Sunday.10282007.
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10.28 - - 00:59
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after math..
f-in silly string!
rain aside, awesome party! (even though i passed out -- twice.)
shame on you peep holes who didn't make it.
! ! !
there was still a decent showing of folks but i'll just call everyone next time.
we're considering a round 2 in 2 weeks.
zombie-themed sounds like it could be fun times.
i is oot.
-LT
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3 scars .... lash.
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Saturday.10062007.
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10.06 - - 22:33
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wow what a weekend... of uneventfulness.
i need to go back to hiding for a while.
the outside world leads to nothing but disappointment.
why did i even leave?
everywhere i go, i'm never satisfied, it seems.
maybe i expect too much from the unmotivated.
how i plot the world in my head is drastically askew from what my eyes actually gaze.
in truth, the world is an ugly, ugly place.
and anything that seems beautiful eventually exposes its cold intentions.
and why is this? the flip-side.
perfection is nonexistent.
that which is fresh, has a rotten core.
nothing is pure.
i can simply pretend, but my subconscious self won't allow me to.
invading my dreams. a time i can't fully control.
i can't stand my reflection.
too many scars.
why can't i be let go?
i don't mind darkness.
i just don't want to be alone.
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lash.
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Wednesday.09262007.
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09.26 - - 23:56
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you know what i miss?
answer: karaoke nights.
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lash.
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Monday.09242007.
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09.24 - - 20:35
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phases.
learning when to let go
accepting the next phase
the toughest struggle
of the struggle that is life
you never know when the next phase comes
even though the gauntlet of signs are thrown your way
or maybe you don't want to know
keep playing naive, hope everything will end okay
stay in your favour
you can't accept change
you can't accept healing
you can't accept solitude
you can't accept your self
learning to ride the waves
expecting nothing
embracing everything
should've known to trust your own
depressing your self
'cause you love no one else
focusing energy
narrowing your fields
it's all about you
who cares how they feel?
why would they care?
they're just as selfish
no sweat off their back
if you were to vanish
this perception is all you see
and all you will
inadvertently how they'll see you
'cause it's all about you
and it'll happen again
like it always has
'cause that's the only expectation
you can count on to bode true
the neverending loop
eternal cycle
what you've forgotten before
you'll forget once and once more
and you'll never escape
this trap you set for your self
it's a lesson you're blindly teaching
and you're the sole pupil
so what are you learning?
how do you pass?
it's simple enough to understand
not so easily grasped
and when you finally do
you really got nothing to show
you'll just know
then the next phase comes
and the signs will keep tapping your shoulder
but you'll follow the same tracks
and look away like you're used to
struggling to live
never learning to let go
should've known to trust your own
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1 scar .... lash.
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Saturday.09222007.
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09.22 - - 02:44
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prelude to a spike of anger.
so i found out from residual friendships in the previous workstead that the new supervisor those morons hired, quit the day he was to start. ha!
then it gets irritating.
the lead that was basically my co-lead will be taking the supervisor position come this october.
funny how time and time again they never promoted anyone to supervisional placement within the same department, until AFTER my departure.
first -- they dock me on my incentive raise 3 years ago.
second -- they don't approve of my friend sarah getting a job there.
third -- they lie to me egging me to put in a self-nom. form for the superv. position, only to blatantly come out with the excuse 'oh we only hire from outside'.
fourth -- they cut me short on my unused vacation pay, after they flat-out told me i'd be seeing it on my final check.
fifth -- this final bullshit initially mentioned.
i serisouly hate that business establishment with every ounce of my negative soul.
which could only mean one thing now...
expunged of negativity completely would make me one happy smiling ass motherfooker, right?
....right?
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lash.
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Friday.09212007.
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09.21 - - 06:34
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at last.
the weekend is here and i can finally get some much needed sleep.
...after today's stretch.
these long work days are killing me.
it'll be worth it in the long haul, hopefully.
i get to drive today.
hooray!
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2 scars .... lash.
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Monday.09172007.
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09.17 - - 23:49
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abc family what?
so there's this 'new' show on abc family that is just insane and hilarious.
i have no idea how long it's been on for, hence me saying 'new'.
and if the show itself isn't any indication, i have a feeling it will be cancelled soon.
if you see the show, you'll know why.
i don't even know why it's on a so-called FAMILY channel.
what does all this mean?
WATCH SLACKER CATS! ! !
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1 scar .... lash.
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Sunday.09162007.
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09.16 - - 23:57
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sexess!
nick's party was epic as epic can be.
so much ridiculousness that i don't even want to mention for my dignity's sake.
so many people with so many incriminating images of me. i fear.
i passed out on the floor at around 7am. \m/
woke up about three hours later, and didn't really do much besides
play steve in some wi-fi worms ds action for about four to five hours.
insanity! at least i wasn't the only geek, as the other three people
in the room were mmorpg'ing their guts out on ffxi and wow.
then a few of us went to kyodai for sushi times.
band practice we had for about a half hour afterwards.
big drumm's having some hard times right now, so we couldn't blame him for wanting to cut it early.
ah well, he needs time.
there's always next sunday.
back to the work week.
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1 scar .... lash.
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Wednesday.09122007.
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09.12 - - 18:12
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ree build.
New job.
New cycle.
Embrace the day?
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2 scars .... lash.
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Tuesday.10102006.
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10.10 - - 00:41
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¡ Nuevas Noticias!
Lee está recibiendo una promoción, perras.
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3 scars .... lash.
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