I'm in the process of moving livejournals from keptclose to writtenwings. It'll take a little while to complete the move what with the community-jumping and such, but I'm working on it. Soooo, look for me there. I'll refriend everyone shortly.

If you're wondering why I'm switching (since you probably aren't), it's because I'm hoping to get a paid account in a few months, and I wanted to be sure I'd have a journal I'd want to keep long-term. Worth paying for, y'know. 'keptclose' is just pretty. writtenwings actually means something to me.

See you there =D

temporaryfix = paid account!

Celebration!

On a smaller note, I'm thinking of changing accounts. To a name that actually means something to me.

I want to write. I really want to write. But ... there's something in the way. I'm not sure exactly what it is, even. No inspiration? I feel more like there's too much. Too many ideas, too many options about what to write. I'm not sure. Hmm.

I tried oneword to see if the prompt would help, but it was 'pane', which is... very unhelpful to me. Honestly. I write medieval-type fantasy, which doesn't focus heavily on window panes. Haha.

I've got top model on in the background =P

Okay, I think I'm going to try to get a prompt of some sort and just go with it. I should probably write a fic for h_e, though, if only for participation points. -sigh- But I'm thinking about changing my scene. I like the Cho idea, but there are other things that could be just... great.

I'll ask Aze =)

Wow.

( Oh my, I'm a Squib because I'm well-rounded ^____^ )

You know how I feel, theweed =P

-wants to update-

...

-has nothing to say-

Wow, I feel like such a spambot. Okay. Mom and Dad are in the Shenandoahs. Their sexful weekend vacation didn't turn out how they planned. It was snowing too heavily for them to get on Skyline Drive to the hotel they planned to stay at, so they turned back, got hit by a car which dented the side of Mom's van (but no one got hurt, sounds like, thank God), and stayed in a small town's hotel... and the power there cut off at about 8. So things haven't gone as sexfully as they wished. (Actually, I don't know about that. Sex in the dark is quite possible, and I wouldn't put it past them. Er.)

So... Cris and I watched Underworld. I'm thinking of watching Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights if there's nothing on TV. (Hey, Javier's adorable, and I don't get enough accessible testosterone in my life.) I've also been (slowly) reading over my NaNo stuff. So far I'm still on the first short story. =3

I've decided that I want to watch Tristan & Isolde now =(

So, I suppose that's all. I've been such a bum. I haven't done anything productive online at all in the last few days... in fact I've hardly been online. I just haven't had the desire. Hopefully it comes back in time for Hogsmeade.

Er. Bye =)

I'm alive. =)

( Maybe someday, maybe never. )


Mmkay. Next are my personality traits, oh joy. I’ll get to that tomorrow or the next day depending on how school goes… =)

Dad stole the laptop when House came on x_x; My initial reaction was "Asshole" but... it's his laptop, if he wants to use it to paste a coworker's face over Harry Potter's while he watches House, that's his prerogative. Yeah. But I can't see the TV from the desktop computer and it's slightly depressive. =3

I'm thinking of applying to fourhouseunion. That, and/or taking a writing prompt and just going with it for my original fiction, which I really need to do. I can start my 100originalfics challenge. I started the application to 4hu already... that's when Dad took the laptop.

So I bitched at Aze earlier for, apparently, no reason, but people need to realize that text on the internet is toneless x_x; You can't hear the sarcasm in 'asshole' or whatever. That's the main reason I'm a smiley face whore. At least with the smiley face people can tell you're kidding. I just thought Aze knew me well enough to know that if she doesn't put in some smiley faces or something I'll take her seriously. I've told her she needs to put a smiley face into her post to lighten it up enough times that... well... I assumed, and you know what they say about assuming. -sigh- Besides, you may have been kidding, but you still probably meant it a little, Aze, or you wouldn't have said anything. Ugh. x_x

Alright, well, anyway. I've been craving something lately. Usually I don't eat a lot, but today I've wanted something but I haven't known what it is, so I've been eating a little bit of everything trying to figure it out. It's bothering me. I think I'm about to start my period, which would explain the moodiness, the cravings, and the excessive need to drink Mountain Dew... or at least I think so on the latter one. And I wanted brownies earlier but the family finished the ones I made when I spent the weekend at Aze's .___.

Well, yeah, bored. I suppose that's all.

Three dreams last night/this morning. One with Ashton Kutcher (I guess because I was watching That 70s Show last night), one with the next generation Marauders, and one at Staples o.o Quite a random combination.

( Cuts it cause the edit makes it rather long o.O )

I'll take that as a sign. Here I am, watching Batman Begins and trying to redo my userinfo when the laptop just DIES. I couldn't figure out what was wrong with it since the power cord was plugged into the back of the laptop and into the wall... but a little investigating revealed that the cord from the wall had loosened itself from the AC to DC adapter. Oi.

Well, all fixed, but I lost my image =3 Sadness. I guess I'll redo it another time. Or just make it imageless for the time being. That sounds good.

I have a lot of communities to investigate and consider joining now =o I was finding writing comms for Ash and I got on a roll =o I think the list I compiled may frighten her a bit. She's new to LJ, after all... I'd be a little intimidated. Mer.

I've got a while to go before I apply for a shop at diagon_elite. It's only been a day, but it doesn't look like either of my knockturn images are going to place. Sadness. It's good, though, because I'll have plenty of examples to show when I apply and stuff to put in the shop when and if I get one.

My contact is being a bugger =3

I should really write my entry for the quibbler elite fiction challenge, but I'm rather lazy at the moment .__.

Alright, off to fix my userinfo -- temporarily imageless -- and investigate writing communities.

Stupid stupid hair. I hate Garnier 2-in-1 shampoo/conditioner. It seriously wreaks havoc with my hair. I should really be working on my English paper but I'm spazzing over this stiff section of hair that the Garnier crap causes. I miss my Pert Plus. Sadness.

I'm feeling moody. Earlier I was pissed at my mom and brother for a retarded reason. Oi. I'm kinda hungry.

Earlier I was checking taken lj names instead of doing my schoolwork. I came up with a shitload, just ask Aze. I emailed them to her. I want to use some of them so bad but I'm kind of attached to this journal in that I'd be too lazy to switch everything to another one.

I kinda want them to go to good use, so if you're looking for a journal name, which I doubt any of you are, just ask me and I'll show you some I came up with. I don't ever use numbers or underscores, so they're all just words. Meh. =/

Mad pluggage:

witchfox
Tis Ash, my rl friend who lives in Alaska. =) Love ya, Ash.

( Movie survey )

I hate you Noah -_-; Why'd you have to add to the list? Like every movie I haven't seen. Eee. =P But dude, I still pwned you. Unless I added wrong -_-; I should double check but I'm happy with pwning you, so I won't. =)

The ones I put (own it) behind are ones I haven't seen but I know I own. I also own a lot of those I have seen, but yeah.

Better update later, hopefully. Sort of watching Charmed.

Spent the weekend at Aze's. Watched Brokeback Mountain; that = sexy. It's funny, I like it more thinking back on it when I did when we first walked out of the theater, because then it was just like... we heard about it everywhere, everyone said it was so great, so perfect, and we were just expecting way too much for any movie to deliver. But in retrospect, it's such a beautiful story. I want to give Ennis hugs. Lots of hugs. =(

I slept all kinds of screwed up at Aze's house, I need to get back on track.

Um. I guess that's it for now aside from complaints about parents who refuse to get pulpless orange juice because (nasty) pulpy orange juice is 'so much healthier'. Ha. Love you guys.

I'm watching the Phantom of the Opera finally and all I can say is "...teh fuck?" Maybe if it wasn't such a musical, I've always found musicals corny. When she's walking through the graveyard singing I'm going, "Who really sings to themselves for no reason?" Maybe I just think too much o.o

( I doubt I need a spoiler warning, but, um, here you are just in case. )

Right. Aze's coming over tonight... and right now I should write the fic for the h_e fiction contest =o I think I've done all the necessary comment whoring, and I've done five Sorting apps this week, so I should be good for h_e and my loverly friends list.

Oh, I know! I should shower! XD Bleargh.

Okay, so yesterday was freaking blah. I woke up at 1:30 X) Cris came in at ten to get me up and I said 'Come back at eleven.' And he came back at eleven and I said, 'You should lay down with me for a while.' And we fell asleep until 1:30.

In other news, Dad is back on nights. Which... I'm not sure if that's good or bad. -sigh-

Anyway, I was thinking. I'm always doing something to fuck up Cris' school. It's just... I'm expected to get Cris through his school, do my own school, and do chores. And then, if I have time, y'know... have a life. It wouldn't be so bad except that Cris can't do anything on his own. You give him the tiniest amount of slack and he'll fucking hang himself with the rope you've given him. I am supposed to be up his ass about his school work every day, check to make sure he's done every little thing, help him with any problems he may have, ask him questions to make sure he's actually read everything... make sure he put his vocabulary in the computer... Agh. I don't have any help with my schoolwork. No one teaches me or checks up on me. On the one hand I'm glad about that since I can slack off and not work for a day and Dad doesn't know. On the other, I'm afraid I'm not motivated enough to get myself through school on time on my own. I have five more courses to do by the end of May/beginning of June. That's one a month. I'm sure I can do it if I really bear down, but I'm very bad at measuring distance, time, anything like that. I was going to be done with Literature by Christmas. Then by 2006. Now I'm hoping to be done by next week. Ugh.

So yes. That was yesterday. Today Dad had Mom get us up at 7 so we could get work done. I took a shower and lounged around eating and watching TV until about 10. Then I worked for a while and went up to check on Cris around 11:30. He was almost done, but not there yet, so I napped for an hour =) He woke me up at 12:30 to do his spelling and check over all his work to make sure he'd done everything for the day. Then I went downstairs and did more work for a while. I'm not sure exactly how long, but I outlined and started writing both of my remaining assignments for Literature. I'm almost certain I can finish them tomorrow.

I've been especially sensitive about Dad and my boobs lately. I finally put words to it: for me, boobs are associated with sex. The one who messes with my breasts should be a lover. NOT my father. It's just... gross. I mean, honestly, he looks at other women's breasts in a sexual way, and... I know he doesn't look at me that way, but that doesn't make it any less disgusting. He thinks now that I don't want him messing with my nipples because he's instilled this self-consciousness about getting hard nipples in me -- and he has. Ever since I was little he would point out women in movies with hard nipples and say things like 'She must be cold' and laugh. Small wonder growing up with that made me self-conscious. But anyway, I told Mom and Cris why I really don't want him messing with my boobs, but I can't tell him. I remember the one time I told him I didn't want him touching my breasts he got into a huge pissy fit and said, "Fine, I won't touch you at all anymore, and don't you try touching me. I can't hug you because MY CHEST WOULD BE TOUCHING YOUR BOOBS." And a week later everything was back to normal and he was freaking poking at my boobs again. Dad does shit like that. He gets mad for no reason and three hours later nothing's wrong, nothing happened. On the one hand that's good because he doesn't hold grudges about it or anything. On the other... -sigh-

Maybe I should put this under a cut. But I'm pretty much done and it's not that long... I think. So I'll just wrap it up. I should go sort my final application to make the quota of five a week. I think I only have one more. Anyway. Later.

Travis called and woke me up from a series of very good dreams, which is especially sad since I forgot all but two of them while I was on the phone with him. He's coming home from Iraq in about a month, and he apparently wants to come visit me at the end of February... but that scariness is a whole other story.

Anyway, the dreams. In one I was back in Bonifay. I was at school... maybe it was a school reunion or something. Everyone was the same except Josh, who was Josh by name and by history, but didn't look or act like him at all. And he was bisexual. For some reason. It's weird because... it's like Josh and I had gotten back together, and I saw Jason up against the wall looking kind of spooked, and when I talked to him he said something like, "Someone told me Taylon was gay." I laughed and said, "Don't worry, he isn't going to hit on you or anything even if he is gay." But it's funny because Jason was the only Bonifay resident who ever said anything about being bisexual... aside from the dry humping, everyone else was pretty homophobic.

Well anyway, Taylon gave me his number to give Josh, and our faces were like inches apart, and I remember thinking at that moment, "Well, now I've kissed before, I won't be all scared to move forward with Josh." And Taylon said, "You should call me sometime, too." All suggestive, and then he left.

What a weird dream.

Then the other one I remember was this slightly insane guy who only felt safe when it was very foggy, and I entered his memory or something... he was on a dock staring into this thick fog, and he could make out the shapes of ships. The weird thing was, some of the ships were modern and others were old pirate-type ships, like we were in the Bermuda Triangle and there was a time warp or something. Anyway, in the distance some ships at dock were on fire...

Then the fog cleared out, and a hurricane started to blow up. The guy started to run. He was running and he saw his mom out looking for him, and she fell into the water and drowned, which has made him guilty for years and is why he's slightly insane.

That was that dream.

I remember part of another one, vaguely... I just know Mom and I were going through some old stuffed animals and clothes, and Cris was there. I saw this shirt of mine, and there was another shirt underneath it. They both said something, but I just remember the one on the bottom said something about smoking pot, and Cris pounced on it. He wanted to keep it. For some reason I was angry at him for stealing my shirt even though I've never owned a shirt that said anything about pot and I'd never really want to... and I was telling Mom he stole my shirt and it wasn't fair. But then this gang of kids saw his shirt and circled around him, getting ready to beat him up. Yeah... I was pretty glad I wasn't wearing that shirt then.

And that's all I remember of my dreams last night. o.o Now to eat.

This journal is not friends only. =D I'm starting a new trend ;D Just kidding. Anyway, this post will list my journal tags, friends filters, and the like. Things I want in easy 'reaching distance' in my journal. Hover over tags for a description.

Tags

RL || dream log / spam / to-do lists
Misc || rants / ramblings / private / graphics

Genres || writing / original fiction / fandom / hp / eysuria / somnion / blurbs
Logs || character / worldgen / race / theology / geography / hierarchy / magic / prompts

Filters

rl friends / online friends / updates / contest / writing

Links for me

comms || ___carpenoctem / animagus_elite / blurted / canon_addendum / creevey_elite / diagon_elite / eagle_eyed / everyone_fails / hogwarts_elite / knockturn_elite / library_elite / ministry_elite / muggle_elite / owlery_elite / pomfrey_elite / quibbler_elite / quills_elite / runes_elite / smotheredspeech / sorting_elite / theclawworkshop / theveil_elite / 100originalfics / __fantasynovel / addme_fantasy / epicfantasy / word_painting / worldbuilding / write_away / writers_block / writers_guild / cues / drabblemania / he_secret / hp_secrets / hp_sticks / plottingfiction / promptlywriting / utter_rubbish


edit Zomg. Sticky post = annoying, I give up. I'm backing it up to the actual day it was posted.

( defaults for character logs )

Woo woo. Subject to change, but of course. And additions and suchlike. But those are the current templates. ;D

Oh, right, instructions. For the Sorting app-splice in particular, fill it out twice; each applicable question shall be answered once from my point of view and once from the character’s, though of course about the character. … I just got another idea. -adds a textarea above- Okay, for the character opinions thing, of course do one for each character and change him/her to the appropriate pronoun.

Happy New Years everyone!

( Belated review of 2005 )

( Resolutions )

I believe that's all. Happy New Years again to you all. Good luck with any resolutions you may have made/plan to make, and I wish you an excellent year.

And now... to check on a few things and then to eat.