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I love these lines:

“Forgive my lips
They find joy
In the most unusual places
I would like a lifetime plate
Of you and all your imperfections
With a side of short tempered jealousy
And a bottle of you
In a glass that is never empty”

“Pardonne mes lèvres. Elles trouvent la joie dans les endrois les plus inhabituels Je suis fou de tes lèvres”

It would be nice if one day I could romance a woman. This sounds even sexier in French, Hungarian and Romanian. J

Wow! Yesterday, I had a conversation with a lady that … is very sweet to me, love her very much and miss her like crazy. I could have gotten fired and it would have been like “Oh! Well!”. She makes it so easy for me, to be me. Not to mention, this is only over the phone, in real life she makes it more easier. Too bad it is not something that will go anywhere, but the thought is nice, that It could have. The thought that an amazing woman could be able to love me, wow… what an amazing feeling. Thank you Sweetheart! (she doesn’t read me, so it is safe).

So also yesterday my boss came and talked to me. He wants me to pick up the hardware part of the system, printers and handheld’s, he wants me to be the contact point in repair, etc. Also he mentioned that he is leaving in 6 months and he wants me to apply for his job. So this few months I need to hustle and learn. Now, I don’t want you to think I ma the only one who he would recommend, there are at least 4-5 people here who have 100 times more experience in here. Either way it felt good.

Barbara went out of her way to make sure my key works to the gym now, today I just didn’t have the energy to do anything. My tummy was hurting and my body muscles ache, so I gave them a morning off. Also I shouldn’t be up till 2 am ;-)
Ok got to hit the bathroom again, this is ridiculous!
All I want to do is be in bed and be pampered. Not going to happen. Honestly I have never been pampered, even when I was sick and young.
I think it can be traced back to old folk’s way, in a third world country, called “toughen up”. Sigh…
Lately I feel the need to hold and be held. I can not shake this feeling off. I hate it, not because I am a heartless person, because it seems that I can not find anyone who can get emotionally attached to me, so I figure I need to stop hoping for that, and just enjoy the physical aspect of it.
I go bowling each Sunday and I enjoy it, except that I think I pulled my middle finger out of its own joint socket. Ever since the first game I am in horrible pain, but I won’t stop J HOPING I CAN SEE A DOC NEXT WEEK.
I look around and there are so many couples, it makes me literally sick, depressed, for the last 3 weeks I tried to get drunk, finally this past Sunday I did. I got drunk, it was good. I went home and passed out. Didn’t need to feel anyone.
Any ideas how can I shake this feeling off?
I don’t have anyone who will just let me hold her all night, I even contemplated in hiring a hooker and let me hold her all night. The idea is becoming more and more a “going to be a reality to me”.

What else yesterday was my niece’s birthday she is 2 Hadley! You are a so gorgeous. Happy Birthday!
It has been 2 years since I had the second serious lung surgery.
I didn’t think I make it out of that long ass surgery.

So my mother is thinking I should purchase another car, but a fairly new one and pay monthly. This whole month by month pay, it gives me the ....something...lol…. I like to pay and have it. It makes me feel like I am paying waaaaaay more if I pay in installments. You know?!
Then your insurance is higher, the taxes are higher…etc. I can go on forever.
My thing is I need to stop crashing my cars J I know I know…I think I crashed like 6 cars or more, in the last 15 yrs. Know nothing kills me J

When you tell me I have sexy lips, it means a lot to me. Thank you.

Wow, it has been a while since I actually posted. I mean I write on pieces of paper, in the train, in the office but it doesn’t make it to the blog. Sometimes I don’t see the point, sometimes I know if I say something, people will catch up that I wrote about them and then all hell brakes loose, or ..ehh it doesn’t matter.

 

Tina has been very nice; she is a sweetheart she has been giving me rides in the past and present to work and from work. Today is going to be much appreciated, cuz it is cold out there. So thank you Tina.

 

Yesterday I stood on the platform of Bridgeport’s train station and I was pulled at warp speed back into memory lane, home in Transylvania. The wind was brutal and sharp as a Hatori Hanzo samurai sword. Layers of skin felt like they were being sliced of my face. Which wouldn’t be such a bad idea J In my head suddenly I was outside in the cold windy weather, staying for milk, bread, toilet paper, matches, chicken. How we adapt to try to survive. Then my question was how do I try to adapt to this life I have here?

 

It seems that the people I am attracted to and could fit with, from my point of view we would match, obviously they think otherwise. Now there are the people who want me, but I feel that either I was not their first choice, or that I have nothing in common with them, nor do I find anything from that person appealing. More so I am sort of repulsed by them. Not that I am better then them, but …something about them…just turns me off.

So I was thinking maybe, just maybe ..since I am already miserable alone, why not find a person that wants me, I don’t like, and then I will have a good reason to be miserable?

I don’t know.

It seems that the one I love it is not going to work out at all, so I guess time to move on, I can’t do this one sided thing again.

 

What else? OK. I turned my old job offer down. I have no regrets doing that. I turned down a lot of money, but it is cool.

 

Today is Saturday, no bus service, I think I am going to walk to train station, after work.

I have been working out every morning, feels good to do it in the am. I never worked out at 7am before, only from 8-9pm till midnight. When I used to go to Fitness 4000, I would enjoy being there soo much, I would be still swimming at 1am in the morning. Sigh….it was just too expansive after a while.

I am trying to go to the gym in the afternoon also.

 

I am happy for a change, content. I am longing for being with a woman, but the more I think of …oh whom am I kidding. Ever since I felt the kiss on the side of my face, her skin being soo smooth, lips soft, her scent to melt to, her body so nicely fit into mine, ….I want her. I want to make her moan and scream. I want to see her cum. I want to see her on top of me, watch her body spasm to her multiple orgasms, I want to please her.

I forgot how soft and good it feels to touch a woman’s skin. God she felt good, just by kissing me on the face, I think I had July 4^th, Macy’s Fireworks going on inside me. … Sigh…

 

Anyway, need to go back to work or pretend anyway. Hope you guys have a great weekend.

 

P.s. I bowled 163 last Sunday…. 163..I was amazed. I shock myself sometimes.

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I am stuck. Do you ever get stuck? Every word I want to write down, every thought I want to express, ... seems to be stupid, corny, without substance. DO I talk about me? Does anyone want to hear it. Do I know what is going on with me? Not sure.

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Ahhh! Sunday morning. Waking up alone, checking e-mails, thinking what could comfort your body’s muscle aches. Falling asleep was painful, the muscle ache in my arms and shoulders were hard to deal with. Couldn’t find a comfy spot...hm...sometimes a phone call could make the whole thing just perfect. Miss it.

***Trey Songz has a weird looking, in a non attractive way of deforming his face when he sings.

So I sent out resumes, checked some stuff online, my mind is constantly busy. Money, car, health, family and then my failure in relationships.

Then I get up and wash dishes, made brfst, ate, made coffee and went back down to my dungeon chillin with vh1 Soul, sipping on a nice cup of coffee and swallowing oj like mad crazy.

After this I shall go and get dressed and go to home depot (he he he My Mickey is showing my Diva how much she loves her, they do this neck kissing, poking, love dance :-)...cute)

So I got to clean my garage gutters today. Absolutely essential. It is getting colder each day. I got 21 bags of leaves yesterday, 2 weeks ago it was like 10. My two trees are stubbornly green still. Each tree on the street is either bald or extremely golden. Not mine. Green baby, green full of hope, like it wants to tell me something.

I miss my grandmother like crazy.
I miss Spotty and Cassidy awful. I felt love from them. I gave them love.
It seems that everything I love leaves me. I should get used to it. I don’t even know why I bother sometimes. Call me a crazy green leaf tree.

So. I am going to do my stuff and then I continue.
I didn’t come back. ...
Tuesday, the 20th. Day was busy and boring at the same time. I am still in this mood, not sure what will happen now. Day is over, starting to walk to the bus station.
Walking...train crossing arms lower... have you ever noticed that they are made of hollow plastic? There is a piece of wood at the end to give the image of wood covered by plastic.
Bus is late
I missed all my trains, 6:01pm, 6:07pm...sigh. I need ticket. It is 6:06 pm going to get the ticket from machine. Receipt? Yes. What shall I do for the next 30 min?
6:10pm Making the cell call.
The tv screens show the next train is at 6:32pm
Sitting, adjusting headset
Woman comes by to flirt with the guy next to me, also asking him if the announcement was Bridgeport track 2.
I get up and run down.
Run.......Steps.........slip on stupid plastic welcome mat.......
Door slam in front of me....
The conductor is sticking his head out....running towards him....
He said “You are TOO LATE!”
Train is not moving, he had enough time to open the door, he wouldn’t. It took off finally.
I stood there, alone...not sure ..if it was 1 or 5 or 10 min. trains came and went. I was just standing there frozen.
This is my life!
I am too late or too early for everything.
God! I need to pull myself together. Is it raining or am I crying? Can’t tell.
Train comes. Full! Standing! I start writing.
She is on the train again. Blonde, blue eyes, long skinny face, horse teeth type. She is looking again. Please! Let her find what she needs. For the last couple of times she constantly asked me the time every 3 min then she started stretching her long neck even longer to look in between suits on the train. He is here tonight, I can tell her eyes change from panic to tranquility, love breaths through her eyes and blushing takes the color of an autumn apple. I think her hairends are dancing, she is so happy.
He pushes me as he machete’s his way through people to get to her.She is happy, he is normal, no changes on his face.
2 young ladies with luggage and babies are standing, not one white collar suit would get up to offer their seats or comfort the kids. I wish I could sit so I could stand up and let them sit....sigh.
God! I am soo cold.
Women in my life are the bad chromosomes on the chain of Katie’s DNA.
I need to be numb.
I want to punch the ceiling of this train. I want to feel something other then this everyday pain.
My knee is fucked up, bad, my left leg muscle feels like I had a bad cramp and it is the pain after the cramp.
My left side of my upper torso is rock solid. Guessing scar tissue.
I think my lung tumor is back.
My spine is in constant pain.
I am tired, yet I can’t stop. Why? Why? Do I fight this? Why do I always have to put my body to the limits?
....no matter how bad I feel, I think of her and the thought of you gives me strength, somehow. I give anything to see your sexy look, the way you looked at me...Miss it, Want it. You are so gorgeous!.....
Is it reality or a dream?
Is this my heart or ice?
Your breathing hard
it’s so cold....I am cold
I can feel your fire burning
I am so cold.....cold
your pulse is beating my lips
I don’t want to mess this up
Your breasts are pressed against mine
I am cold...it’s an ice block
You are moaning....my lips...your skin
heat...pulse...neck...eyes...
Is it possible? Melting?.....
Aaaaaaaaaaaargh!

At the end of my last trip I did have the pleasure to b e in the presence of Fantasia. She smiled and winked at me, I believe my neck chain always does the job :-) and the fact that I am extremely cute. I sat and didn’t want to go overboard with excitement, but the time I tamed my happiness, the flight attendant offered her a first class seat, all I had her say to me is Excuse me....sweet sounds.

I guess I am done.

It is 1am central time, 2 am where I am from, and I think my body got used to the late hours and now I can’t fall asleep before 2-3am. Or is it because i can't shut my mind off. Maybe if i try to find a way to make things better, maybe then i will ...You know, it doesn't matter.

No one is online (sad face) so I am reading up on my e-mails, blogs, tv surfing, job searches. I stopped at CMT channel Jon Bon Jovi was playing his song “You want to make a memory”. Nice song, but what came to mind?! You ask? He will sound like Neil Diamond when he will get old. Moving on…

Today i held my emotions tight. I was strong. Anger was fueling me, and tears were choking me. I held on. Everything made sense from the beginning, I chose to ignore it for a minute of happiness. I let myself be not respected, I even made a fool of myself. For what? For a ? Anyone?..... For ???? Exactly.

I am angry. I am bitter, but I am also happy. Well let me list a couple of things to you Ladies/Gents:

1. Women will take anything that is free, including your heart, if they soo desire it at THAT moment.
2. When they say they Love you! Do not believe them until they show you proof, and even then, be careful...
3. If they are married...walk away
4. If they are in a SORT of relationship and they spend the nights talking to you...walk away
5. if they are Bisexual ...walk away
6. If they find your best friend attractive ...walk away
7. When they say I love you...ask for the level of the I love you...on a scale of 1-9 like that chart they give you at the hospital....the LEVEL OF PAIN...in this case should stand for the same reason...AT what level do you love me, so i will know the level of pain i will have to go through.
8. Okay , you think i am angry, bitter..maaaaybe a tiny bit....and the following 2 words i shall type in a sec, if it applies to you , then it is for you F YOU!!!
9. if anyone is preaching how a lot of people think that the grass is always greener on the other side, and you need to see what you have first before you step on that grass.....CHILD they have stepped on that grass many times, and they won't stop.
10. if they tell you that they are in love with you, but following it with Why? Why can't i love 2 people? Walk away.

I couldn't start crying...i held it in soo tight...i was squueeezing the life of my crying...then about a third of the movie Why did I get married i broke down. I went and sat at the table and I just cried....cried and cried.....after a cpl of hrs i realized that i was sitting in a pool of red and white fluids, fomr my heart bleeding and my tears washing them off. I got up and stood in the shower....long shower....
It was a great movie. To tell you the truth, I actually saw some of the people i know in this movie. personality wise of course.
I recommend EVERYBODY to see this movie.

Okay!!! I met La Reina! WOW! Drop dead gorgeous model. I am 5'6" and she is 5'10",.....okay?..she is a gorgeous Model...I haven't seen such a beauty in ages. She is amazing. I want you all to buy and order calendars from her, and I asked her to send me some so i can get some. She is a public speaker and survivor of stroke. She is a mom of 4, she has her own production company, she is smart, she is gorgeous, I was the butter on toast, i was melting. here is her web site please visit her RoseGlo prod Page

I enjoyed her company, made my whole week. I can not wait till I get to hang out with her...this time i leave the flashes to a minimum.....nooooo i know what you are thinking....i wasn't showing her my boobs...geez i do that in public like what? 4-5 times....so that makes me an addict for public display of my nakie body?...is it?..lol I am talking about camera.

Give her a shout out. She is wow!

I have been on the road for over 2 months..i lost track of where i was the week before...more so this past weekend i got asked 3 times where i am going and i totally blanked out.

This week i am training a new kid.
The week started with:
Katie: You should check your bag, the second plane is small! on top they will take your cologne away...etc...
JR. : Oh i didn't bring any deodorant, cologne..i figure i get it there :-) (so far we didn't even go close to that type of retail store)

Jr. : I would rather drive to Chicago then fly..
Katie...so you drive 1 day each way, you really thing you can finish all the work i showed you on friday?
Jr.: Oh Yeah!
Tuesday night came he scanned 238 items, totall monday combined..i scanned 2641 items...he was whinning soo much i had to tell him to put his shit together, keep it together....geez, I asked him if he is going to die on me. :-)

I explain things to him 3-4 times..ok ok ok i get it i get it...is the response, when it is time for him to do it..how do you do it? omg!! can i ..put myself out of misery?

He plugs in the wrong cable after i clearly state many times which cable goes where...it is color coordinated for f uc k sake....oh lord

I ask hi 4 times in the car to lower the volume of the freaking GPS.....it was driving me crazy.....i didn't need any directions..you go 67miles north on 65 take a right and go 52 miles west 278..you are there in the middle of cotton fields and the only building rising from the ground is Citgo station.
Voice: Recalculating.....Shut the f up!!! recalculate my rear end...or what am i doing wrong with women..calculate this shit out.....Ok so the gps had a mans name..that could have been annoying me...i like the lady...:-)

The customer is showing him a software, his remark many times "I like this software better then ours! Oohh!!!" By the way we didn't get paid yet...

1 hr into our trip...so when do we get paid? No overtime?..ok i show you overtime...:-)

Then so who is going w you next week...i am like DUDE! Can we concentrate on today? I just wanted to say FOCUS motherfucker..focus...

There was a huuge cricket on the wall at work..and i admired it..he sad it was a crickett...i said (at the moment i couldn't think of the word grass hopper) so i said it was not a cricket..it is a ....lol
His response: i bet you my paycheck that is a cricket..oh boy! easy money...manager..what is that green long bug? grasshopper...he was like i was joking regarding my pay. :-)

I am tired..now...

Have you ever had a perfect day? Well mine was Saturday.
I started the day with taking the dogs to the vet, then taking mom to work. I needed the car to do some clothes shopping, then paying the mortgage. Helen and Christina picked me up; we went to buy a car for Christina. She is finally doing it. Taking the test and everything. I am soo proud of her.
Then I asked her to come help me shop. Jenna said I should wear some blue shirt, denim would be perfect. They had a denim jacket not shirt; anyway we found a niiice shirt. To make sure I am not screwing up the colors, we got a tie also.
Then off we went to buy shoes. I got 2 pair of shoes, and then we went and munched on some hot Jamaican hot chicken patties. Not bad at all, I always got beef ones.
Then I went home and started doing laundry taking a shower, picking mom up.
Jenna came. OMG!!! This woman was soo gorgeous!!! She was dressed soo nice. Hm! OK! She came even though her knee was killing her. She needs surgery. :-(
I thank you for your company, the night wouldn’t have been the same without you. It was perfect.
OK!! So I am happy! Shoot me!

Sunday, after hardly any sleep, I passed out around 7am. Pills just don’t help me anymore, on top I ran out. I had a huge headache. Migraine, call it whatever you want. My eyes were hurting. I needed to do work. I brought home a lot of work. I did some, but headache took a big toll out of me.
I wanted to pick up the phone soo bad, I chickened out.
I wanted to go out. I was antsy. Headache was pounding; weather was soo nice and cold. I wanted out, I felt like a raging werewolf. I wanted to run and feel the wind caress my body. Well… I got as far as driving a Toyota corolla at a speed of 65 m/h…lol I promised Tanya I take her to the movies for her b-day. SO we went and watched her fav movie (suuucked azzz majorly) Stay Alive!!! The only cool part was that I was able to take little naps and the fact that the story was about a Hungarian Countess, was cool. Although how her body got into US..Mysterie…lol Tanya gets scared easily. Naps were awesome. Then I got her to sneak into Sliver?..lol Groos movie and stooopid. I knew it but I wanted to see something gooooiiieeeee..lol

Sharon Stone is still such a babe!! I watched Basic instinct 2. Man oh man!!! Some hot mama!!! MILF!!!!
I am such a MILF fan…OK
That’s it.
I was Happy this weekend. What a feeling!!! La la lalalaaalla ..Steph did a great job dancing, too bad they didn’t have Maniac….good old days..lol

Ciao and everybody have a great week ahead of us.

P.S. I found cousin IT

Oh my!!!! Who is better looking me or him? :-) PIC okay my blog has the pictures i can't add them here...not a premium member i guess http://lacikati.blog-city.com
PIC http://lacikati.blog-city.com/
Yes. That is as much as I can open my left eye.
OK. Whomever has a grudge against me, come to my face and say it. I swear I must have pissed somebody off, since i am getting Cursed or something.

My sinus infection is getting worse, I can feel the darn fluids on my lung. Of screw it!!!!

So my brother calls me tonight. You now I am not even gonna go there.
I am happy that i can get up, stuff myself with pain pills and even though they don't work, "I make my brain thing " it does, so there. I get up at 5 am and get dressed and go to work. My coworker Matt will pick me up at 6am. So i can go in and work form 7am while he goes to the gym :-( I miss the gym. BODY HEAL already!

Okay i searched the whole freaking house with one eye tonight for 2 AA batteries. All my toys take C's and D's and 9V. WTF!!!! I need to stock up on AA. So finally after rubbing on my ... okay ..stop being a perv...of course i was rubbing my batteries from my remote, so i can juice them up (although that wouldn't be such a good idea..so why are you reaidng this ..goooo do it) okay where was i..oh yeah!!!
okay i rubbed them enough :-) that i was able to take this picture above.
Yes i tried to take a picture of my scar..but i can't move my arms really too much so this is what i came up with
It looks like a zipper right? So if i have to smuggle something in/out of country i just undo the zipper and hide it in there..lol

I am looking into train schedules. I have to tell you, it has been rough for me lately and for some reason i think it will get soo much worse.
I just sued by a company...oops i forgot to pay the bill.
Oh! More on the saga! L calls me tonight. She was bored. She wanted to know how i was, she heard form C-T's gf H that i was having a rough time. She calls me and after talking to her, i ask her what is all that noise in the background. Oh! Yeah! I should hang up she said, I shouldn't be this rude I am at this chicks house.
Okay do you really thing I get jealous? Then I was trying to tell her that J needs some talk with a professional. He has anger built up and i think he gets depressed. I feel soo bad. He was looking forward soo much to hang with me this weekend. I need to bug mom for her car to pick him up saturday or something. Oh! Don't please for One Minute think he was upset that he can't see me :-) He wanted his new Nike's. Kids! I love him soo much though.

What else?! Eva and Amanda went to FL for vaca. I am jealous. Very nice couple and they are hot for eachother. Good people. They are soo doing it on the plane. I love to do it in the plane..ok moving on.

My tulips are comming out. I am soo proud and soo curious how they come out. First time i planted them in a different area of the house. I planted them in autumn, for Jenna. She loves tulips, i think i planted 60 bulbs, hope at least half comes out. I am soo excited.

Veronica sent me a plant, OMG, the pot was soo cute it had ..wait let me take a picture of it. I love Veronica, she is such a sweet woman. She is intelligent,gorgeous, hot, sexy have I mentioned Great taste and her brain is soo attractive. I just love this woman. Jose is a lucky man. Okay she was soo sweet she sent me this pot to feel better and i did. Thank you girl!!! PIC http://lacikati.blog-city.com/

THANK YOU ALL FOR THE FLOWERS AND STUFF ANIMALS WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR ALMOST A WEEK. FLOWERS AND STUFF ANIMALS MADE ME SMILE EVEN WHEN I WAS HURTING.
THANK YOU FOR COMMING TO SEE ME AND TAKE PICTURES OF ME WITH BUNNY EARS AND ...:-) WHO KNOWS WHATELSE YOU GUYS DID WITH ME...LOL I BET THERE ARE PRICELESS PICTURES OUT THERE ABOUT ME, WHEN I PASSED OUT..LOL

Thats it for now. Going to sleep, althoug for some reason people want to be friends with me on yahoo 360 and they have something in common, paganism. Should i be scared? Can you deny people? Would that be rude? Ok i need to sleep on this.

I have to say that anybody who has breast reductions or enlargements, my hat is off to you!!! The same way my respect for mothers who have Cesarean Delivery has grown Tremendously.
In this car accident, my left breast got bruised really bad. I know... I know... for the last 2 days i have been complaining. Sorry.
Not just bruised, but skin came off from under my nipple and some came off of the nipple itself. I honestly thought in the ER that i lost my nipple. The pain was horrible, it had a burning sensation. Then today the warm water hits it. OMG! Can i say pain?!

My breasts are huuge, and would soo like to make them smaller almost none...lol but after this pain, not sure if i WOULDN'T think twice about cutting them purposely. So all the women out there with fake breasts or reductions, I applaude your braveness.

Do you ever feel like you are on the top of the hill? That nothing can bring you down no matter what?  Well I am down, now.

I thought February was a bad month for me. I just can’t catch a brake. I know I am going to be better by next week, but this morning at 4:25am I feel like I am loosing a fight that has been already decided to the other side. I can’t sleep since 1am. Every breath I take or muscle movement, hurts. I know I am going to have issues with #2 once more.

I had about 2 hrs of sleep and I was dreaming that I was escavating out of the ground, full of mud, all this hazardous material. Then I repackaged them and created a safety plastic around them. I had to clean the ground out of this toxic stuff. Then I was using this machine and piled them up, filling up this huge gap, like filling up a hole 

Monday night I felt very lonely. I was lying in bed and I wanted soo much to hold and to be held. I don’t feel like this often. I try not to allow me feeling this way. So I woke up all refreshed Tuesday morning, I said no matter what, I am cool, I can be sexy, I am smart. I got tons of stuff to do and I am recovering amazingly. Which I tell you I am sooo amazed by.

Then in a freaking flash….I am soo glad I managed not to hurt anybody, just me. I wish I could get a copy of their traffic cam. Must have been cool, to look at.
The pain was bad, It felt like my chest cracked in two, I can’t hear in my right ear still, and my left side is hurting like I just got out of surgery. On top my left eye was still on it’s way to close down, the infection was getting worse. Now my arms and legs are aching badly. Yesterday I didn’t feel the pain.

Gawd! I need some sleep, I am tired ….

6:22am grandpa falls across the kitchen....I can't win, I can't win.

TESTED!! Is the word. I just got a call from Norwalk Hospital and the doc there said that they looked more closely to the x-ray and they would like me to go do a cat scan, cuz there is stuff that should be showing, bt they would like to see more before they talk to me. I am literally going to have a nervous brakedown. Now grandpa the stubborn asshole that he is, instead of waiting when he gets up so he can get his balance, he dashees across the kitchen. i think his wrist is sprained, don't think it is broken. He has a walker and he refuses to use it. Gawd!!!! I need to take some of his sleeping pills so i can sleep tonight. My nerves are shot

I keep forgeting to upgrade my blog acct.

I have alot of things on my mind. My body is not helping either. I am overworking myself. Just another way I deal with my troubles. Katie + Emotions = Melt yourself into work./ Shut the world out. Lock up!!!

I can't stop thinking about grandma. She has been hunting me in my dreams.

Women! Not gonna go there now.

Grandpa is not looking good at all.

OH!! yeah!! I got into a little car accident. I was crying soo much driving home tonight, I had those heee heee heeee things going on, but I couldn't do the hee hee thing cuz it hurt like crazy and inbetweem my tears and the pain I didn't realize how close i was to this car. i slammed the brakes, I pulled my side and ran into the car. The damage was not bad at all. I scratched the car it hink a bit, but the guy said he was all set, no big deal. I wasn't sure, but i think he was saying that he had that there, when he backed up ..not sure if he was sorry for me? or what..but cars were really okay!.

I was in the office till after 7pm. I think i could have stayed till morning there. Didn't want to come home. I want to go away and disappear.

Rabbit has called me for the last 2 days. it felt good to talk to her again. I miss her. No matter what happened in between us, we will always stay friends. Gawd!! She can get onmy nerves and she can do some stooopid things, but in the end she says "oh come on little bear! You know you love me! And of course i can't be mad...lol I love her...:-) She is funny.
You know you can be a little bitch Rabbit!! Now that you read this...lol I love you though, you know that. I can't wait to see you.
I might just do one of my spontanious things, and get in the car early morning and pop in later at your house. What you think?
Girl!! why can't we live closer to eachother?

My niece is doing excellent! She is amazingly quiet and sweet. She does the OOOO face when she is peeing..she is cute. SHe deff starts looking very similar to Lorelai. Mom held her in her hands, I heard. I am jealous, but at the same time I am soo afraid to hold such a tiny person. I sometimes don't know my own strenght.

Maybe if I adopt a child..... been thinking about it more and more, lately. I need something constant in my life. Something to come home to, something that would make my life worth something. To love somebody.

The pain on my chest is starting to be sharper each day. Last night i barely could breath, without sharp pains. Things are still swallen tight, feels like f~ing brick inside my rib. I find it interesting how the body heals itself. I will never be the same way ever again. I hope my muscles start to heal and my rib..man...what is up with this...lol

I am craving for a drink. The weekend can not come by faster. I think i will get waisted this sunday night.

Oh shit I forgot to text at 9:30pm DO YOUR RESUME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay!!! I ran into one of my “friends with benefits” buddies the other month and oddly enough I ran into this person a couple of days before surgery then at the hospital when they took my staples out.

What is this? I mean why? Why am I keep running into this person. Every time he was with his wife and I just wanted to not notice him. I didn’t want to talk to him. I just wanted to have my hi and bye thing.  I thought I had it made, I was about 10 ft from the door, automatic doors, and with my tummy aching I thought I escaped. Ribs were shaking, me aching and almost felt free … when he ran after me. He escaped his wife. Oh boy!!! SO I made the small talk. Then he is like I wanted to call you. I said you could call but why? We haven’t talked in years a whole decade actually. Then he said it. I STILL LOVE YOU, YOU KNOW!!!
Then the phone started to ring one after the other. I picked up the phone and totally forgot who he was, so I was on meds and a bit lightheaded and said he called the wrong number. I forgot his name…lol No wonder there, I barely remember names, ESP the ones like him. Then my mother picked up the phone and she was like HIIII how are you? Blah blah blah…I was like nooooooo I don’t want to talk to him..lol
Mom is funny.
Anyway. I never ever used the word I AM IN LOVE with him or anybody else, except with 3 people in my life, that was not related to me. I am very careful using that word. I do love my friends and family, but not the LOVE LOVE THING, you know what I mean.

Why on earth would he say I am still in love with you..Helloo…why? Well I can’t remember his number but if he calls again, I am ripping a new hole in his ass, through the phone.
First of all, do not run after me, leaving your wife or babies mama’s behind and run after somebody else, just to try to get some pussy.
Second of all. Love? When? Please!!!!! He wasn’t all that at all.
Third of all!!! I can screw better then him with my hands tied to my back.
Fourth of all: fuck buddy is a fuck buddy, nothing else.
Oh and I almost forgot the most important of them all I LOOOVE WOMEN!!!!

I have been accused of many things in my life. Most of them being not true at all. I swear people have nothing better to do…lol, but the next one it is true.

The latest I heard was “yeah! You sure don’t have trouble f ing without any ties!”. Or something close to that
All I am saying if you go into a thing where, the understanding is that nothing else but f ing, that is all you can expect. OK! Sometimes emotions do get involved, it happened to me, but I never expected more, than what I agreed to. Hey I am just glad I got laid. You know what I mean?

So! Another thing I am being accused of is “You flirt a lot!” True I love to flirt. Is that soo bad?
So what? I am a flirty slut.  Who cares…lol

So I have been called shorty, not soo long ago. Okay! So the flirting is good. I leave it at that. 

It has been a while since I have been flirted with. Felt good, let me tell you.
He he he!! In the TV she is just saying why can’t I do this one night thing..lol

You know what! I think flirting is healthy. It makes people feel good, on both sides. As long as it stays all innocent. I think, but then again, I am just a slut.

Ok. I got home and the house was still standing. Grandpa didn’t burn the house down.

Oh!! Sad true story. I called one of my customers and her name is Katie also, but she was not at the store. They had a tornado in Il and she lost her house. 

I need a drink, I wonder if my pills and Amaretto will be ok? Hmm.

Women have the whole thing planned out. Women know the whole story, the moment they meet you. They have the script and we can't read it. God forbid! You go off the script, we get written off the story!

Saturday, my cramps were unbearable. You would think these painkillers would work. DIDN’T. Anyway. I didn’t think I would be able to go with my friends Kat and TinaM to the Cascades, for a nice afternoon campfire. I love outdoors, but I didn’t want to make them uncomfortable with me keep getting up and looking for a toilet, then my ribs were aggravated a bunch, from an earlier grocery shopping. (Should’ve left the things in the trunk till mom came home )

Later I took a drive down to see my newly born niece. Well she is tiny and soooo adorable. You know my policy about babies, I don’t say that unless I mean it, even if it’s family. She doesn’t cry at all. Just eats and sucks sometimes on the pacifier. She likes the sun just like Kat’s adorable little dog Alex 

She is tiny and all wrapped up like those little Babushka dolls..lol (Russian bounce up dolls), I didn’t touch her. My other niece Lorelai was still sick. She had a bad cold, so we played with the playdoh (nasty) and by mistake the shape I made her, came out to look like a P e n I s. Ehem … Was not my intention, but … it happened ... lol I was hoping her parents won’t notice, but as always my bro made the comment pretty loud.  Got to love him. I do.

For the rest of the day I gave myself a double doze of Jessica Alba. I watched Into the Blue and the Fantastic 4. I liked her from the real beginning when she had her own fox show on Friday nights, playing bionic woman sort of. Hm She is sooo fine.

My Sunday started with 6 am grandpa falling followed by another by 7:30 am he fell 3 times. He is soo stubborn. I pick him up lay him in bed and I beg him to stay there until he gets his strength back. Does not listen. 3rd time I needed mom. I couldn’t lift him up anymore alone. I deff pulled my muscles. Hurting badly. It will go away, no worries. I am just being a baby now and complaining (this is a long entry, no one will read this far long ...lol).

Mom cooked all day, I tried to fiddle with Kat’s hard drive. Challenge big time ...lol then for the rest of the day, we watched movies. We watched Must love dogs (for me again), then The Man (funny movie), then we watched TV. I think I am going to buy this movie on DVD.

Tomorrow I am gona go to work. I can’t wear a bra, so I shall go free  let them dangle. Can you hear the sounds of BIG BEN? … lol

I am bored and in pain. I guess I shall go take a shower. I need one, trust me.

Do you ever look at a piece of art and get emotionally overtaken? Or a person? An object? I guess we all are. It is funny how you only have your own Halley's Comet only once in your lifetime :-) svoooshing by your own emotional universe. All you have left is falling starz.

You are Maryiln Monroe
A classic tortured beauty You're the dream girl of many men Yet they never seem to treat you right
What Famous Pinup Are You?





Real Stud Facts:

When a stud calls u
She wants to be with you

When a stud is quiet,
She's listening to you...

When a stud is not arguing,
She realizes she's wrong

When a stud says, "I'm fine, " after a few minutes,
She means it

When a stud stares at you,
She thinks you're the most beautiful thing in the world

When you're laying your head on a stud's chest
She has the world

When a stud calls you everyday
She is in love

When a (good) stud say she loves you
She means it

When a stud says she can't live without you
She's with you till your done

When a stud says, "I miss you, "
She misses you more than you could have ever missed her or anything else

Real Femme Facts:

When a femme is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind.

When a femme is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a femme looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a femme answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a femme stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so wonderful.

When a femme lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a femme calls you everyday,
she is seeking for your attention.

When a femme wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered.

When a femme says, "Ill love you forever, "
she means it.

When a femme says that she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a femme says, "I miss you, "
no one in this world can miss you more than that

As a stud, I totally agree with the facts about us, not soo sure about femmes, though. They tend to mean things at that moment, and later, they use the phrase "I meant it at the time!"...bullshit..lol

Okay! I am crazy I know. Everybody knows ...lol …known fact ... lol

So I have a new friend Michelle and she likes to write letters as I do. So I am extremely happy. One thing that made it more exciting, that I just got as a present a new fountain pen, directly shipped from Hungary. Rabbit’s mom sent it to me. I have been dying for one for the longest time.
I know, I know I could have easily bought one here, as I just found out from my friend Kat. Something about me going back to visit Hungary back in the summer of last year..lol… If I was OK with euro’s then I would have bought one from Italy, but I had emotional melancholic tie to getting it from Hungary. I couldn’t find any there.
Okay long story short, I went to a Stationary store in Fairfield…I mean this store has been there all the time.
Every day after work I would stop and enjoy the art gallery in downtown Fairfield and then spend time in the bookstore. Stationary store was across the street from the bookstore.
(Can you tell how excited I am?..can you?..lol)
I did my usual routine Thursday. I had cabin fever and after they took my staples out, I couldn’t wait to go to the gallery and look and then go to the bookstore…then I went in to THE STATIONARY store (dramatic music in the background… Hitchcock style…lol). I spent a lot of time drooling over golden tip fountain pens. After going dry I bought 2 disposable fountain pens… lol Irony… BUT I am going back, once I get tax money and soooo buying the ONE…lol

So I rewrote the letter with the 2 disposable f pens..lol ohhh!!! Yes!! The one from Hungary doesn’t work right. Yeah!!! I need to buy another bottle of ink I think. Clean the pen..lol then maybe that will write also …it is such a sexy fountain pen…hmm okay..Now I just have to send the letter… lol

I watched the movie Must Love Dogs. As I thought great movie. I got good taste, yes padding myself on the back. You go Katie! Would have been a great date movie.

I also watched Just Friends, OK movie and the movie…ummm…. DOOM. Oh yeah!!! What were my guy coworkers think when they said this was an awesome movie? I watched the training methods they thought the actors on how to use guns etc. … it was more exciting then the movie itself. Or the part of how they created the monster suits. Cool stuff, let me tell you. I prefer movies with the real plastic real looking monster stuff then the digitally created ones.
Like Catwoman, for example… You could soo tell it wasn’t her in soo many places, that is was digital… arghh …
If I want to see a digitally produced movie I watch the special fighting parts of Matrix.  I don’t know what I am saying here, cuz let me tell you, them leather outfits Halle was wearing, I would soo want my girl to wear something like that…I would sooo turn into a biting dog … or something ... lol Let me be the wall she climbs on 
Okay … sidetrack…what I am saying I do appreciate the digital movies a lot, but sometimes when you watch a movie and you are into it, not expecting it and there it is… disappointing, that’s all.

Another thing, I haven’t seen my new niece yet. My nephew Tristan has strep and Lorelai has a bad cold.  I just can’t afford to get sick at the moment. I am a horrible aunt.

Okay there are other things I would like to talk about (devilish giggle), maybe on my next entry 

STRANGER! if you, passing, meet me, and desire to speak to me, why should you
not speak to me?
And why should I not speak to you?

Just for a Time

Oh how you used to walk
With that insouciant smile
I liked to hear you talk
And your style
Pleased me for a while.

You were my early love
New as a day breaking in Spring
You were the image of
Everything
That caused me to sing.

I don't like reminiscing
Nostalgia is not my forte
I don't spill tears
On yesterday's years
But honesty makes me say,
You were a precious pearl
How I loved to see you shine,
You were the perfect girl.
And you were mine.
For a time.
For a time.
Just for a time.

I soo love this poem.

Well, I told mom today. of course the worries started, she went to bathroom to hide her tears. I was hoping i can tell my bro inperson, but i told him over the phone, in between explaining him about the psp and internet connection.

I tried soo hard today to hide under my comforter. I couldn't hide. It was dark and warm under, but I couldn't disappear. It is hard to hide from your own self.

I was up early and watched Interview with a vampire. Love this movie. To be a vampire with a human soul. An eternity of pain.
I also felt like him at some point. I know I know I am crazy, but I always wanted to make love with passion and release the animal at the same time. To penetrate and suck the neck at the same time. To look into the unknown and feel the warmth. To feel your chest breath heavily and hear your heart beat to the fear of how you will be touched. To bite you and pleasure you at the same time. To hear the moans of pleasure and energy released and captured by me. Hmm... Full moon always has an effect on me. :-)

Cassidy. For the last 2 days i have been watching her, wasn't sure why. Today i was outside in the snow with her, and once again i was watching her. Like i used to with Spotty. I am glad i did, cuz i noticed she is urinating blood. I couldn't see it in the mud, but today i did. Once again I am going away and have to ask mom to call the vet. I can not loose her also.

The feeling of getting lost and to disappear got worse, I got antsy and wanted to run. I got in the car. I didn't have a scrapper so i left things like that and cried like a baby. i took off barely having any visibilty. I went got bread and Bingo for grandpa and cigs for mom. I was slipping and sliding, and loved every second of it. The danger is like a drug for me. I love danger. I got stuck on a tiny hill, ice took over my tires, all i was able to do in this windy day was to back up and hope for the best. It worked.

Grandpa. He has been falling more in the house. I am worried about him. the meds don't help him. He is weak and he is drinkingmore wine and beer. I try mom tries, but no use. How can i deny him his wishes, even though he knows and we know it is wrong? I just hope that his falls are always near a bed, so he won't brake a bone. I fear every day I leave that when i come home either the house is burnt or find him laying on the floor dead. He forgets also.

argghh! this trip is soo long and boring and scary. I shall fly 12 hrs. I also will fly through snow storms. the third plane will be a tiny one, most likely a 7 seater. they are loud...lol Hope i got a gym there and a pool.
Hope the registers will cooperate with me and not give me trouble. Hmm

Okay i have to go out and go to the bank and pick up some stuff and say Goodbye to Laura. I most likely post some later, but it has to be after the 2 football games...lol

I don't feel like working.
I don't want to go back to that roach infested place.
I want a shower and want to lay in bed curled up.
I have been up since 5 ish and i am stil nowhere.
I don't want to go to work.
Okay they are twisters all over the place..lol why can't one come this way...lol Could clean some of theese roaches..lol
ok here we go..i need underwear..lol socks...clothes..such a nousence(can't spell it)

Egesz ejjel forgolodtam. nem aludtam, astan fel haromkor felkeltem valahogy. Le mentem a munkahelyre es aztan lementem a repuloterre.

A tegnap beszeltem vele, es most szaz szazalek hogy neki en soha sem lehetek az eletebe, ami nagyon faj nekem. Iszonyual szeretem ezt a csajt. Valahogy kell keresek egy modot, hogy ne is gondoljak arra a szep szemeire. A szep angyali hangjara, hmm...sajnos de valo.

Ma vegre ra vettem magam hogy letoroljem a hat megtartott jelenteset a telefonon. Bogtem, sirtam, zokogtam. Oooooo de boldogtalan vagyok.
Nem fogom sokat felhivni sem, azt mondta hogy en nem vagyok kellemes hangulatba es ot sokszor le huzom. Tehat en csak egy ....nincs mit csinaljak. Rossz vagyok neki es megkell ertsem.
Nincs mit csinaljak mostan.

Mindenki elhagyott engem ebben az evbe.

Ujra kell kezdjek mindent, es nem hiszem hogy van erom, vagy akaratom. Baratok, nem tudom hogy ha valaha tudok csinalni. Szeretni egy not, tehat az teljesen ki lessz uralva. Nem fogok soha tobbet no utan menni.

Valahogy egyedul el kell elnem. Gondolkoztam hogy adjuk el a hazat es koltozni ki valahova az erdore. Nem tudom, de jo volna elszaladni orokre.

Milyen jo volna elfelejteni sok mindent.

I was going to write on my reguar blog, but I decided to write here instead. Not like i have many readers on my blog, no one barely comments, okay on my b-day people commented, but that was just about it. Which is fine by me. I just need to let things out...good or bad.

The less people know how i feel the better it is.

Lets just say I have decided a couple of weeks ago that I have to change me. Over the years, women that i cared about and loved always said "Katie! Never change!". I should have known they were lies ...lol...ehh I don't care. Then last night i read a blog, that widely opened my eyes. You could call it as once a friend of mine said "brain surgery" Wow! I got one last night and also shed tears I thought i didn't have anymore. I wasn't cried out enough..can you fucking beleave it..lol It sure took a while to finally get it. I also don't blame myself totally, cause i did get mislead at some point. Which is quite alright, since flirting was always a favorite of mine.

Katie!STOP!

So I am, stopping. I tried and have failed.

I have been up since 3 am. I was starving and I didn't want to eat that early, so i stayed in bed and watched TV. Nothing caught my interest till later on, movie called "She Hate Me". Movie i have seen the last 20 min of(months ago), so i was glad to have seen it from beginning. It is about a VP of a company who is trying to find a vaccine for HIV. Of course corruption, lies, no loyalty etc is involved. He makes a phone call to the authorities and he gets canned. Betrayed and hurting for money, thanks to his ex-gf/fiance starts pregnating lesbian couples for $10,000 each. I think his conscious kicked in about on the 19th kid. They all made him sign to wave his parental rights. I don't see how this is soo unethical! How this is soo immoral!! Anyway...the lines that the lesbian ex-gf used with her gf was "I changed my mind". WOW!!!
WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!WOW!!! WOW!!!

Have I heard that line millions of times!...lol

OK SO i am a bit angry! NO Jealous! No! I think it is more then that! I don't think there is a word for it. Call it giving up totally! Call it Katie you are a fool! Who cares anyway.

I liked the movie. I also like the fact that the lesbians in the movie they were not(not all of them) the typical STRAIGHT world imagined lesbians. There were butches, heavy set, shy, timid, hard core lesbians. Pretty cool, also that they were all intelligent women. They knew what they want and they went for it. I like to do that. I do have to work on the outcome though..lol

Power lesbians. huh... love them or hate them...they are women..who can not love women?!...lol

Well he ends up with the lesbian couple as a thresome i guess. I can blog many pages about how i felt at the end of the movie. I can only say i feel for the gf of the guys fiance. I also know that when you love somebody soo much, nothing seems inpossible, so props to people who are inlove. Keep it up.

Then i got up after the movie and was starving, so i made coffee and breakfast for myself. fed the guinea pigs and let the dogs out individually out. Cold outside, nipples were a bit hard....lol i walk around naked.
If i could get my mind to shut off. To stop thinking, to try to figure out things. I often say that i can't sleep from the pain, but in reality i wake up from my nightmares and try to find a way to face my own life, the real nightmare. So while facing my reality I guess insomnia will be my partner in research.

Not many women impress me. Not many women know me, although many have said things are written on my face. I guess the women who want to know me, can read me. Thank GAWD that won't happen again.

So i started watching another movie. I couldn't concentrate long enough to read a line in a book, yet to pay attention to another movie, to which is ending was also a lesbain couple who killed the mobster and their people. Lesbians rule..lol Not being able to pay attention to read is horrible, i guess i have time on the road in the next comming month.

Tomorrow i shall fly to Atlanta, then come home, then off to Klamath Falls, Portland. Then who knows how long i shall be out due to surgery. Yeay!!! What a feeling..lol Looking forward to see the surgeon next monday. ( I wish i could find the x-ray cd..what the hell did i do with it?) I guess i reached a point where i said, FUCK IT! I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO LOOSE. The only one person i have to worry about that cares and loves me, is my mother. But my brother is around so she will always be taken care of.

To Know the truth is worse then Wanting to know the truth. How true. How true. How true.

Today is another day, not sure if it going to be gorgeous, since i saw clouds early morning, but it is a new day. I good day.
So i am gonna start rearranging my basement, then go to Naugatuck and hang with my friend, then off to the Movies with Darlyn, then off to pack and make the flight in a bad storm i guess.

HERE!!! HERE!!! FOR ME STOP TRYING!!! and to a NEW ME!!!

It has been a pain trip for me. I mean can i just tell you my left lung, is screaming as I write. I just want to reach in and take this pain out.
I went and did the catscans and the x-rays. I walked in and I was told "Sir, please take a seat!" I filled out my paperwork and the Nurse looked at me in an uncomfortable way and said "ma'am that will be $50. I told her I preffered when she called me SIr! It didn't involve money. She smiled. I am a handsome devil sometimes...lol
So i sat back down and read my book, Lea Delaria's book. I get walked into the "ROOM" and in the meantime the Nurse Lisa, had the need to tell me, extremely smiling, that she has seen her in P-town, live. I was like Cool! I am glad. I also for some freaking reason..not sure why..things just spill out of my mouth, with any reason "She is very controversial". why i said that I have no clue. I just wanted to be left alone and do the damn thing. Was not looking forward the piss feeling when they give me the ivy thing. OH YEAH!! I was soo nervous she couldn't find a good vein, so she gave me an Ivy on the upper part of my arm. Weird.

I saw two kids, that I love very much so. I had dinner with them. Their mom was kind enough to let them have it with me. Gawd! I missed them. They are smart and good. Mom did a god job.

I also saw my friend Kat. We played Ps2. Man is she good. I am soo rusty it is not even funny. I hate when i do special moves and i have no idea how i did them. :-)

I found this weird little clay thingie. I got it for Jenna. I also wrote a letter and dropped it off to her mailbox saturday. I also was lucky as hell to see her drive by on the road. What a cool moment. She looked soo good. When she called me back, and said that she is on the same road...lol...you know that feeling of just wanting to look in the mirror and see if you look ok, or something...so i started looking around the car, I told Jean to sit up straight..I was like wow..can this be true?! I can actually see her?...lol I know I am a moron..you don't have to tell me.

She smiled. She looked good. She smiled.

I hope she liked the little creature and hope she didn't get upset about the letter.

So yeah, I think the letter was a stupid thing I did. But it is done and over with.

Oh yeah! my next project is out of wack. I am going to Oregon next week and I am not even close ready hardware or software wise. I got this new software and the cash drawer is in conflict with the printer. Communication software is in beta stages still and the other register decides to crash after 3 reformats. ARGH!! i even went in on saturday to work.Reformated one and hoping by me shutting it down and rebooting it won't crash again. Very wrong thing to do to do this install. WRONG!!!
On top I will be all lone in a hotel rom on my birthday. How peachy!!!
Ok I just finished moving all the furniture and rehooked the wireing...I am going to take 2 pain pills and 2 muscle relaxants and my last 2 antibiotics. All drugged up and hope to sleep.
Yeah! If anybody saw the alst 2 min of the Giants game please tell me they WOn. I HAD to move furniture in the laat 2 min. Argh!!