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wala lang [June 15th, 2006 @ 2:49pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | buttons - pussycat dolls ] interesting... Find your own pose! by the way, i've already graduated!!! yipee! im currently in cebu for the board exam review. im so relieved that i can finally call myself unemployed...haha!!! belated happy birthday to sylj. :) spare me [15] read

new year, new me... [January 1st, 2006 @ 9:11pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | some happy song ] happy new year everyone! happy holidays! its been awhile since i last updated my journal. i've been quite busy with tons of school work. you see, after six long years of college, im finally graduating dis march! so i have really been busy with my thesis and my part-time job as a tutor. :) i actually spend almost the whole day in the chemistry lab and i really miss doing the things that i enjoy during my free time before, i hardly have a free time now. but i know everything will be worth it...:) i had a meaningful holidays this year. i enjoyed it very much. spent most of it with my family and i actually loved being with them. i think i have even gotten closer with my relatives. :) i also met with some close high school friends who i haven't seen for awhile, and in those meetings, i realized how blessed i am to have friends like them. its sad that classes are about to start again this week, i think i haven't had enough of the holidays. i thought i was gonna be able to do some school work, but lo and behold, i completely forgot about them...im happy and i hope that it'll last the whole year... spare me [5] read

the big day... [November 14th, 2005 @ 12:49pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | because of you - kelly clarkson ] go shorty, its my birthday! hehe. :D thank you to all who remembered. i love you all. u all made my day. :D special mention si trix, joy and grace coz i really felt the love. thanks girls! love yah and miss you so much trix and joy! :) spare me [13] read

life... [September 25th, 2005 @ 12:31am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | officially missing you - tamia ] im so pissed with myself. i starting to get lazy again...i forgot to pass my theo journal last friday...im getting tired of going to school...hay...i miss my manila friends... kakamiss! singkit ako?! party crew...hehe. :) i dont have pictures of my roommates but i miss them as much. spare me [9] read

nothing to do... [August 19th, 2005 @ 10:44pm] [ mood | content ] ironic...its kadayawan time in davao but im here trying to figure out my new layout, it looks nice though. im probably obsessed! spare me [2] read

random thoughts...again [August 7th, 2005 @ 11:02pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | some old crappy country song...i dont even know its title... ] im trying to type a jornal entry for our theology class and as usual, i am not in the mood to make that paper...so here i am updating my journal. its been a loooong week for me. a lot had happened and i mean a lot! i dont even know where to start. so im not going to write about the week that was...hehe! :) well, i enjoyed watching "if only" starring jennifer love hewitt and some british boy. :) i admit that it was a cheesy film but i enjoyed it nonetheless. it even made me cry...haha! anyway...im going to start writing my paper... spare me [1] read

random thoughts... [July 31st, 2005 @ 8:27am] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | lose contro - missy elliot feat. ciara ] two days of no classes and i've done nothing productive! but i've done some stupid things...haha! i spent most of the money i was saving to buy new shoes and now, i can't afford to buy new shoes. i could ask from my parents but my mom is so weird the past couple of days. i don't want to anger her by asking money for shoes. she knows that i need a new pair though...she even accompanied me two weeks ago in a mall to look for a nice pair, but it seems that she had forgotten...well, i guess i just have to wait for her go signal, when she's in the mood, i know she'll buy me new shoes...i hope it'll be soon...hehe. :) book 6 of harry potter is sitting at my desk but i still am not in the mood to read it. i already opened it and already tried to read it but i fell asleep after just 6 pages...hehe. :) i was so disappointed with book five, i don't have the enthusiasm to read book six. besides, ive already read some spoilers and i guess that's enough for me. my sister is reading it though and she has been updating me about what happens to harry, his friends and hogwarts...i'll probably read it tonight if im in the mood but if i fall asleep again, i think i will just wait for the movie adaptation. :) while drinking coffee with my cousin in a small cafe here in davao, i overheard a conversation between two arrogant, obnoxious, loud and all-knowing-but-does-not-really-know-anything friends. they were talking about the non-existence of a class A in the philippine society. they were saying that if ever there was such a class, they were probably social climbers...uhmmmm, i wanted to slap them in the face. not that i was insulted, because i am definitely not class A, but because they were so stupid. why would there be social climbers in the first place if there was no class A? the existence of social climbers is an affirmation of the existence of a class A...get my point? its so stupid of them to make such a comment. don't they read newspapers, magazines even? don't they know the ayala's, the zobel's? hah! i guess ive made my point. i don't know why im writing all this is my journal...haha! i guess i am just bored...hahay... anyway, ive watched "d anothers" with my dear cousin and i realized how shallow i was. i laughed hard all throughout the movie but when the movie ended, i can't even remember the funny scenes and the reason why i laughed so hard...i guess its safe to say that the movie is forgettable but is entertaining and fun. "tanging ina" still tops my list of funny pinoy movies, i guess it has something to with ai-ai, she's really made for comedy, everything she does is so funny! vhong navarro, on the other hand, has a lot to learn. toni gonzaga is good though, but she has to veer away from those type of roles, she has a lot more to offer. i miss school already...:) spare me [2] read

no comment! [July 25th, 2005 @ 1:08pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | 1, 2 step by the princess of r&b ciara ] its sona day today and unfortunately i have classes coz im in a place called davao city, which is far, far away from metro manila. i think its a good thing that im here...at least its a lot more peaceful...or so i thought...as i am typing this entry in a net cafe that is inside our school building, a kinda noisy rally is in progress outside, but its not a rally by ateneo students...the people in the rally were in fact encouraging the students to join the rally but no student dared to join the rally, not because they were afraid or something, these students just dont care! i cant believe how apathetic addu students have become. i overheard two students even joking about the whole thing...i mean i admit that i myself wouldn't even dare to join the rally but i know something about the whole political crisis and i would not even dare to joke about it. Our country's future is on the line...how can i even think that its funny... anyway, on the lighter side of things, im happy to inform y'all that for the past month i have been tutoring a college student. i admit that i was kinda hesitant to accept the job but after awhile i have grown fond of my student and i found myself wanting to really help her pass algebra and trigonometry. i find it fulfilling to teach her. Even if the pay isn't that much, i dont mind it because i genuinely want to help her. she is such a nice student that she even gave me a tip, which was almost the same amount as my first paycheck. I am hoping that she aced her exam last week...that would really make me happy...and the tip she gave me would be all worth it. spare me [5] read

[July 21st, 2005 @ 5:29pm] i dont know what to write...but i just have the urge to update my lj...hehe. :) spare me [0]

hhmmmm... [June 22nd, 2005 @ 10:57pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | follow the leader, leader...haha ] second week of school is almost over but i still am not in the mood to go to school...ironically, i havent missed any of my classes. im so tired of going to school already but i end up being a good student...im not late and im participative in class. i dont know whats happening. i think its because of my friends, they are my only motivation to go to school. im losing interest in my studies but i want to be with my friends so i end up going to class early, taking notes because they take notes and listening to the teacher because they also listen...i think its good... still have a lot of problems though, im only taking twelve units this semester...im supposed to take 15 units but there's a conflict with my schedule so i ended up dropping one subject...i suppose i could take it next semester but i will be overloading...i guess i will have to work things out but then that's another problem...i spend so much time with my friends, i feel like i have no time to take care of important matters like the one mentioned earlier. ahhh...i dont know what to do...well, i actually know what to do i just dont want to do it...im always like that, i do whatever makes me happy and i sometimes forget about things that matter...or the important things i have to do... another thing thats bothering me is the expensive tuition my parents have to pay...im so guilty about this...i should have graduated already...oh well, i dont want to discuss that, i believe im over it...i guess i just have to deal with the current situation...oh well, im trying hard to stay in school...i will stay in school and finish college! spare me [3] read

could have been a great day... [June 12th, 2005 @ 12:20am] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | im not a perfect person... ] its official, im a dean's lister for the second semester of last school year. saw my name in the honor's list posted outside the dean's office. that made my day...i was so happy but then i got home, told the news to my dad (kinda told them before but told them also twas not yet official) and he seemed to reluctant to congratulate me, it was as if he did not believe that i made it to the dean's list...ggrrrr...i hate me dad! i was hoping my mom would have a much more positive reaction...she disappointed me! instead of saying congratulations, she had no reaction at all. i was furious...i was mad...we ended up having a discussion, or should i say debate, about how they perceive me as a person...i told them that they don't really trust me and they think that i am a bad person...they assured me that they love who i am but i dont believe them...so what if i go home late at night, what if i get drunk sometimes, what if i spend the whole night partying??? that does not really mean that i am a bad person and i have no right to become a dean's lister! i value my studies...maybe before i did not really care bout my studies but i have learned from my mistakes and is making every effort to change and excel in my studies...i think my parents dont appreciate it and i hate them for that! im so frustrated! just when im starting to enjoy my new life, my parents ruin it for me...i dont know what to do to please them! im not a bad son...im sure of that...i may have some vices but i dont try to get them mad intentionally! i dont know what else to say... spare me [7] read

wowowee!!! [June 11th, 2005 @ 12:28am] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | wowowee sinong di mawiwili... ] i had an interesting day today...so interesting, i wouldnt mind waking up the next day realizing that its still the same day...hehe...do i even make sense...anyway, so heres how my day went woke up really late because slept really late last night. i bonded with my sister and cousins...spent all night singing our hearts out in some karaoke bar here in davao. i woke up at about 12 noon, in time for game ka na ba and wowowee. i have always been amused by wowowee, i dont know why. probably because i kinda like how willy hosts the show. the show is always lively and funny. i really enjoy watching wowowee, i think i enjoy it even more than game ka na ba...anyway, wowowee have announced days, i guess even weeks ago, that they were going to davao and hold the show here. i was somehow excited though im not really planning to go to the actual site of the show...im just happy that they were going to davao. today was the day of their motorcade...they announced that it was going to be at 430 pm. at about 4 pm, i decided to go out of the house, told my father that i was going to school (my excuse for smoking coz i cant really smoke inside of the house, my parents dont really know that i smoke). while on the road, i saw that there already were groups of people waiting in the sidewalks, and i realized that these people were waiting for wowowee's motorcade. i got goosebumps, it was the first time i saw people become so enthusiatic about some motorcade, i mean its not exactly the first time celebrities have visited davao. willie must really be something else...maybe he really was able to connect to the masses. because of what i saw, i also got excited bout the motorcade. i was planning to stay in some cafe, which allows smoking, but then my plans changed and i just decided to smoke in a little 'sari-sari' store and go home after, hoping that wowowee's motorcade had not passed our street yet. traffic was already heavy when i was heading home but vehicles could still make their way on the streets. that's a good sign, i thought, it means that the motorcade have not passed our street yet. i saw more groups of people waiting on the sidewalks, some people even invading the road itself. when i finally got home, people were already running towards the main street. our main street was suddenly filled with people...i decided to run to the main street myself and from a distance i saw willie revillame waving his hands to the people...i got goosebumps again...jeepneys suddenly could not move, passengers got out of their vehicles and joined the crowd cheering wowowillie...it was a moment of joy...i got goosebumps all over...i was happy...i dont know why...the people's enthusiasm and joy was probably infectious...willie's vehicle could not even pass through the wave of people who were very much eager to see him...when his vehicle passed by me, i could not help but smile at him...and i was smiling til the motorcade was over i think willie was overwhelmed by the show of suppport of the davaoeños. you can see it in his eyes, he was almost teary-eyed and he couldn't stop waving to the people...he even went up the car's roof so that the people could get a good view of him. just goes to show that most of davao are kapamilyas. im a proud kapamilya and i was overwhelmed myself, there really were a lot of people and these people were happy just to see willie, i guess at that moment they forgot their problems and felt happy even for a little while. i wish i could post pictures but unfortunately i did not even think of bringing a cam...haha, silly me! willie made my day...im so proud of davao and so proud to be a kapamilya...hehe :) spare me [0]

can this be love [May 28th, 2005 @ 7:55am] [ mood | confused ] can i really be in love...with a 15-year old kid? i really dont know what to say...a part of me tells me that i could be but the other part says that i could just be infatuating...i really dont know what to say... spare me [8] read

that empty feeling [May 19th, 2005 @ 7:34am] [ mood | indescribable ] for the past few days, ive been going out, spending money like crazy, doing anything by whim...in short, im bored and i have no interest really to do anything...i just want to be out of the house and be with my friends. i was supposed to be in bfar for an extension of my practicum but i ended up not going. i just didnt feel like going. im so lazy and i just realized now that i may be depressed. all the signs are there, im very insecure and so conscious, i have no interest in doing anything, i try to waste time by going out and not really doing what's supposed to be done like my practicum journal and my report. im putting everything on hold and im not a bit worried. this is so scary! im afraid that this was caused by the scholarship interview mishap. i might be anxious, again i just realized that now. i cant wait for the results. im really scared, afraid that i might have jeopardized my chances. oh my God, that might really be it! i hope i could i could get over this. i need some positive self-talk. i need it badly. oh my God, Lord please help me... spare me [5] read

...boring night... [May 16th, 2005 @ 10:04am] [ mood | distressed ] i am bored and i dont have money...dats a bad combination! i only have 30 pesos in my pocket and i already spent 20 pesos for my jeepney and tricycle fare and yosi. i have 10 pesos left which will cover the fee for the internet cafe...i guess i will have to walk home. at least i'm gonna get some form of exercise. i originally planned to just hang out in my friends house but i ended up in this internet cafe because he was not home yet. il probably drop by later to burn some more calories from walking...haha! good thing everything is walking distance...im really bored, i resort to walking to different locations just to waste time (but then again that would mean burning more calories, so i guess its pretty much okay)...this is pathetic...but a lot more worthwhile than just watching tv at home...im so bored... spare me [0]

...drama queen... [May 12th, 2005 @ 3:41am] [ mood | cheerful ] i got really emotional bout the recent victory of uchenna and joyce in the amazing race...when they finally crossed the finish line, my tears were uncontrolably falling. :) u might laugh at me but i just cant help but symphatize with them. they overcame a lot of obstacles! i was rooting for them because the other two teams (rob and amber & ron and kelly) were arrogant and were very confident (i hated their guts!). Uchenna and joyce were good people. They were always ready to lend a helping hand to teams who encounter some problems in the race. They even helped meredith and gretchen in one of the challenges. lyn and alex (the gay couple) were also rooting for them to win. in the final leg of the race, uchenna and joyce did not have any money, they were practically begging for money. but they pushed through and were very lucky because the other teams had no choice but to wait for a sugarmill factory in puerto rico to open at 7 am. In a surprising turn of events, they were back in the race. rob and amber almost had a huge lead over the other teams when they were able to catch an earlier flight to miami at the last minute, but since good things happen to good people, uchenna and joyce were allowed to take the same flight even if the plane was ready to leave. That disappointed rob and amber. in miami, rob and amber had a little lead but they had a problem finding the king of the havana cigar shop. Fortunately for uchenna and joyce, they had a spanish speaking cab driver who was able to ask some people, so they easily found the store. It wasn't smooth sailing after that, their problem about money came to haunt them, they were already at the gate of the supposed final pit stop when their cab fare went beyond their budget, they had to ask some locals for money to pay the cab driver. stil, rob and amber were not able to catch up, uchenna and joyce were then proclaimed winners of the amazing race 7. i jumped in jubilation and then cried, i was so happy uchenna and joyce won. i think they were the nicest couple who won the amazing rice. good things indeed happen to good people. i was also touched when uchenna confessed in their interview that they were already thinking of separation before they entered the race, but the race made their bond stronger and helped them understand each other more. he said that the communication lines were opened and they are now thinking of having a child. i am really happy for them. spare me [2] read

self-loathing [May 10th, 2005 @ 5:23am] [ mood | disappointed ] i am so diappointed with myself! i think the only person who could ruin me is my very own self. a few entries back i mentioned my enthusiasm and hopefulness bout my scholarship application, well, i think i kinda ruined my chances today...but im still hoping for the best! I hope they will pity me. :) i was late for the essay writing part of the screening process. i actually woke up early, i dont know what happened! i think i trusted myself too much. i thought i could get to school by 10 am, my interview was scheduled at 10:15 am...i did not realize that it takes 1 freakin hour for me to be fully awake and actually start to take a bath, change clothes and stuff like that. i woke up at 830 am, lingered in bed for 30 minutes, i brushed my teeth then ironed my clothes. i watched tv thinking that i was way too early. ate breakfast because i just could not resist it even if i already brushed my teeth. I actually took a bath at 10 am thinking that i could still make it on time since i just live nearby...but no, it took 20 minutes for me to finish bathing and another 10 minutes to wear my contact lenses, change clothes, put on some perfume and another 10 freakin minutes to actually get to the room where the essay writing takes place! in short, i arrived at exactly 10:40, which meant that i only had five minutes to write the essay then head to the next room for the interview. i actually thought that i could write something logical in five minutes but as i was finishing the third sentence in my introduction, the proctor called my name and told me that time was up. i could not believe it!!! i was forced to pass my paper! i then proceeded to the next room for the interview. i was told to wait for the person to interview me, which made me furious coz i waited for quite a while, i could have used that time to finish up my essay. i told the lady on the desk about my predicament, that i was only able to write three lines in my essay coz i was late and she actually told that i could have rescheduled my interview!!! but since i already wrote three lines, i could not reschedule anymore. F*CK*N SH*T! well, i could not do anything about it anymore, so i just calmed myself down and hoped that the panelist will see through my essay. My interviewer actually asked me why my essay was too short, i told her the truth and she just laughed about it...dats a good sign right? i really hope its a good sign... the interview actually went well but i was bothered with how casual the mood of my interview was. it was as if my interviewer was a long time friend and she was just asking how i was. i remember my classmates saying that they cried during their interview because they were asked about sensitive stuff, like the death of their father and stuff like that. my interview was very casual, i think that i was not even given a chance to prove how much i needed that sholarship. i dont know, i hope again that its a good sign... i need that scholarship! i dont know what i'll do if i dont get it. i also feel that i deserve that scholarship...i just hope that they will see through my essay and my interview...i really hope so. i also hope that a professor of mine is part of the selection committee, that way, he or she could persuade the other memebers that i deserve that scholarship. i really dont know what to do. im so disappointed with myself, i could have had a better essay and a better interview...if only i arrived on time... hahaaaay...that's life! i guess i just have to wait til may 25, the day the results will come out. i am really hoping for the best. :) i hope God will bless me. :) spare me [0]

yehey!!! [May 8th, 2005 @ 9:07pm] [ mood | accomplished ] i have a new layout! check it out! im so happy! made the layout from scratch, just followed the tutorials and voila! im so proud of my journal and my self...hehe. :) thanks to the livejournal tutorial, i could have not done it without you. :) i hope you like my new lay-out, its a little too girly, but what the heck, i love how it looks. :) i might consider changing my layout every month, im so enthusiastic about all this...haha!!! :) im just happy. :) spare me [2] read

nothing to do... [May 8th, 2005 @ 7:09pm] [ mood | amused ] its tiring to have nothing to do but i found a great way to pass up the time, journal scanning!!! its fun to read how other people live their lives. :) im very much amazed! have a lot of things to do now, have to check some more journals...hehe. :)

a new day has come!!! [April 29th, 2005 @ 3:52pm] [ mood | happy ] im very happy today, as in very happy! :) i love this day! it started out well, encountered some problems in the middle of the day but then a miracle happened in the afternoon and now, i am so happy!!! Thank you very much Jesus! i really am thankful, im so happy i want to cry. i love my friends! your friends can sometimes really save your life. i hope everything goes well. im just so happy my application was accepted! i hope i get the scholarship, i badly need it. you see, for the past few weeks, ive been processing my scholarship application. The application entails securing a recommendation from three people: the guidance councilor, OSA director and the parish priest. I easily got the first two recommendations. I had a hard time getting the third. For this week, even if I had practicum, I went to the church office and asked for a recommendation. I went last tuesday and the office people told me that i had to secure the recommendaton from the head of our chapel. That was the start of my problem, the head of our chapel was hard to find because she sometimes sleeps in another house in buhangin and she is so busy she comes home very late. Since the person from the church office just told me to fill up the form coz the priest will just sign it, my mother and I decided that we do it ourselves since my mom was also active in the chapel. I went back thursday bringing the form already filled up, but the office people didnt want me to talk to the priest because they thought it was important that the head of the chapel sign the form first. They wanted the signature of the head and they did not tell me that last tuesday! Thursday night, I decided to really wait for our head but she did not go home. Early friday morning I went to the church and I finally found our head, she signed the form. That made my day, I thought after her signing my form I could easily talk to the priest. So i went to the office again asked for a recommendation but the lady on the desk said that I come back later that day, at about 2 pm because the other person in-charge of the recommendation requests had to do some errands. I went back home, waited til 2 pm and then went back to the office, waited for a few minutes then suddenly they told me that the priest had just left and they did not notice it...i was so disappointed! they did not even bother to inform me that priest had some meeting to attend and had to leave. They told me to wait for the priest, i waited only to find out that the priest left, then they blame for not talking to the priest earlier that day when in fact the lady by the desk told me that i come back at 2 pm. i was so disappointed, i did not know what to do...i think i did what i can. To think i still had practicum and had to sacrifice my attendance just to follow up the recommendation. since i thought that i did not have any control over the situation, i decide to still pass my application and just beg for some extension for the submission of the recommendation from the parish priest. i went to school, saw some of my friends on the way. i went to the admissions office and i was so lucky because the three people who were collecting the application forms were my friends. I explained to them my situation and they told me that i dont have to worry, i can still pass the recommendation form filled out by the head of our chapel. i was so happy i wanted to hug and kiss all my friends but then they were kinda busy and there was a wall between us because i was at the other side of the window. i said thank you and promised them that if i get the scholarship, i will treat them to a free lunch or dinner. :) i am really happy. God is really good. I was kinda hopeless when i went to school but after i submitted my application i was so happy and was suddenly filled with hope. God is really good. before i left the school, i dropped by the chapel to say a prayer of thanks to the Lord. i am so happy that i typed this entry at one go and i dont care anymore about my grammar. i just want to express how i feel. i am so happy! thank you Lord!!! i hope that i get the scholarship, i really hope so. :) but for now, i am happy that my application was accepted. :) spare me [8] read

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