i just had the most disturbing dream.

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anyway, the disturbing part was we were walking about just taking in some of the culture of where we were when we saw a bunch of people standing in a little patch of ground that was fenced in (like with chain-link fence). i could see already some of the people walking around had the top quarter of their scalp and skull missing and the brain was visible and somewhat bloody. they were in some kind of shock, wandering about like zombies. this was apparently some punishment under the law of where we were and i was told it was called shitaku. (i did not know of something with this name so now, after having woken up, i googled it and found out it means "preparation" in Japanes... ???)

worse yet, the punishment was currently being carried out on some of the people there right as we watched. one man stood there with a large knife and grabbed a person by their hair then hacked it into their skull about half way back from the forehead then jerked it forward, and grabbed it with his hand while he cut around by the temples then just about at the hairline by the forehead and tore it off. one was a black woman with long small braids and i could read her lips that she was speaking english, and saying "ow ow ow you are hurting me" she was relatively calm until right as he started, another woman there was tall with blond hair and dressed very modern, she seemed to be someone famous and acted like she figured they weren't really going to do this to her but they did. one man who was already walking around like this when we came across it seemed to have been bald on the top and had thick, dirty somewhat curly ear-length hair in the back that exaggerated the top of his head missing.

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I recently did some commissions and it turned out pleasant so I'll take requests for a few more. Post here!

why does Canson make their blocks 27,9 cm x 42 cm instead of A3 format ?! there are no standard frames for these, and in an A3 they are too wide to mount and too narrow to matt!! unless you cut them x-(
(the edges are gummed so i don't suppose they are intended to be stretched in addition.)
what am i missing here, folks. i must be missing something.

"All mankind is of one author, and is one volume; when one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book, but translated into a better language; and every chapter must be so translated...As therefore the bell that rings to a sermon, calls not upon the preacher only, but upon the congregation to come: so this bell calls us all: but how much more me, who am brought so near the door by this sickness....No man is an island, entire of itself...any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind; and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee." -- from "Devotions Upon Emergent Occasions, Meditation XVII," John Donne (1572-1631)

the context was a disappointment to me. i had a much more profound understanding in mind, i don't know what i missed before that seems like so much more now and is so little in reality.

o, by the way, i FIGURED OUT THE MEANING OF LIFE LAST NIGHT

edit: DON'T WORRY, IT'S UNACHIEVABLE

edit2: NO, IT'S NOT 42

edit: NOT UNTIL I'M FINISHED! (THIS IS GOING TO BE THE BEST THING I EVER WROTE)

i am learning to more efficiently take advantage of myself.
it is awesome.

eta: o, yes, maybe a bit self-destructive, but in my defence, this is among the least selfish ways!

you are poorer for what you have lost but richer for the experience you've gained, so you've broken even (just having to deal with the exchange) and can move on with that history to build on.

RIGHT????

Artwork is here, for sale or for seeing: 0000000

i keep putting off finishing this, i think because i'd have to sell it then i don't want to.

i haven't woken up in two days or somethign and it's AWESOME how much you get done when you are doing stuff instead of sleeping, and you'd be shocked, really shocked and amazed, at what you miss when you are sleeping that is not really there at all! hah

i went to the store today and got 10 kg of potatoes and 4 more kg of bananas (i haven't bought bananas since day before yesterday!) CARBS very important, omg BANANAS are the best food EVER. I EAT BANANAS MORE THAN MONKEYS. they are easier to peel and don't have bones.

socks are NOT ALIVE. socks are NOT CRUSTACEANS.