| blast from the past? |
[Mar. 8th, 2008|11:39 pm] |
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1) I think I would be good at menial labor. Not like construction, obviously, but little tasks, ones that require even less skill (and muscular strength). I'm good at following instructions. I'm attentive to details. I don't tire easily of repetitive and monotonous tasks. I think that I could find satisfaction in the knowledge that my efforts will help someone or something greater than myself in some minute fashion. Maybe I should be a secretary when I grow up. Heck, maybe I should drop out now. Maybe all I've ever wanted was for someone to tell me it's okay to get poor grades, or to work at a fast-food restaurant. Maybe I'm too weak to deal with stress.
2) I don't know how many people on my flist watched Saturday morning cartoons, but I've recently just hooked back up with Zeta Project. Oh. Oh. I did not remember how good it was.
Actually it's a little like AtS in animated form, and with more robots. Angel Zeta is a vampire robot-assassin who is cursed with a soul has an epiphany and decides that it's not right for him to eat kill humans anymore. Along with his sarcastic, spunky female sidekick, Cordelia Ro, he embarks on a quest to help the helpless find his creator, while helping the helpless along the way. PS. He also sometimes goes soulless haywire, especially when he gets happy government agents try to erase his memory, resulting in a mad rampage. His favorite holographic form even looks like Angel. He has the same bewilderment towards the entire human race, is both thoughtlessly blunt and dorkily polite, and enjoys taking the weight of the entire world on his undead titanium shoulders. He also provides the unlimited funds for Ro to indulge in clothes-shopping and generally allows her to boss him around because he's so nice and dorky.
Yes, I've moved on to my next fancrush. Kind of a big jump from Hard Gay, but what can you do. One thing I can't get over is this guy's voice-actor. His voice is so... gentle? It's really bizarre when he's all, "I am menacing you!" because even if you didn't know the character you could hear in the voice the little unspoken addendum, "--but it's all right if you don't want to do what I say, I mean, I totally understand so I guess I'll just let you go now. Have a nice day!"
And yes, very much supposed bad guy goes good guy throughout the entire series. :)
I also surprisingly like West for some reason. I usually hate the character they put in just so we can laugh at him. You know, the one who screws up at everything and everyone hates him. The excuse to put in all the snark. But despite how many times our favorite trigger-happy agent has screwed up, he just keeps right on doing it! He's like some kind of bulldozer. People are yelling at him, like "WEST, NO! NO, NO!" and he's still just like "la de dah I'll shoot at Zeta while we're all on this precariously swaying bridge!" And then Zeta is like "...uh." and the bridge is like "CREEEAAAK! SNAAAP!" and Zeta has to save the day again... and meanwhile West, dangling a hundred feet above the ground from a giant magnet, still takes off his metal harness in an attempt to chase after Zeta despite the, you know, really painful landing that separates them. What can I say. His ridiculous 2-D personality has completely won me over.
2b) On a less fangirly note, it's really strange how I didn't remember a single thing about this series before watching it again. I mean, obviously I remembered Zeta and Ro, but apart from that, not a single character struck any chord of recognition within me. It was like watching the entire thing afresh, which is bizarre because I know I've seen at least some of it before.
I wonder what the time limit on our episodic memory is? How long do we have to wait before we can read a book or watch a show again without knowing what's going to happen? This would be a useful thing to know! The sad thing about enjoying a story once is that you know it's not going to be as good if you try to read it again knowing the ending. How long until it'll be good again?
Or another way a thinking about it - this whole Zeta Project business is in me. I watched it once, I loved it once, I incorporated it into myself. And yet I didn't remember it. Really makes me wonder about my subconscious influences. Is that why I liked Angel in the first place, because it struck a cord of Zeta-ness inside me? It makes me feel no more complex than a robot after all.
3) By the way, I just remembered that when I first started writing fanfic, I used to have split personalities. No, seriously. It was stupid. In my (cringe) "A/N" or (CRINGE) "Authoress's Notes", I would always start talking to myself. And yeah, the different voices had personalities - not like Ellis complex, but I did give them each a very basic, bland personality. I think there were around 4 of them, and I definitely remember that #2 was mean and #1 was either normal or sensible or nice. One of those. Probably sensible. So it'd go something like this:
Lily: I feel pretty crappy today.
Split-Personality #2: That's because you are crap.
Split-Personality #1: Oh come on, be nice!
Well. I probably wasn't even that witty back then XD. I'm somehow glad that I don't have a copy of my earliest stories anymore.
3b) By the way, I wish I could explain Ellis's personalities better. It's a little like Angel and Angelus: I feel like a lot of fans have a mistaken idea of what Angelus is (SP #2: Yeah. Like you're the definitive expert?). I can't really speak for Joss Whedon, but I can talk about what I intended for Ellis. It's... basically a souped up version of what we all do all the time.
For example, Sunday night, you might be totally pumped for Monday's classes. You pack your bag, you set your alarm, you know you've missed three in the past week so you'd better make this one. You totally want to go. The next morning, your alarm doesn't go off, you wake ten minutes before class, and you feel so. comfortable. Bathed in sunlight and the sound of chirping birds, you really don't remember what the big deal about class was. You can get the same information in the textbook anyway, and besides, isn't sleep more important?
Are Sunday-you and Monday-you two different people? No, they're both you. Yet you have different wants, you value different things, and I'd be willing to bet that you'd sound different if someone were to strike up conversation.
Angelus, I feel like, is just Angel, only incapable of understanding why it's important not to hurt people, physically or otherwise. Ellis's personalities, likewise, are all just Ellis, only with a couple of names slapped on. And the fact that they don't think alike at all. Er. Never mind.
4) The most productive thing I've done all day was to toss my sneakers into a washing machine. And they're still kind of dirty. |
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