Worked myself hard earlier with the weights. Not trying to get
too far into my new workout, just baby steps. But it is pain in new places, believe me. I've been reading
A Dull Roar:What I Did on My Summer Deracination by Henry Rollins. The guy is walking discipline and pure intensity. He's really at a place where he no longer questions the life he leads (being alone), or what the fuck people think. It's all about "the work" for him.
I know, I've brought this up before, the whole "why the fuck can't I get shit done?" question.
It was an intense weekend. My family in town. Yesterday morning went well, but it kinda went downhill from there, and I certainly played my part in making that happen. My mother and I butt heads a lot, it's crazy. We both gotta be right, and end up saying stupid shit.She's a ball of emotion, and I'm the bat alot of the time trying to hit her outta the park. A lot of family tension and stress. We all just need to fucking
relax in the Marcy family. Just all take some chill pills.Things were left very bad when I dropped them at the GO Station for their train, and I feel bad about it, but fuck, it is what it is.
The intensity has died down a bit, my workout helped a lot.
I need to start to focus again, get on top of some jobs I've got lined up artwise and kick it. I need to hit my next book like it's my last. Get it fucking done. Instead, I've been sitting here downloading songs from the NIN remix site waiting for
mister_f to call (he never did...), and wandering downstairs to make sure Kris' microsoft computer is working right with our new wireless router. Oh, and I've been attending to some laundry, though thankfully my Mom did a lot of that.
Now to go change said laundry.