Janusdef

Isn't it wonderful how easily forgotten someone can be by so many people?
Somone being me.
People being my friends.

Glad to know you all care.

Well, as some of you are aware, my brother-in-law, Frederick Small, passed away early Sunday, May 15th... I probably won't be online much because of the usual things that need to be taken care of.

.001.] name: Garrison
.002.] age: 21
.003.] birthday: 10/6/1983
.004.] zodiac sign: Libra
.005.] height: 6'4"
.006.] weight: 285
.007.] status: lol, currently semi-retired. :-P
.008.] state you live in: Maine
.009.] car you drive: pontiac sunfire
.010.] school you attend(ed): LeTourneau University, Northern Maine Tech College, soon to be Kennebec Valley

[.favorite.]
.011.] food: almost anything my grandmother makes
.012.] non-alcoholic drink: Coke
.013.] alcoholic drink: Rum and Coke/Long Island Iced Tea
.014.] ice cream flavor: Breyer's Chocolate/vanilla patchwork
.015.] color: Blue and black
.016.] tv show: STTNG
.017.] movie: a lot of them
.018.] singer/band: [LP], SoaD, LoG, BB, 3DG.... if you don't know them by their initials, you're not a fan.
.019.] song: at the moment, [LP]- krwlng
.020.] word/phrase: big floppy donkey dick

[.the last person.]
.021.] you talked to: my great-aunt hazel
.022.] you called: Mike
.023.] you saw: my mother
.024.] you hugged: mother
.025.] you kissed: Asa
.026.] you had sex with: o.O
.027.] you had a crush on: hmmm
.028.] you did something nice for: my father
.029.] you dreamt about: myself, falling endlessly
.030.] you hung-out with: hmmmm

[.have you ever.]
.031.] lied to your parents: aye
.032.] stolen something: aye
.033.] had sex in a car: aye
.034.] kissed the same sex: nay
.035.] masturbated: aye
.036.] cheated on a test: nay
.037.] thought you were gay: nay
.038.] drank alcohol: aye
.039.] done drugs: aye
.040.] smoked anything: aye

[.the last thing.]
.041.] you ate: chicken pot pie
.042.] you drank: root beer
.043.] you bought for yourself: CD
.044.] you bought for someone else: card
.045.] you cooked: homemade marinara w/italian sausage over rigatoni
.046.] you made: dookie. o.O
.047.] you worried about: stupid PoPo flashing his lights at me and not pulling me over!
.048.] you cried about: my life
.049.] you were happy about: getting my new car
.050.] you shared with someone: M&Ms

[.omg numbers plz.]
.051.] shoe size: 16
.052.] waist size: 42
.053.] lucky number: 666
.054.] number of piercings: 0 atm
.055.] number of tattoos: 2
.056.] boys/girls you have kissed: 0 boys/many girls
.057.] bfs/gfs you have had: 0BF (duh) 3 serious relationships
.058.] jobs you have had: 4 serious jobs
.059.] people you consider real friends: I don't keep score.
.060.] boys/girls you had sex with: 0boys/don't keep score

[.do you believe in.]
.061.] the boogie man: nay
.062.] monsters in the closet: nay
.063.] monsters under your bed: nay
.064.] evolution: small-scale, aye.
.065.] reincarnation: nay
.066.] love at first sight: eros, aye. agape, nay
.067.] aliens in outerspace: aye
.068.] ghosts: spirits, aye.
.069.] curses: aye
.070.] yourself: I think I think, therefore I think I am

[.would you.]
.071.] rob a bank: nay
.072.] drink a bottle of tequila: aye
.073.] kiss someone of the same sex: nay
.074.] have sex with a goat: nay
.075.] date your teacher: aye, depending on factors.
.076.] flash a stranger: aye
.077.] date your best friend: aye
.078.] bungee jump off the Statue of Liberty: nay, not correct proportions from height to distance from sides (you would hurt yourself.
.079.] skinny dip in public: aye
.080.] eat cow balls: rocky mountain oysters?? nay.

[.at this moment.]
.081.] what are you eating: nothing
.082.] what are you drinking: nothing
.083.] what are you wearing: Starter black and grey b-ball hat//Nike t-shirt under my new grey/silver silk shirt//khaki cargos//blue boxer briefs//Wilson ankle-high socks//my new NB grey sneakers
.084.] what are you listening to: [LP] - Meteora
.085.] what are you thinking about: the state of my left deltoid epidermis
.086.] what do you smell like?: Gio by Giorgio Armani
.087.] what does your hair look like: when not wearing a hat, spikey
.088.] where are you at: bedroom
.089.] what time is it: 2340 zulu
.090.] what is the weather like: gusty and mean

[.this or that.]
.091.] the beach or the mountains: mountains
.092.] pepsi or coke: coke
.093.] having no arms or having no legs: no legs
.094.] stereo or tv: tv.
.095.] mom or dad: money=mom, work=dad
.096.] money or happiness: money to buy happiness.
.097.] car or motorcycle: car
.098.] one good friend or several companions: good friend
.099.] shoes or sandals: shoes
.100.] mustard or ketchup: ketchup

Well I know everyone is tired of hearing me bitch.
So, for at least a little while I'm going to keep my mouth shut.
I'm not going to initiate anything with anyone at any time for anything.
This does not mean I'm avoiding anyone.
This means I am going to try a different approach to my life.
Good day to you one and all.

Your Birthdate: October 6

A birthday on the 6th of the month adds a tone of responsibility, helpfulness, and understanding to your natural inclinations. Those born on the sixth are more apt to be open and honest with everyone, and more caring about family and friends, too. This is a number associated with responsibility and caring - this birthday lends a degree of concern for others.

:x: name =Garrison
:x: piercings = used to have ears, probably going to get again.
:x: tattoos = 2, right deltoid and right bicep.
:x: height = 6'4"
:x: shoe size = 16
:x: hair color = Dark Br. with blk, red, and blnd highlights
:x: siblings = 2 of each, Steve, Jennifer, Andy, Jayne

LAST...
:x: movie you rented = Blade Trinity
:x: movie you bought = Resident Evil: Apocalypse
:x: song you listened to = ENTH E ND on the Linkin Park Reanimation album.
:x: song that was stuck in your head = MY DSMBR
:x: cd you bought = Nirvana (Nevermind) and Linkin Park (Reanimation)
:x: cd you listened to= [Linkin Park] [REANIMATION]
:x: person you've called = My brother Steve
:x: person that's called you = Wells Fargo
:x: tv show you've watched = Real TV
:x: person you were thinking of = Laura/Jeni/Darcy
:x: Last noise you heard? = Fridge closing
:x: Last smell you sniffed? = Gun oil (cleaning the 7.62)

DO...
:x: you have a crush on someone = yeah, kind of do.
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = yeah, Arizona
:x: you think about suicide = who doesn't from time to time?
:x: others find you attractive = quite a few people, you know who you are.
:x: you want more piercings = yeah, eventually.
:x: you like cleaning = I detest it, but I do it.
:x: you like roller coasters = hell yeah!
:x: you write in cursive or print = print

FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = never worked well for me, but hey, never know.
:x: using someone = if it suits my own means. >:D j/k, I'm against using people.
:x: suicide = against
:x: killing people = albeit regrettable, sometimes necessary
:x: teenage smoking = laws of the land and all...
:x: driving drunk = against

WHAT...
:x: shoes do you wear = I currently own 1pr brown dress shoes, 1pr black dress shoes, 1pr birkenstock knockoffs, 1pr hiking shoes
:x: are you scared of = life.
:x: time is it now = 2210 zulu
:x: makes you happy = being out in nature, being productive, being with someone
:x: upsets you? = well laid plans going wildly astray
:x: are you gonna do after you finish this? = go shoot the 7.62 with my father while he shoots his .22
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = are we talking about by someone else or just in general at crushed hopes?
:x: of hearts I have broken? = no idea, probably a few.
:x: of girls ive kissed? = lots
:x: of boys I have kissed? = none
:x: name has appeared in the newspaper? = does the arrest record count? o.O
:x: of scars on my body?= at last count, 78 (some days I feel like vash)
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = no regrets, only misfortunes

FAVORITE...
:x: actor/actress = Keven Spacey
:x: Candy = M&M's of any variety
:x: Cartoon = anything on [adult swim]
:x: Cereal = I don't eat breakfast food.
:x: Chewing gum = dentine ice (any flavor but cherry)
:x: Color(s) = black and blue
:x: Day of week = friday
:x: flower = bleeding hearts/queen anne's lace
:x: Jello flavor = chocolate pudding by the makers of Jello
:x: Jewelry = timex navigator w/chronometer
:x: Summer/Winter = winter
:x: Trampolines or swimming pools = pool

PERSON WHO LAST...
:x: Slept in my bed = ^.^ you know who you are
:x: Saw you cry = don't remember last time I cried, let alone who was there.
:x: You went to the movies with = Jeni, saw hitchikers guide to the galaxy. They should give complementary crack pipes with ticket purchase for that movie.
:x: Yelled at you = my mother
:x: Sent you a text = Steph

HAVE YOU EVER...
:x: said "I love you" and meant it? = I never say it unless I mean it.
:x: cried over a girl = but of course.
:x: cried over a boy = nope
:x: lied to someone = yes
:x: been in a fist fight = how do you think I got 78 scars??
:x: been arrested = never had the miranda rights read...
:x: Thought you were going to die = every day
:x: Wanted to Run away = been there, done that, got the fingerprints to prove it.
:x: Gone out in public in your pajamas = I don't own PJ's, but I have been in public in my boxers
:x: Kept a secret from everyone = I prefer to call them inner demons.
:x: Cried during a movie = yes, the historical war movies get me. Such self-sacrifice for friends and country really hits hard.
:x: Planned your week based on the TV Guide = umm, no?
:x: Been on stage = many times
:x: Been to New York = yes
:x: Been to California = yes
:x: Been to Hawaii = no
:x: Been to China = no
:x: Been to Canada = yes
:x: Been to Asia = no
:x: Been to South America = No (and Jeni, Mexico is still in Norte America. :-) )

THIS OR THAT...
:x: Apples or bananas? = both in a fruit salad.
:x: Blue or red? = blue
:x: Walmart or target? = Target usually doesn't have edited lyrics on their cd's.
:x: Spring or Fall? = Fall
:x: High school or college? = I hate school

FREINDSHIP/LOVE...
:x: Do you believe in love at first sight? = I believe in lust at first sight
:x: Do you want children one day and; if so, how many? = yes, 2-3
:x: Most important thing to you in a friendship is = honesty

OTHER INFO...
:x: Criminal record? = 1 count criminal speed, 1 count unlawful attachment of plates. (both expunged in 7 more years)
:x: Do you speak any other languages? = I took latin, spanish, german, and russian. damned if I can remember much though. I do speak bad english fluently, however.
x: Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom? = my bed and my computer and my cd player
:x: Thing you dislike about yourself the most = my cold, black heart.
:x: Worst feeling in the world = a beautiful letdown
:x: Whom do you love = quite a few people
:x: Whom you miss = see previous response
:x: Nickname(s) = Garrison, Gare, Austin, Janus
:x: Initials = GRAS
:x: How old do you look? = I've been told anywhere from 25-32
:x: How old do you act? = however I feel at a given moment
:x: Glasses/Contacts = glasses
:x: Braces = never
:x: Do you have any pets? = Asa
:x: You get embarrassed = not bloody often

FINISH THE SENTENCE...
:x: I Love to... hunt my prey
:x: I Miss... a simple life
:x: I Wish... I had 2 more wishes.
:x: I'm Annoyed by... telemarketers
:x: I Am... a meat popsicle
:x: I Would Never... pee on an electric fence.
:x: I Am Tired of... fake people.

This is my December.
This is my time of the year.
This is my December.
This is all so clear.

This is my December.
This is my snow-covered home.
This is my December.
This is me alone.

And I Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed.
And I Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that.
And I Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed.
And I Take back all the things I said to you.

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to.

This is my December.
These are my snow-covered trees.
This is me pretending
This is all I need.

And I Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed.
And I Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that.
And I Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed.
And I Take back all the things that I said to you.

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to.

This is my December.
This is my time of the year.
This is my December.
This is all so clear.

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to.
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to.

god I hate my life.
wish there was something I could do about it.
there is.
*click*

<3 Inuyasha
Seshomaru rules though! Love the new LJ icon.

Well, the car's been fixed, drove it to waterville and back and winthrop and back, running fine, getting about 35-38 mpg it would seem, so that's good.

Jeni came up and visited for the end of the weekend, went and saw Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy. Seriously, they should have handed out complementary 8-Balls or crackpipes.... or something. Had a blast overall, hope to do it again soon.

Not much else new really.

Just got my car back from the shop (the one I bought on April 8th). So far, here's what's been done with it:
New fuel pump
New radiator
New coolant reservoir
New reservoir cap
New head gasket

AND THE FUCKER STILL DOESN'T WORK!!!!
Took it out today and it's still acting up!
Every time I accelerate, the car shakes!
To quote cartman, "I....am....so....pissed...off...riiiight...now!"
And what did the dealer say (after having driven it for himself before I picked it up, in the same weather I drove it in)?
"Well, it could be because it's wet..."
FUCKING DUH??? I've driven plenty of cars that didn't act like this when it was raining!




BLAHDIDDYBLAH!

well huh. This is very interesting.

hold down CRTL + A and look at where the cornflowers were....



Isn't that somethin.

it's 2:32.
in the am.
i can't sleep.
i'm in my bed.
alone and cold.
by myself again.
god... just kill me.
i am so tired of this.



why does happiness ellude me?

Chorus:
I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
My weakness is
That I care too much
And my scars remind me
That the past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just want to be alone.
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause I've channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself.
You're makin me insane
All I can say is:

[chorus]

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice.
I saw you goin down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water.
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand.

[chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone.
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand.
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand.
(but you didn't understand)
you fix yourself!

{I can't help you fix yourself }
{But at least I can say I tried. }
{I'm sorry but I gotta move on }
{With my own life. } x2

[chorus x2]

fin

Ok, now that I've vented all of that....

Before I continue a friendship with any of the aforementioned people, let's get one thing straight. I have one rule, one rule only but it is a hard and fast rule. You fuck with me in anyway, you will pay the price. Seen the movie Se7en? Yeah. In whatever way you fuck with me it will be returned 7-fold and will be VERY public. Trust me, I'm a geek. I have my ways.

On a more happier note, I got to see Kung Fu Hustle today and it was frickin hilarious! Stephen Chow has some really great ideas. Speaking of great movies, I saw the preview for another Guy Ritchie film (Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels // Snatch) which open this summer. I can't remember for the life of me what the title was but as soon as I find it, I'll let you all know.

That's about it for now.

what the fuck is wrong with people! My fucking god, why are people such loser trouserstains?? Seriously, some people really need to open their eyes to their oh-so-fucking apparent hypocrasy! You don't fool most people and those you do fool, well it's very fucking short lived! Seriously, when you are THAT GODDAMN BLATANT, what? did you think no one would take NOTICE?? Pull your heads out your respective asses you two-bit slobbering simians! Motherfuckers, we ain't retarted! Don't say one thing when you mean another and ask for help when you're the one causing the problem in the first place! Ass-up-face-down-ball-lickers! Stop taking advantages of old friendships by sullying your hands with the shit of LIES and TWISTED WORDS! WAKE UP! This is LIFE, and it DOESN'T WORK LIKE THAT! When are you fuckers gonna grow up and realize that the ride is about to stop and you'll be left holding your hats?? And don't even pretend innocence, or I'll blow the lid off this mothafuckah! You all know who you are, and if you don't, yer even more blind than I thought, you pretentious spoogestains! Fuck a goat, smoke some weed, do whatever it is you need to do to get yer rocks off, put it behind you and
GROW THE FUCK UP!

I'm done with it, my hands are washed of everything and all of you fuckers. Enjoy life.

*sigh*
why can't anything ever work out the way I want???

Awesome!
George Lopez : Why You Cryin' is on comedy central. I love his standup!

Well, I had fun... but, ya know.

Incidentally, all the songs listed in the last few posts are all good songs to listen to if you're upset. At least I think they are, but hey, I could be wrong. I have been before. And not even that long ago.


no. I don't want to talk about it!

AND IT'S FUCKIN FREEZING OUTSIDE RIGHT NOW!!!