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Wow, I'm reading through that last post and it sounds awfully bitchy!
Not intended to be, I promise :) I'm always in a great mood on weekends.
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[07 Mar 2003|08:11am] |
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ladies and gentlemen...
and cats...
goddamned big fat cat sitting in my lap trying to type. But its all good, because I love him to death (when he smells ok. which he does right now...and had better keep on doing, since the litter box is in my room now!). He'll probably try to say hi or "o;aefjio" - step on the keyboard - soon.
So today is the beginning of yet another indoor weekend. I'm up early, as some would think, to clean up the house and pack, but this right here is proof of how far I've gotten and how interested I am in further pursuing those goals...I can't leave until after 9:30 anyway, so I guess there's no big rush. Even if I do leave then, I'll probably (hopefully?) have to stop by Forks or Pearl to pick up a drum for the quads. I guess they're my section this winter too. Not sure if its because 2 of them came from corps with me, or if I just have a quad fetish. Regardless, they need to stop breaking their shit!
Oh jesus christ. There's this chick I march with in indoor...and I'll admit it. She's pretty hot. I'm really jealous of all the attention she gets at shows, I think she's the only one from our pit that anyone ever remembers. I bring her up now because she's gotten yet another guy to fall in love with her, and its someone I know from a couple years ago. He's fucking weird! And she's definitely gotten herself into something that it'll be tough to get out of this time! He's just one of those people who never lets anything drop...painfully irritating. And of course I have to know him, because by the time I age out there will be no one in drum corps that I don't know personally or through someone else. The world is getting smaller by the day...
If I have to age out to fucking west side story... *cringe*. I don't know if I can take it. I'm probably the only person in the WORLD who's never played that show with any group before...but that doens't make it any less overdone! I was joking when I said that would be the show next year!!! PLEASE DEAR GOD NOOOOOOOooooooooooo
Of course they counteract it with a rumor that we'll go to Europe. Can I please pay $800 MORE to march for a summer? Lets raise dues to $3000 next year. please please PLEASE? I mean, come on now. We're not devs. I can pretty much guarantee that no one will pay for us to fly anywhere, and theres no humongous bingo industry in NJ to pay for any of this shit. I don't even want to think about it right now.
Instead I'll go shower and pack and clean up. Whatever. Fun weekend anyway!
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[11 Dec 2002|04:50am] |
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Its definitely almost five in the morning...and I'm still awake.
Yes, partly because I don't think I could sleep if I wanted to, and partly because a friend of mine just left. Not that sort of friend. More like a brother, but we had a nice two and a half hour conversation.
What does it mean when the guy you're sort of dating starts telling you (in a group setting) how hot the girl at the bar is, and that he's going to go hit on her? questioning out of curiosity, mind you. No other reasons, no decisions will be made based upon any answers given.
Bizarre.
and really not my problem...as the casual suggestion of finding some chick at the bar has illustrated...
I have better things to worry about. Like money, and a job, and school, and drum corps. Much as everyone else. And my car, of course. which needs to be taken in to be fixed in, oh, 5 hours?
Perhaps sleep is in order.
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[05 Dec 2002|02:24pm] |
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I think I'm going to just always post when I'm eating. Today, its couscous and Coke...
So, ok, I think my roommate is a nutcase. Seriously. We've been having this silent battle for the past month or so, where every time I walk past the thermostat I turn it down to 68, and then as soon as she sees it she sets it back at 72. No one has said a word about it, despite the cost of our last electric bill. To get to the point, I came home today and I was cooking, and I realized the house felt pretty chilly. The kitchen is never cold, simply b/c there is no possible exchange of air with the outside. Yet...I check the thermostat, and not only is it not at her usual 72, she's turned it down to 64! And naturally, she forgot her phone so I can't even ask about it.
Other than that, no excitement today. I got my Tennessee drivers license, I'm probably not legally allowed to drive at night if I'm wearing contacts and not glasses (luckily, the cops don't know this), and I still don't have a job. And now I'm going to go try and play through some corps audition stuff with a metronome, since I have a feeling we'll be doing that this weekend.
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[03 Dec 2002|09:46am] |
been awhile, eh? i have a desk now, its easier to write once more.
but today, i'm limited to this:
baked apple life makes my mornings!
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[17 Aug 2002|05:39am] |
three months later...
its all changing again.
just got home from tour on monday, another drum title, third place finish. In less than 5 hours, I'm on my way to Tennessee. For good. Or at least til I decide I want to live somewhere else instead. No one thinks I'm going to make it...
I need to go start packing the car and do one last load of laundry here. Make sure I wake everyone up by being obnoxiously loud at such an early hour.
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[06 May 2002|10:44pm] |
i have my first exam in 9 hours and 16 minutes. have i started studying yet? of course not. Just got home from tennessee (more on that later) and then my drumline's last "performance"...which was basically my last time working there. So i'm a little nostalgic right now but not really enough that i have an excuse not to be working. i just don't feel like it.
i've already moved on, ya know? i just spent almost a week hanging out with the people i'm living with/near next year, exploring the school i'll eventually go to, checking out high school band programs i could work at, and getting a feel of the city. i'm there (mentally).
except right now i'm REALLY hungry. and i have my choice of cookie dough, ice cream, cookies, teddy grahams, or a white chocolate rabbit. healthy, eh? i already had oatmeal so i guess thats a start. there's an (old) box of (nasty) nutri-grain bars, which i ordinarily love except the cappucino 'n 'cream or whatever are quite unappetizing. anyhow...i really ought to do something now.
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[27 Apr 2002|01:22pm] |
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i was on AIM last night until almost 4:30 chatting with someone, as i can't go to nashville this weekend. So then their computer froze and this is the email i got this morning:
Hey babe, I am so sorry that I got off lastnight.
Here it is not supposed to do that now and I get
booted and it won't let me back on. I felt horrible.
Because I knew that you were tired and I didn't want
you to sitting there waiting when I can't get back on.
I am sorry.
So I am not good at all this but you got me thinking
about you a lot. I look forward to seeing ya on here
each time I sign on. And the thought of you coming to
visit makes me want to clean my apartment.
The thought of you moving to Nashville or Murfreesboro
just makes me really excited.
I really wish that you could have come down this
weekend. I keep saying it but man that would have
been the deal. I just really need to do something
with you before you leave on tour. Cuz ya got me
interested and now you have to bail for a few months
(lucky for you, I would give my left B*@l to be able
to march again)
Who knows though, I could be going on the road for a
few weeks with Captial so we could see each other.
And I am rambling now. Bottom line, sorry I got
booted, can't wait to talk and see you again.
so of course its cheesy, and of course i'm gullible, but i dont generally get this sort of thing from guys.
and i'm done with breakfast now. time to shower and start some homework, so i can go extreme bowling with tracy tonight!
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[26 Apr 2002|09:16am] |
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So...
an update on my life?
John has asked me to go see the LondonSymphonyOrchestra with him on Sunday. I don't see any way in hell that I could actually go, but it definitely made my day. I talked to him last night until around 3, and woke up this morning to "jess is the coolest" as his away message. I'm pretty touched...
and i'm hoping to god that i'm not just being gullible again.
He also asked what sorts of food I liked, so he could bring me something this summer while I'm on tour. Stuff like that wins me in a second.
now i'm trying to figure out something witty to leave in my away message, seeing as how i have to leave for class in a couple minutes here.
That essay for TCC? Still not done. Still not started, to be precise. I have the research, but I haven't read all of it... its due at 5 today. So I guess I still have time, only I have to go to class from 10-11 (and if i skip that one, its due at noon).
i shall be on my merry way now. i'll write after the chaos is over, and the stupid essay is done. If it gets done.
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i don't write often anymore... :-\
had camp this past weekend. still have yet to get the parts i want... "we think you can play them, but we don't want you to have any more problems with your wrists." its so disappointing...its torturous, even. i want that part SO badly, for the opener... :( i could just cry.
better news, i got 3 very happy little emails over the weekend, and now owe some back since i missed someone online today.
i'm so fluffy. i don't know how else to put it....i haven't been this happy, on that aspect of life, in almost 2 years...i'm giddy. but absolutely petrified that i'm setting myself up again. i don't want the same situation as new years to happen. i don't want to like someone that much, and be misunderstanding the whole situation - again.
now its time for homework though. i have only 3 lectures left in every one of my classes, and i'm SO far behind in homework. i can't allow myself to get on aol tomorrow, b/c that took away 3 hours or so today (its amazing, how useless i can be while just sitting around in my room.)
i need to write an essay and read for TCC
do a prelab/poslab set for electronics
do the last 3 problem sets for structures
and then this tune for theory, that i'll do tonight.
i slept way too much this afternoon, and through one of my classes this morning, so i've wasted most of today. i cant motivate myself, all i keep thinking is that i just want this all to be over with. hopefully i can visit nashville either between classes and exams, or exams and tour...or both.
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i'm in love. completely and utterly in love...
*sigh*
there's no stopping this now.
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[15 Apr 2002|05:07pm] |
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lets see if this works...here's stephie and me outside the surf bus in dayton!!
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i saw the sun rise this morning. it was really very pretty...though i've now been up for a couple hours and really haven't accomplished anything. I worked my ass off on the structures problem i had to re-do, and turned out the same answer as last time. I have no idea whats not right about it.
so sleepy...but at least its a nice day. and still an hour before i have to leave for class. i need to write about the dayton trip in my real journal, just so i don't forget anything. the details get fuzzy so fast. i loved seeing everyone though! and maybe someone can tell me how to put pictures here, so you can see the cute one of me and stephie.
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[14 Apr 2002|09:35pm] |
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bored.
and...
daydreamy.
i don't want to do work. if i start to do work, i'll have to leave - COMPLETELY leave - the dayton trip behind. and i really don't want to...
i had the time of my life on saturday. mostly after 5:30-ish (oh, about when MCM showed up?) but the whole day was pretty nice.
I have hours of work to do, I really don't want to...would much rather sleep. or plot ways to go to nashville in the next few weeks without looking completely and utterly desperate...
{is it love? or am i being played again?} actually i'm not that obsessed, but very happy. luckily, a cautious happy, but i could live saturday for the rest of my life.
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[02 Apr 2002|05:19am] |
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why do i hook up with people i feel nothing for?
i think the faster i move with someone, the less i truly care for them.
and i'm supposed to go out again tomorrow...
what have i done.
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[01 Apr 2002|07:38pm] |
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i'm copying stephers...
*Twelve things that annoy you
1 - stupid people. not people who are unintelligent - people who are just plain stupid.
2 - class
3 - homework
4 - boys who want only one thing...
5 - makeup
6 - MY HAIR...good god, my hair...YIKES
7 - radio stations
8 - how not-neat i am
9 - they keep putting less and less girl scout cookies in the boxes!!
10 - high school girls with attitude (namely those i teach)
11 - engineering
12 - umm...the weather.
*Eleven people you'd want to stay alive
1 - My family, of course!
2 - my pit :)
3 - i suppose the drumline, too...
4 - Brendan
5 - Brad Renfro
6 - the remaining beatles
7 - oh fine...how about all the corps people i know.
8 - strike that - the majority of the corps people.
9 - fine, fine... Brad Pitt
10 - my roommates?
11 - uhh...
..... and anyone else I forgot, lol
*Ten things you'd like to change about yourself
1 - my hair!
2 - my hair!
3 - my hair!
4 - my ass...its huge...
5 - my wrists so they don't hurt anymore
6 - my stupidity around guys
7 - bad grades
8 - no backbone (not physically, dumbass)
9 - no dedication
10 - MY HAIR DAMMIT
*Nine things you wear daily
1 - earrings
2 - toe ring
3 - bra...well, almost daily
4 - underwear
5 - sandals/flip-flops
6 - contacts
7 - toenail polish
8 - a smile (alright, cheesy)
9 - bookbag
*Eight movies you'd watch over and over
1 - romeo and juliet
2 - benny and joon
3 - disneydisneyDISNEY
4 - save the last dance
5 - umm...chick flicks
6 - whats eating gilbert grape
7 - star trek :)
8 - have to agree...tour videos/corps videos
*Seven Concerts you've been to (or want/ed to go to incase you haven't been to any)
1 - ben folds five (YAYAYAY)
2 - blast! (does that count?)
3 - Jackson Browne
4 - Goldfinger/Bloodhound Gang (show, i guess)
5 - i want to see blue man group SO bad
6 - or counting crows... *sigh*
7 - aerosmith!
*Six objects you touch everyday
1 - pillow :)
2 - glasses
3 - cd player
4 - bookbag
5 - my BOOK (wheel of time series...)
6 - keys
*Five things you do everyday
1 - shower/contacts/brush teeth/etc
2 - SLEEP
3 - music, of course
4 - dream
5 - complain
*Four foods or drinks that you couldn't live without
1 - pepsi...twist or cherry
2 - peanut butter
3 - cereal
4 - salad
*Three of your favorite songs at the moment
notansweringthisone
lost the question? so i'll keep your answer...
1 - My mother
2 - My father
*One thing (not person) you could spend the rest of your life with
1 - Music
and the same for the last one, too
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[01 Apr 2002|09:35am] |
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i can't believe i update so infrequently now. i guess i just never get around to it.
so...now i have lots of free time, but someone to fill it with. Speaking of which, Gabe, i REALLY need to talk to you...please?
my dad is coming out to visit this evening, too...i hope. he'll see my hair that my sister butchered(cut) but its really not so bad, sometimes. right now its cute, i guess.
i'm halfway dressed and too lazy to move. slept in too late, so i haven't finished homework, half of which i don't know how to do, and i feel so blah. i need to find jen and jeanine, and i need this year to be over. now, please!
time for my day...
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oh YUMMY!!!!
salmon and garlic roasted potatoes and corn on the cob and cornbread and veggie soup and yummers...
it smells so delicious!
but wait -
it tastes like...like...airline food?
SOMETHING in this styrofoam tray has to taste good. there must be something putting out that lovely, lovely scent!
it must be the styrofoam, because thats all i have yet to try.
i will never know how they do it. how is it possible to make food smell THAT good, without any flavor. they must send dining hall cooks to a special class for that one.
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[27 Mar 2002|02:07am] |
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i've gotten so behind in writing anything!! oh well
i spent all day today daydreaming about nashville. i'm going to make this work, dammit. so i'm supposed to try and get an apartment with a girl i know from cadets (yay!!!) and then maybe one of the girls i teach will move in with me in a year. maybe i'll go to MTSU. maybe i won't. but i really want to go out there.
by the way, we had the mideast regional this past weekend with my drumline. VERY long bus ride on the way there (powhatan, VA to Dayton, OH...geez). i learned how to play traditional, though, and drummed for almost 5 hours on the way there. of course, now i have a huge hole in the side of my finger, but who cares.
saturday was prelims, we were in 3rd place out of 6 so we made finals (YAY), saturday evening we had practice so i missed all of the world group performances. Hung out with the guys from Rhythm X after our show though, it was so nice to hang around with people my age! i got to see 4 shows all weekend - Matrix, Rhythm X, Eastside Fury, and the Virginia Helmsmen. The first of those 3 were good. For the helmsmen...well, you can't do a coming back show unless someone cares that you folded.
after practice saturday, from about 11 to 12:30, i hung out with music city mystique people...and apparently a couple of them "dig" me, as jeanine puts it (yayayayayayay!!!! its been so long...). then they went to bed, to get up at 6-something. we were supposed to be up at 7:30, but all the staff stayed up til 3:30 or something just chatting in the gym. boy were we cranky on sunday, too. we performed at 11 something in the morning, stayed in 3rd, packed the truck, and went home. missed the world groups AGAIN. got a glimpse of the penn state people as they pulled in and parked behind our truck (of all places). mike came over to say hi. i really didn't talk to him.
that was the most chaotic weekend i think i've ever had. the real dayton should at least be fun!
lissa, it was so cool to see you, even though i didn't get a chance to say anything...you look really familiar. i know i've seen pictures on here but you look like someone i've met before.
alright its definitely sleepy time. finished my essay, and i ought to work on some electronics. g'night!
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I've gotten pretty spacey as of late, haven't I -
I was home on break for awhile. not doing anything. I actually turned up a chance to go to Florida to sit around my house, because I needed to practice. Now I'm behind on all my work already, and instead of getting up early and doing some this morning when my alarm when off at 7:15, I just stared at the ceiling until about fifteen minutes ago.
Now I'm munching Lucky Charms from the box, and wishing a cup of tea would appear in front of me, as I'm too lazy to go all the way downstairs to get water. Its so dreary out, I can't seem to get up in the morning unless the sun is coming in my window. I almost didn't even get up except that I need to have a TB test done this morning (to go to Ohio with the drumline) and I finally get to talk to my advisor...
because I think I may finally be dropping engineering. It makes me feel like such a failure. The class I'm trying to drop now has the worst grade of any class I've ever taken, and I don't think I stand any chance of fixing it. It will drop me to 12 credits (lower than I've EVER done - by FOUR), virtually eliminate homework, and maybe then I can get a job. So that way, if I leave next year, I can at least pay for rent somewhere til I get a job somewhere else.
I need to stop eating this cereal, I should save some for dinner.
Today's schedule:
9-ish -- TB test
9:30 -- meet with advisor
11:00- 12:15 -- electronics
12:30-1:45 -- eat lunch/ study for dynamics exam
2:00 - 5:30 -- driving and/or teaching at powhatan
6:00 - 8:00 -- Dynamics exam
after that I need to eat dinner (more lucky charms), do my postlab on mathcad, and do some research for the essay I need to write by Friday.
I guess I don't get a nap today. and I'm already going to be late starting.
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