I wrote this in the "Dear You" Community. Here's the message.
P.S.: If you don't want to read, please don't say bad responses. Thanks =)
Dear You,
It's been exactly 3 years that I've broke up with you and yet I miss you dearly. Yes, we've been together for at least 5 months; since you asked me in February '04 and school was done in June. You were the real guy that I ever loved, you were the only one that ever loved me. We've passed wonderful moments together and I've had the chance to dance with you... precisely 3 times. We had our ups and downs, we had fun in Toronto before everything was done, and I had to leave you because of some problems I had. My parents didn't let me like anyone, go out with anyone, it wasn't easy. Now that everything is more easier for me, I try to find a way to talk to you but I'm so shy and I'm always so positive that you just don't give a damn about me, but we're still friends... I guess.
After everything was done, I went to high school. I had so many problems and I even was at a point to cut myself. I was thinking of you somewhere in my mind, but then some kind of big emotional flashback struck me and I began to miss you so badly. I was thinking about you everyday and it seems so difficult knowing that I gave you the wrong reason to leave you. Man I was fucking naive before.
I finally got to see you and see some of your new friends. Before our last "reunion", you were at my 12th birthday party with long hair, and then I finally saw you with short hair; like I used to remember you. You changed, your voice too. That was my first remark, I hope it didn't offended you ^__^..
And so, after we had a day together with 2 other guys, I've had the chance to talk to you, even if it was only 2 sentences. It took me at least 5 minutes to ask you one question. I also had the chance to be in your arms and I didn't wanted to let go. I felt great and warm near your heart. We walked together as your mom was coming to pick you up and I went with you; your mom insisted. :D
After then we talked to each other more often on the internet, I gave you 2 long messages. The first one you answered me before our "reunion" like I said, the second, well you didn't answered. I waited 1-2 months for your response, I though then you didn't cared at all. Your friend talked to me and I asked why weren't you on MSN anymore? He finally told me you didn't have internet. I felt like poo after, gave me a little frown.
I asked him to deliver the message, he finally did. I didn't asked for what did you answered, I'm not even sure if he did, whatever... So yeah, I hope that one day, we will see each other. I might say 2 more sentences if you stay for 20 more minutes. =)
I miss you, terribly. <3
-Maylee.