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Why don't you find me?

The Phantom of the Shrub

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(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[13 Apr 2008|12:11pm]

[ mood | distressed ]

[ music | Zune shuffle ]

Well, I'm still having trouble sleeping in my room. Last night I saw a little web strand and it freaked me out to think there's something in here. Dammit, for all I know it could be a tiny little thing. If they're tiny I'm not so scared, but they're still gonna die if I see them. Man, Susan Kay's Erik would really hate me. >_>; I know I could just put them outside...Ah, who am I kidding? I can't even go near a big oogly spider. ): I'd love to not be scared of them, I really would, but all that rational thought gets tossed out the window as soon as one catches me by surprise. I can't even look at pictures online! I can't say I have any desire to overcome my fear of them.

ANYWAY since I do hate killing them and I hate getting Chris over here to kill them ( and I'm sure he hates having to drop everything he's doing to do so), I really would prefer them just not being in my room at all. I looked online to see if there was any way to repel spiders naturally. I guess chestnuts do the trick, they hate the smell? Well, I'm gonna try that out. I'm going to buy a ton of chestnuts and put them all over my room. If they really work no spider's gonna wanna be anywhere near here. I guess they hate the smell of citrus too so maybe I'll get some lemon pledge or something too. Wish me luck!

OKAY I'M DONE TALKING ABOUT SPIDERS NO MORE JOURNAL ENTRIES DEVOTED TO THESE THINGS

I'M DONE WITH THIS CRAP

(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

I... [11 Apr 2008|10:56am]

[ mood | sad ]

[ music | Huuummmmmmmmmm ]

Hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate HATE spiders. ):

Hate them.

I haven't been able to sleep well the past couple nights because I think there are spiders in my room. Well...there was one the other night ago, but Chris killed it for me before I even saw it. But, I guess the thought of them crept into my mind and I've been on guard in my sleep now. And the last night I was flipping through Nintendo Power and they had an article about this new game coming out, and THERE WAS THIS HUGE ASS CG SPIDER THING ON THE PAGE, IN ALL IT'S UGLINESS. DAMMIT NINTENDO POWER I HATE YOU ARGOGJFIGONBJFDBVGHBFWJKN. There was scorpions in the article too since it's called "Spiders vs. Scorpions", but I'm not scared of those guys so much in that I can actually look at them without screaming in horror. Damn, who thought that would be a good idea for a game? AND WHO IN THE HELL THOUGHT HAVING A GIANT SPIDER PICTURE WOULD BE A SMASHING ACCENT TO AN ARTICLE ABOUT SAID GAME? Well... it does make sense but still. ): Anyway, seeing that set my imagination for last night, and I woke up in a panic because I thought I felt one on me. Chris had to come and check around my bed and console me. ._.; I couldn't sleep well after that.

I hate spiders, but I hate how I'm scared of them. I wish they weren't so ugly and had all those eyes. Creepy, soulless eyes. Ugh...Maybe I should blame my parents for leaving arachnophobia on TV when I was a little un. ):

ALRIGHT, I'M DONE HERE. GOTTA GET BACK TO WORK

(1 Dared to say so... | Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[24 Jan 2008|08:54pm]

[ mood | Not as crushed ]

[ music | rain ]

Okay, so today was a little better...Chris had a job interview thingy today, and it sounded really promising. A staffing agency actually interviewed him, and they are going to refer him to a different place, where he may be hired. I'm going to pray that he gets it. He wasn't feeling so great today though, I think he might have food poisoning? Poor Chris. ): In other news, I got Blink a better kitty litter box, I hope she likes it. She hasn't used it yet though. I was at Petsmart, just looking at all the different ones for like, 40 minutes or something. I'm so picky when I shop. ;3; I'm trying not to think so much about the stuff that's happened recently...I'm feeling a little "better" about the whole thing; I guess it's not really better, per say, but more of a realization of things.

I've been doing some researching, and I think (Have I said this before? Oh well, whatever. I'll say it again) in a few months, I'm going to add a parrot to my little family. I don't want to get one right now (Well, I do, but I can't) because of current housing conditions. I'm planning to move in April or so, and when I get settled in I'll start looking for a little buddy. I'm thinking I really want a Caique. Here's a really funny video of one that cracks me up like nothing else: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3UsfpGoKJk. I want a guy that's going to be with me for years, and can come with me on adventures and stuff. Sparrows are so fragile, and it's too heartbreaking to see my babies leave me so fast ...did that just sound creepy? Well, whatever. All my pets? They be my babies.

(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[23 Jan 2008|06:00pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

Oh God I killed my bird! I killed him I... I found out what happened to Jack... The bird feeder I have for him, it's supposed to be automatic and I think it got stuck. I read a post on a parrot message board and they had a thread warning about those bird feeders, saying they don't always dispense properly. Out of curiosity I finally looked in his cage again today and there was no food in the bowl part. He doesn't eat seed all that fast so I didn't notice that it wasn't emptying! He starved to death... he wasn't sick, or too old; he died because he starved! Oh God, I'm not going to be able to forgive myself now. Why didn't I notice?! It was almost better thinking he was just sick and I didn't catch on to it, but knowing he died because of that. I starved my bird, one of my best buddies in this world! I hate myself right now. I'm throwing that fucking bird feeder away...but I can't blame the feeder, I can only blame myself and I hate that.

Maybe it's weird to ask forgiveness, but I hope Jack can forgive me. I hate myself right now. I feel lower than dirt. My poor Jack! He was telling me he was hungry...

I'm sure Jack would forgive me, but it's going to be a bit before I forgive myself. I'll make it up to him when I do get another bird. That bird will be treated like a king. ;_;

Until then, I'm going to crawl into a hole and die.

EDIT: Okay, I've calmed down a little more now. I know it's not my fault, and things do happen. I can't forgive myself quite yet, but I'm trying not to beat myself over this. I'll just be thankful for the time I was with Jack. I'll try not to regret, it'll only make me resentful and wish for the past. This was meant to happen; it's terrible that whatever I was meant to learn happened this way, but I'll become a better person for the future.

I still really miss Jack, though...Sorry for such lame entries lately. On the bright side, it's raining. ...Haahaa. I guess that's not really "bright". I love the rain though. I also got a cat I love very much on my lap, warming me up.

(1 Dared to say so... | Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[18 Jan 2008|07:59am]

[ mood | crushed ]

I loved you Jack, and I'm really gonna miss you...

We had some pretty good times together, and I'm so sorry for the times I took you for granted. I'm sorry I couldn't hang out with you as much as I used to, because of the cats. You used to be able to fly where ever you wanted, but it all changed when I got blink and we moved in with my brother and sister-in-law. I'm so sorry...I'll probably regret that for a while...it wasn't right how you had to hang out in your cage because of the cats. Yet, you always chirped and you were always happy to see me. The few times I was able to let you out when we lived here, you were always happy to just be with me.You were so cute when you did that puffy thing, and it was cute how you had a crush on my brother. I'm going to miss you deciding 5 was a good time to start chirping and how you threw your seed around everywhere. I wish you could have stayed around a little longer. Someday, another bird may come into my life. If that bird is even half as cool as you, I'll be happy. Oh, I miss you already ;____;

This post is for you, Jack. I'll aways remember how cool of a bird you were.

RIP Jack 7/29/2005-1/18/2008

I'm going to go curl up in bed and continue to cry my eyes out now.

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CRUISE CONTROOOOL [24 Dec 2007|06:04am]

[ mood | awake ]

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

ALL OF US HERE WISH ALL OF YOU OUT THERE NOTHING BUT HAPPINESS AND SUGAR AND RAINBOWS

EVEN MY CAT, BUT THAT'S JUST ME DOIN' THAT THING WHERE I INSERT MY EMOTIONS INTO MY CAT OR SOMETHING.

JACK THE SPARROW DOES WISH IT THOUGH, NONE OF THAT PROJECTING CRAP THERE.

SO YEAH MERRY CHISTMAAAAAAS

(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[21 Nov 2007|10:58pm]

[ music | Schala and the Queen ]

OH LOL

I don't know if you guys have seen this, but every time I see it I just LOOOOOL

Sorry, I don't know how to LJ cut. ): That's okay though, it's pretty lovely.

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OH BABY OH BABY [18 Nov 2007|05:55pm]

[ mood | cheerful ]

OH LAWDY I WENT TO VEGAS THIS WEEKEND. :D I just came back a couple hours ago; I went with Chris and his parents as a birthday present for both of us. And finally, after much waiting, I got to see the Phantom of the Opera in Vegas. That was AWESOOOOME. The acting was top-notch, but I wasn't too crazy about Christine's voice and sometimes I wasn't so crazy about the phantom's voice either. I loved the special effects. Special effects are always awesome. :D I had to explain a few things to Chris, since they changed a few things to make it shorter and no intermission, but he liked it a lot. That's good, cause he'll probably see POTO many more times in the future if he's gonna stick around with me. AND HE WILL TOO BECAUSE IF HE LEAVES ME I'LL HUNT HIM DOWN AND BLOW HIM UP. (:

YEAH SO PHANTOM WAS AWESOME AND THAT'S THE TRUTH. I brought my doll based on Erik (Book version) and a few people complimented him, but no one knew who he was supposed to be. Well...they thought he was cool at least. XD I carried him around a bit after too while I did the gambly. All in all, he was not a good luck charm. DAMN YOU ERIK YOU JERK. Well, I did win 8 bucks when he was around. I LOST IT ALL AGAIN THOUGH SO THAT DOESN'T COUNT. ):<

This leads me to what I learned in Vegas: I'm not lucky when it comes to gambling. Chris is even less lucky. I also learned to look at the machine before putting in money and going for it. So yeah, I think we will probably stay away from the gambles in the future. Or get smarter about it. XP

(2 Dared to say so... | Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[25 Aug 2007|05:27pm]

[ mood | chipper ]

HELLO FROM OREGON U GUYZ

IT'S SO PRETTY HERE

BUT THE PEOPLE ARE KIND OF WEIRD AND STUFF WHY IS THAT????

I DON'T THINK THEY LIKE CALIFORNIANS BUT THAT'S TOO BAD BECAUSE I LOVE IT HERE

So yeah, I got the chance to go to Oregon this weekend on account of the cousin of Chris is having a wedding and they live up in Portland. :D I've never been to Oregon before so of course I wanted to go! We drove up here and we stopped by the Asian Art Museum in San Fran to see the Tezuka exhibit one more time. Heh...that's one of the main reasons I wanted to drive up instead of fly; I really wanted to see that exhibit one more time and buy the crap out of the museum store.

Oh yeah! in sort of bad news, my laptop R-66Y died on me last weekend. ): This was a problem as I cannot live without the Internet or a computer in general... Thankfully I had the money to buy a new laptop, so I went to Fry's with Chris and managed to find a cool one. I'm sad that R-66Y died, but I sure am pleased with my new lappy, Oat Bunches. (X

In other news, my classes started up last week and so far I'm liking them, and my Daddio is getting married a week and a day from now.

I think I've covered everything that's happened recently. Maaan, so much crap, all happening at once! O_O I'd like to write in this more often. I think I will do so.

(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[03 Jul 2007|01:28pm]

[ mood | In pain ]

Yay, Anime Expo was pretty fun, even though it was in Long Beach. Actually, it wasn't one of the better Anime Expos. It was greatly hampered because Long Beach is stupid.

I was able to finish my Pit costume and it was all awesome and old school, but I didn't remember to take pictures of it. D: It was nice; a fair amount of people recognized who I was and it was a lot of fun to be Pit. I might jazz up my costume a little and go as him next year too. ^_^

Highlights of Expo was the peace bonding of my crappy bow and arrow (Which was one of those plastic crappers for kids. You know what I'm taking about!), seeing someone cosplay as Black Jack (And they recognized my cosplay too! It was like, "It's Pit!" "O_O IT'S BLACK JACK!"), vendor hall, all the wacky antics during Masquerade, watching Tokyo Godfathers, running around as Pit.

Bad things about Expo: Location, bad organization with lines (Putting pasty anime/gaming fans/geeks outside for a few hours in the hot sun = Not a winner), bad organization in general, location, lack of fast food restaurants, people are douches in Long Beach, Masquerade sucked for the most part besides the wacky antics, location, waited 3 hours for our badges. Also my period started on the last day.

I hope it's in Anaheim next year, it's nicer there and people tolerate our wacky antics better.

Fricken' Anime Expo, you made me act all weeaboo for 4 days. D:

(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[13 Jun 2007|11:45pm]

[ mood | sore ]

[ music | Zelda CDI: The Experience ]

Holy crap, Anime Expo's coming up. O_O I gotta get working on my costume! I'm going to be Pit from Kid Icarus! :D

Huh, what a random thing to start off with...Anyway, I'm a summarize what has happened recently. Dude, is it June 13th already? O_O DUUUUDE! Well yeah, at the beginning of the month I went on vacation with Chris to the San Fransisco area. It was partially for this convention I wanted to go to, (WOO Dollectable! Uh, did I mention I'm all into BJDs? Hmm, I guess not. o_o I've been really quiet about it but I've actually been collecting them since last July. Oh well, now you know! I'll elaborate about the whole thing and the fandom in general sometime. If you're curious, just look up Asian Ball-jointed-dolls or Super Dollfies. No, I'm not as crazy as some of the crap you'll see. I just like to choose the fandoms with a higher amount of insane people, I guess.) and since we went so far away we decided to stay a few days after the convention to tour San Fran, and it was much fun. We went various places, like Alcatraz and this museum that had a Tezuka Exhibit, and I bought a ton of crap. I found a San Fransisco Music Box Company up there too. Of course, I added two POTO music boxes to the ton of crap I bought. D: Then when we left we visited out good friend up in Santa Cruz for a few hours and headed back.

It was a fun vacation overall. :D

Other notable things:

- My boyfriend's bro got married
- I'm a lazy bum
- We went to Disneyland on Monday and we bought annual passes despite the fact that Disneyland, while fun, makes me sad as it feels like a lot of the "Disney magic" is gone forever due to how crappy their movies are now. You know, the blatant, "LET'S MAKE A QUICK BUCK GUYS I KNOW HOW LET'S MAKE ANOTHER DISNEY SEQUEL :DDDDDDD LOLOL WHAT IF THE SLIPPER DIDN'T FIT?????????"
- Walt Disney was NOT cryogenically frozen, much to my dismay. He's just buried somewhere in Glendale

(2 Dared to say so... | Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[23 May 2007|08:43am]

[ mood | In pain ]

[ music | PUPPY WHIIIRL ]

OH LORD WHY DOES IT STILL HURT DDDDDD:

MY UTERUS, IT'S DOING THAT THING

STOP DOING THAT, IT HURTS

YOU ARE MY UTERUS, YOU NEED TO STOP.

In other news I'm reading Phantom of the Opera again. I had this one translation I haven't read yet so I'm reading it. I've noticed some spelling mistakes and stuff, but it's no big deal. I've noticed, whenever it talks about the managers, I always think of them as one lump of Firmin and Armand and they be just doin' their thing. It's like, can't be just Firmin or can't be just that other guy. THEY ARE STUCK TOGETHER FOREVER IN SOME WONDER BOND.

Ah, they're cool. BUT I'M WAITING FOR THE PERSIAN'S MOMENT TO SHINE OH LORD HE'S THE COOLEST EVER I DON'T CARE WHAT 300 SAYS ABOUT PERSIANS THIS GUY IS COOL.

(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

Haahaa cowooorkeeerrrrs [21 May 2007|11:03pm]

[ music | dancing grandpa song thingy ]

Yeah, so last night I dreamed that Erik and Christine were coworkers at your typical desk job thingy and they were at a company Christmas party and he was all O3O;;; around her and she was all C: around him and he wore a mask for medical reasons and other weird stuff happened. I think he mentioned something about having another mask made currently that'll improve his appearance and he hopes she would like it and she was still all C: at him. He had a cool voice and stuff. Other parts of my dream included a robot segment and my childhood house's backyard was an ocean with penguins in it.

:D

I'm bleeding. BLEEDING A RIVER OF BLOOD THROUGH MY NO-NO SPOT.

(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[15 May 2007|01:35am]

DIG DIG DIG DIG DIG DIG

:D

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[24 Apr 2007|06:35pm]

[ mood | hungry ]

[ music | Evanescence. >_>; ]

Turns out I was much too lazy to do much of anything today, so I mostly just waffled around. I WENT TO THE BANK AND GOT THE MONEY TO PAY MY RENT TO MY BROTHER AND SISTER-IN-LAW THOUGH, 1 DAY EARLY EVEN!!! I also went to Costco and got some stuff, like vitamins, some weight-loss shake thingies because I want to lose some weight, and this cool memory foam pillow.

TIME HAS SPOKEN, I WAS A LAZY PUNK TODAY. AND TONIGHT ~~I DINE IN HELL~~ CHRIS WILL COME OVER TO BOTHER ME <333

(Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[24 Apr 2007|11:00am]

[ mood | lazy ]

OH LORD I'M SO LAZY TODAY.

IT'S 11 A.M. AND I'M STILL IN BED.

BUT MY CAT IS WITH ME, AND I'M PETTING HER FAT BELLY.

SHE'S A FAT FAT CAT.

Maybe I'll go over to my Dad's house and walk my dogs today. Oh, I have to do laundry too...That means I need to go to the store and get some quarters. Do I need more detergent? Ah, I hate shopping for stuff sometimes because there's a million brands and I'm always confused on what to get. Or maybe I'll clean my room...

OR MAYBE I'LL JUST SIT ON MY BUTT ALL DAY SURFING THE INTERTUBES ONLY TIME WILL TELL

(3 Dared to say so... | Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[15 Apr 2007|05:12pm]

[ mood | sick ]

I'm all sickly with cold. D:

Some of my friends are watching wrestling. I don't get what's going on oh hay the world's kind of spinning right now

spinning

spinning

OH LORD MY ICONS FREAKING ME OUT

I hope I'll be okay tomorrow, I need to go to works

(5 Dared to say so... | Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[25 Mar 2007|11:16pm]

[ mood | tired ]

I had a cool dream last night, I dreamt I was Pit from Kid Icarus. Yeah, I dream I'm male characters sometimes; it's a little strange I guess. At least I think it might be strange? I dunno. XP BUT IT WAS COOL BECAUSE I COULD FLY. :D I was looking for the queen and I flew a great distance looking for her, and I broke into a bank (Which had traps everywhere. O_O I was all like screw this and got back out of there.) and other things happened like ghetto gang-bangers and meeting the creator of Kid Icarus and becoming his inspiration for said game. I finally flew home unsuccessful and found that the queen was safe after all. WELL WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME YOU HAGS. I would say it was an awesome dream, simply because I love dreams where I can fly and Pit is cooler than sliced beans.

Other stuff has happened in my life recently too, but that's not as important as telling my journal and anyone who reads it my awesome dream.

No wait, I had to spend like, 700 bucks on my car recently. WHAT A WHORE D:< It's all good now though.

(5 Dared to say so... | Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

[20 Feb 2007|12:58am]

[ mood | sleepy ]

OH LORDY I WAS COMPLETELY GOING TO WRITE SOMETHING INTERESTING HERE, THEN I REALIZED IT'S LIKE 1 IN THE MORNING. D: And my cat is cuddling with me. Goodnight everyone!

(5 Dared to say so... | Ah, I frighten you, do I?)

Where Katrina explains a small portion of her day- [06 Feb 2007|12:09am]

[ mood | hot ]

Alright, so I was eating cereal today, right? And my milk went bad, apparently. ): I had my bro smell it, as I don't have a sense of smell. He said it was bad. YOU EXPIRE TOMORROW STUPID MILK.

So yeah yeah. I borrowed some milk from him, I ate the cereal, and after I was pretty much done I thought I saw one of those bugs that like to hang out in grains. I was all O__O at first but I found that it was actually a small piece of the cereal.

It still made me not want to finish it.

Stupid Cereal.

Oh yeah... And blood is oozing out of me, as well as the lining of my uterus. ):>

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