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[25 Jul 2008|12:53am] |
so I sit here. Thinking. Because as of this moment my minds refuses to turn off. I keep thinking about how I enjoyed work. Past tense. How I am quite honestly one of the best pions money can buy. however. I have worries. I voice these worries and get smiles that lie. I honestly hate liars. I was what I thought to be overwhelmed by hatred. But, I see now, I am horribly sad. How people can be so... basic... so dumb -_-;; I am unmotivated. This is a livejournal so why not *vent* ^____^ Honestly. I'll be fine. It'll be fine. Better than fine. I can be positive again. I will be positive again. But it's these fragments of time that are very small in comparison to my lifetime that make me see red, and black, and cry. Ha ha ha. I am a girly girl afterall and mean people upset me.
Oh well.
All this took was me working 3 to 11 and having to be at work at 7 the next morning... this morning... and that somehow I lie in bed with my eyes wide open. Thoughts racing through my mind. Damn. Aside from some crappy beef ravioli before work and some sips of awake tea... there has been nothing else, that I have consumed. Im hungry dammit. So I eat chips and cheese dip with some crushed red pepper flakes and drink a glass of water. Bad timing. However. My brain is now only thinking of what I see infront of me. and slowing down. narrowing down rather. making little lists, feeling satisfied that I understand which order I shall deal with my thoughts. at a later time.
hmmh.
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[07 Jul 2008|12:54pm] |
OH what a great time I had. one of the best vacations ever. Wasn't as hot as I thought too. Even rained once everyday for 15 to 45 minutes at around nap time :) It was sad to leave. Appearantly they don't see many twins down there. My sister and me were treated like celebrities. It was so much fun because they all like to have a good time. No problem. thats a new moto for me tee hee. And I came home
all I want to say is this
It's effing bull poopy to have gas prices as screwy as they are now. can anyone explain to me why if you pay with cash u pay the regular amount but if you pay with credit they jack it up 20 cents!???!?!?! WTF man
sounds fishy to me...
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yeah... amd the "fit the fan" was meant to mean "hit the fan" sorta loses impact... don't it :^____^
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[09 Jun 2008|09:36pm] |
Just when I start to really get down and dirty and work out for bikini season the sun just seems to shine, and burn, a little brighter. Yehaw!
At work, our ac hasn't been working for months. When it was cooler it was at the bottom of the important to do list. Now the shit has fit the fan and our store had to close early because it was 95 degrees inside and we had to throw almost everything away because it melted or was out of temp. tisk tisk. Now I say this. Wouldn't we think that fixing the problem then and there would be less costly then losing product. losing customers, and losing partner morale because it's fucking hot in there with no windows or open doors for air circulation.
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[29 May 2008|04:20pm] |
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Today, I almost punched someone. I felt so much rage that I was shaking and had to walk into the backroom with drinks on the bar to compose myself. I dunno what it is about these shoreline rich pricks but DAMMIT I'M TIRED OF THEIR STUPID STUPID ATTITUDES! really, i had a person complain because they asked for a soy chai in bigger cup light water and extra foamy. She came in last week saying there was too much foam not enough soy and it wasnt hot at all. Basically... she wants to pay for a small drink and get a bigger one. I basically told her that because of prices and because we are using too much soy appearantly to compare to our numbers, we have to use 12 oz for a 12 oz cup... makes perfect sense right!!! she tells me she wants more. She tells me I'm wrong. she tells me she's not making it into a big deal. LOOK LADY! YOU ARE! then another chic came in an asked for a small iced green tea with a *splash* of lemonade. I charged her for the lemonade. she says "no one else charges me for that" I said "well today I won't but next time you may be" she said it was too weak, remade it, said it's too strong, remade it, said asked for light ice and 15 minutes after being outside she says there's no ice, remade it. I explained how we have recipes and standards and that if she wants a splash she can either has more water, more tea, or more ice. She said it was fine the way it was and gave me attitude saying everyone else can make it. It's exactly the same way the barista made the tea ORIGINALLY!!! WE HAVE STANDARDS! WE HAVE LINES TO MAKE THINGS EXACT! WTF MAN!!!! then we get a call from the dm saying a customer came into our store this morning at 915 and we were out of bagels, then one of our baristas told her "we're not a bagel shop, go walk your ass down the street" first of all... no one would say that and second of all THERE WERE BAGELS IN THE CASE. we got an email from an annonymous customer saying that they know we can't ban customers from smoking infront of the store, but we should ban our partners so that they can go in their car and enjoy the "fumes" dammit people. I get this on a regular basis with a 'just say yes' policy and a friggin smile and I get my balls broken on a regular basis. it's like people think because we work for starbucks that we make the big money. I still have to pay friggin $4.21 a gal for gas, I still have bills, I still have to work and do my job just as everyone else does but do I walk into *their* world and shit in their face? NO. and really. I'm upset because I got upset. I would like things like that to roll off my shoulders and not bother me. But it does, because it saddens and makes me mad that people like that exist and get everything they want. How they don't respect anyone. How they don't even make eyes contact. How they talk on the phone and whisper to me their order so I have to read lips. How I ask them how they are and they just tell me their order. What the hell happened to propriety?!?!?!
le sigh
I feel better now.
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[27 May 2008|05:35pm] |
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So... I am so hell bent on getting back into shape. I wish I had a buddy to kick my ass but my sister won't do it so I guess I'm actually gonna have to kick my own ass. I wanna get back in touch with the outside world too! go hiking, do more artwork even go on little road trips! I dunno, I just need to have fun. I love my life as is but I don't want to regret anything! I have this odd feeling that the world as I know it now is will change. When? I don't know. But I really have been nostalgic of highschool and some of my friends there! If any of y'all wanna go with me to an anime convention let me know! because I wanna go this year, I think I can afford to go this year, but that is most certainly a thing I would wish others to go with me! eh, I like the people I like :)
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[25 Apr 2008|05:56pm] |
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so my sister and myself are going to go to the vibes. And we're gonna camp out. And we're gonna make the tent look arabian with fine cloth draped ever so carfeully all over the place with hand made meditation pillows and artwork... and WE'RE GONNA SELLEM! SELL ALL!
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[01 Apr 2008|12:56pm] |
A thought
Everyone, lets go to an anime convention again. I remember having tons of fun... maybe one year I'll dress up. YES I STILL LOVE THE ANIME
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[01 Apr 2008|12:51pm] |
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So I've been thinking about this job opportunity. It is basically one of those self promoting deals. You get people together have them buy your product and then make six digits. Basically a customer came up to me and when I explained how I financially can't afford anything extravagant at the moment let alone what I actually need she sent me to this website that explained what she did. The product has to do with age and beauty. A sure thing is this day and age. It seems very realistic and an opportunity I don't want to miss.
I did however find a spelling/grammer error in one of the slideshows...
Should I just say it's human error or take this as a pipe dream or cult?
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha It's still fun to imagine what self success feels like
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| crying for understanding! |
[31 Mar 2008|04:52pm] |
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so I got a written verbal warning and a written warning today at work. The reasons why? One say my register/til was $6 and change over and the other was because my register/til was $7 and change over.
What makes it such a difficult situation is there *is* no proof that *I* made an error other than my name being assigned to that register.
What possibly could've happened is another partner accidentally dropped a 20 in the wrong drop box. Actually, for anyone to understand what I mean I have to explain:
We have to computers that have two registers/drop boxes assigned to them each. Which means, at any point of the day you are NOT the only one that uses your til. Proper cash handling means whenever you receive a 20 dollar bill or higher, you drop it in your drop box. Also including credit card signatures and checks. The person assigned to the same register may *accidentally* drop a 20 in the wrong box.
bottom line________ because someone *else* can't use proper cash handling I get written up. By the by, it goes verbal warning, written warning, final written warning, and termination. I COULD GET FIRED CUZ SOMEONE IS AN IDIOT!
I know its a rant and a half but am I the only one that doesn't understand how if there is no actual proof of a sepcific transaction that was wrong or what *exactly* went wrong, how do I correct the action?
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[04 Mar 2008|04:56pm] |
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One of those days I get and internet connection
I love coming back to lj just to see where you all have gone :) I still think one day there should be a convention somewheres and we all have SUSHI. which by the way, I found out, you can eat too much off... I went to florida to see my daddy and it was my first trip by myself. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I take small slow steps in my journey through life. I am still at Starbucks but am finding it hard to be amused by its "I care, I really do care" mentality. Ha ha. I laugh in your face. Just a bunch of bullshit :)
I can't say how much I've grown since highschool, but then again, I know I have much more to go. I want to leave this work lifestyle and one day hope to open my own tattoo parlor! and it shall be named "Grey Matter" and it shall house my artwork that I have yet to make and have a dim light setting so to spark everyones inner being! ha ha, one day.
Yes, I am learning and performing a happier mentality. I still wish to go back to school. Oh dear god i wish... if i truelly believed in god... maybe I do and don't know it. I believe in a being, but sadly I lost a dear close friend of mine because of "God" and how *I* don't see the world I live in. It is one thing to share your views it is quite another to push them upon a human being who is entitled to their own damn opinion. Still waiting for that moment I feel is coming where things actually click and I know where my life is taking me.
holy crap thankyou for edit undo cuz i just somehow erased half of this! Oi vay, you think you can just jump back into the cyberworld. Ive been out for over 4 years... thats a loooong time
*thinks*
only seconds in the grand scheme of things.
OHHH and Who else out there is hooked on Lost and is totally blown AWAY by the last episode
Still cant wait till Harry Potter world in Disney... Hey! we should go there ^_~
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[05 Nov 2007|01:08pm] |
I feel like a jerk, sorry lindz -_-;; I haven't been on the computer in 9 weeks. I GOT A PUPPY!!!
Let me just say this
If you are at ALL pondering having a child... go get yourself a puppy first... and if you can handle that... then you're all good :)
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[30 Aug 2007|02:03pm] |
I am not *avoiding* anyone.
I'm just shy? ^___________________________^
And I would just like to say that I have gone back into the swing of things and I am just going to walk my way up to the campus and then go to anyone that looks like they may know what I need "Hey, uhm, can you help me?"
That's ALL IT TAKES! I've just got to get my own stubborn attitude out and away so that I can actually *say* those words.
BY the by. I am an amazing person and I feel better about myself every day. One may think this is vanity or ignorance talking. But no, it is simply confidence. It took me how long to get it? uhm... almost 22 years. I'm almost 22! Yay, but I shall look young foreeeeeeeeeever
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[15 Aug 2007|10:21am] |
All I can say is i got the comp with no space bar ability... so not the entry I was planning.
I WILL go to school. Take art and philosophy and... not sure yet. But I'll hopefully be able to enroll for... well. next year -.-; I really feel stupid when I say I haven't been to college. Maybe that's why I don't really hang out or talk with any of my old friends. I gots and ego problemo I suppose
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[02 Aug 2007|10:05am] |
this weather is SMOKIN HOT
I realized... I miss high school. I really do. I had everything I could've ever wanted within my reach... and I didn't really take advantage of it.
le sigh
I'm 'that' much closer to going to college... but I hit a snag.
My car had a flat tire saturday and monday it wouldn't start. I bought a new battery but there was a bolt keeping the old one in place and wd 40 didn't really help much, plus I didn't have the right tools. BUT I cleaned the hell out of the connections and my car starts NOW! Yaaaaay, I really hope my P.O.S car has another year left... *crosses fingers and toes* heres for the hoping and the wishing...
and I still haven't finished harry potter. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm on the chapter where they are just about to keep hogwarts save and protected and there's going to be a fight... but... I can't bring myself to finish. There are just too many "imporant" things to do ^_^;
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[19 Jul 2007|10:48am] |
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Oh yeah. And I am absolutely in LOVE with the new Dr. Who and the chick is extremely cute... and the Harry potter reference was probably one of my favorite moments in Dr history
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[19 Jul 2007|10:36am] |
hahaha
yeah. really. not having the internet is a bummer. but having a keyboard that has aspacebarthatdoesnt'twanttoworkisreallyfrustrating.
I went to Saint John ove the 4th of july week.
SOOOOOOOO AWESOME
yeah. good times were had. I plan on returning when I become what I am meant to be and get paid lots
hey. I like to keep my hopes high, something else has to be up there with my expectations ^_^
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[05 May 2007|02:21pm] |
I'm a proper Starbuck Partner. I never drank nor did I like coffee or tea until I got this job. Now I have a dopio or a black tea lemonade.
Mmmmmm.
Quality jump start.
Mmmmmm.
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[03 May 2007|02:09pm] |
I was in a play! the Crucible!!!!
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I was the only extra and had no lines...
BUT I ROCKED cuz I was in a cute puritan little outfit and it was a really cool experience. Both myself and my sissy auditioned and got in. She got lines, but I still think it was her time to shine since she really didn't do any of that kinda thing in highschool. Now I gotsta go and pay my car insurane. And rent. And deeeeeen... NO ANDEN.
I'm really gonna try to go to school next year. I truelly madly deeply do!
Wish me luck ^_^;; I've sorta been out so long that I'm afraid to do the student loans stuff and I have the horrible hear of being piss poor living paycheck to paycheck. HOLY COW! That's my life NOW! Well then, it shouldn't be a problem that I can't nip in the butt
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[23 Apr 2007|11:02am] |
So I got a job at Starbucks... HA HA! yeah
2 year anniversary with bf in may... HA HA!
That's about it... *scratches head* I miss my old friends
*poke*
I'm trying on this internet business within my 'own' house
but... easier said than done obviously. BUT I STILL REMEMBER ALL OF YOU EVEN IF YOU'VE FORGOTTEN 'BOUT DEAR OL LIL ME!
LATER ALLIGATOR!
-I'll just say it for y'all-
IN A WHILE CROCODILE ^________^
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