now just have one son. I mean, I get terrified that something might happen to him. I just don't ever want to loose him, you know? It'd be like loosing half of myself. And with out the other half, how would I go on?

Anyhow mates, I bought some new shirts and a dress today, and I will be wearing something new tomorrow when I see Ace. My Mum was shocked that I actually bought a dress too! Because, I am not as girly as my Mum and Rose. I've always kind of had this emo-skater-sporty type style. Not too girly. I mean, I went through this faze when I was very preppy. Now? Not so much. I like to wear long skirts though. The kind that sweep the floor. 'Hippie' skirts, as I call them.

But, I am very excited that Ace will be coming home, and I am counting the hours. I have still been packing my arse off though. I'll probably end up with like two suit cases full of rubbish. As always. Oh well.

Ok mates, you've got to watch this! He was my favourite guy on AI until he got voted off last week. So, after you watch this, comment me, and tell me what you think of his voice. =)

You're feeling: Alright...
To your left: Printer
On your mind: Michael Johns ♥
Last meal included: Lettuce
You sometimes find it hard to: Blow balloons...I know, I'm a weirdie
The weather: Cold
Something you have a collection of: Bears
A smell that cheers you up: My brother Ace, and the smell of nature...ah...
A smell that can ruin your mood: Waste
How long since you last shaved: Today
The current state of your hair: Long (hippie-ish)
The largest item on your desk/workspace (not computer): Shelves...I guess
Your skill with chopsticks: Bloody good
Which section you head for first in a bookstore: Anything on Animals, or Science
Something you're craving: Hmm, a few things...I don't really feel like listing them though
Your general thoughts on the presidential race: Uh, I'm terrified that Barrack Obama might win, but other than that. I'm ok.
How many times have you been hospitalized this year: None, thank God
Favourite place to go for a quiet moment: Imagination, Nature
You've always secretly thought you'd be a good: Lawyer, but everyone has said that
Something that freaks you out a little: Barrack Obama (he gives me the heebie-jeebies!)
Something you've eaten too much of lately: Ice cream, sugar, anything sweet, I need to cut back
You have never: Been on a tour of the White House
You never want to: Lose someones trust in me
Where is your cell phone? Next to me
Your significant other? Wonderful, I love you Nick!
Your hair? Long, and dirty blonde
Your mother? Amazing in every way possible
Your father? We're not very close, which is sad
Your favourite thing? Well, it's not a thing but a person. Ace
Your dream last night? Weird as crap...
Your favorite drink? Pina' Colada
Your dream/goal? To become a famous singer/actress, and if all else fails go on to being a Zoologist
The room you're in? The computer room
Your ex? Nowhere, never had an "ex"
Your fear? Life
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Back home in Australia
Where were you last night? Mum's
What you're not? Short, arrogant, dumb
Muffins? Love em'
One of your wish list items? "The complete dream book"
Where you grew up? Perth
The last thing you did? Danced
What are you wearing? Green shirt, lacy camisole, and Black pants
Your TV? Off
Your pets? A dog named Tacey, I love my little girl!
Your computer? Awesome
Your life? Crazy!
Your mood? Mellow, in harmony with nature
Missing someone? Always
Your car? Bloody awesome
Something you're not wearing? My pajamas
Favourite Store? Kath Kidston
Your summer? Anticipating it, can't wait to spend the Summer back home in Australia
Like someone? Yes, I sure do
Your favourite colours? Blue, Green, Silver, Black.
When is the last time you laughed? Today, I wee little chuckle
Last time you cried? Last night, it was rough...

Being discovered. That's pretty much it. I'm a singer (I'd like to do a bit of acting too), but I sing in a Pub, and try to get as recognized as I can. It just hasn't happened yet. =) But no worries, I just have to keep believing! I'll be moving to Los Angeles in about two years, and I'll be busting my butt to try to get as many gigs there as I can. But, in the ultimate? I'll be living in LA for as long as it takes to get a record deal, and then I'll probably move back home to Australia when the time is right. =D I mean, I could be in LA for a very long time, and have a feeling I might. I figure that I'll give it a few years, then if all doesn't work out, I'll go back home. Which wouldn't be a sad thing for me, it would be quite joyful, since I miss everyone so dearly. But, that's pretty much the only thing "keeping" me from my dream job. 

Today was very, very mellow, and it was the most relaxing Sunday in a long time. =) Me and my sister Rose got "in harmony with nature" for about an hour, maybe 45 minutes, and then we came inside and did an hour (maybe a half too) of Yogalates. THAT is relaxing. Haha! We did three body workouts, and we're saving the fourth for tomorrow. I feel even more exercised than normal. I mean, I run the tread-mill everyday for 10 minutes, dance for about 30-45 (in heels), and now I'm also doing Yogalates. So I feel very good about my exercising.

Anyhow mates! I also got some great inspiration for some new drawings, while harmonizing with nature. Which is always a good thing. =D And even some new poetry! It's very inspirational to me, and very nice. I seem to always get my inspiration from either emotion or nature.

But, I think I'll wind down right now, seeing as that it's 10pm, and probably go to bed soon. I'll try to post again tomorrow though.

Also, I want to tell all you mates out there to pray for one of my friends, at 7:30pm Monday (tomorrow). Her name is Brittony, and she has cancer, and she seriously needs some prayer. She's been a part of our family for years, and prayed for my brother while he had cancer too. So please pray. God bless you all. =)

Ok, so, guess who got voted off American Idol last night? My favourite, Michael Johns!! How could this be, I mean, he was one of the best contestants on there! :( I'm so upset. And yes, I know it's stupid, but I must have truly liked him...other wise I probably wouldn't have caught myself crying at his departure. I never cry. Seriously. And then Carly Smithson started bawling, and then I started bawling even more! Then I told my Mum (because he's her favourite too), and then she said: "Aww, I would've cried if I watched it. Good thing I missed it." And then after she said "Aww", my eyes started watering. I know, I'm such a baby. But I was SO not expecting that one! I thought that for sure it was going to be Syesha Mercado. Well, I think I'll post a few pictures of him, as an AI farewell...yes, I know I'm lame.


He's got such talent...and man he was awfully nice to look at...*sighs* =( 

RESULTS
Based on the lj interests lists of those who share your more unusual interests, you might be interested in
1. camping score: 2
2. the outsiders score: 1
3. kirk franklin score: 1
4. making boys cry score: 1
5. mcdonalds score: 1
6. talking score: 1
7. mole score: 1
8. slinky action zone score: 1
9. preaching score: 1
10. my god score: 1
11. spike score: 1
12. sleeping score: 1
13. dolphins score: 1
14. ice skating score: 1
15. peanutbutter cups score: 1
16. the grinch score: 1
17. dancing score: 1
18. scooby score: 1
19. alabama score: 1
20. ysocm score: 1

Seriously? None. When someone tells me a secret, I keep it, no matter what. I never break that promise, and I keep it. Usually though, when people tell me secrets, it's only a temporary one, and then they tell (whoever) when the time is right. But, yeah, I AM NOT a blabber, mouth! I will not tell anyone, unless it's something very serious, in which said person needs real help. That is the ONLY time I will confess. 

A is for age:
I'm 19

B is for beer of choice:
None

C is for something you crave.
Smoothies!

D is for your dog's name?
Tacey

E is for essential item you use everyday:
My iphone

F is for favorite TV show at the moment:
Ugly Betty

G is for favorite game:
Glover!

H is for Home town:
Sydney, Australia

I is for instruments you play:
Guitar, Piano, Violin

J is for favorite juice:
Apple/Pear

K is for kickin ass?
I've threatened a lot of people with that...

L is for last place you ate:
Home

M is for marriage:
Not yet

N is for your full name:
Lilly Ann Elizabeth Millacent Taylor...last name

O is for overnight hospital stays:
None

P Is For Favorite Place:
Home

Q is for quote:
"Anything worth loving, is worth fighting for."

R is for Biggest Regret:
Not turning off the television, and hugging Lee. Little did I know that that was going to be the last time I saw him...

S is for status:
Umm, I don't know...Geek?

T is for time you woke up today:
9:00AM

U is for underwear you have on now:
Yellow & Green Spongebob underwear

V is for vegetable you love:
Well, I don't know...broccoli or Water Chestnuts

W is for worst habit:
Biting my nails, or the inside of my lip

X is for x-rays you've had:
I don't know? What kind of a question is THAT!

Y is for yummy food you ate today:
Veggie Burger...yum...

Z is for the zodiac sign
I'm a Taurus

My friend Lee, Grandpa, James, Grandma, Papa, Lacey, Tommy, my Dad's Mum, my Dad's brother and sister, and Gran. I've lost a lot of people in my 19 years of age. But all the ones I just named, I lost in the span of 5 years. It's been a pretty horrid five years actually. And I wish they could all come back. Because I miss them all dearly, and it's hard not to miss them. There are a lot of people that I know I'll never get back, and that's truly depressing. I can't tell yo how many times I've cried for them. But, yeah, that's what I lost and wish I could have back.

Personality wise, this is what I wish I still had. My innocence and care-free way of living. I really do miss that, and it gets hard a lot of the time because life was just so simple when I had innocence, and a care-free personality. I've become a worrier, and so that takes away from the care-freeness. I mean, life does get harder as you get older, and I'm ok with that. Only because I know that I've learned from my mistakes. And part of me thinks that if I had that stuff back, I wouldn't be the person I am today.   

My Irish name is, Fiona O'Neill. According to Blogthings.com, lol!

Well, there's the intelligent, shy, quiet, eloquent, serious, listener me. And then when I'm around Ace, there's the funny, not-so-serious, laid-back, mellow, me. When I'm around Ace, everything is comfortable, and when I'm around my mates, I'm a little tense, and nervous. Don't ask me why, that's just the way I am. Like around my family? I'm TOTALLY comfortable, and around my mates? I'm just the opposite. I really don't know why. Because I've known all of my friends forever! Well, I mean, I'm comfortable around most my guy mates, because they're SO outgoing, that I don't really need to say a word! And my girl mates, well, they're all really shy like me, except two. But most of them are, and when we get together, we literally say nothing, and have tons of fun. I don't know though, it's weird. There's not really a lot of personas I have though. I mean, I think that everybody acts differently in different situations though. I just think they do.

So, right now I'm very chipper. I'm listening to Natasha Bedingfield, and she's got such happy voice. =)

Anyhow, last night was very peaceful. I got to listen to my music, and it was quite lovely. And this morning I was latching together my dog Tacey's collar, and I latched my hand instead. I know, how dumb am I? So I ended up with a blood blister, which looked like a mole full of blood. Not to be gross or anything. So, I got a tooth-pick, and stuck it right through my blister, and pulled it back out. It was the grossest/coolest thing I've ever seen. As soon as I pulled the tooth-pick out, blood started poring out. I still have a wee bit of a blister, and I called my Mum and told her. She was like: "You used a tooth-pick?! Why did you do that?!" and I was like: "Because, the blister looked gross, and it hurt!". She got really mad at me, and told me to put some antibiotic ointment on it. I did, and it feels a lot better. And if you mates aren't grossed out by blood, I'll post a picture of what it looked like after I popped it. =) Haha! Sorry, I know, you're probably all going to be sick after reading this.

Well, I had a short day at work today, and I was glad too. I got up at 4am, and worked until 12pm. And surprisingly, I'm not tired at all. I feel very mellow, and calm. I also think that in a few hours I might go get in-touch with nature. You know, Meditate, sit under the trees and write/read poetry. Being the normal hippie that I am! Lol! I'm all about "Make love, not war". I seriously think that I should have been born in the sixty's, my Mum says that she thinks I should have too. I'm like the biggest hippie. I just can't help it. My favourite bag is one that says: "I love my planet", and it only cost  £5, and it's also environment friendly. =D I had a really hard time trying to pick between majours. I was choosing between becoming an Environmentalist and a Zoologist, since I care a great deal about our planet, and animals. But I ended up choosing Zoology because I knew that I could still do my part to help the planet, as well as help/work with the animals too.

Anyhoo! I'll try to post later.

Who might you ask do I look like? Well, I like to think of myself as looking a wee bit  like Natasha Bedingfield...or...I wish. =( I mean, I have the blond hair, big teeth, and she's got blue-ish hazel-ish eyes...like me. But my eyes are more Blue than Hazel. Anyhoo! Yup, I'll post a few pictures of Natasha Bedingfield. =)


She's beautiful...*sighs* I really do wish I looked like her...or WAS her! Lol! Nah, I've got a good life. =)

My visit with Ace was a good one. Not as good as I hoped, because it wasn't one-on-one Lilly Ace time. But it was quite lovely. His girlfriend is super nice, and super shy like me. I think she's good for him. I am just looking forward to next time, because he said he'll come alone. Well, he might bring Seth, but I love that dude. I seriously do. But yeah, I approve of the girlfriend.

Last night my older sister Scarlett surprised me with a visit. Her, her boyfriend Shaw, and her friend Emmie came down. And, oh yeah, Shaw's cat Stanky. And yes, Stanky is his name...so stupid. Anyhoo! It was a lovely visit, and I had fun. My neighbour Brandy also stopped by. It was quite the fun time. I do have to admit. It was nice seeing two siblings right at the same time...almost. Haha! =)

I think that tonight I will probably listen to some Jack Johnson, chill on my bed, and light some soothing candles. Ah, I love doing that. I do it every night to relax me before bed, and it's just so lovely. =) I look forward to it every night.

Next week I will be visiting Ace in Dublin. I am excited. I love my brother Ace, and I love Dublin. Anyhow mates, I'll try to post again tomorrow. 

P.S. How old do you think I look in my user-pic photo? Just curious.

The eloquent, quiet, listener. Haha. Yeah, that's me. I don't speak much at all in real life. Like, if I have company over, I might end up saying 6 things. I'm always afraid that people will find me snobby, because I'm so shy. Like even with my closest mates, there will be like 40 awkward silences. =) And people are always SO surprised, because they read my emails, and then they meet me in person, and I say nothing. They're always like, you're so intelligent, eloquent, and outspoken, and then they meet me, and can't believe what I'm like in real life. Like, I can only speak when it's in writing, other wise I totally suck at speaking. You would think I spoke a totally different language, and couldn't understand a word you're saying. But I listen, and when I feel it's my time to say something, I do.

I just finished my Saturday chores around the house, while singing to my ipod as loud as I could, the entire time I vacuummed. It made it much more enjoyable I do have to admit! Haha. I'm just pretty bored right now...I don't know what I want to do. I hate being bored.

Well, the dinner and romantic evening last night was amazing. And Nick and I had a blast. He's coming over again tonight. I have something special planned. =)

So, my brother Ace is coming over tomorrow in exactly 18 hours. YAY! I know, I'm weird. But I just love seeing him. He's also bringing his girlfriend that I've never met...I hope I like her. She's Indian, and he said that I should like her, and he knows that she'll like me. This may sound weird, but I don't like it when my brother has a girlfriend. I think it takes away the special time we get to spend with each other when he comes over. And I always feel like they're trying to hog my brother. I just get kind of jealous because they get to see him all the time, where as I only get to see him like two times a month. And I think that his last girlfriends took away the fun innocent Ace, and replaced him with the annoying bad-mood Ace. He was normal again after the break-ups, and he was happier than ever...so was I. But I don't think that his new girl will do that. Or at least I hope not. =o

Anyhow mates, I guess I'll go listen to some music, then Nick will be here, and hopefully I won't be so bored. Lol! I know I won't once Nick arrives. =D Anyhoo, I'll post again tomorow. Cheerio!