October 15th, 2005

Subject: Epilogue Time: 04:48 pm

Logan completed his political science degree at UConn in 2008. Throughout the remainder of his college years, he continued to be active in PRIDE, golf, and cross country, in addition to spending the fall semester of his junior year in Seville on an abroad program. At one point, Logan considered finally trying out for football, but was concerned that if he made the team, it would take too much time away from his studies. He remained close to his younger siblings, Kerry and Hunter, as well as his mother. Over the years, Logan’s father softened a little bit, but aspects of their relationship still made Logan anxious. Toward the end of Logan’s sophomore year at UConn, he and Byron realized that they were beginning to drift apart. It was a tough decision, but the two decided to try to remain friends. Their contact became less frequent after Logan moved to Washington, DC the fall after his UConn graduation. Although his new job as a staff assistant was to an extent extremely entry-level, he enjoyed working on Capitol Hill and thrived on the energy and political knowledge of his colleagues. Logan was unsure what he might do career-wise in the future but thought that he would likely stay within the political arena, ideally working his way up the ladder to various legislative positions in Senator Turner’s (D-KY) office. It looked like Logan was well on his way to becoming a vital part of Senator Turner’s staff, and as a result, this meant some long days that culminated with staff meetings over dinner at one of the Senator’s favorite restaurants. On one such evening, Logan and the rest of the staff members from his office were discussing Senator Turner’s probable appointment to a new committee and the duties for which the office would then be responsible. When his turn came to place his order, Logan requested the salmon with rice and vegetables, just as he always did when dining at his office’s restaurant of choice. When the order came, however, he was surprised to see that his plate instead held a sizable looking steak. “Excuse me,” Logan said to the waiter. “I have to admit that this steak looks really good, but it looks like you brought me the wrong order. I’d asked for the salmon?” “Yes, yes, of course,” replied the waiter. “But I recommend you give the steak a try. Our chef thought you might like it.” “Well, okay,” Logan agreed, becoming more and more impressed with the juicy steak in front of him and noticing that his office mates were already starting on their dinners. “I guess it’s good I’m not a vegetarian!” “Oh, the chef knew you weren’t,” said the waiter, dashing off before Logan could inquire further. While some of his colleagues relaxed over coffee and dessert after the main course, Logan headed back to the kitchen to thank the chef for the unexpected surprise. He turned to address the chef, finding none other than Byron standing in front of him, grinning and wearing a tall chef’s hat. ( Read more... ) Part Two: Extended Conversation

April 2nd, 2005

Subject: Paris Time: 05:48 pm Current Mood: content

It's not like I just got back from Paris yesterday, so I don't know why I haven't managed to update yet. Part of it is that I want do a huge long journal entry about everything I saw and did, and I haven't had the time to do that in one sitting. (Ugh... there's so much work that I've been making up.) Maybe I'll just have to do entries in spurts or something. Anyway, the other reason, now that I think about it, is that it was so wonderful that some of it I just want to keep to myself, inside my head. But overall, yeah, it was so, so worth it. I had the best time, and I kinda liked the rebellious feeling, too. My first night there, Byron and I went out to dinner and then a walk along the river. We ended up in front of Notre Dame, and it looked amazing at night with all of the stars in the sky and everything. It was kinda awkward to see him again, especially after going all the way there, but when I could tell what direction our conversation was going in, it all felt so right. I was stupid, and I messed up what we had before, and I'm not going to do that again. Byron means too much to me... my life wasn't the same without him in it. Byron and I are right together. Now I just have to wait for him to come home when his program ends. I'm hoping it will go by fast.

March 16th, 2005

Time: 07:32 pm Current Mood: determined

Leaving for the airport shortly. Just booked a flight to Paris.

March 15th, 2005

Subject: I am so confused. Time: 09:04 pm Current Mood: indescribable

Okay, there are no words. I've been in kind of a fog since I got this email from Byron yesterday that said that he and a friend of his on his program kissed (that Keegan guy he's mentioned). I was confused enough reading that, but then he wrote, "Because it made me realize that I'm not over you, Logan. This being friends thing isn't going to work, because in my head, you're still my boyfriend. I still love you, I don't even like anyone else, and I definitely don't want to be kissing anyone else. I really, really miss everyone at home, but I don't know what to do about missing you, because coming home in the spring isn't going to fix that." WOW. I mean, I've never stopped missing him, either. Not really, anyway. It's gotten a little less hard, but I've been thinking about Byron every day still, often more than once a day. I don't even know what to write back to that, except that I miss him. Is he saying he wants to try again? What I really want to do is talk about this in person, and I don't want to wait until he's home to do it. Of course, to accomplish this, I would have to go to Paris. Maybe I could. But I can't just do that... people only do that in the movies. So. I'll probably feel calm enough to email Byron back tomorrow or so, and then it will all be fine. I just need to try to chill out. For now, though, it's back to my art history reading, where I will try (again) not to be reminded of Byron actually seeing this stuff in person.

February 19th, 2005

Subject: So cheesy, but I can't get the lyrics out of my head. Time: 10:22 pm Current Mood: blank

I'm currently listening to some Saturday night '80s show on the radio, and they just played "Hysteria" by Def Leppard a few minutes ago. It totally made me think of Byron. Not that everything else doesn't make me think of him, but whatever. I dunno... I guess among other reasons, I identify with it (even though it does make "mysteria" a word... ugh) because I want to know what he's up to tonight. Not that I want him to be alone, because then he might be lonely (although it does sound like he's feeling less homesick), but I don't want him to be with anyone else in that way. ( Lyrics ) Well, enough of that. I think I'll go take a look at the Eddie Bauer Web site. ETA: Well, now they just played "Angel" by Aerosmith. Just twist the knife in a little deeper. Yeah, that's great. I mean, I know by now it's not like the breakup was yesterday or anything, but I just can't forget someone I loved that easily. We shared so much together. ( More lyrics )

February 13th, 2005

Subject: +s and -s Time: 09:15 pm Current Mood: stressed

+ I caved in and bought an Ipod. The temptation was too great, like I wrote in my last entry. And I just found out I'm getting a higher credit limit. - It's Valentine's Day tomorrow. How depressing. Last Valentine's Day was one of the best days of my life because that's when I had my momentous date with Byron. Now it's one year later, and I still can't believe what a great guy I lost. I would hang out with some of the PRIDE folks at the movie night they're having or head down to Stoneybrook to Jessi's house for her get together that she announced on the boards, but the next day, I have both an international relations paper to turn in and a take home exam due in my Presidential Character and Leadership class. Sigh... it never ends. ---------- There's more I want to write, but I'm just not in the mood, I guess. I'm in a slump with writing, and I hate it. The only writing I'm doing is for school. I'm never going to get better with my creative writing if I don't do it more, but when I have the chance, I just don't feel like it.

February 2nd, 2005

Time: 07:33 pm Current Mood: uncomfortable

I e-mailed Byron the other day. It was... awkward, but he seemed to respond well to it, saying he agreed that we should try being friends. That makes me feel better about some things; I had started and deleted probably a handful of e-mails to him over the past few weeks. I still miss him terribly, though. I thought women were supposed to go shopping to take their minds off of things, but I guess they're not the only ones. Over the weekend, I bought a new golf bag and some dress shirts. I am so tempted to buy an Ipod. Plastic is great. I would ordinarily be at a PRIDE meeting now, but I just don't feel up to going. It makes me think of Byron, and it's too hard right now. I guess that could be because I haven't told anyone in the group who's not already a close friend that Byron and I aren't together, so they still ask me questions about my boyfriend. I guess I'm just procrastinating by writing this, though... I have my first art history exam tomorrow, and studying for it is already kicking my ass.

January 18th, 2005

Subject: Ugh. Time: 08:40 pm Current Mood: depressed

I have to say, I haven't been feeling that great lately. Second semester has started, and we've started golf practices, but I'm not really that enthusiastic about any of it. I feel kind of sick to my stomach when I think about the whole Byron thing. Did I really break up with him -- and right before he went to Paris? I'd say it was for the best since I was worried about the distance that we'd face (which he seemed to take to mean that I wanted to break up, which I didn't, but then somehow that's what we ended up doing), but right now, I don't know that it is. I really miss him. Everything reminds me of him. I guess I'll never get past it if I can't stop thinking about it, so... international relations reading beckons, I guess. ::sigh::

December 23rd, 2004

Current Music: TV -- the 5:00 news is about to come on. Subject: Survey Time: 04:50 pm Current Mood: busy

Taking a break from wrapping all of these gifts (wow, I didn't realize there were so many).... THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 1. Logan 2. Bruno 3. Dude THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 1. loganky 2. bruno13 3. LB110 THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. My athletic ability 2. I'm good with kids. 3. I'm motivated. THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. I can't stand up to my dad. 2. My stubbornness 3. My occasional indecisiveness THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 1. English 2. Norwegian 3. Scandinavian THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. Involved conversations with my father 2. Failure 3. Heights THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 1. Stretching/working out 2. Food (preferably Byron's cooking, when I can have it) 3. Orange juice THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 1. Boxers 2. Bathrobe (Yes, I really did shower today. This is just what I feel like wearing, since no one else is home right now.) 3. That's it. THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS: 1. Aerosmith 2. Maroon 5 3. Gavin DeGraw THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT: 1. I Don't Want To Be - Gavin DeGraw 2. Mosh - Eminem 3. Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson (Should I be embarrassed? It's a good song.) THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS: 1. Playing on the golf team next semester 2. Cooking 3. Getting a 4.0 next semester THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (BESIDES LOVE): 1. The ability to talk about anything 2. Compassion 3. Affection TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: In no particular order... 1. I'm terrified of skiing. 2. I have never been drunk. 3. I'm worried about the distance between Byron and me once he's abroad. THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. Smile 2. Hands 3. Eyes THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: 1. Not be a protective big brother 2. Give up playing football completely (I still have hope for next year.) 3. Not miss Byron THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. Sports 2. Watching sports 3. Something that only Byron needs to know about. THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: 1. Cuddle with Byron and give him his gifts 2. Play basketball (Don't know why.) 3. Take a nap THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 1. Something political 2. Sports writer 3. Not sure THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: 1. Paris! 2. England 3. Germany THREE KIDS' NAMES: 1. Sabrina Katherine 2. Christopher Joseph 3. Hmm... not really sure. THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. Play football for UConn 2. Live in Washington, DC 3. Settle down and have a family

September 29th, 2004

Time: 10:17 am

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September 26th, 2004

Subject: Weekend Time: 07:51 pm

Had a great weekend. There was a cross country meet on Friday, which I did pretty well in. I think I'm improving since I've been on the team. I miss playing football because it was always my fall sport, but it would have been really hard for me to make the team my first year, so I'm sure I'm not alone in that. Running is good, though... it lets me clear my head. Then, Saturday morning, I came to pick up Byron to bring him back to campus so we could spend the rest of the weekend together. I'd been looking forward to it so much that I could hardly wait to see him. We had such an awesome time. I showed Byron around campus a bit more (he'd already seen it when we came up to see the campus when I was looking at schools), so he could get a feel for my daily life here. We hung out in town, too, but I'm glad we got so much alone time in, too. That's all I'll say about that because I'm too close to how wonderful it all was to write more about it. I think next weekend, I'll be coming home to Stoneybrook since I don't have a meet, and B. and I can hang out a bit then. Hopefully this won't get too hard on us. I mean, it seems okay so far, but there are times when I really, really miss him. Like now. I miss him already.

August 29th, 2004

Subject: Personal journal Time: 10:37 pm Current Mood: hopeful

Wow... my first post from UConn. Classes start tomorrow, so I'm kinda nervous. Even though Austin is my roommate, this is all such a big change from back home. I can't decide if all of the orientation lectures were boring or made me more nervous. I still need to unpack, and anything I'd write now would come out really incoherent and rambly, so I'll have to write something more substantial later. For now, though, here's what's up: 1. I really miss Byron. I can't wait to talk to him tomorrow night and find out how the first day of school went for him, too. I hope this long-distance thing works out okay. (Again, that's something else I'll have to tackle writing about later when my mind isn't going in a million different directions.) 2. Tomorrow I have my political science class and the Spanish culture and civilization class I placed into. I have to try that one out to see if that's the right level for me; it seems like it might be too advanced, but I'm not sure. I've also got an orientation/meeting thing over in the athletic department. All right, off to see what progress I can make with the room.

August 22nd, 2004

Subject: Personal journal Time: 08:47 pm Current Mood: contemplative

Hmm... I have no idea why I haven't written for a few weeks when, really, things have been pretty good. There was that fight with Byron which was pretty unpleasant, but that was just temporary, and then I went to Sea City, which was awesome. It was really cool being there with Mal, Jessi, Jeff, and Ben also there. And it was a relaxing two weeks, too -- even better. While we were there, I kept thinking about how so many aspects about Sea City itself seemed the same to me from the last time I'd been (when I was 13 and I went along with Mary Anne and a bunch of the other BSCers), but how in some other ways, it was so different. I mean, I remember playing on the beach with the triplets, and of course, I was dating Mary Anne at the time. Now we've all grown up, and I'm with Byron. And there wasn't really that much baby-sitting to do while we were there... Claire's ten, but it's not like we had to watch out for her the same way as we did the last time I was there when she was five. My last day at the Rosebud is tomorrow. Since we got back from Sea City, I've just been working a few hours here and there. The other day, I went dorm shopping with Lauren Hoffman, and that was cool. We hit Bed, Bath and Beyond and Target in Stamford and I think got everything we needed. She's a cool girl; hopefully I'll be able to see more of her at UConn. I kinda wish I'd gotten to know her better while we were still at SHS, but oh well.

July 19th, 2004

Subject: Personal journal Time: 10:42 am Current Mood: happy

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July 9th, 2004

Current Music: I think I hear Hunter watching Sponge Bob. Subject: Personal journal Time: 10:45 pm Current Mood: content

Kerry chose Edwards. I'm loving this campaign more and more. Go Dems! :)

July 7th, 2004

Subject: Personal journal Time: 10:17 am

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July 2nd, 2004

Current Music: "Steve McQueen" -- Sheryl Crow Subject: Personal journal Time: 02:43 pm Current Mood: happy

It's almost scary how well things are going with me and Byron. He's such a wonderful boyfriend. I think he had a really nice time (and I did, too) the night he was over here for dinner when my family went out of town and I was here because of the Kerry orientation thing. I had been wondering what it would be like to do those things with him, but I can't believe it actually happened. It was... really nice. I don't know how else to describe it. It just makes me smile every time I think about it. I still haven't figured out yet how I'm going to tell Dad. I'm scared, I admit it. He intimidates me, and to an extent, he has for years now. I don't know. Maybe I'll see what Kaye has to say about it. She always has good advice. I think I'll write an e-mail to Byron now to let him know I'm thinking about him. :)

June 9th, 2004

Current Music: "Closing Time" -- Semisonic Subject: Personal journal Time: 09:12 pm Current Mood: contemplative

I can't believe it's graduation time. Senior year has definitely been eventful. I'm excited to be moving on, but I'm a little nervous, too. I can't stop listening to that Semisonic song... it says, "Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end." College is such a big step, and there are so many people I miss just thinking about it... Mom, Hunter, and Kerry (I guess I'll miss Dad more once I'm gone -- absence makes the heart grow fonder and all that), Paul (he's going to Vanderbilt in TN... they gave him an awesome scholarship), the BSC, and of course, Byron. I'm having Byron over this weekend while everyone else goes out of town. I have that Kerry orientation training in Stamford, so I'll fix dinner for the two of us on Saturday night. I really want to make this relationship with him work. Sometimes it's awkward referring to him in my head as "my boyfriend," since at various times, it's been "my girlfriend." I've never dated a guy before, so I don't really know how to put it into words, but this just feels right, being with him. And I know I'm gay, no matter whether people try to convince me otherwise. It's so nice not to be swamped with homework... maybe I'll go watch TV. How novel. :)

May 17th, 2004

Current Music: "Sweet Emotion" -- Aerosmith Subject: Personal journal Time: 12:50 am Current Mood: embarrassed

So, today's adventure. I bought lube. It was uncomfortable. I hate that stupid pharmacist guy. I'll write down the conversation so that way I won't have to ever think about it again. What an immature, disgusting moron. Okay. I got this idea in my head that maybe Byron and I will have sex one of these days. Maybe that's presumptuous of me, and it makes me nervous thinking about it, but it could happen. So, I've read a little bit online, and I saw that they recommend lube to make things well, easier. As Kristy Thomas told us when the BSC first started, "Be prepared." Granted, this wasn't the context she meant it in, I'm sure, but I thought I should go ahead and go to the pharmacy to get it over with now. Here's the conversation Jerky Pharmacist and I had: ME: ::picking out the lube and bringing it to the pharmacy counter to pay while trying not to make eye contact:: HIM: Heyyy, how's it going? I recognize you. You're that football guy from Stoneybrook High, right? ME: ::awkwardly, looking through my wallet so I don't have to look up:: Yeah, that's me. HIM: Soooo, my man! Is this your first time bagging a cheerleader, or are you just getting a refill on this fine lube here? ::pointing to the total on the screen:: ME: ::shoving cash at him, being careful not to touch his gross, grubby hand:: Heh. HIM: You football studs are so lucky, I tell ya. So, DO YOU NEED A BAG FOR THIS LUBE? ::raising his voice... why, I don't know:: ME: ::wincing and wanting to say no, but I stupidly didn't bring my backpack or anything:: Sure. HIM: ::rummaging under the counter:: Aww, man, we don't have any smaller bags. Just big ones. Hold on. ME: No, that's okay. Just give me a bigger bag. (I was thinking by this point, Oh, God, get me outta here.) HIM: ::apparently not hearing me:: Yo, Mort! Got a little bag we can put this LUBE in for this STUD here? MORT: ::rummaging under the counter under his register:: Bag for lube, bag for lube. (If it's possible, he talks even louder than Jerky Pharmacist. AND he talks to himself.) (By this point, a line is developing behind me. I'm blushing furiously and hoping that this little adventure doesn't get back to my family somehow.) HIM: Hurry up, Mort! The little lady's probably waitin' for the stud here to get back with the lube. ME: (I wanted to just go ahead and leave then, but Jerky Pharmacist was holding the lube, and I didn't want to agree that I was in a hurry because they'd just whoop it up about my "getting back to my lady.") MORT: ::running over with a small bag:: Here ya go. Do you have the lube, or did you give it to me? Or does the kid have the lube? HIM: I got it. ::putting it in the bag and handing it to me:: ME: ::practically grabbing it out of his hands:: Thanks. HIM: You and your lady friend enjoy that lube, ya hear, Tiger? ME: ::walking calmly out of the pharmacy without saying anything else to him:: Then I ran home. ------------ What a dickhead. If he knew I were gay, he'd probably be even more tacky and obnoxious. I hope they fire his ass one of these days.

May 12th, 2004

Current Music: "Dream On" -- Aerosmith Subject: Personal journal Time: 07:39 am Current Mood: loved

Byron and I will have been seeing each other for three months this Friday. Should I do something special for him? Hmm...