I think I made a decent speech for Presentational Speaking. God, let me rant about my lust for MINIs and I can talk for hours! I'm a wee bit nervous, though... I kinda went over in my time once, so now I kinda speed through it. Let's hope that I'm not under 5 minutes now.

Anyways, I totally need more motivation to do well at Ulster... I just can't commit to homework, like, say reading for Am. History, haha.

Pointless blog, really, just wanted to waste more time before I go to bed.

PS. I'm forced to go to a sleep study at the hospital because apparently one of the symptoms of having sleep apnea is being tired during the day. I thought I was just lazy, but apparently, it could be a disease! haha, I wonder how much doctors get to send patients to stupid shit like this... $1 million a year if they make quota? More?

Ah... gay bidding wars. Two fag hags fight to the death for one gay man... the epic battle continues...

Anyways, I'm fucking freezing. I'm wearing long sleeves and loving every minute of it.
I felt mildly lost without Christina in history today. But bitch, I took awesome notes, so you're welcome in advance!

I wake up every morning with the feeling of "Eh... I don't want to go to school."
I can't tell if I'm just tired or sick. Feels like both.

I fingerspell like a champ now.
Gimmie a sentence... and I'll fingerspell it with ease... granted I know the spelling, haha.
Signing is an escape and it makes you feel... vulnerable, I guess. Try learning every single thing about anything with just your eyes. AND flip every action you see so you can sign it too.
I need a tutor... not because I actually need one; I just want to use my skill outside of class.

Wow. Seasons can change people.
And I'm talking about myself.
I realized there's no reason for me to have angry feelings towards
someone I once concided my best friend.
Those crazy inside-jokes, energy filled conversations, countless
laughs over stupid shit we said and heard.
You were my role model because of your fearlessness from the minute we "offically" met.
And all this stupid fighting is a waste of time.
I don't hate you. I'm sorry for the things I said.
I said some of the most horrible things about you that I know I can't take back.
But I do regret them, seeing as you're not the monster some have made you out to be.
I don't expect us to be super best friends... I barely expect us to be friends again.
I just don't want there to be an unnecessary awkwardness between us.
It's out in the open, do as you must.

What would happen if you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
Then I'd have a baby with a family member, and that's gross.

Last place you hugged someone?
Mar's room.

Do you know anyone named Matt?
Several, but I'm only friends with one.

What color is your hair?
Damn near black.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
On IM about 3 seconds ago.

Is your hair curly or straight?
Curly, but I deny it. :D

Who was the last person you talked to on the telephone?
Neighbor that's giving me a job. Whoot!

Do you have a best friend?
I have a few.

Do you remember what you were a year ago?
Apparently, it was a Saturday, so I was probably sitting around watching TV.

Do you use smiley faces on the computer too much?
I only use one (:D) and I guess I kinda use it a lot.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Not recently, no.

Who did you last go out to eat with?
I'll ignore the fact that it should say "with whom" and just say my parents.

Do you wear glasses?
Mmhmm.. I have a love/hate relationship with them.

Is the sun shining?
Brightly, yes.

Are you happy with your life right now?
I wish things were easier, more enjoyable....

Are you currently jealous?
Always.

What jewelery are you currently wearing?
Even though I have some bitchin' new pieces from the jewelry party, I'm sadly not wearing any.

What were you doing at 10pm Friday night?
Hmm... Pat was here... I had just gotten home from shopping.. Not exactly sure.

What are your plans for today?
I should probably practice signing, then read to history.

What do you need?
A signing tutor to practice at home.

Do you have any weird inside jokes?
Jeez... too many to list.

Who are you talking to?
"To/With whom..."
Jocie... through IM even though she's only in Mar's room.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
If it's just that, then no. If someone was paying me a lot of money, then probably.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
I'm having crazy food cravings because of my damn diet.

Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
I could do with a male friend treating a female friend better, but I can't do anything about it.

Do you miss someone?
Elise, I guess.. but I talk to her all the time.

Do you like anyone?
It's sad, but no. Not a single person.

Why did you last go to the doctor?
The original grammar killed me, so I changed the sentence.
But... I think I went to bitch about my hearing and nasal issues.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
God I hope not.

Do you drink tea?
Not usually.

Have you ever wanted something you couldn't have?
That's a retarded question. Everyone wishes they could have something that they don't, even if it's momentarily.

Have you ever, in any way, been betrayed by someone you trust?
Minor betrayals, ones that came out of nowhere, ones that still piss me off.

Have you ever in anyway, betrayed someone?
Apparently so.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
I can barely stay awake past 12:30 anymore... so sometime around then and "just cuz" is my reasoning.

Do you know anyone that is currently locked up?
Not personally, I believe.

What was on your mind today?
Hey loser, do some work. Ah.. I have time.. Do they make coconut coffee in a can?

Who was the last person of the opposite sex that you talked to?
Daddio

Do you notice when someone is staring at you from across the room?
I try not to look anymore. I'm so used to stares.

Do you smile at strangers?
If I feel like I'm looking angry, I try to smile to let them know I'm not trying to be a bitch.

Do you like kids?
Oh! I love them! I loved holding Blaise for the last time (at least for the next few years).

How may bowls of cereal do you eat in the morning?
I don't eat cereal for breakfast.

How often do you clean your room?
Daily, but hardcore cleaning? Weekly.

Have you ever been to China?
Fuck no!

Ever played drums on a steering wheel?
Nope, can't say I have.

Any instrument you want to learn?
Piano... *sigh* I would kill to learn.

Were you named after anyone?
I don't think so..

Do you own a GPS?
My phone has it, but I'll never use it.

When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
I try for a while to get them back, but then I find out all the terrible shit they've been saying about me so I honestly hope they fall into a valley and get trapped there for eternity.

Would life be the same without alcohol?
Exactly the same for me. I don't change with alcohol.. maybe an extra long giggle, but nothing else.

Have you had the best night of your life?
I mean, that's just silly... there is no way a person can answer "no" since at least one of the nights had to be better... so sure, but there are more to come.

Do you have a lot of guy friends?
No. It's strange, since I absolutely hate women, but I can't be myself around guys.

Do you wear the seatbelt in the car?
If I'm in the front seat.. yes.

Has anyone ever mistaken you for someone else?
This kid in elementary school swore I was his cousin, but I didn't have a clue who he was.

Is there anyone you hate?
Yes. My outlook on life is "Hate people until they give you a reason not to hate them."
It's effective, but it turns out that the people you grow to like will just later on give you a reason to hate them.

If somebody hurts you, do you give them a way back in, or blacklist them?
I give tons of chances, but there's a point where it sucks to be in the situation, so you give up.

Is it easy to lie to you or do you have a hard time believing people?
I've really skeptical of what I hear, and I usually analyze what's said, so I can pretty much pick up on lies.

Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what?
I think Christine does a decent job. Elise tries so hard, but she gets awkward with crying people, so it kinda helps too.

Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight?
If I liked someone, I probably wouldn't talk to them on the phone right away.

Do you own a computer?
Mmhmm.

Do you swallow gum when you're done with it?
Nope, I spit it out into its wrapper.

Who was your last call from?
On my phone? Uh... my mom? On the house phone? Pat.

What woke you up this morning?
Sleeping in the living room... next to where people eat in the dining room with the lights on.

Last time you went out of town?
A week or two?

What is your current mood?
Content.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Blue

Ever had a near death experience?
I almost drown myself.. that's about it.

How many piercings do you have?
0, bitches!

How many tattoos do you have?
None at the moment. Check back in 3 years.

Whose car were you in last?
Joc's.

What are you listening to?
*click click click don't keyboards make the most damn noise in a quiet house? click click*

How long is your hair?
Um, a little longer than shoulder length... I hacked it off before SC.

Last shocking news you heard?
McCain picked a chick as his running mate who looks like a cross eyed loony bitch.

What was the last thing you ate?
Chicken.

What was the last thing you drank?
Water.

Are you happy right now?
Why not?

What color are your eyes?
Brown

Who do you dislike currently?
The world, as a whole.

Are you wearing makeup?
Psssh... I never do.

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
A MINI with a little puppy in the front seat and a blue-gold macaw in a cage on the back seat.

Who do you most look like in your family?
My mom/sister.

Did you have a dream last night?
Oh god. Michael Cera. Ellen Page. Dan Cayea. Weed. Pregnancy. Escaping from a hospital. Police. Dr. Cox. Lesbian. Hug. Kiss. Jeez, it was fucking weird.

Well, day 2 was completely better than day 1. I think I'll end up really liking presentational speaking, since I'm pretty decent once I get on a roll. And History seemed a lot more tolerable, especially if all we do is take notes from powerpoints and get quizzed on the readings and our notes. Senor Guido better keep sitting near me... I like it :D
Which leads me to psychology... you dirty bitch. I definately need to take a seat up from from now on... the board is too far away and Davis' voice is too quiet. But she seems well educated and informed, which is what I need.
So, I'm off to Sign Language... in a hour and change... and I think I'll sit next to the girl who sat by me on Monday. She seemed really sweet and just as shy, so hopefully, I can be friends with her... well, not friends but sign language buddies.
Also, my mom's friend is a signer... and teaches kids at Phoenicia after school. So my mom's gonna call her and ask her to come over once or twice a week just so I can get some practice at home. I love the class, it's just a bitch to have to learn a language all by myself. With Spanish, I had Mar and every other friend that took it. German, I had my little German buddies. And now I'm kinda screwed, but hey, if I want something, I can do it.

So, mini edit. I just got back from SL, and that girl sat next to me again so we chatted a bit. I'm also kinda getting along with this Jennifer girl whose in her late 20s, maybe 30s. I'm making friends... yay! I'm learning a lot, and actually memorizing most of the stuff in class, so that's good.
Also, just a quick note. I LOVE men's cologne... it smells soooo good. I was sitting next to Diego and I kept debating if I should tell him how good he smelled. I figured it was probably too weird, but he did smell fabulous.

So, after years of begging for a cell phone, I finally have one. And now I don't want anyone to know the number, haha. But it's purple and perfect and part MP3 player and... I could go on.
PS. LG Dares are retarded, so I assume Iphones are too... so that can be scratched off my "things I want but can't afford" list and added to "waste of money and has shitty features I wouldn't even use"
Back to my babylove, it's just to get rides when I'mma stranded at the BRC after Sign Language or UCCC after whatever classes I have.
So, you want my number? Unless you are a potential ride or there's a good chance I'll want to meet you after class, lo siento baby, my number is mine!

I've been craving this moment for a while.
Sitting, resting in my own room.
Ah, sweet gifts.
I wish I had more time.
Time on Myrtle Beach, time before college, time before growing up.
I was tricked into thinking there was an escape from the likely doom of Ulster.
If they didn't have fucking asshole running the school, I'd be fine.
But now I have to watch my step?
That's not my idea of "part of the college experience."
Moving away sounds... breathtaking, easy.
Losing my friends? As the numbers dwindle down, it doesn't seem like it'll take
long for all of them to forget me too.
Losing my brother? That's something I'd fight to the death.
I can't envision not seeing him for months at a time.
Hell, I have trouble with not seeing him for two weeks.

In a perfect world, vacation would have made me happier.
But I was scared kinda often, cried more than I should, and came back with
the sense of relief.
My only shining moment was walking on the beach with Joc on the final night.
A little sand in my shoes. A little something more in my lungs.
"The popular kids." And we were them, for a change.
Being chased by boys who wanted to hang out with us.
Feeling infinite, feeling giggly, and a dash of paranoia.

Day One: long ass car ride, got to hotel, almost got raped and sold into prostitution... ask for further details if needed. Slept 3 in a bed... a FULL bed... terrible idea, I know.
Day Two: got to condo, realized a sleeper sofa is a shitload better than a sofa (where I often sleep).
The rest of the days have been kinda blurred. I went out ONCE and just got cotton candy and fudge... good investment but it didn't last long. Tonight calls for dinner out and possibly a trip to Ripley's Aquarium. My parents are going to Legends... so who knows? Maybe I'll go on craigslist and get a hooker. Sounds good to me....
My dad's been a bitch since Thursday... LAST Thursday that is. Hopefully the rest of my summer won't be ruined by the whiny pain in the ass.



I keep having dreams about people with whom I know I shouldn't try to get involved.
Stop invading my dreams. Stop making it seem so simple to fix the past.

My mother and I have been getting along really well recently.
Maybe it's that I'm growing up therefore I'm allowed to hear more
"adult" conversations.
Or perhaps it's that I proved myself to be trustworthy of knowing
important family things.
Hey, I'll take either.

But, there's some major stress going on, and it's good to have someone
that I can talk with to make sense of it all.
My grandmother's mental health (jeez, can't she kick the bucket?)
My father's struggle with assholes who believe they are godly.
Naughty, illegal activities taking place hours away.
I'll always have Maryann, but more ears can't hurt.

Oh god, it was fantastic to talk to Elise on the phone.
My lil is home! And did some hilarious things whilst in another country!
Quite the party animal... and not a lightweight, which I believe is
an invite to get messed up during Thanksgiving or Christmas break with her.
I'm glad she's getting a webcam so we can still chit chat while she's at college.
I just hope she doesn't change. She went to another country twice and came back the
same person, so there's hope, right?

So, I wrote a letter to Jaimie. Wow. I still can't get over it.
Now, I don't expect her to reply - hell, it took me almost two months to write her back.
But, it would be nice, or terribly awful. We let our friendship last too long, and
I bet she's just as glad as I am that it's over. We were wasting our time pretending we
still want to be friends with the other one. We didn't have common friends. We didn't
have common goals. We didn't have the same personalities - due in large part to
me being too shy. I think that's what really ruins most of my friendships. I'm too shy; they're too outgoing. That's what happened with Melanie, for example. But, I wouldn't
turn Melanie away if she wanted to talk again.

Going through all of Jimmy's wedding photos made me realize that I hope he gets
married again. Too much sucked now that I reflect on it. Too many things went wrong
or made things too complicated. The few solid things were getting shitfaced with my two
Sirens, actually spanking Jim while dancing - and having a picture of it, and Ryan being sweet and distant for basically the last time (the latter still exists, but it was the
combination that made him so alluring to several young ladies that night).





I think I expect too much of people.

Well, I don't have Diabetes... haha.
My parents checked their blood sugar, and I joked about checking mine.
So, then they said to and after one minute of protest, I stabbed my finger.
And, my number was low...by a lot, considering I had a bunch of carbs with my dinner.
The average after a meal is 140, and mine was 104.

So, Forgetting Sarah Marshall was good.
A wee bit too much man dick, which I knew was gonna happen,
but I didn't expect to really see the whole junkular area.

I've been a Freecell nerd recently.
I get bitchy and angry when I lose, so I play Spider Solitaire to ensure a win.
Ah... I need to find an easy game with coin collecting as the "action"
but those usually suck.

God, my blogs always look like poems.
I break everything down into little stanzas.
I am a dork, a nerd, and a freak.
But, I love me, sorta. :D

I didn't get to see my little man last night or tonight.
Apparently, he talks a little now, and dances when you sing.
Dammit, I wanna babysit him!

My sissypants and Joc are gone for the next week...
I'm upset-ish, because now I'll have to entertain myself
by watching movies online, watching The L Word (on DVD,
because I totally own all four seasons now.), and finishing
"Impulse" which is a huge fucking chore.

But hey, I got "The Intimiate Adventures Of A London Call Girl"
today. :DDDD
AND
$40. so... I'm back in the "over $100" range.. if Joc want to
pays me half for the game. If not... it's all good. Otherwise, mi
madre can pass me a few bucks.

I'm gonna watch a movie or two now.
I've been having a Katy Perry week (basically only listening to her music)
Even now, I'm listening to her... jeez.
But, I'm feeling Forgetting Sarah Marshall.
Whoot. Late-az.

I'm thinking of doing something naughty after vacation.
Yup. Branding myself.
I'm tossing up ideas...
"cansada"
a Nautical star in black and purple (the one I'm really wanting)
or "Hell Hath No Fury"
I just need to find the prices,
because I keep finding reasons to spend the money I make.
I've got about $100-ish saved,
But I'm helping buy a video game ($8), and want a book ($10).
Then there's the issue of:
I don't have a permit or something w/ my birthday on it.
I know I've been using my Onteora ID w/ a report card,
but I don't think they'll be down with that.
And fuck if I have to ask my parents to come with me.

UPDATE:
SHIT. Jimmy just called and said The L Word is on sale at Best Buy, and he'll goes halvies with me and buy all four seasons on DVD. Which means... another $40, gone.
So, my $102 just went down to $52... which isn't enough for a tattoo, I bet.
Damn the world.
But... if it turns out that I can still get the tattoo for under that,
I'll be in the tattoo parlor before school starts (Aug. 25th). Yay?

UPDATE #2
I'm really feeling this as my future tattoo:

I'm pissed though. I looked it up online, and it's some 1940's symbol closeted lesbians used.
And that's not what my tattoo is about. It's about
1. Being the Purple Siren.
2. Being the person who "guides" and "directs" people lives.
3. Life's a journey, keep looking up, all those cheesy things that
mean a lot the older you get.
*sigh*
I need money.

Oh man.
I saw both of my men today.
Donnie, Blaise... mwah. I love them both.
No fireworks - too much rain.
But, being stuck indoors made Joc quite inventive.
We started taking hits of helium from balloons.
It was amazingly fun!
Joc's voice wasn't too different, which was hilarious.
I had a really cute little voice... it sounds like my
Lollipop Guild voice, but I totally wasn't faking.
I sang Happy Birthday to Nikki when she was...
doing illegal things outside, as a dry run.
And when she came in, I said "Happy Birthday To You..."
before laughing at how silly my voice sounded.
So I has a really good day.
I mean, Blaise!
We gave him a bath, and god.. I never want a boy.
He spent the entire time holding his... erm.. doinky.
But he's so cute... a little heartbreaker in the making.


Another party tomorrow.
Hopefully, I can chill with the gays.
Jason, Trisha, and let's admit it: Alex.
My Aunt popped out 3 gays... that's a job well-done.

I get to go swimming with Blaise and Donnie this week, maybe.
I'm excited - well, basically to see my favorite men.
Including Charlie.. my sweetheart.

A message to Germany:
YO! Gimmie my best friend back!
I miss her too much!
I wonder if I'll get any German gummibaren.
German pens are already purchased... yay.
Yum. Fun. I need a drink.

House/dog sitting in Saugerties... ALL next week.
So, perhaps some Donward action. Not literally.. he's 14. That'd be gross.
But, I may be able to my little man, or as Joc has now come to call "Baby."
She sounds weird when she's talking about Heather's new baby... she calls her
"other baby," since "baby" was already taken by Mr. Blaise. (I love him! I'mma steal him!)
Other than that, I really need to talk to Ryan. He promised me a sit down in May,
and in very Ryan fashion, he bailed.
Joc can't fully express what I'm feeling, so it needs to be me personally talking to him.
Now, talking to him sober may prove to be a conflict.

I have the house to myself tomorrow.
I think I'll pop in the L word dvds I've been "borrowing" from Christina since prom.
So.. over a month.. and I've watched 8 episodes?
Can't compare to Impulse which keeps staring at me.
Ellen Hopkins.. great writer. But the book is three stories in one that changes
to every other story after 6 pages. Kinda hard to keep track, but fuck, I love
a challenge and I feel compelled to read stories written in a strange fashion.

Hey duderinos. I'm being dragged to a Breaking Dawn party August 1st.
What is it, you ask?
Some shitty story about Vampires that all the crazy with the teens too afraid to
realize that fantasy is just that - fake.
I haven't read a single word in the books; I've been told of a few fanfics (gun-to-head)
yet I somehow have to go to Barnes & Noble 'till well after 12 am.
Oh, the best part is there's gonna be "young-adult oriented activities."
That better mean nookie in between the bookcases or soft-core guy-on-guy porn.
I better not see some of those Vampire freaks who have the fake pointy teeth
and wear ugly leather trench coats with metal accents.
It's gonna be like pulling teeth, but perhaps some loser will start a "who knows more"
fight and I can laugh at them for a good half hour (I sure as hell do that when I make a certain someone take quizzes on another fantasy story.)

Well, ballz in a handbasket.
Aiight, it's time to move away from the comp; I've got a long day o' nothing planned
for tomorrow.
Latazzzz.
~Jennio

Have you made out with anyone in the last 2 weeks?
In my mind, yes.

Have you shaved your legs in the past three days?
Honestly, no.

Has a boy ever called you babe/baby?
A few have.. I'm not a fan. I prefer "Love."

Are your toe nails painted pink?
Alas, my finger nails are.

Are you in love with a boy?
I'm in love with the fact that I don't love anyone.

Do you have more than 1 best friend?
Yes

Has someone ever called you beautiful?
Some people have a warped sense of beauty and say it, but I just laugh.

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
God, I hope not.

Are you wearing short shorts?
I'm actually not wearing any bottoms.. just a long shirt.

Is your bra pink?
Pssh... whipped that bad boy off as soon as I got home.

Ever had a boy best friend?
I tend to stick with girls.

Do you think chad michael murray is cute?
Not really, no.

Are you tan?
FUCK NO. I begged my parents to buy me SPF 80 today.

Do you wear a lot of makeup?
I've just realized it's a waste since I have no one to impress.

Do you enjoy wearing dresses?
Ew. No. Jeans and a t-shirt, please.

Are you a slut?
I don't know... I do suck a lotta dick.

Do you straighten your hair often?
Only for important things/fun.

Do you want a boyfriend?
Nah. I'm far too happy.

Is your best friend the funniest person you know?
No, actually. I kinda take that title with my friends.

Are you waiting for someone?
For someone to tell me something, yes.

Last MySpace message you received?
Uh... someone's address because my sister is throwing a party.

Does anyone hate you?
Yes. People reading this, I'm sure.

What are you up to this weekend?
It's gonna involve Joc, the Nikki's, and fireworks.
Hopefully my little man so he can see his first fireworks.

Are you happy with life?
Extremely.

Who did you spend most of your time with last night?
A lot of Joc, Mar, and myself.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Everyone? Hmm... that's rather hard. Perhaps not.

Did you cry today?
God, I'm such a wimp when it comes to emotional music.

Are you a jealous person?
At times.

Do you like to make the first move?
I don't make any moves.

Do you miss anyone?
Lil! Come back from Germany, bitch!

Are you smart?
I have an advantage over some, I think.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
My dad... Nope, still love the guy.

What is most stressing right now?
That I'm becoming a Showtime whore. Anything that is about
sex (The L Word, Secret Diary of a Call Girl) is on my must-view list.

Do you swallow gum when youre done with it?
I spit it in any scrap of paper I can find.


Do you like messages or comments better?
I just hate myspace. I go on maybe weekly.

What are you drinking?
Nothing.

Who was your last call from?
That was intentionally for me? Becky, I guess.

What would you do if you had a time machine?
Go back and avoid some choices I made. But I'm not sure, really.
I'm happy now; I love my friends; life is going so well.

Whose car did you last drive in?
Jocie Leigh :D

Last non relative you hugged?
Someone at my party, probably.

The phone rings, what's your ringtone?
Well, it'd only be a regular phone so BRRRRRRINNNNNG.

Who is your last text from?
Your mom... No cell.

Favorite drink?
Water, Arizona

Does the person you like know that you like them?
God, do I even like someone? Jeez. haha.

Last time you talked to your mom?
About 9 pm.

Where are you right now?
In my bedroom.

Favorite gadget in the kitchen?
Milkshake machine.

Last time you had a sleepover?
I guess last night, if you consider Joc not a Donadio fixture.

Latest you stayed up in the past week?
4 and change.


What are you doing?
Survey, downloading & playing music

Have you been in a car accident?
Does being in the car when Christina hit Ben's car count?

Who's the 1st person on your missed calls list?
No cell.

What did the last text message you received say?
No cell.

Story behind your MySpace song?
Hmm... that's a good question. I don't even know what mine is.
Ah.. Northern Downpour. It sent a chill down my spine when I first heard it.

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
I assume people hate me for two reasons if I don't know the reason:
I'm fat or I'm a bitch. (Although, I don't think most people
who don't know me think I'm a bitch).

Wallet?
It's got Happy Bunny on it.. and about $5 in it.

Life?
Going swimmingly.

Doing this weekend to come?
Off to the Sirc/Bell house.

Wearing?
Seafoam green guy shirt.

Wanting?
Someone to fucking be online! Wait... someone just IMed me.

What do you smell?
My deoderant, actually.

Do you like seafood?
Mmhmm.

Do you remember your dreams?
For a good 20 minutes after I wake up, and if I don't bother remembering them,
they float away.

Do you consider yourself a study freak?
Hellz to the no.

Do you speak another language other than english?
Some Spanish & German (and soon, I'll be signing.)

What did you do last night?
Chilled, watched a few movies online, chit chatted, saw mini fireworks.

Who do you hate?
In general, people.

Orange or apple juice?
Orange juice

Who were the last people you went out to eat with?
Hmm... I haven't been to a sit down place in a while.

Last thing you ate?
Just popped a piece of gum (but no, I haven't technically "eaten" it)

And I'll be pissed off if I want to.

Fuck the mail. Really.
I get a hand written letter today (on graph paper)
from an ex-best friend telling me her English teacher
told her to write to me for an assignment.
What.The.Fuck.
Throw in a few 'this is awkward's, 'I miss you's,
and wrap it up in 'I'm being forced to write this
and I never would have without being told to so
you don't have to write back but I really
want to know your summer plans like we're totally
gonna chill.'

It pissed me off, because now I have to write back
and all I have to say is "Well, I wanted to mend
things with Meaghan before school ended, but not you"
and "The reason we stopped being friends is because you
were popular and I hated ALL your friends."

But, I'm 18 now...
I can has deeplohmah and go on wiff mah lyfe?

I woke up at 6, one and a half hours before I needed to be awake. But I was up, ready, and excited.
We left the house, got to the train station, and a train we didn't plan on taking was just about to leave for the city, so we ran to catch it.
Got on, I half slept for two hours.
*BAM* NYC. Jazz hands, please?
We walked for a bit, got something to eat, found Legally Blonde.
Eventually, it was 1:30, so we went in and waited.
The screen when you walk into the theater looked like a bunch of vaginas. Actually, it was a pink silk sheet, but since it was kinda bunched up, certain spots looked just like a vag.
Over two hours later, the show was over. It was FANTASTIC. The music, the acting - even visually, it was beautiful. Only one fuck up... in a scene w/ jump ropes, one girl simply couldn't do it. She kept hitting herself with the stupid thing; I didn't know if I should laugh for feel bad. I decided on feel bad.
Grabbed dinner, used the grossest bathroom, and found Avenue Q.
The line before we got in was riddled with "my" kind of people.
Kinda spunky, cool kids... nice.
Sat down in THE MOST UNCOMFORTABLE SEATS, forced to sling my arm around Mar's neck. I kept saying "sister" so people wouldn't think we were a couple, but added things like, "Well, I've grabbed your ass in public to keep creeps from checking you out, so yeah, we ARE a couple."
In short, Avenue Q = amazing and every I know should see it. All my friends have similar senses of humor, and this shall tickle your fancy.
Hopped on the train, got to Poughkeepsie and tried to sleep. Got home, passed out.
Good day, good night. A wonderful birthday present.

"You're so nice and you're so smart
You're such a good friend I have to break your heart
I'll yell you that I love you then I'll tear your world apart
Just pretend I didn't tear your world apart"

Senior year is about destroying everything good in your life.
It's a monster, and you can't stop it.
You burn bridges you intended to keep.
You wake up wondering why the fuck you did such a stupid thing.
You regret it, and then go and burn another one.


To my favorite artist:
I miss being your friend; I miss sharing weird shit we found online; I miss you.

On Wednesday night, I went to Steve & Barry's to pick up my free ring from Seventeen mag.
Now, it was 8:58... and the store closes at 9...
So I made Mar drive up, and I swear I saw Bill locking up.
I yelled at Mar to go in and mess with him, but she drove away.
Gr... it could've been fun... : (
But, Mar got me the ring the next day, so I'm happy.
It's too big for my fingers... so I'm making it a necklace.
I hope it looks pretty.

I'm finally done with my thesis.
Never again will I have to go on Iannotti's webpage.
Thank god!
Muchas gracias por todo su ayuda.
I had a handful of helpers.. they all are pretty bitchin'.