| 36 an outbreak |
[Mar. 10th, 2006|09:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  weird | ] |
I tried something and it seemed to work along with me.
I talked to him I think. It was sort of creepy because it was raining last night, but I guess I got through.
"Justice, justice," he told me. I couldn't recognize the voice, but I figured it was him. We talked for a bit, almost incoherent mumbling, and he asked me if I knew how he disappeared. I told him I found out rather abruptly that someone I was supposed to trust killed him. He informed me him being missing was a lie.
( Private )
The talking ended sometime after eight o'clock, nearly a half-hour if I started at around seven thirty. I will probably talk to him again, if I could, and maybe, his motives will grow clearer. |
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| 34 something about importance |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|07:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
It was another quiet night.
I'm a bit shaken up after experimenting with it last night.
Had an interesting conversation with a spirit from the past. I asked few questions about him. He said he died over a decade ago, I think. The spirit told me it wasn't interested in possession and if it were to possess me, it would relapse. The man didn't tell me exactly what it meant, but he left before I could bravely ask.... I don't remember anything else because it happened quite fast; for a while when I was talking to the spirit, I couldn't remember who I was.
I stopped writing here the other day, but I guess I should finish recording what happened.
I tried to contact the person who's been missing for a while. I... got a few words... I think. It didn't last very long and afterward; I guess it wasn't who I was looking for.
Getting possessed keeps crossing my mind as I experiment with my Ouija board; it's hard to keep my mind clear when it happens. I don't know-- if I do get possessed, weird things might happen to me again, as it did when the voice had control over me.
But, there's no use in not trying. |
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| 33 it's too quiet |
[Feb. 24th, 2006|09:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
Yesterday I found a box of my old things underneath my bed. Besides finishing a few papers I had to write for school, I didn't have anything else to do that afternoon, otherwise, I sat on my bed and opened the box. Inside were a few things I forgot I even had: some maps, a few books and this weird board with letters and numbers printed on it in bold, black ink. I stared at the items for a while, before realizing all of them had a running theme.
I also understood something about myself I forgot.
First, I picked up the board (determined it was my Ouija board I've forgotten about) and set it on my bed, also picking up the smaller, triangular shaped board (the planchette) and setting aside. The books I left in the box, the maps I immediately pulled out and started glancing over them.
After looking at the maps, I saw slips of paper lying at the bottom of the box, scribbled with my handwriting in metallic looking ink. I read through some notes, following staring towards them for a good minute.
I've talked to you before, didn't I? But I never remembered so don't feel bad for not reminding me, okay?
I've been contemplating using the Ouija board again, but I'd rather not. But, for some reason, maybe I should. I don't remember exactly but there is someone around here who wishes to be reached through it, because they don't have a body anymore. There's been a weird feeling I've been getting due to it being so quiet.
I'm skeptical about it though. But if I do go on with it, I'm not sure if anyone would want to hear what the spirits will say to me.
If you're wondering, I know you know I'm all right. I will write to you soon.
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| 32 locks on a door |
[Feb. 18th, 2006|06:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  grateful | ] |
I'm all right. I haven't wrote anything about myself during the past few days because the voice found me, brought me back to my apartment and locked me in my room. Though, I was able to successfully pick the locks open and free myself. There were bars on the windows I also removed and I checked around for more. Thankfully there weren't any. It would be silly to change my door's locks though.
I haven't seen Yuugi-kun since a few days ago. But I hope you're still okay, Yuugi-kun.
I hope you're okay too.
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| 31 (no subject) [mobile post] |
[Feb. 12th, 2006|06:54 pm] |
12/02/2006 18:54:59
Cant think coherently today; putting up all the mental blocks I can to block everythingout. Ive sort of been found. Moving a bit quickly towards the train arriving in a fewminutes. Going back hometo grab my stuff and find a saferplace. Yuugikun I hopeI probably will see you in a fewhours. |
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| 30 ran into someone [mobile post] |
[Feb. 11th, 2006|10:00 pm] |
11/02/2006 22:00:23
I havent said anything in two days. More rain fell last night and Imfinding it a little harder to stay drier. Evenif I did want to go back I cant fathom how this would work. AhhI wish I could be taken seriously as a fighter. I dont want to return, but at the same timeI want to defend myself.
Im sitting in a park some distance away from the last. Ive forgotten how fun it was to go on an outing. I realized Ive missed some school and I dont know whatto do about it otherwise I have to somehow make itup.
I raninto some familiar people. Didnt talk with them for long. I recall them asking if I needed a place to stay; I guess I walkedaway because I didnt need help. Thank you anyway!
Its a little quiet outsidetonight. |
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| 29 mid-afternoon [mobile post] |
[Feb. 9th, 2006|04:48 pm] |
09/02/2006 16:48:44
I couldntget to an internet cafe today; too faraway from all the shops inthe center of town to make it.
I madeit through the night. It was a little wet, but Isurvived. I wanted to go back home, but Icant unfortunately so I stayed elsewhere. I cant exactly remember but it was drier than sleeping in thepark.
Imwalking around, followingbirds waddling in a line towardsa pond. Cant tell the difference between thiscity and Domino. I wish Icould but Icant remember anything rightnow.
Iwill speakto youlater I guess. |
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| 28 sorry again [mobile post] |
[Feb. 8th, 2006|08:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ah.. | ] |
08/02/2006 20:28:35
Im sorry forposting again but it suddenlyhas gotten very cold. I realizeI forgot my coat. My fingerscan barelypressbuttons now but I guessIm going to be okay. Rain has begunto fall too.
Looking for anotherplace to camp now. Im terriblysorry formy behavior. |
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| 27 ran into a shadow [mobile post] |
[Feb. 8th, 2006|06:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
08/02/2006 18:22:09
Its weird, but I ran into a shadow just now.
It looked familiar and its voice sounded like Maliksans. But I shouldnt get my hopes up too high.
Im sitting on a bench in the park writing thisfrom my mobile rightnow. I dont really know whats happeningat the gameshop but its none of my business. I packed a bag lastnight and left. I left a note I kindof hope they would read it. Im sorry for leaving Yuugikun. Im really sorry. If youre not busy we can talk about it sometime. |
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| 25 everything is finished |
[Feb. 5th, 2006|06:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  i don't mean to... | ] |
Everyone has been acting weird since the party ended. I don't know why. I'd rather not ask because it doesn't involve me; I don't want to be rude. Though, I hope everyone is okay.
I'm hoping to take a walk soon; I need a little bit of air... I haven't been thinking properly, feeling like I'm trapped in a some sort of box. I don't like being watched after... it makes me feel paranoid and less safer than I already am. I guess I feel better fending for myself. I don't need help....
I'm going write to you now! |
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| 24 i don't understand this [screened from the voice] |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|08:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | a little paranoid | ] |
I guess I can't do it. I want to do it; it would be great to, at least, try for once. But I'm skeptical about getting very far because I feel like I'm being watched. I don't think it matters so much, though it worries me a lot. I think I will try even though I'm quite scared.
I'm sorry for holding off for so long, but there was a party. I will talk to you tomorrow, I promise! |
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| 23 i know you are well [private] |
[Jan. 28th, 2006|09:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sorry | ] |
I'm writing from a private room in an apartment.
I'm not going to be staying for long. I know you'll worry, but I think this is for the best.
I will finish writing to you too. |
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| 22 i can't think anymore |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|09:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | worried | ] |
I wish I knew what was wrong with me. Even though I can't hear the voice in my head anymore, there's another little voice saying strange things I don't understand. It sounds familiar.
I will talk to you later. |
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| 21 i have it now |
[Jan. 21st, 2006|11:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
I finished my costume earlier today. I'm pretty excited about wearing it!
( Private ) |
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| 19 i'll do it again some other day [private] |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|09:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | ah well... | ] |
I went to the library yesterday. I found this really great book about the occult--I can't remember what exactly it discussed--but I liked it so much. I was going to borrow it until I was tackled by Malik-san. It was embarassing...!! Though soon, I forgot when I arrived back here.
I left the book lying on the ground because I was too bashful to pick it up. Now, I think someone else must have grabbed it or maybe it was placed back on shelf. Well, it's not much to think about now; I have to worry for myself.
But I hope I find it again someday. |
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| 18 it's coming along fine |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|03:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
I'm almost finished with my costume.
Last night, I found some materials to piece together my suit. There's lots of patterned cloths, such as plaid and polka dot (I think I might use that too) and other fun things to use. I also found an old hat, which I've been tinkering with for a while. I'm still working on it now.
My duster and pants are done; I found gloves for my costume as well.
I have to finish my hat now. |
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| 16 i think i'm overthinking this |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|06:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | um... | ] |
Well, I don't have anything else to do today, except put together my costume in advance. I haven't found much material for putting it together; just the duster, but it seems too long for me to wear properly (I kept tripping over it). I have to look into shortening it soon.
I have to get the other materials, but I don't know where to start.
I tripped yesterday. I ended up falling downstairs rather messily. I was sure I had bruises on my arms and legs; although when I checked later there were none. I remember walking away from the staircase.
I'm really clumsy sometimes. I apologize too much, I think. I haven't been playing any games lately though. I think I scared myself into not playing any.
I think I need to look into getting back into my hobbies. I'm sorry for leaving you guys alone.
Sometimes I feel as if I'm not comfortable when I'm here. |
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| 14 some thinking [private] |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|11:32 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | ah... | ] |
Before I write my letter, I was thinking...
I wonder how long it will be before I leave for home. It's nice staying at Yuugi-kun's house. I like having my friends around all the time.
But, I think I need to hide somewhere else. Somewhere until I can think properly again.
I don't feel as safe as I should. |
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| 13 a mistake [private] |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|07:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  i'm sorry! | ] |
( Private ) |
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| 12 another weird entry |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|04:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  okay | ] |
I'm feeling a lot better. I got to walk around and look through the game shop... it's a lot bigger than I remember!
There's been a few more people posting around with their journals. I think it's rather interesting talking to them when I'm conscious. It's a lot better than waking up elsewhere, I suppose.
Apparently, the voice is back again. I don't think it's helping the confusion that is quite obvious between Yuugi-kun, Malik-kun and myself. I haven't had much of a clue about how the Other Yuugi or Malik's other half got their own body either. Did you ever tell me about it, Yuugi-kun? I think I forgot again. I'm sorry!
I think the confusion going on now isn't going to stop for a while.
I have to go now. |
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