something for you guys <3 i just seemed kinda neat to do; and its been on my mind - i don't know why. a lot of certain people on my FL have been a huge part of me lately ; And I hope you know who you are.

We all have secrets, or something about us that's quirky that we don't always just out-and-share.
But I feel like everyone also needs an outlet somehow. A non-biased party that is there to simply hear ♥
Have anything you want to share? Anger, love, sadness, grief? Anything goes.
You can post as much as you want, anonymously or not. Comments will be screened in case you don't want to post Anon.

I don't know; but I really just want to be there for you guys, as much as you've been there for me <3

EDIT: [ entry has been made public so anonymous comments can now be used. ]

imagine my face of "BUH HUH" when I hear "we won't have time to get bored" and recognize the voice as Ichigo, then remember, him and Xehnon have the same voice actor.

A dur.

scoore. one more day until I see Jenn :)
which means I should probably start packing and what not so tomorrow I'm not super!rushed.
but, go figure that I've been super bloated and what not since that lovely period is supposed to be here any time now.
hey at least everything still fits right. I just feel like crap all the time haha but as long as it goes away some time soon that's fine I guess.


Doctors appointment was today. Got my blood taken finally for lab tests and what not, and that should come back while I'm gone haha I have the best timing for everything <3;
other stuff happened but uh, nothing too important or any interesting. Just pesky doctor stuff that I'll disregard because I'm dumb like that.
I see they had no problem finding my vain XD; My other arm is still bruised from my wisdom teeth needle.

i've been oddly exhausted lately. Maybe it's from all the running I've been doing but uh, it's kinda... aggravating? I dunno haha. I'll feel really exhausted but then an hour later I'm fine again. Sleep bad >:O;;;;

also, because it's awesome, my mom was talking about Eyes Without a Face in the car going to the doctors and i was all "aah thats one of my favorite songs ever" and she was like "o rly? it made me think of you" this is mainly because she realized it was by Billy Idol haha but still. it was an awesome moment.

I HAVE FIREFOX BACK!
THAT IS ALL.


NO, ♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADA!!!! ♥
that is all!!

there is much restoring of everything to be done >.>!!

Next week I get to see Jenn wooo! And go to the beach :O this is even more exciting because I have never been... to any beach. Yeah we only live on the coast haha near like 83483 beaches. Yay for Jendi right!? :D!


ALSO, today I got this bitchin Unicorn plushie which I will now waste time talking about.
okay uh its this Shining Star plushie right? and you go online and name it and play with it and crap -- and you get these weird things call "glow points" i dunno haha anyway, you also get to name your own star which i think is totally badassly cool, so I did, and now I have my own star named Edik up there in the sky (watch it explode tomorrow or something. haha wouldn't that be balls :( )

ANYWAY haha it's hella cute and apparently I'm like 6 years old haha but come on, they're only 15$ and sjdbckbe they are SO cute.
see? I named her Eva (Sparda) hurhur XD;
online-Eva X3
I has a star ♥

Too damn bad my printer isn't working otherwise I'd print out my effin star certificate haha Damn! Note to self: Get Ink.

I love how they ask for a parents email haha sorry I'm eighteen. I just really love crap like this. I saw her and was like AHH and had to get her D:
So yeah uh... everyone who can find them should get one because they're oh, awesome?
I think that's it. Work was boooring this week -- so nothing new there.

I also saw the MGS4 E3 trailer? and <333 to Raiden ♥
and MGS4 in general. But mostly Raiden right now.

Yay poorly organized entries XD
I am bloated from drinking so much water lately :( and that's about the only thing making this night lame. Besides some other lame ass drama but whoo cares because I have unicorns :D

what is going on with the crazy bottom right side of my mouth. it still hurts T-T;;;
and btw having holes in your mouth is sickening haha

time to go crazy with saltwater rinsing! x_x;

ooo quick update because the comcast people are supposed to be here between uh.. anytime now and 12pm :D

Woke up at 7:15 and ran two miles with my mom, woo! It took us .. 28 minutes, actually a little less. I'm not sure if that's good or not but it seems pretty good to me >>; And I ran 95% of the way and never cramped or anything. It was pretty awesome. Though now I think my stomach is a bit tossed up from it, haha but that's okay, that'll go away ... sometime XD

Anyway, after the comcast people come and go, then I will -- go shopping :O Which should be exciting. I need new clothes bad. All of the clothes I have are WAY to big now and hang on me like crazy, which generally and obviously looks very silly. Wardrobe upgrade plz D:
I'm going to get a bit now, and then when I see Jenn again she said we could go shopping then and get some stuff together o3o!! ♥

comcast people are here now so AAH I leave. :3;;;

Edit: Whoos got comcast whaaat?! o3o!!
However I don't get why firefox still won't work. Fuuuck D:

And to all those that talk to me from msn IM, I got a new ID for that since I'll be losing my MSN stuff, and my new email for that is xo_pink_rain_xo@hotmail.com  k? <3

So I was at work today, and there was a new customer there, so I was checking her in, and she lives around here blahblah but her apartment number was 302 (silent hill 4 u no) and i was like 302OMG and she looked at me and laughed and totally didn't get it, but wow. wow. Crazy.
I thought that was worth mentioning.

My mouth is still like KILL when i try to eat anything solid. That's not so cool! I tried gum today and I killed my mouth. Oops >_> So now my teeth ache and ouch.

(I hope seienchan is okay. With all that stuff in england, and she hasn't been on in a bit. She's probably busy with her thingie and her Raikov fangirlyness haha but still, I worry >:O I would slap her with my rainbow trout, but she would just eat it like she always does haha)

Work was pretty awesome. It was slow but I still managed to do five cuts (and make 20$ in tips! haha which is good because a lot of people don't tip 5$ but three of my people did!) and three of them were SUPER nice. I was like "aw can I keep you here and talk to you all day?"  The first dude I got was really awesome and he was all trying to get me to go drinking with him but then he got that i wasn't 21+ haha sry.
So many nice people out today. It was nice.

I also looked really good today for what it's worth. But my shirt got covered in little hairs and then it was itchy for the rest of the day :\ I should learn to wear one of those silly little haircutting coats. haha no thanks >.>;  Then again little coat thing > itchy little hairs any day thanks. Idiot.

My stomach huurts ow. I've been getting a lot of stomachaches and cramps again. Boo D: Though they go away as quick as they come so it's nothing like it was years ago for those that remember that hah >>;;

One last thing before I go, and that's that these stitches taste horrible :\ they dissolve on their own you know? So occasionally I get this really disgusting horrible taste in my mouth and its like bsjbskbe ew. o3o

Only 1.5 more months until the move! I can't believe that this is my final full month before it happens~!
August 20/1st wooah ♥

So, my mouth is killing me on the bottom right side, but that's it. Still, I think this is what I get for being like "lol no pain guyz!" Straight up rude. I was grinding my teeth around that side earlier and it gave me a headache and my eye started to ache and wow. It was lame.

I also don't want to take the drugs that they gave me because I'm still not eating enough to take them and not get sick from them. I was going to take one today regardless and just go to sleep, but I figured since I was going to be sleeping, I might as well just not take it at all since well, that would be pointless.
I also cleaned my room and ran which took my mind off the pain. And in return for doing so, I found my pink-jeweled fairy necklace I've been looking for for about two years. The stupid thing is, is that it was in front of my face the whole time. It was chilling next to my Naked Snake action figure lawlz.

Now i just need another chain. No, what I really need is to see if I can get my chain that my little angel is on fixed... though I don't think it can be, which makes me feel really bad because I know my mom spent a long time looking for the perfect chain for that angel charm ._.;;;
** It broke for no reason I swear. I was at work a few months ago, blow drying my hair, and then it fell into my bra. True story. D: **

Wow i keep getting distracted while I try and update, so uh, I think that's it.
I'm a little out of the updating loop over here. Now that I have things to say its a little craazy.

OH, schweet. This week I did a total of eight cuts. That's awesome for me :P;
I'm getting really good too, not nervous anymore or anything, and it's way easier to communicate with people now that I know 9/10 of them aren't going to bite my fuckin head off.

yaay day#2 I'm up and not because I'm in shooting pain from having my jaw ripped open.
the pain isn't too horrible, which is wonderful because I thought I would be rolling around on the ground going I HATE YOU DR AAH HATEHATE. Especially since he was like "then you'll be in excruciating pain in which you will scream and call me bad names!"

day two also means that I have to squirt my mouth with salt water. Noot happy about that :\;;;; *so puts that off*

I'm still dizzy a bit but I can't tell if this is from my teeth, or not eating much for the past couple of days. Ehn, I'll have to find something small to eat soon. It's probably a bit of both
I'm not allowed to spit, drink from a straw, drive, or leave the house for 3 days. Balls :|  Here that guys? I'm not to be unleashed. I am untrusted!!1!one. I don't know.

However it still hurts. Hurts to swallow, hurts to open my mouth too a point, and hurts to smile. However my jaw isn't swollen or bruised! How awesome of my face considering I'm obviously really fair skinned, and two of my friends that aren't were swollen and bruised like hell for a good week. heehee not me sir. My arm is bruised from the needle though, which is normal but, it looks like someone smashed a blueberry on my arm and out of the corner of my eye i keep going, "AH WHAT IS TH- oh right."

Drinking my bubbly water and anything solid will = ooouch~! Which blah, I want some fruit yo :\
Well whatev, I have applesauce and maybe I'll attempt to make myself a smoothie later. I never have so uh... if theres smoothie aaall over the kitchen later, I didn't do it >_>

Holy poop, last night there was a huge (okay medium but THICK) ass spider on my wall. So I figure, "Hey I'm dizzy, I'm going to throw up, I won't kill you." so i gently try to get the fool on a paper towel and what happens? The bastard JUMPS away from me. Psh, fuck you man. So then I lost him and walked around in boots all night.

Oops have to go take some kick ass penicillin. Yay for fighting of infections or something.

hoome. Obviously haha
I got home at around 10ish, and I've been sleeping for a majority of the time. My stomach hurts like a bitch, i keep getting nauseated on and off and my head was woozy earlier, and it's starting to again so i might go and lay back down. My meds are making me sick after around one and half to two hours of taking them. Gah.

I don't want to eat anything because quite frankly everything is making me want to puke. I had to force down some smoothie to take a stupid pain pill, luckily I don't have to take those.
My nurses were so sweet and so nice ;o; hah the one that stayed with me most of the time and wheeled me out was like "aah you're soo light!!" it was cute.

I have a hot ass scooby doo bandaid haha. I would take it off but that takes energy that I don't have haha I'm making so many typos its amusing. Lol backspace.

Woow I need to lay down now because I'm getting nauseated just like before :\
ugh.

aaah i'm about to leave and AH. my nerves are there but, aren't quite kicking in yet haha D:
should be home around 11. not sure when I'll be coherent but yeah XD ... let's hope all goes well T-T;;

soo thirsty but they're all raawr no drinks and food. i just want water D:
agnes would never let  that happen.

Pre-Op yesterday went okay. I was there for about maybe almost two hours. Waiting and paper work, yay! :\
ehn anyway, was pretty much the basics. Then tomorrow at 8am is my actual thing. AH I don't want to go haha but i really do.. but I totally don't haha.

They said I could come in in sweats which hey, works for me because I'm not getting up at 7am and getting dressed just to get my jaw slashed into. Short sleeved shirt for the IV and blahblah. Horray operations. I never want another one again haha I don't care how minor or major. I haven't even had one before so uh, extreme panic even though I'm sure theres nothing to really worry about <_<;


Work yesterday; I did five cuts. All in a row too. Yeah I was awesome except the last dude I did was an extreme asshole. My first asshole client. Aww.. you never forget those types. The people that make you never want to do it again. He claimed I wasn't a professional even though I knew that I was doing. Yeah, he's the dumbass that didn't know what i meant when I asked him "how do you want your hair cut?" I had to ask him five fucking times before he actually GOT that i meant, hey dumbass, how do you want me to cut your hair.
He tipped good though. He still pissed me off though. [/lol dante]

I've been really exhausted and burned out lately. I slept in until 1 (oops) and I feel a little better I guess, though I really could sleep all day. I would like to. Haha every time I think about sleeping i think about TOMORROW MORNING UGH. Scared. I also have to take off my nailpolish that I just put on because you know, no nail polish during operations. Oh balls.

It's also hot as BALLS outside but I have to wear pants to work because everyone I work with today likes the air on and that makes it WAY too cold. And I already get cold REALLY easily. Lame, son. However it looks like it might rain. Scoore.

Edit: lol k or not it cleared up. Boo.

I get complete Spaz Points.
Tomorrow is my pre-op. Haaa I thought today was Tuesday. Well this a load off my mind.
I gained an extra day to ogle. and gah. ♥;;;;

idiot. now i'm going to bed!

omg new layout again. PINK BUNNY <3333

what has been going on... right. Suikoden IV. haha well that... didn't go well.
I had no new game file so I started off on a file I had where I'm all up on Troy's ship and watched him be hot and Coltonia be completely over emotional about everything. The voice acting cracks me up in that game.

I got passed the boring ass island part were Lilin is all THE MASTER IS ALL ANGRY. I HATE IT. and then Keneth makes fun of her? I love Keneth. He's so awesome like that. Lilin is not.

Then I was like eff this. And went back to fucking around in Harvest Moon.


Tomorrow is my pre-op for my wisdom teeth :D at... 3pm. Then Thursday morning I get them out. I'm psyched. Oh and scared haha what the fuck. Who gets scared of an operation where they take out teeth. Brandi apparently.
Laame. I think it's anxiety because now i feel all funny like I can't breathe. haha idiot.

work is... going good <3
last wednesday I did like three cuts that night which is a high for me haha
anyway, i know a lot more cuts now and i'm not even nervous anymore when i do them. confidence for the win haha ;D

Helmut icon seemed the most appropriate for this occasion because I am clearly going insane

Me thinks it's time to play Suikoden 4 again. I'm getting those strange "SIV urges"
(of course, watch me find out that I don't have a new game plus file and then I won't play it. I'm NOT sailing some slow ass ship for literally hours to get to a town thats 5 minutes away on the map. But for some reason takes me 40 minutes.)


Well, Troy is hot and Helmut is awesome.
Now I'm a little scared. ... Make note that I do not like the Cinderella-esque mice.

:(

...carry on.

So uh, Yesterday around 11:30am the road workers did something totally fucked up and screwed my phone lines, leaving me with no phone or internet access which sucked. What sucked even more was that my parents cellphones didn't even work once they got to my house, yet it worked everywhere else on the street wtf.

My dad leaves and calls AT&T and they tell him "oh it'll be fixed somewhere between today and Friday night" well, my dad was pissed, and my mom was pissed because uh going without a phone for a week is pretty fucked up considering they're both expecting calls lately from doctors not to mention from someone they work with, as one of their coworkers passed away Sunday.

Go figure that NOW we're getting Comcast (seriously this time apparently) at the end of the month right when I move in 2.5 months.
>\;;;;

Now, obviously I have my phone lines back, but it's just the fact that AT&T sucks ass and the road people as well because just a few weeks ago they fucked up something as well which made my neighbors and everyone else on down from them lost their power for two days (The line apparently divides right between our two houses which is crazy strange).

I spent the day playing Harvest Moon and sleeping ... a lot, then I played Tomb Raider Legend before bed and look at that, I actually don't suck at it like I did at the others haha.

Lots o birthdays this month~
Happy Birthday rubberfrog ! :)
(And Ocelot hurhur.)

It's been exactly a year now since I've been out of high school. Ooo that's craziness. 6/6/06. Nice.
Also, today we got word from the apartment that we've been approved and all that good stuff and our move-in date is August 20th after 2:00 pm o_o Though for me it might be a day after. BUT STILL AH o.o ♥ good stuff~
So now I'm all AH cause its all planed out and woah.

Now I'm off to play either DMC3 or Spyro before work. I like the level of difference there. Hm.
Vergil or cute purple quadruped. Nur.
Though now I'm getting the urge to play Suikoden II. It being suikoden weather and all. Well balls. I'll play whatever is in my PS2 I guess. And that would be DMC3 Special Edition no doubt. So yay Vergiltastic. My spyro's might still be buried under last Summers fangirl pile of Adrien Brody and Colin Farrell movies. Mmm.