I am so exhausted, apparently. I feel fine, but then after school if I lie down on my couch for like, a second, I fall asleep for a good two hours. It's really annoying, I can feel myself crashing. Sleep is for the weak!

So I finished my media project Thursday at lunch and Mel and I burned it to a DVD today during advising. I'm so happy with it, it's like, exactly what I wanted, and it's very personal and meaningful to me. I want to rip the DVD and upload it to YouTube so I can show people more easily. Hmm...

Um.. apart from my sudden, although expected, attachment, there's nothing new to report, really. The art show at school is this Sunday, and I have pieces in it. Nothing really amazing, but I might end up selling something, who knows? *optimism* In the mean time I have to do homework and prepare my house, Unit 01 and myself for Shinji's slowly but surely approaching arrival.

My dad's home from Lenox for a few days, btw :D

6 DAYS!

Hello. My name is Kite. I cosplay Kaworu Nagisa from Evangelion. My boyfriend cosplays Shinji Ikari.



Thank you and good night unto you all ♥

My throat kills, if I'm sick when Shinji's here I will strangle whoever infected me.

That's a promise.

This week has been insanely stressful. In school my media project has seriously consumed my life. I've been staying during lunch and after school to work on it, which has actually been fun. We had long C-period today, so I got to work on it for an hour and a half, plus 45 minutes of lunch. It was awesome, I've finished a big chunk of it, and it's exactly what I want, go me!

So this is the first night I haven't had to write an essay [or two] this week, so after I came home from my internship I got to just chill out and feel sick. I felt better after I had dinner and drank tea, so I took a walk with my mom, which was nice. Then I came home and worked on Misato's dress ;D

Oh I'm also officially graduating now, I got all my extraneous GBR shit taken care of, so yay! Is it June 6th yet?


8 Days!

I need to play .hack//GU. Neeeeeeed.

I also need to do the fucking boatload of homework my teachers assigned me. Bitches. Argh. Whatever, all the assignments are easy, I just lack motivation. Writing an editorial about what an disgusting human being Breckinridge Long is should be fun.

My dad leaves for Lenox tomorrow to start work at Shakespeare & Company for the next three months. Screeeeeeew that. I really don't like having my dad gone, it totally stresses out my mom, plus I just miss him. At least I can drive so I won't be stuck at home all summer, that's a very good thing.

In other news AnimeNEXT is in 39 days and I haven't finished either of my cosplays, why am I so lazy? I do need to finish Misato before Shinji gets here though, as I'd like to show it off, you know~ I'm almost done with the dress, I've pinned everything, I just need to sew it up. I also need to deal with my wig. [When I got it it was so much lighter than I thought it was going to be] so I soaked it in water and purple watercolor for like, two days. It darkened it, but not enough, so I'm going to straight up paint it with the water color. I wish spray paint wouldn't completely fuck up the texture, as it would be so much easier.

I think I'll get her hat from the Army Navy Surplus store on Thayer Street and make her necklace out of Wonderflex. I have boots that'll work already, so we're good on that front. Then I can get off my ass and legitimately work on my plugsuit. I'm almost done with the basic construction, so I'll finish that easy and then work on the details. I hope it comes out well, if it doesn't I'll kill something. Seriously.


Soyeah, 39 days until AnimeNEXT
and 11 days until Shinji's visit :D

I want my mother to come home so I can ask her about my grandparents in World War II. [We had a guest speaker in Women's History today who teaches women's history at Bryant College and collects letters from ordinary people during WWII. So cool!]

I had to block Wicked myself today at ACT, and I'm losing my voice. We got a lot done, but it'll be a miracle if they remember it :/ Whatever, I'm doing my best.

My media project is coming along fabulously ;D I need to do some filming, as I have the camera tonight. I need to make a room in my house look like a runway, like for a fashion show. I'm not sure how to do that, though. Any and all ideas are appreciated!

Um... yeah. Armin van Buuren's album Imagine is fucking delicious ♥

Oh, I forgot to add in my last post that Kaworu's English voice actor from the director's cut of Episode 24 will be at AnimeNEXT.


Thank you and good night.

So last night was made of win!


Better show was BETTER OMG ♥ Great job, guys, seriously! I'm really happy. Afterwards I drove Gillian, Corey and her brother Marshall to Thayer Street to meet up with Alina, Sarah, Maya and Siobhan for ice cream :D So much fun~ Seriously ♥

I got home late-ish and then fell asleep in front of my TV while texting Shinji~ Awesome night all around, I haven't felt that good in a while :]

Today I hung out with my mom and such, it was pretty low-key. I did have the brilliant idea to use FOAM for the shoulder pieces of my plugsuit instead of Wonderflex, though! Fucking yes! I texted Shinji to tell him of my genius idea and got his friend Jesse instead, so we talked for a few minutes, which was interesting. I hope I left a good impression ;___;

I'm going to go study my lines for Peter Pan tomorrow and do Erin homework. Soon.

Bad show was bad. Learn your goddamn lines, motherfuckers.

Seriously.

Even I fucked up a line, I was so pissed off, I'd been practicing backstage too! Fuckfuckfuck. And I don't get service in our space so I couldn't text Shinji backstage to complain. Boo hiss boo hiss. I drove home feeling unfulfilled and lonely while listening to Sitting On The Moon by Enigma and then cried in my driveway for a few seconds.

Then I took a shower and had text sex with my stupid friend before I lost service :P

Ahh well, tomorrow's another day. Hopefully we won't fuck it up as badly tomorrow. My mom and brother are going to see it then, my dad's in his own play. I wish I'd gotten to see that, but I didn't, which sucks.

Oh! We did have an awesome Women's History class today ;D ♥♥♥


Moobs I hope you're having a good time with Cori!

Apparently spending three days having sex and watching anime has done wonders for my sex appeal. Who knew?


Um.. I told my dad on Monday that my life is empty and the only thing that gives me true fulfillment is going to cons. I don't think he believed me. Hmm :[

Things are looking up ever so slightly though. I love my Peter Pan class I'm TA-ing at ACT, the kids are awesome and all hug me good bye and what not. I'm playing Captain Hook as well, which will be fun. Total overacting and such for the win. Midsummer Night's Dream isn't going to be fabulous, but whatever. I think I'm doing a good job. I hope I am. If not my costume's really nice so I'll at least look nice on stage.

Plus both my dad and Shinji can't come so it's not like I really give a shit at this point, anyway.

I finished my Misato jacket over the weekend while watching shit loads of America's Next Top Model with my mother. It looks fabulous, but admittedly doesn't fit me well. Honestly I'm pretty okay with that. I still need to make the dress and necklace and buy shoes. Easy. The plugsuit scares me a little bit, just because I can't fit it over my thighs. It does fit me well, though ;D Damn making patterns is difficult.

Yeah. I also really like the song Screwing You On The Beach At Night by Bloodhound Gang. So cute~

We got a new keyboard today. Huzzah!


So Friday night Jiggles slept over and we dressed up as scene kids [I was scene!Kaworu] and went to this really cool place and took photos. It was fun. Then we drove to the mall and walked around, and I felt totally alone. When we passed the train station I wanted to jump on the next one to Penn station, seriously.

We stayed up really late and were really sexual. I sent a lot of obscene texts to Shinji. Today me and Jiggles went to school to film this massive makeover project thing. I got hit on my my /b/tard friend and had really terrible allergic reactions the entire time. It was interesting. I stayed there until like, 2, and then drove Jiggles back to my house and went out with my mom, which was cool.

Then I came home and sewed bias tape onto Misato's jacket. Tomorrow I'm going on a cancer walk with Xenia, Melissa and Brianna.


...I feel like a robot with itchy puffy eyes.

There is no passion in my life, but there should be.

I have wonderful friends, ACT is going to start paying me for my services, the weather is gorgeous, my plugsuit and Misato jacket are coming along beautifully, I'm going to own as Titania in Midsummer in two weeks, I'm set to go to AnimeNEXT.

But I feel totally empty. And I hate it. It's so fucking frustrating, because I don't know what I'm missing. I feel like I'm just going through the motions of my life every day, that I'm not actually doing anything. The only times I've felt truly happy recently have been driving down I-95 South recording footage for Media and, of course, the three days Shinji was here with me. I think this is beyond missing the guy I'm passionately infatuated with, though. This is how I've been feeling sinse the summer, it's just reared its ugly head again.

I also find myself being unnecesarily mean to everyone who even looks at me the wrong way. What the hell? They don't even have to be doing anything specific, it's like my default reaction has been set to 'antagonize' or something. And I feel like the entire world is just full of shit. Pretty much anyone could open their mouths right now and say something and my reaction would be shut up, you don't know anything, regardless of what they said.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

*is texted*

I also got in trouble for texting during an art class. Now I don't have my phone for the day for another four days. I also spilled water in our desktop's keyboard last night, so I have to use this shitty old Macbook my mother uses to sync her iPod.

...Fucking incredible three days. His neck is very sore. *insert flirtatious emoticon*

After he left I paced and drove around listening to bad emo music. I went to Whole Foods to get dinner and En called me so I sat in the parking lot and talked to him on the phone for twenty minutes. Then I picked up my mother from the airport and went to Orlena's. I got lost and broke my tire. Now I have to get it fixed. I also have to do a paper for Mel's class and a thing for Erin.


Is it AnimeNEXT yet?

Comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list ten things you love that begin with that letter. Afterward, post this in your journal and give out some letters of your own.

melloxchocolate gave me K


1. Kaworu Nagisa
2. Kimonos
3. Kittens
4. Kogal outfits
5. Kettle corn
6. Kyo Sohma
7. Kite
8. Kissing
9. Knitting
10. Knowing random crap

So apparently a Haseo figure will be at my house the day after tomorrow... 8D


I'm heading into Boston with my dad in a bit~

I finished the basic construction of my Misato jacket today, now all I need to do is add details! I love not having school so much X3~

( Two pictures! )


3 Days!!!

a. Post a list of 10 fandoms.
b. Have your friends list guess your favorite character from each one.
c. When guessed, bold the line, include the character name, and write a sentence about why you like that character.

1. Neon Genesis Evangelion :: Kaworu
2. Tales of the Abyss :: Jade
3. .hack//GU :: Pi
4. .hack// old school!
5. Tales of Symphonia
6. Spiral
7. Princess Tutu
8. Fruits Basket :: Kyo
9. Wild Adaptor :: Kubota
10. Death Note :: L

So last weekend was the shit. I spent all of it interning and with friends, which was beautiful. I also started work on my Misato jacket! It's coming out really nicely, I wish I'd gotten a chance to work on it today, though :[

I also got a shit load of really awesome plugsuit fabric for a very reasonable price [go sales!] so I started that last night. I so don't have Kaworu's figure from the waist down... XD; Um, let me think... Today was blah. Drama was productive, at least. I ended up hanging out with Melissa, and then me and my brother went to Thayer street for ice cream.

In other news, the entire fucking universe is sick, what the hell?! If someone gets me sick I will hunt you down and kill you, I do NOT want to be sick next week! Shinji's sick too, it makes me muy triste. My maternal instict has a throbbing erection right now, seriously.

Aaaand I can't stop listening to this song :D


9 Days!

*sings*

So today I was at my internship from 4-8:30 (?), picked up Alina, got take out from Apsara and ate delicious food and talked about sex with her and Melissa until around midnight. I have no homework this weekend and just made Shinji very very happy.


In short?

Life is fantastic ♥

I PASSED MY GBR!

For those of you who don't go to School One, it means I can graduate high school! THANK GOD!


ALSO: Should I send http://orz.4chan.org/y/src/1206832531646.jpg <------ this to Shinji Y/N [NOT SAFE FOR WORK!]

8D~

Interning yesterday was exhausting, but so much fun! I followed the costume lady around, helped her fit costumes and labeled all the kids' stuff. Once all the costumes and stuff were set we ran the show with lights, which I did all on my own. The woman who taught me how to work the lights and stuff, Mira, was really happy :3

After I got off I called Melissa and we went and got dinner at this Thai place on Wickeden Street. Thai iced tea for the WIN. I told her everything that happened at AB and she flipped and spazzed, it was so cute ♥ Then I met her back at her house and hung out with her there for an hour or so.

I came home around 11, took a shower and lay on my bed while listening to this really great compilation album and texting Shinjeh. I can't wait until April 17th, seriously, I'm shaking I'm so excited LOL!

Today I did nothing except drive because I was bored and was putting off Erin questions. When I got home I drove my mother to the grocery store to buy dinner, then came home and started my Erin questions.

I'm still not done with them, of course ;D


OH- the band Fightstar fucking wins, BTW. HURRAH FOR EVA REFERENCES IN BRITISH EMO!




...speak of the devil Shinji just texted me.