Ashley

I'm sure you all want to see my rabbits.. so here they are!!! lol!! Enjoy!

**BTW!!** There are alot of them, but they are pretty small and only a few words describing the picture. **BTW!!**

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Hey everyone. Just thought i'd show ya some pics of MA BABY!!! Hehehe! This is Beau (aka Glow's Final Imprint) and he will be 2 on March 20th. (omg! he's notta baby anymore!!!! ::crys!:: but thats ok, he'll ALWAYS be MY baby even when he's 21!) I've had him since he was only 3months old, so our relationship is kinda like mother and son.. =0) Enjoy....

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Yeah, i'm hopping not to spend much time on this entry, juss cause i'm REALLY fucking tired.. and i want to get to bed. So anyway....

The past few days KICKED SO MUCH FUCKING ASS!!!!! OMG! I got to see my bestest friend in the whole goddamn fucking WORLD! SARA!!!!!! I was so excited! I wish i coulda hung out with her more, but she had to do some important stuff, and then get home in time. I went to her house after math class and after she and i watched 'Open Water' (omg that was SO SOOO SCARY!) we picked up Joe-Joe and went back to my house. After i got done feeding and watering all my bunny-foos Jake, Joe, Sara, and i all went to the Grill to eat. Yum! I was so fucking hungry. Anyway. After that we went BACK to my house, then went to Sara's house to watch a movie and crash. Heh, but we more started the movie and crashed. hehehe! Jake and i slept on the floor, and Joe was on the couch, and Sara was on the chair (i thinkg?) and Zepplin was on Sara's pillow on the floor! LOL! I love Zepplin, he is so damn cute! And he acts like such a puppy! I think he's around 5 years now, but he acts like he is 1 or 2. lol! So i had a really good time with Sara. I miss her. =0( I hope some day we can live close to each other, then we can go to each others barns and all that fun stuff that we use to do together. We started talking about school and we both aggreed that the 2 parts of school we missed the most was lunch, and racing over the bridge to go home.. lol! Yes, we are WEIRD! lol!

Ok, ONE LAST THING!.... well, maybe 2.

The other night i left the cage doors open to the rabbits hutchs, like i usually do, but this time Tigger and Roo were sniffing and Tigger grabed Roo by his lip and they both fell to the ground!!! =0O Tigger got Roo SO bad that Roo has a chunck missing out of his lip. ::sobs:: ="0( I feel SO FUCKING BAD! You don't even know. Its all my fult! I SO hope that when the wound heals that it dose not leave a scar, cause we have a show comeing up on March 5th at MSU. But i'll just be happy if it heals up and i don't have to get him into the vet. Maybe the judges won't even notice if he dose have a little bit of a scar. ='0( My poor, sweet BABY! I feel awful. Its all my fult. I let Roo come in my room for like an hour or so while i played on the puter. I think he liked it, cause he was floppin down, and rolling on his back, streching out his little legs! and then playing with anything he would pick up that was on my floor, which is ALOT. lol!! I sware, if Tigger keeps pullin this shit he is lookin at either 1) a new fucking home! or 2) THE CROCK POT! I'd think of doin both those things before selling Roo ever got NEAR to entering my little brain! (if you can't tell, Roo is kinda my favorit, but i do love each and ever rabbit that i have, they are all my babies. Those of you who have bunnies are the only ones who know what i'm talking about here)

Tomorrow i've got Speech class. =0p I don't think i'm going to go. I think were supose to present our speeches on contries other then our own, and the only thing i've gotten done was choose my country. I'm bad. I know. But in the end it will only hurt me. Arg... fuckn' a.

I know Jake will enjoy that Journal subject. =0D lol Squishy!!

Last night was AWSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAD SOO MUCH FUN!! It was Jake and i's valintines day. =0) We decided to do it early, then tomorrow and monday we'll prolly just rent a movie and make food with chesse in it, i'm really craving chesse right now. Humm, i don't know why. =0? So anyway.. on to my EXCITING NIGHT!!!!

Jake and i started off pickin' Joe up, then went into Grand Haven to get our tickets. Jake got me and him tickets for the special at the Intersection. So Joe rode with us. I was watching Jake dance and it brought back memories! =0) Happy memories! Like the first night i met Jake. He looked so sexxy! lol! I sat down most of the time.. till like that last hour/45mins. I was just so obsessed with stairing at Jake.. and at like lights! Mmmmm.. pretty liiiigghttts. Then when Jake sat down for a break i stood in front of him and was talking to him. Then some guy.. who i didn't know, came up to me and put his arm around me. (he was lucky he didn't put it to far down, OR on my side. Other wise i wouldn't have been so nice.. hehehe! It would have startled me and i would have just reacted) So he had his arm around me and Jake said somthing along the lines of "Get you hands off of her, she's with me." Then they guy said "yeah, i love her too" (he was drunk) So i put my 2 fingers on the guys side and "with a total look of disgust" (Jake's words) pushed him away and he just about fell to the floor. He had to grab the rail and bumped into some girl who was behind him. All of his friends just laughed at him.

I'm SUCH A BADD ASS MOTHA FUCKA! OOOH YEAH! He was about as tall as me, but was kinda hefty. I would say that he was like 150lbs. HAHAHAH! A girl who weighs 115lbs pushes a guy who is around 150lbs and makes him just about fall falt on his ASS! lol! I'm sure him being drunk helped me out.. buuuut hey. That still makes me feel like a bad ass! lol!

Next. After we walked back to the car Joe got a ride with Scott so Jake and i went home by ourselves. Then we exchanged gifts!! =0D Jake got me a Beanie Baby puppy that looks like my Snoopy, and a BIG ASS CARD! And then, a teddy bare that is SQUISHY! and was in a REALLY CUTE bag with a puppy on it!!!!!!!! =0DD Then i just got him a funny card, a toung ring, cause i'm sick of the plan on he's go in all the fucking time, and a new chain with a itty bitty key on it. =0) It was the perfect size too. =0) I think he liked it.

In my news with my rabbits.. Buddy is STILL here. And Mr. Jingles is NOW started on another anibotic. =0( JUST in the medicen alone, i've spent $60 on Mr. Jingles. I told Ginger (my 4-H leader) about my wabbit sit-cha-ta-tion (that is MY made up word.. lol!). Ginger asked me why didn't i just put him to sleep.. Well, for one, it would prolly be like $60-$70 to do that. And i just couln't. When i let him out to run around the house he plays with me. And talks to me. And runs laps around my feet. =0) So i just coulndn't do it. In better news with my buns, i'm going to my FIRST rabbit show March 5-6th!! I CAN'T WAIT! I'm not really sure WHO i'm gonna take. FOR SURE i'm gonna bring Roo and Dot. Cause they are like really nice rabbits. Perfect size, nice markings, and the conformation on them is GREAT!!! Sooo...

IF ANYONE OUT THERE WOULD LIKE TO GIVE TIPS ON RABBIT SHOWING, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!!!! I'll take anything and EVERYTHING you give out!! I'm new at this, and don't really know what to expect. It would be wonderful and i'd be SOO GREATFUL if anyone gives out anything!!

I took my lava lamp back to Spencer's cause it was broken, or SOMTHING! The wax went like half way up, then fell back down. So i now got a new one!! It has red wax, and a purple back ground!!!! =0D

Well, thats long, like always. hehehe! LATA

What Tattoo Do You Need? by elizabeth
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How many tattoos do you already have?
Color of Tattoo	Bright Yellow
Image of Tattoo	A fluffy widdle bunny wabbit
Reason for Tattoo	You get turned on by the pain.
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ROFLMAO!!!!!!

Wow. I really think that dying my hair blond has gone into my BRAIN! Yeah.

Ok. I was downstairs changing landry around and as i was taking my sheets and pillow cases out of the drier i noticed that my pillow case with the horse head (i know. i'm a TOTAL dork. if you were to see my room, well, you'd think a 13 year old horse obsessed girl lives there. honestly) on the front was REALLY faded. So i shout "SON OF A BITCH!!" then noitced the tag.

I had the fucking pillow case inside out.

-_- Wow. Blond moment. Yeah, so if anyone has done somthing as stupid as this, it would make me feel alot better knowing that i'm not the only dumb-ass in the world. COME ON! Be a dumb ass with me!!!! ^_` lol!! Or you can all just comment on this and laugh your fucking asses off at me for being so fucking BLOND! Ok. Yeah. Now that ya'll know that, don't expect me to THINK any time this month. Cause i have a really good felling that this is how my WHOLE month is gonna go.

In other news, my lip is infected!! WOOOHOOO! OH YEAH! Pain BABY pain! I also got to watch Jake get a needle shoved though his eyebrow today. ^_^ That was awesome! lol! It was the same guy who did mine.. *o* Oooo yeah. They are really nice up there. I think its worth the extra money you spend there instead of going to Needle Fire on Apple and having to deal with the really cold people. At this place EVERYONE is nice. While Jake was gettin set up for his eyebrow the girl there who was watching this with me talked about how when she lived in TX she worked on a ranch. OH GOD! I would have LOVED that when i was growing up!! Right now i want a job at a fucking hospital who actually appreciates me working for them and doing a hard job. ::sigh:: Its a real long story, and honestly, i'd rather not talk about it.

And finally, i got (once AGAIN!) another call on my add in the Buyer's Guide about Buddy. This time it was from a little girl who lives on a farm with 9 horses, 5 rabbits and dogs and cats and all that. AND (get this) she is in Red Hot Riders 4-H club!! She is looking for a rabbit to show this year at fair. I told her that Buddy IS 4-H showable. But he will need alot of time working on showmanship and setting up. I think he could do it, this breed is real smart. They have BIG heads! lol!! She wants to do a trade with me. She would get the English Spot from me, and i'd get a Lop ear from her. She said that she is not sure what kinda lop the doe is that she has. And she is also not tattooed. So i'm thinking maybe a mix, or was just never tattooed. Which if the doe was just never tattooed i can deal with that, i'm getting a tattoo stamp soon so i can do my own tattooing on my animals. I wouldn't be interested in the Lop doe if she is like a Holland Lop, or somthing like that. I'm more looking for an English Lop. With the REALLY BIG FUCKING EARS!!! That would be GREAT! I'm sure mom and dad will have a little problem with it.. but rabbit are ADDICTING! I just can't stop myself from getting new breeds, making better Mini Rex babies, and SHOWING! EEEE!!

WARNING! THIS LJ POST CONTAINS REAL PERSONAL STUFF OF MINE, AND IN THE END IS REALLLLLYYY MUSH! JUST A FAIR WARNING!

!!READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!
(and don't say i didn't warn ya!)

Yeah. I'm board. Jake is asleep right now. Don't blam him, he had a pretty rough day. They called him into work at like 4pm, and he haden't been to bed. =0( He staied there till 9:30 and then went home. I was at school, so i haven't seen him since 5:30. I'm wondering if i should just let him sleep, or if i should wake him up at like 3am, cause he's gotta go to work tomorrow night. I've gotta go to my "new job" tomorrow.. YEY! NOT!!!!!!! I really don't wanna. Plus, i don't think their gonna be to happy 'bout my lip ring, and i'm not fucking taking it out. Its still really tender, and red, and pussing.. yuck. I'm sure ya'll wanted to hear that, right? lol!

Oh man.. yeah.. I feel REALLY WEIRD around my dad. Before he went to bed he said that Jake and i kept him up "wresling". !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <my brain. omg. I'm never gonna look at him!! I would say that i would stop wresling.. but thats imposiable with Jake. hehehe! Yeah. On to other news.. I got a call from a girl looking to buy Buddy. I called her when i got home from school, and she was already in bed. So i talked to her mom. I guess she is looking for a small rabbit. And, well, Buddy ain't REAL small. I'm going to ask her what she wants to plan on doing with the rabbit. If its as a pet, i think Buddy would do WONDERFUL. As long as she would take him out of his cage at the very least everyother day. They really should be out of their cages for like an hour a day. English Spots need to run. They are like the Grayhounds or the Thoroughbreds to the rabbit world. lol! As far as showing goes, markings and conformation wise, he would be good in 4-H. But at an ARBA show, i don't think he would do very good. He's got the markings, but his body conformation is not really what they are looking for. And plus, he dosen't have a pedigree. If she dose want to show him she is going to have to spend ALOT of time with him in trainning him how to lie still on his back, to say in his show position, and everything else. Oie. I'd like to show an English Spot at fair.. but if i get rid of Buddy, i won't. Mr. Jingles can't be shown. He can't even go to like PetsMart or PetCo. He can't be around any other bunnies for the rest of his life. Its kinda said. I might look into getting him fixed, but i'm not to sure about that. He is just so funny the way he is now! lol!! Jake and i are really doin good. =0) I love him alot!! He says that he has a whole 3 days where he is going to "spoil" me for V-Day. =0D I'm SO EXCITED!!! I know he is taking me to GR sat night. Then i think he's gonna take me out for dinner and a movie. !!! I can't wait! No one has ever tooken me out for dinner AND a moive, AND paid for me! =0) I already feel spoiled! And then today, at his work they had horse head key chains and he bought me one. Not for any reason, just got one for me cause he knows i'd like it! ='0) I've got THE BEST boyfriend ever!! Well, to me he's the best. =0) I love you my Squishy!! xoxo

Heh. Yeah. Whats up?!

I got a needle shoved through an area of skin on my head. =0) Mmmm. It was relaxing!!

I'm in my room now, only light is that of the computer screen. And music? None. Just the sound of the fan on low, and Jakeie-poo snoring softly. lol!!

PS:

!!SQUISHY!!

Guess where i am?!?!?!?! IN MY ROOM MOTHER FUCKER! Thats right! I got a new puter!!! HIP HIP HAARAY! And YIPPIE SKIPPY! So get this, i now have the following in my room; dvd player, ps2, digital video camra/ragular camra, NEW flat screen TV, and a fucking kick ass fast NEW fucking computer!!! I loooovee that smell.. Ahhh! Yup. My room kicks ass. All i need now is a mini fridge, and id be set! I thought that putting a computer in my room would make it like really small and crowded in here. But its actually real comfortable. And the best fucking part of all is that i've got internet on this thing! YEY! I got it for school work and that, but i'm gonna use it for other things as well.. oooh yeah baby! lol!

Rabbits a doin good. Except for Mr. Jingles. He'll never get over this snuffels. I have a feeling that i'm going to have to keep him on these eye drops for the rest of his life, and keep him indoors. So yes, i'm keeping him. Its official. I don't trust ANYONE to take care of him. And you know what this was caused by??? Well, lets see.. he was starved almost to the point of death. When he came to me he was 2.5lbs(i weighed him on the scall down stairs). And 2 weeks ago he was 5.2 lbs. So he gainned around 3lbs in 2months. And i not only had the vet look at Mr. Jingles' snuffels, but also look him over for anything else, and i also took Buddy in to have him checked over to make sure there was not anthing wrong with him. Nope. The vet said Buddy was a VERY healthy bunny. And besides the snuffels, Mr. Jingles was good. =0) I'm very upset at the fact that Mr. Jingles has snuffels, but when you watch him, you wouldn't think anything was wrong with him. He runs like a bat outta hell, and does all sortsa flips and twists and shit in the air.. lol! He is such a cutie! As for my Rexes, everyone is.. well, FAT! Except Roo, and Dot. They are at a nice health weight. I'm gonna have to TRY and slim Eddie and Nilla down before i do the trade with the girl from Indiana. Just so they don't look bad. Her Lionhead doe is due this comming up tuesday. I can't wait to hear what colors there are!!!!!!!! I know she said that in the last litter there was a BEW (blue eyed white), and they are just sooo pretty! I would really like to get a broken.. but i don't think that she will have a broken. So i'll have to pick a soild. And i think i'm going to pick a male. Just cause bucks have more personalities then Does do. So yeah.

The other day mom and i went out to the barn at like 12am, cause i had just worked that night, and i had to tape my demonstration speech on "how to groom a horse". Beau was such a lover!!!!!!!! OMG! When i was brushing his face he nuzzeled the brush and i rubbed it on his teeth/gums and he was licking it, and just enjoying it!! He is teething like MAD! lol! I should pick him up some chew rings.. lol! My poor baby. After we taped my speech mom just taped me fooling around with him. I kissed him on his lips.. lol! And he was lipping at my lips. Then Beau put his head right into my chest. That was his way of giving me a hug! ="0) My BABY! And he of course gave his grandma lots of hugs and kisses! Beau loves mom. I feel like he is cheating on me.. lol! The damn trader!! lol!

Other then that, nothing much has been goin on. But my tummy is yelling at me, and i want to head up to 7-11 to get free shit and talk with my Jake-love! Later ya'll!

Yeah, i've been meaning to do this for a while now. But i kept on saying, "Ah, i'll just update tomorrow"... and soon tomorrow was like a week or whatever. Aaaaaaannywho.

News Flash!
Ashley now has 8, yes EIGHT!, rabbits in her backyard cause Heather was so nice as to "give" me her's. =0D I need to put an add in the paper to get rid of them. I want to keep one, but i CAN NOT have 8 fucking rabbits! I think what i'll do is put an add in the newspaper for Buddy (a b/w English spot that Jake named) and hopefully find a home for him where he'll be well cared for. I really don't think i'll have a hard time finding a home for him, he is VERY VERY friendly, never jumps or growls at me, always a gentleman when i change his water and give him fresh food, and ALWAYS waits for me to pet him and scratch behind those big ears! lol! The other rabbit that Heather "gave" me is also an English spot, but he is a castor. I call him MR. JINGLES! lol! He acts like a Mr. Jingles. He has alot of discharge from his eyes, but Lisa's one rabbit had that last year, i think it might be because of age and the cold weather. But they would rather be outside then inside, they like the cold once they get a winter coat.


I've been talking to this lady on-line cause she wants to buy my JR REW doe, Nilla. And tonight she told me that she has a Lionhead doe that will kindle in the next month. !!!!!!!!SQUEEE!!!!!!!!!!! I've ALWAYS WANTED A LIONHEAD! They are sooooo fucking cute! And you never see any cause they are SUCH a new breed. So HOPFULLY, if i cut back a little, and if she takes both the JR REW doe and she may even take the JR broken black buck that i also have up for-sale, i'll be able to get him. My dad ain't too happy, but mom already said that as long as i get down to 4 (which includes Roo, Kisses, Dot, and Tigger). The girl i've been talking to online just e-mailed me back. I guess last time she bred the 2 Lionheads that she has she got a BEW, and some other colors i can't remember. I really would like to see a BEW!! That would be AWSOME!! The only downfall would be trying to keep that white coat clean. EEK! But i think i'd manage. ITS A LIONHEAD! Come on! THEIR CUTE EVEN IF THEY ROLLED IN DUST ALL DAY! !!SQUEE!!

Update with the "Beau-Man":
I've been reading my book on how to start horses, and also reading alot of John Lyons (my GOD of the horse world!!) and i've picked up on alot. I've been playing with Beau's ears every time i go out there for like 5-10 mins, and i also read that its good to put the lead rope in their mouth and just hold it there cause it gives them the feeling of a bit, but not as hard. And we have also been learning how to put our head-down on cue! Its like a trick to him now, just like doing "Ta-DA"! lol! I'm also trying to stop the habit that i kinda rewarded. I say that cause i didn't TEACH him to do it, but i never STOPED him from doing it either. Its when he bobs his head for cookies. But i've been working on it for like the past 2days with him and he's gotten to where he bobs, then stops and just looks at me. I have him wait a few seconds, and then he may have the treat. So yeah. I'm really gonna make him like the PERFECT ground manners horse while i wait for spring to come. Then i'll do long-lining, and finally... I'LL RIDE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've waited 2 FUCKING years for that day!!! But if it meant hurting him, i'd wait 4 more. Sure i can't wait ta get up on that squishy back of his, but if i ever hurt him, i'd never forgive myself. I'd feel so fucking guilty all the time. Just like i still feel guilty about that one year with Joplin. =0( I'm gonna make absolutely SURE that he is ok to bare my weight before i even SIT on him! Dr. Wales ::heavenly music plays:: is gonna come out right around the time Beau turns 2. Which is March 20th! The day that the Iraq war started. Thats how he got his name. One of the first soldiers to die's name was Beau.

Today (well, yesterday now):
Today was my first day back to school! Yippie! Ha. My first class was "College Success" (which i don't have to pay for, but ya got to take it when you enroll in baker) it goes from 8:30am-10:10am and its only like a 2 week long class. I don’t even know what its about, but Jake says that its an easy A, so whatever. Then i had my Math class tonight which goes from 6pm-9:40pm. I REALLY REEEEEEEEAAALLLLYY like the night classes. I only have to go once a week, and its NOT in the morning! So i'm fully awake by the time i go into class. Here is my schedule...

Mondays: Math 6-9
Tuesdays: English 6-9
Wednesdays: Oral Comm. 6-9
And for the first 2 weeks i go in at 8:30am-10am on Mondays and Wednesdays.
I'm really happy with this schedule. The only bad part that i forgot about is 4-H. =0/ I usually go to 4-H Monday nights. I'm gonna have to talk to Ginger about that. It will only be until spring, which shouldn't be a problem.

Well, once again i made a really fucking LONG ass entry. No wonder people don't read this. Hell, i wouldn’t!! Its boring as all hell. Later you people who read my journal just cause you don't have a life!!! lol! Ta ta!

~Ash-P~

Oie. I've been so fucking busy it ain't even funny. I've been running around trying to get shit into Baker and look for anyway that i can get money. I have a feeling, that ain't gonna work out. Blah. But i am pretty excited about going to Baker. Its a really nice school, really clean and up to date. And the people there are really nice. Both the guy that enrolled me and Jake say that the teachers are really helpful and will do anything possiable to help you learn better. Which is really what i need. It also has smaller classes then MCC. I'm not saying that MCC is bad for all of you that DO read this and might go to MCC, its just, MCC is not right for me, and i'd rather pay a little bit more to go to Baker and actually pass my classes then pay a little less and just cross my fingers and hope that i'll pass. Plus, i think Mercy will remberce (sp?) me for some classes. They are pretty nice when it comes to their workers going into more schooling. However, after taking to the guy at Baker, and my mom, i think i'm gonna TRY to get a job with less hours. Like around 25, but no more.

Now on to X-MAS! My was great! X-MAS eve Jake and i ran out to his step-dad's family's house, which was out in BFE and it took us like a hour to get there cause i coulden't tell if i was acctually on the rode, or if i was in some feild!?! So when we got there, Jake and i had a bite to eat, and then we went down stairs to open gifts! Its so much fun watching little kids open gifts. Jake got good smelling Old Spice.. and (i was like WT.... when they handed it to me. They really shold not have gotten me anything) i got a really cute pretty pair of ear rings. They are all silver and have little pink stones on the dangley thingys. I have not tried them on yet. I'm kinda afraid that my holes have closed up. =0( arg! After that, he and i flew back home, and then ran back out to his mom's house. His mom gave me this REALLY SWEET hoody!! It is from American Eagle, and its a navy blue (my fav color) and it has a little yellow eagle on the left boob. lol! I like it a lot! Then Jake got $100 bucks from his mom. So that was nice. LAtley he's been buying my food and he got me a REALLY COOL key chain at the mall the other day.. I REALLY like that. Its got a Leo on it, and tells my birthday! I gave Jake his one x-mas gift early, cause he begged me too give it to him.. (he is worse then a little kid around x-mas) So he got his PS2, unwrapped and it didn't even have a bow on it. =0( But the next day on x-mas, he got another controller from me, so now he's got 2. And i also got him a little card. For my mom, i got a stone, Lupiz i think it was, that is shaped in a heart, and she can put that on a chain and ware it. For my dad i got him a money clip. For my brother i got him a Spider-Man t-shirt. Oh, i also got Jake a t-shirt. I forget what was on it, but he really liked it! From Jake i got a VERY PRETTY horseie clander and a book on trainning and starting the young horse. Its really gonna come in handy! I CAN'T WAIT TILL I CAN JUST SIT ON BEAU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got a bunch of stuff from my mom and dad, like clothes (not shitty kind this year), tounge rings (a BLUE SPARKLY one and a clear gliter one, i think it glows under blacklight), but the best gift i got was my Western Show saddle!!! I've known i was getting this thing for x-mas since my birthday back in August. But when i saw it again, it was just like i saw it for the first time! I REALLY love that saddle! And i think Beau and i are just gonna POP out and say "HEY! LOOK AT US! Were SEXXXY!" lol! For all of his stuff for show (not including English stuff) it is gonna be light oil leather. And if i can get it, i want to ware red and cream colors. I've got the chaps, but i got to find all that other shit. Ok, i gotta stop talking about that, or else i'll just go on and on and on!

Jake and i's relationship has been on a never endding roller coster for the past like 2-3 weeks. But last night we talked alot about shit and i think that the ride is beginning to get better! lol! Oh god i just took that in a bad way..... lol! Well, you all know what i mean! We see a lot of things the same way, and he dose make me really happy. =0) But i'm not allowing myself to get to attached just yet. I do love Jake, not a bout in my mind, but i'm just not "in love" with Jake.

Adrian has been in the hospital for a week now. I've been going up and seeing him every now and then. =0( God, i feel so bad for him! I really hope that he gets outta there soon. The hospital is fucking around with them. So yeah. I think i'm gonna call up there in a little here just to see how he's doing. Last night was really cool cause we watched Matchstick Men in his room. I really hope that he gets outta there soon!

~*SQUEE*~

I got an e-mail from this lady on my BUNS!!! She is intrested in buy them to "better her herd".

~*SQUEE*~

I'm so FREGGING EXCITED!!!! I sent her pictures just a minute ago. I told her my asking price for them, but i was more worried about them getting a home where they'd be feed and would have water. Which i am. Right now i could care less if she gave me $5 for each of them. And they are worth MORE then that!! I will admit, i have a VERY SMALL rabbitry, but both Roo and Kisses have nice bloodlines that people know of and talk about. I really hope the lady likes them and gets them.

WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!!

Today i had my interview. I'm going to be working 32 hours a week from 3p-11p (YEY! 2ND SIFT!) and i get paid like $10 per hour. !!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm soooo fucking happy!!! This means that i'll have.... MONEY! lol! Of corse money ain't everything, but with what i'll be making i can pay all my bills, plus have extra to spend on whatever. Which i'm thinking about getting another tattoo. I know what place on my body i'll want it to go, i just don't know what it will be of. But its gotta be somthing that is very meaningful to me. It can't be like a little flower with a smiley face on it, though, that would be cute!! lol! Oh well, if i can't come up with anything, then i just won't get it. I know later on down the road i'm going to have Beau's face tattooed on the other side of my back like Joplin's. Then i gotta get Jop's name and dates of birth/death put on near her face.

So after my interview i went to the barn, and found that all the horses were inside. Rrrrrrr. It kinda pisses me off cause i went out there at like 9pm last night and all the horses were outside. And it was fucking -4 out! Those horses shoulden't be out in that kinda weather with no place for shelter. Thats the only thing that i hate about at Lisa's. She won't put them in untill its REALLY bad, and even if it is really bad out, like last night, she has to be up to putting everyone in. I have a feeling that she just went home and left everyone out all night, then in the morning she felt how cold it was and decided to put them in. Cause i looked in Beau's stall and it didn't look like Beau had been in there all night. There wasen't enough horse shit in ther. LOL! Thats how i can tell!

I also got like a shit load of hay for my buns. They were SOOO HAPPY! They were like... "What this?? HAY?! YEY!! I GOT HAY!" and then they either ate it, or decided to make a bed with it. LOL!

( Lion Love )

So far things have been going pretty smoothly. Jake and i kinda hit a bump in the road, but i'm pretty sure every thing is smoothed out! =0) I CAN'T WAIT TILL X-MAS and i can give him his gift!!!!!! =0P Its gonna KICK ASS!!!! And i guess he got me a few things.. =0D It gonna be nice getting somthing from my boyfriend for x-mas. Mom and Dad got me that saddle, which i LOVE and i'm so glad that i got it!!! But thats all i'm really getting for x-mas. Only 5 more days! I think i'll be able to make it that long. I've gotta pretty busy week ahead of me. Tomorrow i go for my interview at the hospital. I got on my lucky underware!!! LOL!! Just incase ya'll wanted to know that.. hehehe! And i still gotta go pick up a few more gifts for everyone at the barn. I don't really know what i'm gonna get everyone. I prolly go to the doller store and just look for shit. I know that each horse is gonna get 6 home-made horse cookies! Which reminds me, i gotta pick up all of that, and i gotta get oats and sunflower seeds for the buns. My poooorrr sweeeett bunnies! Its like 5degrees outside right now. =0( They must be frezzing their little tails off! Good thing we made those cages. I have been looking at going to another barn, but i think that i just might wait untill like the first of March. Then that'll give Beau around a month to just calm down from the move and get use to the new place. I hate to do it, move him and all, but i think it'll be for the best. Everyone around the barn is like either way older then me, or way younger, or their just to busy with their showing that they don't have time to like go on trail rides and that. At least at Ginger's i know that i'll have like Jill to hang out with and go "horse" around. lol! I think thats where i'm gonna move him to. Of corse i'll have to check out her arena again, make sure that its not real deep like it was when Sara had Lizzie or Moo there.

But anyway, enough of this bull shit. Laterz.

I just got done sowing up Beau's blaket. My devil child tore it after throwing a fit cause (why i think) it was to warm. ::sigh:: Oh well. A horse-women's work is NEVER done. Over the years i've spent with them thats one lesson that i've learned. The hard ways as well. For some reason they LOVE! ENJOY! to brake anything and everything they can. Don't ask. I never have.

Today was fun. Heh. Not. Went to the doctors office, which thats all i'm going to say about that, cause i think some people out there would be glad that i didn't. And i'd be glad not telling!! =0) lol! After that i went home, grabed Jake, and we ran up to Baker Collage. YIPPIE! .......... heh, not. Actually though, its a REALLY nice school.. a hell of alot better then MCC in my mind, its just really clean, and new looking. And the Vet Tech area is GREAT! It looks like a real vet's office. And i found out that the vet i use for Beau, Dr. Steven Wales, takes on people to come along with him and watch, learn and just have a real life exprience out of the class room. The guy who was showing me around the school was saying how the avarge class has 28 people in it. I guess thats small. heh. I woulden't really know, seeing as though i've never been to a collage. But yeah. Jake also looked into takeing classes there. I think he wants to go in the winter time, but i don't know if he'll make it. =0( Which it would be cool if he could make it, then we'd been in the same school together. And he could help me with my homework. =0) YEY! But i have a feeling that even if he's not in school, he'll still be helping me. lol!!! If he wants that is. I know i'll need help. Especially on math. Cause i SUCK at math. Arg.

Jake is still living with us. Its nice though, cause now i've go some one who i can talk to at any time, and i know if i'm bothering them or not. =0) OMG! Jake did the CUTEST THING last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He was sleeping, and i go down to fall asleep with hom, and when i get into bed Jake gose... "We gotta clean it." and then nodds his head like really fast and gose "Uh-hm. Uh-hm."......... LOL!!!!!! OMG that was so CUUUUUUTTTE!!! I can't wait to tell people! But i'm sure Jake's gonna try and stop me. LOL!

I also got a call from Sara today. I haven't heard from her in a LONG time. I'm glad she called though. I really miss her alot! =0( I guess she just moved into a new house that Travis's mom built. Its got like 10 acres of land. Then she was telling me how he new horse is doin, his name is Buba. lol! It figures she'd name him somthing like that. lol!!! First MooMoo, now Buba. lol!

I'm also thinking i'm going to move Beau to Ginger's like in a month or so. Cause i'm gonna have to move him to brake him out and what not. So why wait an extra month? Plus, i'm not to happy with Lisa right now. And for 1) Ginger's place is closer, and thats where i have 4-H, so i'll be able to go to all the mounted meets and the ones that we bring the horses too. 2) for what Ginger charges each month, its not to bad from another place i was looking at, and i kinda heard some bad shit about that place, so i don't know if i wanna go there. I think i'd be spending more money there then what i really think i would. So yeah. It looks like Ginger's place will be Beau's new home. Then only problem i worry about is Molly. But i think that i'll be able to handle her. If she says anything to me i'm not going to hold back. And hopfully nothing will "slip", if you know what i mean.. heh. Cause that might be a bad thing. I wonder if Ginger would kick me out if i said like "fuck" to her?? Prolly not, i'm sure Molly's heard it before, her being in high school and all.

Well anyway, thats all for now. Later kiddies!

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MY WABBIT!

Ok, in other news, Dimebag (former member in Pantera) died last night. Oddly, 24 years ago John Lennon died. Along with Dimebag 3 other people (fans i'm assuming) died, and 2 were injured. Its sad. REALLY fucking sad. I hope no on i knew was at that concert. Though, i would have like to see Dimebag play befor he died. Its sad that he had to go like that, but i guess he never saw it coming, just got shot from behind and fell to the ground holding his gutiar. Which that might have been how he wanted to go, doing somthing he loved. But thats really gotta suck for his brother Paul, having to watch someone that you knew all you live, since that person was born, die right in frount of you. ="0( So heres to Dimebag, prolly the best gutair player that i'll see in my life time.

RIP DIMEBAG.

I just came back from the barn. Beau's blakey is all fucked up. I'm gonna have to go out there tomorrow with needle and threed and sow it so it fits him. It sucks cause he is like so.... WEIRD! Thats the only word that i can find that fits him. His ass like like 3 feet wide, and his chest is like 1 foot wide...... WTF?! And on top of that (i measured him the other day) at his withers he is 14.3 and at is ASS he is 15.1.......... W T F ?!?!?!!!! That is a FULL 2" difference. Arg. My poor deformed boy. The only thing that keeps me hopful is that ONE DAY, he WILL grow into himself. (I REALLY HOPE!) My hands smell like horse. Mmmm! No one BUT horse people know what i mean. Ya'll "non-horsie" people think they "stink" and yadda yadda yadda. Well, you don't know what the fuck you missing. They don't stink, actually, they don't smell at all like dirt, manuer, ect. I don't know how to explain it, its just a wonderful smell! Its horsie smell! I was out there brushing Beau by myself and i just thought how fucking lucky i was to have him! I called him my little miracel pony! Even though he ain't a pony anymore. =0( But thats ok, cause even when his 15.3, i'll still call him my pony!!! Prolly cause i've never had an actual 'pony'. So yeah. Anyway, back to what i was saying. I just feel so lucky to have him, even if i will never EVER be able to ride him. He just looks at me with those big soft brown eyes! And its like he can look into my soul or somthing. lol! Call me crazy, i don't care. Its just so nice to have some being that like totally depends on me for food, heath, love... and to have him love me back with out any dout in his mind. I can see that in his eyes also. =0) Also, Lisa put Fred out with Beau and Chillie. That was INTERESTING!!!! LOL! OMG this is gonna be SO much fun at first! lol!!!! Like today, Fred chased Beau away from me... heh, BIG fucking misstake!!!!!!! I chased him all around the pen, and hit him in the bum with my lead rope. Sucker. NO ONE chaces the horses away from me!!!!!!! and i told him, "When i'm in this pen.. I'M THE BOSS!!!" I would never hit him in the gut, neck or face, like i might do with Beau, but thats only cause Beau is mine to beat apon. Fred is someone elses, so there for he'd only get hit in the bum or shoulder.

Ok, on to some other news, cause once i get started on Beau, i'll never shut up.

So i bought a little somthing for Jake off the internet, like $130.50 bucks worth of something (and i can say that cause he already knows the price that i spent on him). And i still have not recived it. ARGGGG!!!!! I'm getting REALLY fucking pissed! I went to Square Trade (which is liie and on-line resolution thingy. But if i had not heard from her by tomrrow i AM going to e-bay about it all. Thats just to much money to let go. Plus, it a X-MAS gift and i need for it to be here befor the 25th of this month. Arg. I hate dealing with this money bull shit. ::sigh:: Oh well. I guess on a better note i got my check from Rhesa and thats like $160 something, and my check from Mercy this week is for like $100. So thats some good news. I can pay my parents off a little, and plus have some money to buy X-MAS gifts for people. Here is my list:
Mom & Dad
Aaron (even though i DON'T want to cause he has been an ass all year long!)
Jake
Heafer
And maybe Rhesa and her Aunt. IF i have enough money. But i think what i'd get the both of them is like thouse fleese blakets. I'd get Rhesa a horse one and her Aunt somthing with pink in it, she really likes pink. And i know that she is always cold, like most elderly are. I really like working there, the only bad thing about it is that i gotta be there at like 8:30am. And i'm more of a 2nd/3rd shifter. But i can't complain, cause it $12 an hour. So yeah.

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How true, how true that is. Too bad I CAN'T FUCKING RIDE!!!!!! ::sigh:: =0(

Seconed day of having a bar in my toung went ok. I think that i've been eatting to much though. hehehe! My toung is really sore, but hey, thats expected.

I took Snoop to the vet today. The vet ran some blood tests on him, and in most areas they were normal, except for his liver and that he was every dehydrated. =0( So the vet have him some IV fluids and a pain shot for Snoop's vomiting, then sent us home with the same medicen that was in the shot, only in pill form, and also 2weeks worth of pills to help the liver cells. And were supose to keep him off food for today, and then start him on a blan diet of boiled rice and beef untill sat. then sat. we can start to mix in his regular food. Yippie. I really hope that this gets him better. If not then we've got to take him back in to see the vet and we'll go from there. Prolly draw more blood and do more tests. I also took Lovey (our new addition) into the vet to just have her checked over. Luckly they didn't charge me anything for looking at her. I already spent $130.00 alone on Snoopy. But anyway, they said that she was about 1year 1/2 old, and she was very healthy for being a stray. The looked for a micro-chip in her, but we found none, not very suprising. I've been looking in the Muskegon lost and found section in the paper, but there was never an add for a lost grey female cat. So i'm thinking some one just droped her off. I might ask mom if we should put an add in the paper saying that we found a grey and white cat, then ask people to call and identify her. Dad really wants to get rid of her, but i know that mom wants to keep her. So do i, Aaron and Jake. Lovey has really tooken a liking to Aaron and Jake. Not so much me or mom. Even though i'm the one that feeds her and cleans her litter box out. Oh well.

I tried to get my check today, but of course i didn't get into muskegon untill like 5pm. And the appoint ment in Hamilton was a 1:45pm. Heh. So yeah, i spent a good chunk of time there. But thats ok. My Snoopy needed to see someone. Hamilton is letting me do payments on the vet bill, so that is REALLY good news!

So yeah, this is coming to an end. I've gotta go run movies back, then run up to 7-11 and grab a slurpy cause Jake is working there tonight, and he can get me like a refill of a slurppy for 50 cents.

NiGhT nIgHt, SlEeP tIgHt, LeT eViL bEd BuGs BITE!!

Ok, this might be long. Like, REALLY FUCKING LOOOOONNNNNNNGG.

Monday night Jake and i hung out with Adrian and went to grab i bite to eat and just talk at the Voue. Then my mom called me up from her work saying that there was a REALLY nice, friendly stray cat out by the smoke shack. She was all gray and has big white markings on her. And i guess that Laurie who is a PCA (nurse aid) up on the floor was really intrested in taking her home. But for some reason she left her there and Mom wanted me to come and pick her up to hold for Laurie. I told her though that i tried to get Laurie to take one of the rabbits but she said that she didn't want to cause she hated cleaning out the litter boxes, so of course Mom didn't listen to me and had me pick up the cat any way. So i did, and we took her home. After calling the lady the next day and finding out that she didn't want her cause the cat had claws (big fucking deal) we are still stuck with another cat. She is a real sweet heart!! Right now were calling her Kitty/Lovey. Mom and Dad keep saying that she has to go, but no one is doing anything about it.. lol!! So i think (knock on wood) she might be staying her. But if some one came up to us saying that they really wanted a cat we'd have to let her go.. sadly. She has really tooken a liking to everyone here, and dosen't fight with Snoopy and Spence, though Pookie and her did get into it once already.

So tuesday, and after studing for like 3 hours and only getting 2 hours of sleep, Mom and i were on our way up to Ludington to take my CNA (Certified Nurse Aid) test. I was so fucking nervous!!! But i got it done and passed everything. YIPPIE!!! I'm so happy! Now that i'm certified and all i can work like more hours AND get paid like 12 bucks starting off. YIPPIE!!!!! I told myself that if i did pass the test and all that i was going to get my toung peirced. So i think that kinda pushed me to study really hard and all.

After that Snoopy was like sick all that day. I was so fucking worried about him, cause he is not a puppy anymore, he is 9 years old almost, so Snoop's an older dog. He was vomiting like 6 times, then he would do this weird strech thing and yelp in pain. I think that it was his neck that was bothering him, but i wasen't to sure. So i called the vet hoping they would tell me somthing to make him feel better and not have me bring him in right away. But of course they want to see him. =0( So tomorrow i go in there at 1:45pm in Hamilton. I REALLY REALLY hope that they can just give us some pills and say to take these and he'll feel better. God i hope Snoop ain't dying on me. ="0( I woulden't know what to do if he were to leave me. I've had him ever since i was 11 years old and he was only like 4-6weeks old. =""0( I just hope they can make him better. I know death is apart of life and all, but its just to soon for him to go. He can't go right now. ="0(

Now were up to tonight! After work Jake picked me up and we went to Needle Fire to get my toung done. And after i paid the man, i started to have seconed thoughts. =0\ But i went though with it. lol! Jake said to me when we got into the car "You didn't even flinch, honey! It was actually a turn on.".......... God i've got a really weird boyfriend. lol! Julie and i were talking tonight and she said somthing to me that really made sense, and i just want to type it out here so i won't forget it... She said how she was thinking about marrying this one guy, but that she really wasen't "in love" with him, but that you don't really HAVE to be "IN LOVE" with some one to love him. That just make alot of sense to me.

Anyway, Jake is sitting here giving me puppy-dog "i'm bored, time to play" eyes. So i'm gonna get going to my room so him and i can watch disk 3 of "Kingdom Hospital". Spppooookkkkyy!!!!

NIGHT NIGHT!