Apparently, the firm that Terance works for is in need of a ME, like now. This job would require flying up to New Jersey to do it, and unfortunatly I wasn't given much in the way of details, with this being a military engineering firm and all. But if this seems interesting or if you know anyone how might have a passing interest, buzz me an email at jailakat (at) gmail (dot) com.

Quite inappropriate for how I'm feeling at the moment (I leave the Internet for four days and this is what happens? Yeah, I did not find that funny either...) but I did want to fill this out before I forget.

( Seduction Quiz thing )

Oh...my...God...

Last all-inclusive post, my friends...

You're more than welcome to pop me an email if you don't see the next post I'm about to drop.

btw, I've joined the crowd and got myself a myspace account. Let's be friends!

And yesterday MARTA welcomed me back with open arms and a two hour train delay. I didn't even get home until 7:15...


It was almost like it was actually saying, "What were you thinking, getting your own vehicle? Don't you know you belong here in this failing sewer of a transit system just like all these other globs of shit you're pressed in with? Let me remind you of your place..."

It was too good to be true, honestly...I should have known better.

Blitzy's transmission conked out not five minutes from Terance's place yesterday evening. While I'm glad I was close enough to trek it back to his place, I'm not exactly happy about the circumstances...

I spent today up at Terance's while he was at work. He lives in the middle of nowhere, and that really helped me get me mind off of what happened yesterday. So much quiet, so much solitude...

The tow company is willing to look at the car to see if its something other than the trans (read: cheaper to fix) that went kablooey.

Terance gets the fucking Medal of Honor for actions above and beyond the call of duty, mostly putting up with my sorry weeping ass.

I'd post more, but it's past my bedtime. I've got a fucking bus to catch to work tomorrow.

no, this is still a public post, I haven't felt much like doing anything this afternoon...


hopefully, I can sleep a little better once I get this out...


There's just something about pulling up to the parking lot of my apartment after work and seeing it empty that just puts a smile on my face.

For about an hour, I can relax, wind down, and let the annoyances of dealing with people for 8 hours (not even mentioning the traffic there and back) just slide off my back. It's quiet. I can walk from one end of the place to the other (naked, if I was that daring) freely. Dealing with dishes or running the vaccum or chopping veggies for dinner or any other chores are meditative exercises. I feel centered. Sometimes I just sit in the living room and enjoy the silence. My awareness just expands, I'm no longer tightly bunched in myself. The solitude is so beautiful, and I'm the truest me I can be.

For that hour, I can just pretend that my dream has come true, that I have a place of my own to call home. There I choose to deal with no one but myself. The problems of the world and other people's issues are left behind the door. They can't touch me beyond these four very real walls.

Then I hear a key turn in the door, and the fantasy ends. The inner walls come back up, the body tenses. My awareness shrinks back to surround me, and I'm disappointed and weary. Where did home go?

I await the magic hour once more.




Well, so much for sleep. Maybe my new best friend Vicodin can give me a hand...

Okay, so here are my favs out of the set of Transformus photos that the super-awesome Scott Bragg did of me.

I even managed to drag Terance into a few shots. I really didn't want to add any of those because (a) it's so damn sappy and corny to have "hey, look at how cute we are" photos of yourself and (b) some of them have us humorously looking in two different directions (and yes, I was the idiot looking directly at the camera).

But hey, I'm feeling a little corny. And the two I picked are rather awesome. I'm thinking of getting a print of both.

Anyway, enjoy!

btw, I'll be moving to Friends Only on tommorrow. The retroactive move off all of my previous posts (goddam that's a lot) will commense shortly after that.



btw x2, new icon!

...for the first time in nearly four years, I didn't make it.

One look at that three to GOD hour line wrapped around the Hyatt and it was "oh hell no".

I was sad (I did put together a cute costume and Terance was rocking the psuedo-pirate thang), but I can deal this time. We made the most of the rest of the day together, though, so I'm not too sad now.

Next year, there will be better planning.

To everyone looking for us yesterday, I'm sorry. We should do a meal or something sometime.

Colombian Catholic Church Excommunicates All Involved in 11-year-old Rape Victim’s Abortion


I...have no words.

Well, maybe a few.

Archishop Luis Augusto Castro, president of the Bishops’ Conference of Colombia, spoke out against the Court’s decision to accept abortion in difficult cases involving rape or incest, saying “The child is innocent…the criminal should be punished and put in jail for a long time, but the child should not have to pay for the sins of another..."

I completely agree with you. That poor young girl has suffered enough. It can't possibly be healthy for her to carry a fetus to term at her age. And just imagine the trauma she's already gone through...

"...He is an innocent baby.”

What! I thought we were discussing that poor innocent girl unwittingly raped and knocked up? Are you trying to tell me that some teensy little pre-human (which, by the way, may also be a girl) has more of a right than a living child of 11 years?

Fuck you with a cross. Splintered with nails driven through it.

* Thanks to some random memo I received at work last week concerning the identifing myself as a Revenue employee on public and private web pages, I will be locking down my posts to Friends only starting next week (Whether that will be from now on or retroactivly is still in question). While I'm doing that, I'd like to cull my F-list a bit. Anybody still wishing to remain listed, just reply.


* I am beyond broke, thanks to the car fisaco over a week ago and a few unexpected payments. This beyond brokeness shall end once my paycheck rolls in on Thursday, but not by much.


* This kind of eats into my Friday the 13th b-day vacation plans. Ah well, I'll do what I do best, roll with it.


* I am only making an apperance at Dragon on Saturday. I'd like to see/hang out with some of you folkies during that time. Pop me an email with some sort of contact info on it and I'll holla at you once we're on site.


* Thanks to the wonderfully talented Scott Bragg (a.k.a. he who did my corset pics back in January), I have a set of nice Transformus poses. The usual editing and posting (I have to make sure any boobies aren't showing, etc.) will commense soon.


* I am nearing the end of my vaunted patience with many things in my life right now, mostly random acts of stupid. Luckily, this is the fuel that is driving me towards making some major changes, so in a way, I welcome it. Of course I'll be wanking about them in more detail here. Stay tuned.

Whoo, I'm pooped, and I have a lot to catch up on.

**First, the car (now named Blitzy) failed her emissions test, so no tag for me...

...until I gave Terance a call.

Now she has a shiny new Madison County tag to last her until this October. That will give me plenty of time to either (a) fix the thing that keeping her from passing (a nearly 200 dollar repair job) or (b) move to Madison County or the general Athens area, where emmissions testing isn't required.


**Blitzy makes the whole visiting thing very, very easy now. I feel so much more balanced in my relationships now that I have the ability to go out and see people without wondering "And just how am I going to get home?"


**On that same thread, the afternoon commute up 316 to Athens is a bitch any day of the week.


**I'm still pretty "blah" on D*C this year. Besides seeing people I don't get to normally see and checking out what The Cruxshadows are up to, I don't think I can justify the cost of doing the whole weekend. So I'm thinking just heading up with Terance for whatever day the band is playing (cause he's a fan who has never seen them live), saying my hellos to everyone (much easier with this cellphone), seeing CXS, and then finding something else to do for the extended weekend.


**Given my general "bleh" on cons that don't start with Froli-, the jury is still out on AWA as well (I mean, hell, I've never gotten laid during AWA anyways, so...). I mean, I could justify going long enough to see the horror of "The Hour that Doesn't Exist" and whatever happens with the "Yaoi After Dark" panel...but...bleh...


**The job search goes... It would be a lot less stressful if I could just sit down and learn how to write a decent cover letter.


**I've been way too tempted to just find excuses to use up my annual leave and not show up at my job. But now they've got me training five people at once (on three different things-whee!), so the power of gulit compels me otherwise. I wonder how much of my leave (annual, sick, comp time, holiday) will I get in cash when I quit?


**I've just spent this afternoon helping Terance give away some kittens at a Wal-Mart. This was after being taught how to throw a punch (hey, I asked). I thought it was a perfect ending to a fairly nice weekend of getting shit done.


**My new music obsession is Morning Musume. I have crossed over to the dark side of J-pop.


*thinks* Did I forget anything?

The title in now in my name...

I have purchaced insurance...

Tommorrow I go and get the tag renewed...


and then...and then

She's all mine! *cackles madly*

Okay!

Firstly, I'm not doing any long-term driving (read: nothing farther than the Publix and Target a couple of blocks away) until I get the title in my name and insurance, so I won't be visiting/hanging out/etc. for a little bit longer, kay?

I forgot to give mad, mad props to seldomawake for his help (and extra stuff!) yesterday. Go you, happy birthday, and enjoy your new ride. You totally deserve it!

And me...I'm well, too happy for words, honestly. My brain is just imploding with the possiblities now, and I'm so grateful for each one. I can't wait until I start waking up at 5:30 instead of 4 to get to work (flipping off the Number 8 all the way)...whee!

Off to grocery shop!

I...

Have...

A...

CAR!!

Thanks to pigmassacre, I now am wheel'ed!

Rejoice with me!

Rejoice with me, for I have reached the High-Wank part of Kingdom Hearts II!

For starters: Sadly, I am no longer 2d6 for Sexy. The left dice that fell off during Sexy Halloween fell off again during Transformus...and we couldn't find it.

So today I am sporting Hematite balls...yay!



The Weekend: The weekend was lovely. Transformus was just as dirty!Hippie as I expected, but a lot of fun. It helped that I didn't listen too carefully to anyone on anything stronger than beer. Yay for running into a lot of people that I haven't seen in forever (including the valedictorian from my high school-weird!). Unfortunatly I did the wimpy old lady thing and didn't stay up all night. Hell, Terance and I crashed out right after the big wicker man thing burned to the ground.

We also learned a few important lessons about camping in the mountains. Mainly about staying warm at night in the middle of summer.

I was more than glad to get back to his place yesterday to commune with some hot running water. I even got to drive part of the way back-yay!



Terance: So yeah, I love him. Nothing new there, right? I apparently impressed the hell out of him with my self-reliance. Little things like having the campsite mostly packed up with he was struggling to get his car out of the mud at Transformus, common sense stuff like that.

I met his mother today, she likes me. I managed to be in his prensence for that many days (Wens. to today) and not be utterly sick of him...as a matter of fact, he got used to my presence. We seem to work well together. The sudden omgheshere! feelings faded fast into this comfort thing. We don't need each other, but it's nice to have him around.

Yes, this is still something very, very new and amazing to me. He's a keeper. Which brings me to the next point:


The Future: Well, it shouldn't come as a surprise by now that I hate my job. I haven't gotten a great deal of enjoyment out of it since Corvette died. I've also been in Atlanta for damn near 7 years. Given my transisent childhood, that's the longest I've lived in one city ever. I've become frustrated and annoyed with the town in general.

Sure, I could score a car and a great chunk of my complaints would disappear. But I've been toying with the idea of getting the fuck out since I was engaged years ago.

I've been to Athens about three times now. Athens is looking rather good. And yes, Terance is a big reason why, but I'm starting to dig the smallish town vibe.

Housing is also way, way cheaper. Easier to get my own place and all...

So, I'm kicking around the idea. No, I'm not going to just fly up there any time soon on a whim to be with a guy I've only dated for 4 months. That's immature and stupid, and you know that's not how I roll. I have to at least find a decent job first, nevermind seeing how we work out as a couple. Fuck, even if we don't work out, I just might go anyway. And of course, there's the that whole car question. That will take months. So I've got my feelers out in both Atlanta and Athens. Whichever one bites first gets a load of me.

..so, yeah...



Tommorrow I have off for decompressing reasons...I'm so not looking forward to clocking in the next day...oh well...

I've got my shit packed and I'm ready to fly!

..or bus as the case may be...

Heading off for a well deserved vacation, and I hope to see some of you weirdos as Transformus this weekend.

The rest of you I'll see on Monday.

*eddieizzardvoice*Ciao!*/eiv*

For Sexxy Halloween, I was expecting to just work the desk, since I'm a little out of commission to play, and have as much fun as one can have with their tits hanging out (I was a sexy Black Widow).

Decorating was fun, I got to see a lot of folk that I haven't seen since Frolicon. I got asked a lot "Well, is your guy coming?" and saying a lot of "Well, no..." and "We're actually skipping this week because of Transformus" (saving money and all that jazz). I missed him...even more so when it looked as if everyone was bringing/had brought their S.O.'s with them.

I called Terance up after comiserating with Kate (she misses her boy too), and he called me back as I was changing at JuJu's place. After telling him that people were asking about him, and hearing that people were asking about me at the birthday party he went to Friday night, he decided to come down to the party anyway.

Can you say "Happy Kiki"? I'm sure you could.

The party was great, the decorations were lovely, and I was having a blast until the dice of one of my nipple rings fell out. After about 30 minutes of proding around with tools, I just decided that we should probably hear home before I lose the piercing itself and the hole closed back up (sorry about missing my shift, guys, but I kinda didn't want to lose that happy hole of mine). I felt kinda bad that I didn't get to party as much as I wanted, or to show off Terance more.

*crosses fingers* We're discussing going to Around the World together (well, I know I'm going, I just have to see if he wants to come along).

So, yeah, two days of work to endure, and then I'm hopping a bus to start my vacation. I'll be back on Monday and will take all of Tuesday off to recover. This is the longest we'll be in each other's faces; I do hope we don't get completely sick of each other by then.