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Aug-11th-2006 03:39 pm - Welcome!
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Welcome to my Journal!

As you can probably tell, my journal is now Friends Only. I'd hoped it would not have to be this way, but certain incidents have forced me to make this decision.

So, if you'd like to step inside my wonderful world, please leave a comment in response to this entry, or just add me to your Friends list, and I shall add you to mine.

Thanks very much, and enjoy the lovely Sweeney Todd/Mrs. Lovett/Toby goodness while you're here!
Jul-9th-2006 01:24 am - LONG-ass meme
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Stolen from [info]ragnarokv20. Damn this thing was long.

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now.  (Gee, let's think...) × I don't watch much TV these days.  (I'm addicted to Law & Order: SVU and Law & Order: CI) I own lots of books.  (Reading is fundamental!)
I wear glasses or contact lenses. × I love to play video games. × I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (Yes, Yes, YES)
I curse sometimes.  (I am not afraid to feast off of the bounty of language.) I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (We'll see...) × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
it goes on... )
May-22nd-2006 08:40 pm - A Paler Shade of White
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Okay everyone, this is something that I just finished writing for my Memoir class tomorrow. It's likely that it will end up being a part of my book--for now, however, it's just a rough, rough draft, so forgive me if it sucks. Leave a comment about it if you like. :)

P.S. Sorry if the formatting is weird. I copied and pasted from Word and it got all screwed up.

~*~
excerpt from 'The Scrunchie Around My Wrist' )
May-19th-2006 10:01 am - This will have to do until I have something better to write about
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7 Deadly Sins Survey )
May-5th-2006 01:21 am - I have a new job! (*BLINK*) Now I don't!
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I got a phone call last Friday from the UW Temp Office, informing me of an available data entry position at the Interpretive Services department of the Harborview Medical Center. The job was to be for one month, Monday through Friday, 8am to 5pm, at $12/hour. What they wanted me to do was add numbers to a database on Microsoft Access. So I took the job. It wasn't really something I wanted to do, but it was a job that needed to be done and I was going to get paid for it, so what the hell.

So into work I went on Monday morning. Nevermind that I'd only gotten one hour of sleep the night before due to nervousness and the fact that my computer had shut itself off and would not turn back on. (Side note: I'm on my computer right now, but who knows when it will shut off again. As far as I can tell, the power supply is low and I need to buy a new one at Best Buy or something. Hopefully that'll happen soon.)

Anyway, after the first hour of work went by, I started to feel better. My coworkers (Sergei, from Spain; Natasha, from Greece; and Melvin, from...I have no idea) were all really, really nice and welcoming. I was especially excited because I got to go have my picture taken and put on a badge, along with my name and job title. (I'd never had a badge before, so yeah, this was exciting for me, okay?!) There was already a problem happening, though: I was not yet able to log into the computer system and so I couldn't do any of the data entry work. Instead, Imelda (my supervisor) had me doing paperwork, filing and alphabetizing and whatnot. Not exactly what I signed on for, but I assumed that once everything was sorted out I would be able to get to the real work.

Then Tuesday came around.

I'd gotten permission to come into work at 9, instead of 8, and so that was when I arrived (okay, maybe more like five minutes past 9, because I was still having trouble figuring out the buses to take to get there). Imelda hands me a piece of paper, on which there is a phone number that I am to call to get my password so that I can log into the computer. I call the number, and an Abbott & Costello "Who's on First?"-esque conversation ensued with a woman in the Computing Services Department. She gave me a password, but it was the password to log onto individual programs (which of course had to be changed, she said), rather than the password to log onto the computer itself. After going back and forth with her, trying to explain that I couldn't log into individual programs or change the password without being able to log onto THE COMPUTER, she gives me another number to call to get that password. So I call that number. This woman gives me the same password that the other woman gave me. A similar conversation to the previous one takes place. Finally, she ascertains that, because my account was reset at 5:15pm the previous night, I would not be able to log in until 5:15 that night.

Sigh.

So, Imelda put me back on paperwork. Now, I had my Discman with me on Tuesday because I'd brought my backpack so I could go directly from work to my Memoir class. I decided to listen to some music while doing the paperwork, in an effort to somewhat lessen the drudgery of it. At one point, while changing CDs, I noticed that my batteries were getting low. I asked Natasha if there were any double-A batteries in the office that I could use. She said she knew there were some, but didn't know where, but that Imelda would and could give them to me. So I went to Imelda and asked if I could have some batteries. She asked what for, and I explained that I was listening to my Discman while working and that the batteries were getting low. She seemed to find no fault with this explanation, and gave me the batteries, and I went on with my work.

Forty minutes or so after I returned from lunch, I received a phone call at my desk. It was Kathryn Hill, the woman at the UW Temp Office who'd told me about the job in the first place.

Now she was telling me that I no longer had the job.

Needless to say, I was stunned.

Flabbergasted, I attempted to listen as she explained that a) because of all the difficulties with getting me logged in to the computer and such, the department had decided that they didn't need a temp worker after all, and b) she wanted to find me a position more in my field, a.k.a. something to do with writing. I couldn't believe it. Here I'd been expecting to have a steady paycheck for a month, and now the rug was pulled out right from under my feet. I wasn't sad so much as frustrated, hurt, and angry. I felt like Adam Sandler in The Wedding Singer: "Once again, things that could've been brought to my attention YESTERDAY!!" Despite this shocking and completely unexpected news, I did my best to finish out my workday with my head held high. I was walking to the bus stop afterwards, still bewildered from the day's events, when I had a moment of clarity and perspective. As I stood waiting to cross the street, I turned to my left, and right there before my eyes was Mount Rainier, gorgeous and magnificent against the clear blue sky. And as I gazed upon its snowy peaks, a single thought entered my mind: "There's something bigger." Yes, there's something bigger. There's a bigger, better job out there waiting for me. I felt optimistic; slightly uncertain but ready to move on and see what the world had in store for me.

And then there was today.

My computer was still on the fritz earlier today, and so I went to the Seattle Public Library to try and do what I could in the one hour per day (!#@*library!) they allot each cardholder on the computer. While there, I received a phone call from Kathryn Hill on my cell phone. As we talked about the aborted assignment, I learned some information that I had not known before; and it turns out that I'm not as blameless as I thought I was. According to Kathryn, I committed two major infractions.

Infraction One: My attempt to make a long-distance phone call from a phone in the office. What had happened was that my father called my cell phone and I'd missed it. I first tried to call him back with my cell phone (of course), but I couldn't get through due to the poor reception in the office. Now, I normally would never make a call of any kind from the office, let alone a long-distance one. But I didn't know if there was an emergency of some sort occurring, so I wanted to call my dad back as soon as possible. I tried a few times, without success, and so then asked Imelda if it was possible to make a long-distance call, and that was when she informed me that no, it was not possible. So that was the end of it. I didn't pursue it, I didn't keep trying to call, and I certainly didn't realize I'd done anything wrong. Imelda sure as heck didn't say anything to me about it, either, and so I didn't give it a second thought.

Infraction Two (I shit you not): Asking for batteries. Unbeknownst to me, but apparently to everyone else, the batteries that I got from Imelda were University property, and it was inappropriate for me to ask for them and use them. Well slap my ass and call me Sally if that isn't the craziest thing I've ever heard. For starters, the batteries were in Imelda's desk, and so I assumed that they were hers, for that reason and because they didn't have the words UNIVERSITY PROPERTY stamped on them anywhere. Plus, oh yeah, SHE GAVE THEM TO ME WITHOUT HESITATION. According to Kathryn, though, Imelda isn't a manager and so she might not have known that she couldn't give them to me. Whatever. When I heard this from Kathryn I was...well, I was many things: shocked, humiliated, hurt, angry. I actually started to cry right in the library. It was awful. Not to mention the fact that I was also pissed that our conversation was sucking precious minutes from my computer time.

When she asked me, I did my best to tell my side of the story. She'd said that some of my remarks about the job had been interpreted as me not wanting to be there (Imelda had asked me how I felt about the work that I was going to be doing, and I'd answered honestly and said that my ultimate aspiration was to be a writer and so I didn't really want to do data entry very much, but it was a job that needed to be done and I would do it). I explained what I had actually meant; that I was willing to do the job not just for the money, but because it was a job that needed to be done, and that just because I might not WANT to do a job, it doesn't mean that I'm not capable of doing it or won't do it. I guess that didn't matter, though, since my comments were interpreted the way they were anyway.

So, yeah. That's where I am now. The one good thing that's happened in the last few days is that I got my newly framed poster hung up yesterday. Louis, the cool Irish guy who owns the frame shop on Broadway, came down and put it up for me. It looks really super; I'm going to post a picture as soon as I have a chance. Other than that, well...I don't know. I desperately need to take my computer to Best Buy to have it worked on, and Jonathan has promised to help me in that area (since I sure as hell can't schlep the freaking tower on the bus), but has not done so yet. I know he's very busy and all, with work and his car problems, and so I'm not expecting him to go crazy and help me when he can't fit it into his schedule. It just sorta bums me out because we were supposed to get together on Tuesday, and then when that didn't pan out, Wednesday of this week, but it didn't happen. I know he's busy though and so I am not allowing myself to be upset. He has never deliberately ignored me (the silent treatment isn't his style), and plus he said I could come down to the Old Spaghetti Factory and he'd serve me, so I know his intentions are good and his heart's in the right place. Hopefully things will settle down soon and we'll finally be able to get together.

Well, I feel better now that I've gotten some of my frustrations about that job out. Hopefully my next assignment (if they find me one) will go better than this one. Either way, I have a new mantra thanks to that epiphany the other day, one that I will hold tightly to from now on: "There's something bigger."
Apr-28th-2006 05:48 pm - Stolen from Lezzle-bee
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Apr-15th-2006 04:48 am - Normal People Scare Me (My Fabulous L.A. Adventure)
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Well, I'm back. I did it. I flew all by myself to Los Angeles and back home again. Last Wednesday through Saturday was absolutely incredible, and so now I am going to write about my experiences from each day, and show you guys the nifty pictures I took. Enjoy!

Wednesday

Wednesday was the day that I flew from Seattle to Burbank. My flight was supposed to be at 3:00pm, but there was a 40 minute delay. [FYI: I have decided that I am NEVER flying on Alaska Airlines again. They suck. Hardcore. To everyone reading this, don't fly Alaska Airlines. Both of my flights were delayed and I arrived much later than I initally expected to.] Anyway, on the way down I saw Mount St. Helens poking through the clouds, and the sight was much too beautiful to not take a picture of it:

Pretty mountain )

Once I got my suitcase (which was a very easy task, since the Burbank Airport--now called the Bob Hope Airport--is so teeny tiny that there is only ONE baggage carousel), I had to get a shuttle to take me to Keri Bowers' house in Thousand Oaks. Now, Keri Bowers is the mother of Taylor Cross, the young man who directed Normal People Scare Me. She and Taylor came to New York in January 2005, while I was home on winter break my senior year of college. A support group that my mom is a member and on the board of put out an announcement over their e-mail list about Keri and Taylor and that they were looking for people to film in Huntington at someone's house. So, when the day of filming came around, my dad drove me to said house at the appointed time, and there I was filmed as part of Normal People Scare Me.

A year and a half went by until I started really hearing about the movie again. Keri called my parents' house, and then me out here in Seattle, first to say that editing was nearly complete and that there were some events coming up. A week or two later, she informed me that the film was done being edited. She also told me about a screening in Los Angeles that was scheduled for April 7th, and from then on, I was determined to go. After much uncertainty about if anyone was coming with me, or this or that and everything else, I finally booked my flight and made all the other arrangements for the trip.

Anyway, back at the Burbank Airport. I managed to get a shuttle within moments of exiting the building, though my driver (a scary Russian man) took at least 20 minutes to look over various maps of California to figure out how to get to the address I'd given him. Finally we were underway, and I spent the duration of the drive soaking in the beautiful California landscape, with the setting sun as the backdrop.

I got to Keri's house around 8:00pm; much later than expected, but I was just glad to be there in one piece, after bearing witness to the scary Russian man's scary driving. The remainder of the evening was spent meeting new people--Stuart, Keri's husband and Taylor's stepdad; Jordana, Keri's younger sister; Susan Bacchus, Keri's friend and a really cool woman; and Kathy, a young woman who pays rent to live in an apartment that's attached to Keri's house. Susan and I were tasked with stuffing the gift bags for the fundraiser at John Schneider's house the following night, and so whilst sipping champagne (much too dry for my taste) and talking about boys, we did so. I have to admit, it sure was nice to have some face-to-face girl talk, after all my months here in Seattle without my female friends.

Thursday

The house had already fallen under the spell of nighttime when I arrived, so it was not until morning that I got to see the place in all its glory. Keri's backyard especially proved to be a spectacular sight:

Keri's beautiful backyard )

I spent the majority of Thursday morning assisting Keri with the numerous tasks that had to be done for the fundraiser that evening. Several of her volunteers had called up and said they were unable to come over to help her as promised, for one reason or another, and so we really had to hop to it to get everything done. Some of the preparations for the night included the following:

This lovely fruit/vegetable arrangement. The theme of the night was "Hearts n' Arts", and so there was a lot of red and heart shapes going on with things, as you can see here.

Fruit n' veggie arrangement )

Also needing to be packaged was this artwork for the art auction. All of the artwork is done by individuals on the autism spectrum, and these plates, along with several other items, were set to go up for auction in order to raise money for Hearts n' Arts, which allows autistic kids to pursue their artistic endeavors. Hearts n' Arts trains young people to become more skilled at the art form of their choice, and gives them a chance to flourish creatively; unlike traditional job training programs which just teach individuals to push a broom or stuff envelopes.

Artwork )

I assisted Keri as best I could, and when she no longer had anything for me to do, I took to laying on some chairs in her backyard and basking like a cat in the warm southern California sun (a decision that would come back to bite me in the ass later when I discovered that my nose and arms were sunburned).

Finally it was time to get ready for the big event. I showered, put on my dress, and began the arduous process of making my hair look halfway decent. Thank God for Conair hot rollers and the big, romantic curls they gave to my hair. Yay. Anyway, after getting those puppies to work their magic, I applied my makeup, and then it was time to go. Taylor, Keri, and I piled into Keri's truck, and onto the 405 (possibly the 101, I can't remember which road it was), driving off to John Schneider's home in Agoura Hills.

The ride only lasted about 15 minutes, and so before I knew it, I was there, standing in this glorious, opulent house, trying to figure out what to do with myself. Susan and Jordana and Keri did have various tasks for me to do, since we were there early in order to set up and put things out. Soon enough, however, it was time for the most important job of all: schmoozing. Armed with a glass of the best Chardonnay I have ever had, I went about the task of talking to people as they arrived and trying not to look like a giant idiot doing so. Aside from somehow breaking my glass of wine (even though it wasn't even in my hand; I had set it down on the table while I was getting hors d'oeuvres), I managed to accomplish this quite well. Anyway, enough of me blathering on. Here are some pictures from that night:

First of all, here's me in the $200 dollar dress from Nordstrom that I bought for the occasion. I spent so much time agonizing over whether to buy it, and then once I bought it, over whether or not I'd look good in it, but let me tell you what: that was the best $200 dollars I ever spent. I felt SO good in this dress; the fact that I was having my period didn't even matter, I still felt awesome in it.

Me in my special dress )

Here's me with John Schneider. Let me tell you a thing or two about this man. He is so nice. Absolutely one of the nicest, easy to get along with guys I've ever met. He has a son with autism, and while his son was not in the movie, nor was he (John) involved in the making of it, he and his wife were kind enough to open their home to us for the fundraiser. They're good folks; from what I was told, they do a lot of charity work and quite frequently hold events in their home. So yeah, John's a good guy. Not to mention the fact that he is pretty cute, too. I don't normally go for blond guys, but he is quite good looking. Oh, and when he introduced himself to me ("Hi, I'm John), after I introduced myself and we shook hands, he told me that I have beautiful hair. He's just a really, really nice guy, and a gracious host to boot. (I'm not too crazy about this picture by the way, cause my eyes are half-closed and I look horrible. Grr.)

Me with John Schneider )


This one is me and Joey Travolta (brother of John). Joey is the producer of Normal People Scare Me, and an incredibly sweet man as well. He used to be a special education teacher, and many moons ago he interviewed Taylor Cross (the director of the movie), which pretty much was what got the ball rolling, and voila! Here we are now, over a year and a half later, with the entire movie completed. (That hand, by the way, is Taylor's; he snuck it into the frame at the last minute.)

Me with Joey Travolta )

And here I am with Taylor Cross, the 17-year-old with high functioning autism who directed Normal People Scare Me. You can't quite see it here, but he's a tall fellow, at 6'7". Also, I have no idea what happened with the lights, but it's kinda cool.

Me with Taylor )

Finally, this one is of me and Keri Bowers, Taylor's mom, the co-director of Normal People Scare Me, and the woman largely responsible for the entire night's events coming together as beautifully and spectacularly as they did.

Me with Keri )

So what were the major events of the evening? Well, early on awards were given out to four individuals for their outstanding achievements to autism. One went to Izzy Paskowitz and his wife Danielle, whose son Isaiah has autism. They have a surfing camp for kids on the spectrum, and use surfing as a means of healing. The other three awards went to other individuals who have made contributions to austism research, treatment, and other such services to autism.

The second big event of the night was that a 15-minute trailer for Normal People Scare Me was being shown on a continuous loop in John's TV room. People were free to walk in and watch it at their leisure. I was one of the first to go in and watch. It was my first time catching a glimpse of myself in the movie, and, as goofy as I felt I was, people complimented me afterwards and told me how terrific and articulate my interview clips were. I still don't know why I got singled out--there were over 70 interviews in the movie, after all.

The third and final big event of the night was the art auction. The Hearts n' Arts Foundation (the foundation that sponsored and put together the fundraiser) put several pieces of artwork done by individuals on the spectrum (as you saw above) up for auction in one of the rooms in John's house. People could go in at any time and write down their bids on a piece of paper next to the appropriate artwork. All of the proceeds from the auction went to Hearts n' Arts, which works to help individuals on the autism spectrum pursue their artistic endeavors. It provides money to give them mentors and train them in their field of choice (writing, painting, acting, etc.) so that they have a chance to achieve their dreams; unlike traditional training programs for autistic individuals, which only train them to push a broom or stuff envelopes.

Anyhoo...that was went on over the course of the night. There was also a huge spread of hors d'oeuvres and other food, a bar fully stocked with soda, beer, wine, and pretty much anything else you could want. It was a really memorable night overall, one reason being of course that I had the privilege of being in such a beautiful home. Below are some pictures I took of it.

The room the auction was in )

The bar )

The outside patio with a canopy built specially for the event where the awards were given out )

More pictures of things in the auction room )

Taylor, Jace (Keri's 11-year-old son in whose room I slept when I stayed at her house) and I left John Schneider's home around 10:30pm. Upon returning, I took off my dress, put on my pajamas, and collapsed into bed, exhausted from the long day.

Friday

Friday was the day of the actual screening. I woke up around 8:30am feeling well-rested and excited for the day's events. Things took an interesting turn a few hours later when Keri was on the phone with someone involved with the movie, and they were talking about needing someone to introduce the movie that night. Without hesitation, I raised my hand, and the task became mine. I went onto Keri's computer to compose a 2-minute long speech, which I was able to produce in about fifteen minutes. After sharing my creation with Keri and my parents (all of whom loved it), I started packing my suitcase, since that night I was going to be staying with my aunt in a hotel.

Keri received another phone call, this one from Susan, with whom I'd spent time Wednesday night stuffing the goody bags. She was planning to go to Melrose to do some shopping before the screening, and it was quickly agreed upon that I would accompany her at 2:30, rather than leave with Keri at 4. I was quite excited, especially when Keri told me about all the funky shops and boutiques that are located there. So after they got off the phone, I got dressed in some "shopping clothes" (jeans, a short-sleeved brown shirt, purple sneakers, a pearl necklace, and a black hat I got here in Seattle last summer), and packed my outfit for the evening--shoes and all--in one of the plastic bags I'd brought in order to take it to the high school with me so I could change.

Lunch time fast approached, and since Keri's original plan to take me to a restaurant ended up being axed, Stuart instead offered to make me a salad. Now, I already knew that Stuart was an excellent cook; he had made all of the food for the fundraiser the night before, and Keri herself had spoken of his culinary mastery. So I quickly accepted his offer. Lettuce, celery, scallions, baby carrots, and tomatoes comprised my salad, along with Trader Joe's balsamic vinegar dressing. In addition, I poured myself a glass of Clos Du Bois, a Chardonnay that I had had for the first time the night before and loved. It is truly the best Chardonnay I've ever had (so far). "Are you drinking wine?" Jordana gasped and grinned when I joined Keri, Stuart, and she outside. "Yup," I replied. "Oh you are so fabulous!" she exclaimed, and I could not help but feel giddy.

So there I was, out in Keri's backyard, eating this absolutely delicious, fresh salad and sipping Chardonnay at 12:30 in the afternoon. The three of them went back inside, but I remained, soaking in the warm sun and the complete unreality of the situation in which I found myself. It was too beautiful. Too warm. Too perfect. Ephemeral. I knew that there was no way I could live like that anywhere but there.

2:30 soon came, and with it Susan and two other women, one of whom--Justine--I'd met at the fundraiser the night before. It wasn't quite what I was expecting; I thought it was going to be just Susan and I. In addition, rather than a car, the vehicle for the afternoon was one of those big vans that were really high-tech in the '80s because they had a TV in them and the backseat opens up into a queen-sized bed, but twenty or so years later they're pathetic and sad, especially if not kept in good condition, as this one wasn't, judging by the less-than-clean interior. Nevertheless, I put on a happy face, and off we went.

As it would turn out, we would never make it to Melrose.

Originally we were supposed to make one stop, at John Schneider's house, to pick up some remaining items from the previous night. Then Jordana phoned Susan and informed her that there were no snacks for the concession stand at the screening. So we made an impromptu trip to Costco to purchase an ungodly amount of chips, pretzels, candy, and soda. How we managed to fit the stuff from John Schneider's house on top of all that, I will never know. It was lucky that Justine and I still had room to sit. After those two stops, there wasn't any time left for shopping; it would take us enough time to get into the Melrose/Fairfax area. Even before that, we had to stop again, at Rite-Aid, when Jordana called and said that they didn't have any ice.

So that was what happened in the afternoon. Along the way, I snapped a few landscape photos (sorry about the rear-view mirror; I was in the back seat):

Landscapey goodness )

We happened to pass this sign on the freeway, and I couldn't not take a picture of it.

All hail David Lynch )

And of course, I had to get some palm trees, since I am very not used to seeing them. I still can't believe how tall and how skinny they grow; as such, I have nicknamed them "Jonathan trees".

Behold the Jonathan trees )

The Melrose street sign:
I wonder if they filmed Melrose Place here... )

We finally got to Fairfax High School around 6:00pm. Semi-carsick from being on the freeway surrounded by and in a car with L.A. drivers, I eagerly disembarked from the '80s van and made for the bathroom in the rotunda building where the screening was to take place. As I was changing into my red mandarin dress, another person entered the bathroom and said "Is that Amy Louise in there?" It was my Aunt Teri. She'd come up for the screening from San Diego; we'd agreed to meet at the school. I heard her go into the stall next to mine, and shortly thereafter I emerged from mine in order to do my hair in the bathroom mirror.

Everything that happened from then on is somewhat of a blur, since it all happened so fast. I went upstairs to the second floor of the building to the cast and crew wrap party, where there were deli meats and cheeses, bread, and condiments for the making of sandwiches, and cold beverages. Two ham-Monterey Jack-mustard-on-rye-bread sandwiches and some white wine later, it was seating time. As per Keri's instruction, I sat in the front next to Taylor. Instead of introducing the movie, however, I ended up introducing Joey Travolta, who in turn introduced two musical acts of people singing songs that were used in the movie. My speech lasted a grand total of two minutes, and I was actually tipsy from the wine and therefore I'm convinced I messed up a few times, but according to my aunt and everyone else, I did a great job:

"Hello everybody. My name is Amy Gravino. On behalf of the cast and crew of Normal People Scare Me, welcome.

If someone were to ask you "What's autism?", you could easily hand them a copy of the DSM-IV or any other psychological tome featuring a detailed definition of autism. But those publications can only tell you what autism is. What you will learn tonight as you watch this film is who autism is. It is our hope that by the time you are done watching our movie, you will have made over 70 new friends, including Taylor Cross. Taylor, please stand up. [he stands up, everyone applauds. Applause ends.] And our producer, Joey Travolta. Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome Joey Travolta."

Bam. Verbatim, baby. I know it by memory so obviously I wasn't that trashed LoL. Anyway...the movie itself was really quite fantastic. For the first twenty minutes, my interview wasn't shown, but after that it did come on, and it was interspersed on and off for the rest of the film. At one point they even showed a somewhat lengthy clip and while it was running, they had a montage of pictures of me that my parents had sent in. My parts aside, it really was amazing. I think this movie is going do an incredible amount to raise autism awareness and advocacy. Taylor and Keri are going on a partial world tour soon to promote it (Hawaii, Tokyo, etc.), and I believe they have secured a domestic distributor as well, so hopefully it will be in theatres soon. (It is available for purchase on DVD right now, actually--visit http://www.normalfilms.com for ordering info!)

After the screening, I had many people again coming up to me and telling me what a wonderful job I did in the film. Once I finished blushing my way through thank yous, I retrieved my suitcase and carry-on bag from Keri's truck, piled into my aunt's rental car, and then the two of us set off for Pasadena.

Naturally, despite having Mapquest directions, we got a little bit lost, since neither of us were familiar with the L.A. area. The most notable moment of the excursion? When we bypassed the last turn on the directions and turned around to go back, even though it was a one-way street. Thankfully, we managed to make the turn just before the rapidly oncoming cars could smoosh us into nothingness.

My dad wanted to pay for the hotel because of Aunt Teri coming up for the screening, so the reservation was booked under my name and for the first time ever, I did the checking in. I had quite a grown-up feeling, presenting my credit card and one form of personal identification. It was nifty. After we schlepped our stuff to the room, we decided to drive down Colorado Blvd. (the road the hotel was on) to see if we could find a bar or something in which to have a drink. For the first portion of the drive there was nothing, just a long empty stretch of closed shops. Then we drove into Old Pasadena and hit the mother lode. Lots of bars and such alive and hopping, just as they should be on a Friday night.

We remained indecisive about which establishment to patronize; that is, until my aunt spotted The Cheesecake Factory. "Oh let's go there!" she enthusiastically opined. So we pulled into a pay parking lot around the corner and made for the Factory. A glass of Red Zinfandel and parmesan-crusted chicken with pasta on the side (me) and a glass of Merlot--I think--and a really big artichoke (her) later, we were on our way. Back to the hotel we went, the Best Western Pasadena Royale Inn (which was, ironically, situated next door to a regular Best Western and down the street from another). After makeup removal, pajama putting on, and the brushing of teeth, we climbed into bed and quickly fell asleep.

Saturday

My last day in SoCal.

While checking in the previous night, I'd requested a 7:30am wake-up call from the front desk. For some reason or another, it did not come, but luckily I woke up at about 7:40. My aunt was a bit more difficult to rouse--I ended up calling my father (her brother) and had her talk to him on the phone (I knew that if she talked on the phone her brain would wake up and she'd be able to get out of bed). Sure enough, this strategy worked. We dressed and packed our bags before heading downstairs for the continental breakfast in the lobby. I'm really only mentioning this because when I went into the bathroom in the lobby after eating to wash my hands, I saw this hand soap on the counter that I had never seen before:

In L.A., even the hand soap is method )


(The line in the LJ cut is a refence to method acting, just so everyone understands.)

Anyway, on this particular day, there was only one destination that I had in mind: Jay and Silent Bob's Secret Stash in Westwood. I'd been to the one on Red Bank (last summer, before I moved), but not to the L.A. one. I wanted desperately to go, and thankfully, my aunt agreed to drive me. Mapquest directions from Pasadena to Westwood firmly in hand, we checked out and left the hotel at approximately 9:30am.

I'm pleased to report that my navigation skills did not fail me this time. We successfully found the store, and a parking space only a block away. Unfortunately, upon reaching the actual entrance, I discovered that it was closed, and would not open for another hour. This, however, did not deter me from taking a picture. First, though, some lovely palm trees from the block before Westwood Blvd:

Pretty palm trees )


The Westwood Blvd. street sign:

Westwood Blvd. )

And finally, The Stash!

Stoners of the world, unite! )

There was a cafe nearby, and so it was there that my aunt and I killed time while waiting for the Stash to open. I must admit that my stomach was in knots, as I knew that there was a possibility of meeting VA celebrities in the store. Heck, I was just plain excited to be finally seeing the Westwood Stash in person.

After what seemed like forever, the hour was up, and we quickly set out for the store. When I walked in, the first thing I noticed was that behind the counter was Bryan Johnson, a VA alum. I cheerily said "Hello", though I didn't acknowledge that I knew who he was. My next stop was the Metatron wings at the back of the store. I was dying to get a picture with them, and my digital camera's batteries were on their last legs, so I had to get the picture fast. Luckily, I did, and it came out great:

In here, everyone gets to be a Metatron )

I took a great deal of time to survey the store, as I wanted to make purchases but I wasn't quite sure what to buy. As I meandered back to the front of the store, Bryan and I finally spoke.

"You post on the board, don't you?" he said.
"Yup, I do," I replied.
"I don't go on there much, but I knew I recognized you from the board."

It was at that precise moment that I finally felt like a movie star. All of the accolades I'd received in the last two days on my performance in the movie hadn't done it; neither had hobnobbing with John Schneider and Joey Travolta. But Bryan Johnson recognizing me? That did it. What a crazy world, eh?

I asked him if anyone (read: Kevin or Jay) was going to be in that day. "What, you mean other than me?" he said, and I laughed, partly out of amusement, but also out of embarrassment. I mean, he's a cool guy and yeah, he's in the movies too, but can I help it if I wanted to meet Kevin and/or Jay just a little bit more? lol. In any case, he said that Kevin wouldn't be in, and Jay only maybe. So I thanked him, and said that I needed more time to decide on my purchases, but I'd be back later.

My aunt and I left the store, got back into the car, and headed for Hollywood to see the sights. We drove all the way down Sunset Boulevard, through Beverly Hills, past Bel-Air, past Rodeo Drive (I couldn't bring myself to drive down a street full of shops that I'll never be able to shop in), and finally to Hollywood. It was an incredible drive. The houses that I saw were all monumental--most likely they belonged to lawyers or doctors or plastic surgeons. Huge, ornate mansions glittering in the hot California sun. What a sight. I don't have any pictures from this excursion, unfortunately, but I can say that it was a great deal of fun (aside from lunch at a sub-par Indian restaurant).

After lunch, we drove back down Sunset to Westwood, and got to the store around 3:00pm. Bryan was gone by then (he told me he was getting off work at 2:30), and Jay was nowhere to be seen. I was somewhat disappointed, but went ahead and made my purchases (a Buddy Christ figurine in a box signed by Kevin; a metal sign bearing a vintage Kellogg's Frosted Flakes advertisement; and a "Got Christ?" wifebeater/tank top for Jonathan).

I knew I had to be on my way after that, since my flight was at 5:55pm, and I wanted to be at the Burbank Airport by 4. This was easier said that done, of course, since my aunt and I ended up getting HORRIBLY lost trying to find our way to the airport LoL. We tried getting directions from my dad, from her husband Jeff, and from random people at gas stations and 7-11s, but still we somehow managed to get turned around and confused. At one point we were going north on Route 5 and had missed where we were supposed to get off, but we hadn't realized it yet and so we just kept on going. Luckily I realized our error, and we exited immediately and tried to find someone to give us directions. (I took some nice landscape pictures from our wrong-way driving, but I won't bore you all with them).

Four o'clock came and went. I called my father and he informed me that he'd gone online and discovered that my flight had a 40-minute delay (surprise, surprise). So that did buy us some more time. FINALLY, after asking the same guy twice for directions ("It's that way, god damn it!" lol. He was a funny guy), we made it. A few kisses and hugs later, our goodbyes were out of the way and I was hauling ass into the terminal. As it turned out, I really had nothing to worry about, because of the delay and all. The only minor freaking out moment was when I was sitting at the gate and they kept paging people to the desk, and one of the people they were paging was "Jennifer Lerner." This freaked me out because that is the same name of the girl (though she spelled it "Lehner") who picked on me and tormented me mercilessly and made my life hell for seven years in elementary/middle/high school. I told myself there was no way it could be her, since I was on the other side of the country. Thankfully, I did not see her anywhere in the terminal.

I didn't get home until 12:30am. The plane ended up making an unscheduled fuel stop in Sacramento (apparently we needed more fuel in order to balance out the weight of the luggage or something. Whatever.). That "10 minute" stop was further delayed when it was discovered that there was a discrepancy in the amount of luggage the computer showed in Burbank and the amount of luggage the computer was showing in Sacramento. At long last, we got underway, and I found myself dragging my tired form through the SeaTac baggage claim at 10 o'clock at night. Anyway, after waiting for my suitcase, and then getting a bus (two buses, in fact), I finally made it home.

And so, that is the (very long) story of my trip to Los Angeles and other parts of southern California. I truly did have a wonderful time, much more than I thought I would. I don't know if I could ever live there, but I'd love to go back and visit again sometime. As for the experience with Normal People Scare Me, well...I feel as though this is really just the beginning. I am most excited to see how the future of the film will play out, and what impact it will have upon the world. That's the biggest, most important part for me: the potential comfort, guidance, and knowledge that the film has to bring to individuals on the spectrum and to those who know them. We'll just have to wait and see what happens.
Apr-6th-2006 12:25 am - I am in Southern California right now...
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Holy. Crap.

It looks so normal, and then all of a sudden, there are palm trees. And people have their swimming pools open. IN APRIL.

The first thing I saw when I walked into the terminal of the Bob Hope Airport (yes, that's the real name) in Burbank: A sign with a picture of Chris Farley on it advertising addiction treatment. Oh yes, this is so not the land of the sane.

Still, it's pretty. And tomorrow I get to hobnob with famous folk. Yes, I will be nobbing hobs with the creme-de-la-creme of the autism world. I'm only saying it because I can hardly believe it. I mean seriously. This is not my country, this land they call California. But standing in Keri's backyard tonight, in the stillness of the dark, the stars shining high above, I felt calm. It's very peaceful here--or at least in Thousand Oaks, it is. I can't say much for the rest of the region, since I have not yet traveled there. We'll see, though. All in good time.

Now I go to take a shower and retire to bed. Who knows what surprises the coming days will bring. Whatever happens, I look forward to writing about it here.
Apr-2nd-2006 02:48 pm - What in the hell is wrong with people??
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I have had something absolutely shocking happen to me today. Or, it might have even happened yesterday or who knows when, but the end result was discovered today.

At around 11am, my building manager called me and said that he'd found a photo album in the garbage, with pictures of me and my family contained in it. I was confused, as I didn't have such a photo album here. "Oh, I must've thrown that out by accident," I said to him, now curious as to what was going on. "I'll put it by your door," he replied.

When I woke up an hour or so later, I opened my door and saw a purple photo album sitting there. I opened it up, and on the inside of the front my mother had drawn a star and written "STAR BIRTHDAY 23 Amy Louise Gravino March 23, 1983 3-23-83."

Immediately I realized that this had to have been part of my birthday package that they'd sent me. Also in the package was the second season of "3rd Rock from the Sun" on DVD, and some Girl Scout cookies. I'd been waiting for it all last week, checking the mailbox area every day, and it seemed that it still hadn't come.

Upon the discovery of the photo album, I realized that the remaining contents of my birthday package had been stolen.

I had called my building manager and left him a message on his voicemail, but that was a few minutes before I realized there'd been a theft. I phoned my parents to tell them about the photo album, and they confirmed that it'd been one of my presents, along with the DVD and the cookies.

After getting off the phone with them, I hurriedly ambled downstairs to have a word with my building manager. He came to his door with his phone at his ear, and we both laughed when he said he was just trying to call me. I explained to him about the package, and what else had been in it besides the photo album. He told me that there have been other thefts lately, too; some woman had her cat's $50 dollar flea powder stolen. He grew increasingly pissed as we talked, and he said he was going to write a nasty, angry memo to be distributed to everyone in the building. We looked through the garbage together, but found no trace of the cookies, the DVD, or the box that they'd come in. He told me he'd keep a lookout for the items and let me know.

So now I am sitting here, angry, upset, and very close to crying. I have never had anything stolen from me before. I have always felt safe in this building, and most every person I've interacted with has been nice, or at least cordial. I never expected something like this to happen. What upsets me the most is two things: One, that the thief must be someone in the building. The reason I know this is because the package was delivered and brought inside the building, to the mailbox area, and because the photo album was found in one of the dumpsters on the side of the building. A guest of someone wouldn't know where the dumpsters are, but a resident would.

The second thing is that I am just shattered by the idea that someone could so callously throw away a photo album like that. My mother and father must have worked for hours, going through all the photo albums at home to pick out the photos they put in this album for me. These images are priceless; they are reflections of the few happy times from my childhood, and of happy times more recent. I don't really care about the DVD and the cookies being stolen as much as I do about this album being thrown in the trash. To me that is just the most heartless, cruel thing a person could do. I guess people really don't listen to their consciences anymore.
Mar-23rd-2006 09:49 am - How differently my eyes see the world today...
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This is my first birthday in Seattle. A milestone, if you will. I suddenly feel free, as though I have a fresh, new pair of eyes with which to see the world. How rare and wonderful it is to be born a second time, twenty-three years later.

Happy Birthday to me.
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