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Friday, July 4th, 2003
2:51 pm	guess who?!! hellllllllllllo its been a while since ive written here, just thought id quickly say hi, like louise i am still alive too :P i think i mite do a longer post next week cos i have to b off now. going to ants party tonite! and yes thats the weekends plans for now hehehe byeee (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 28th, 2003
12:05 am	the end is near... the net is going as of the 1st june... i realise far too much time is spent on here when i should b doing other things... and having adsl makes things so much easier to just sit here cos im constantly connected... its time, im actually looking forward to it. u just dont realise the time when ur on the net and the next time u look its four hours later. this may not b the case for some but it is for me... so i think this will probably b my last journal entry apart from the occasional one when i access the net somewhere. chris and i went down south to dunsborough on the weekend and came back monday nite. had an excellent time, we went to yallingup and canal rocks and cape naturalist and alot of the beaches near dunsborough and rivendell and we attempted to go down the cave but in the end we decided not too. we stayed in a nice place too and even had a wood fire going and we cooked every nite hehehe. just what we needed i think. uni finishes next week! cant wait :) and then its the countdown to my 21st which im going to definately have at the varga lounge. ive got soo many things to organise. hmmmm i dont usually get too lovey dovey but considering this is my last entry i think i will. im totally in love with a guy that completes me. my life has literally taken a 360 degree turn in many ways but i can honestly say im truly happy. sometimes i sit and just think about how lucky i am to have found chris even tho he was rite under my nose for a good year beforehand, and its amazing how things r just meant to be. i know this is going to last, its a feeling u get that u know can never be shaken.... i love you chris... ok with that note im out of here.... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 21st, 2003
6:20 pm	dum de dummmmm well i have my car back, new fully reconditioned engine, new mob put it in.... and it stalls. i was crossing a road and it just stalled in the middle. fucken hell. my frustration was running high, i would of screamed at the next person i saw i think. *sigh* does any mechanic actually do their job properly, does any mechanic know what they r doing? im beginning to wonder... got bball tonite, im not in a good mood tho, which could actually work in favour of the team or not, i will see what happens. im going to the john butler trio concert at metros!!!!!!! yahooooooooooo, lou is getting our tickets, cant wait to see them :P ive got 3 major assignments left and 2.5 weeks to do them in. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i will get my shit together soon enough. then im freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. dunsbourough this weekend, there is nothing like a nice peaceful relaxing stress free weekend with my boyfriend in the midst of chaos. ive decided im having my 21st at the varga lounge, we went and checked it out last friday and the set up was just what i was looking for and they play the music *most* of us like heheheh. will still b a fun nite where we can all get pissed. gotta get that organised too. ok enough ramblings from me :) Current Mood: moody (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 19th, 2003
2:36 pm	same issues different day. had the best weekend tho. well friday nite went to an engagement thing at hans in northbridge. i dont really like hans as it is, but i guess it wasnt too bad. after dinner everyone went to go to zone 3 but our group ended up at the varga lounge. im actually thinking of having my 21st there now, but on a saturday not a friday. im looking into other places first tho but i better decide soon! saturday i had the best time. it was teresa's 21st at steves bar. we all got drunk and talked and took photos :) then after we ended up at the pallas in which we got even more drunk and danced the nite away...well til about 2am anyway hehehe. then our energy levels went and it was time to go. on the way home i felt very sick, its been a while since i have been drunk :P on sunday i woke up with a splitting headache. not good on a day when i planned on doing an assignment all day. motivation was lost for that. slept some more and then nite was here... i was going to ring lou to go to ben's party but i remembered she said it was in the arvo so it was too late anyway. so then i ended up going to see the matrix with chris. the movie was excellent, the special effects amazing and despite what i was told by some ppl i did actually get what was going on! hheheh. then i came home and went to bed. that was my weekend. got up early today to work on a group assignment and now im waiting for a call about my car. im getting yet another engine put in. i now have to look at getting my money back from the other place who put an engine in , a dodgey one at that. they better give it back or else! bastards. things r still on my mind. dont know how to deal with it really. enough said. Dunsborough saturday! yyayay cant wait. Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 14th, 2003
9:28 pm	im frustrated... with things ppl are saying and doing.... its amazing how one thing can turn things into turmoil one way or the other... *sigh* when is it all going to stop! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 5th, 2003
12:03 pm	i hope for a life that is alot simpler then the one i have now. i do not blame anyone but myself for the fact that it consists of so many different avenues that r all slowly taking its toll. i mean simpler not only in terms of less complications, controversy and the need to squeeze so many different activities into the week but also that of material possessions. i wonder why i cant save, but how can u when ur constantly buying new clothes or a new item or going out to expensive lunches or buying the luxury stuff that u really dont need but u want anyway, the minute u have that little bit of extra money in the bank. do i even really need a net connection at home? $60 a month, when even tho i got it for uni i really just use it for msn, to check email or to read lj. i need it for uni on the occasions i have assignments but surely i can go elsewhere to get the info off the web. i find so much of my time is wasted sitting at this computer, the motivation to do other things vanishes the second i sit here. the net is going to go. im going to resist the urge to spend money on the so called luxury items that i really dont need i just want. it sounds so stupid, alot of ppl would think how hard can it really be, but once u start the satisfaction with just the 'necessities of life' disappear. i want this to change. i want to do the things i want to do. i dont want to b always thinking that if i do such and such im going to annoy so and so, if that makes sense. its like a constant guilt that u cant get rid of. i find my mind constantly working out time. time of when i can do things and the things i have to do. it doesnt matter what ppl say, because even tho they act like it doesnt matter (or somtimes they do it depends) you know it does. sometimes i even feel guilty about saying what im doing that day or what i want to do cos im meant to b doing something else with someone else. just writing this seems so complicated. then there is the relationship i have with mum. i mean when we get on well its really good, but it will take one little thing and then the good run is ova and the hurtful words come out. im tired of it. most ppl that meet her think she is this happy go lucky cool mum etc etc and yes it does seem that way, but myself and a few others know the other side of her. my mum has no shame, she will say it how it is and she will b rude, sometimes without even knowing it. im always thinking and hoping she wont say anything to embarrass me, not in that embarrassing childhood story way, i dont care about that, but in the way of saying things that you just dont say in front of other ppl or to other ppl. she's done it a few times now, maybe more then a few. i dont understand how a mother can do that or not think about the consequences of what she says. i hate arguments and i hate conflict but she just knows how to push my buttons. we r just not on the same wavelength and we never will b, we r too different. and its all good and well to say just agree with what she says or just dont set her off or any of that but it doesnt always work, or rarely works actually. i wish i had a good calm bondy relationship with her. doesnt she want the same? moving out is not an option either, at least not for now. i really do have it good at home, i dont take that fact for granted but i would give it all up in a second to just have some peace. then there is the issue of weight, which ever so often seems to b always in the picture. my whole life has been a constant battle with weight. and yes i have lost most of it finally but then its a constant worry of staying where i am now. unfortunately i have not been blessed with the skinny can eat almost anything and not put on weight gene and to stay the way i am i have to work hard at it and b very conscious of it. its always in the back of my mind. and i have been slack lately about it and am now finding it is getting me down. its like i want to say fuck it i will eat what i want and do what i want but on the other hand i know i cant do that. i dont feel good about my weight and the habits i have atm. i also dont want anyone in my ear about it either. the more ppl go on about it the more u want to rebel against them rather then the problem at hand. within our group i find that weight is a constant focus. one of us is always talking about it. how we have put on weight, how we need to lose weight, how we have to watch this, how we have lost weight, how we keep losing weight, the list goes on. some ppl mite b rolling their eyes at this rite now, and i dont want to judge or assume but if u havent been through this u cant relate to what i am saying and understand it from my perspective. even when i read this i think its so stupid to think this way, how hard can it really b. but it is. society and its constant relationship to time. i dont see it as getting any better, if anything worse. i recieved an email from a friend the other day and it was a really good eye opener. probably why im thinking about all this out loud now, releasing all the built up tension from it. this is the email : Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine. I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible. How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word "refrigeration" mean nothing to you? How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched Jeopardy! On television? I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, "How about going to lunch in a half hour?" She would gasp and stammer "I can't. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast, It looks like rain." And my personal favorite: "It's Monday." She died a few years ago. We never did have lunch together. Because we cram so much into our lives, we tend to schedule our headaches. We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all the conditions are perfect: We'll go back and visit the grandparents when we get Stevie toilet-trained. We'll entertain-when we replace the living-room carpet. Life has a way of accelerating as we get older. The days get shorter, and the list of promises to ourselves gets longer. One morning, we awaken, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of "I'm going to," "I plan on" and "Someday, when things are settled down a bit." When anyone calls my 'seize the moment' friend, she is open to adventure and available for trips. She keeps an open mind on new ideas. Her enthusiasm for life is contagious. You talk with her for five minutes, and you're ready to trade your bad feet for a pair of Rollerblades and skip an elevator for a bungee cord. My lips have not touched ice cream in 10 years. I love ice cream. It's just that I might as well apply it directly to my hips with a spatula and eliminate the digestive process. The other day, I stopped the car and bought a triple-decker. If my car had hit an iceberg on the way home, I would have died happy. Now...go on and have a nice day. Do something you WANT to......not something on your SHOULD DO list. If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting? Make sure you read this to the end; you will understand why I sent this to you. Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round Or listened to the rain lapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight Or gazed at the sun into the fading night? You better slow down. Don't dance so fast. Time is short. The music won't last. When you ask "How are you?" Do you hear the reply? When the day is done, Do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head? You'd better slow down. Don't dance so fast. Time is short. The music won't last. When you run so fast to get somewhere, you miss half the fun of getting there. When you worry and hurry through your day, It is like an unopened gift....Thrown away... Life is not a race. Take it slower. Current Mood: contemplative (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 4th, 2003
7:13 pm	its been a while.. i have been neglectful of the journal the past week or so, probably cos nothing much has happened and i would rather save u all the boredom of my day to day activities every once in a while :) had a great nite last nite, ended up at the pallas r&b room. its really the first time i have ventured away from the taipan, and a huge contrast in music. but i really enjoyed myself, danced for ages, certain friends hooked in with a few guys ;) was good to get out and about clubbing again. went and saw x men 2 this arvo, i havent seen the first one yet but i didnt really have to, was a really good movie and had great special effects :) its a change from the romantic comedies the girls and i usually see heheheh. im feeling really emotional lately, i dont know why really, things can get me down really easily. more about this later, im going now (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 27th, 2003
8:04 pm	so called holiday ova :( hmm what a week basketball wednesday nite...was good to get back into it. only problem was we r all unfit again cos we havent played in 6 months, so by the second half we were stuffed and consequently couldnt keep up really and lost the game hehehe. thursday nite went to the foundry, wasnt too bad, im not really the sit down around a table at the pub and drink type, rather b able to dance or something but it was still good. ant do u want to come earlier next time so as to avoid massive lines! anyway lou left earlier then us to b with her new loverboy, shes dumping her friends already :P then we all went our seperate ways. friday was a greattttttt day, slept in then chris and i had lunch, i even managed to do some homework, then later on we got takeaway italian and a vid. watched that then we went to bed. was really nice :) worked all day sat, was a shit of a day. when u work in retail u really find out how rude, greedy, obnoxious and selfish the general public can b. it still amazes me even tho ive been doing it for 5 years now. couldnt wait for the day to end. went and played pool in freo with the group that nite, then we briefly went to newport, then to dome. the nite was good minus the critisisms. today i went to the library for an assignment. exciting stuff. thats all Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 22nd, 2003
12:16 pm	had a nice quiet relaxing monday... monday nite i just have to say i kicked louise's ass in battlship :P we all seem to b getting into these online games atm hehehe. its something to do tho :) gotta work today and 2moro and thurs... good to get a bit of extra money. chris and i r going to go away for the weekend soon so it will come in very handy. i cant wait to go! alrite i better get ready (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 20th, 2003
6:37 pm	HAPPY EASTERRRR!@)(*# last nite went to lou's for what ended up a nice quiet one rather then a small piss up... watched the saturday nite movie which we havent done in a while hehe. THEN i get a call from my friend who lives across the road. she said that about 10 stupid guys went down our street and a few of them got on top of chris' car and jumped up and down on his roof. her dad came out but he didnt want to confront 10 drunk idiots and my brother and mum came out but the guys had already left by then. my brother got in his car to try find them but they went into the bush and were long gone. what fucking idiots. dont people have anything better to do, when maccas closes and they have nowhere else to hang out do they have to go and ruin peoples property? anyway it left some dents in the roof of his car, chris wasnt happy at all. we drove around a bit longer to see if we could find a group of guys wondering around but couldnt, so they got away with it in the end. bastards. that kinda put a dampener on the rest of the nite. understandably. went to mandurah today to visit the grandparents for easter. was a nice day, ate wayyyy to much and now im extremely full. we watched the fremantle vs kangaroos game, it was an excellent match and the dockers won!*$(@ yahooooooo! *sings dockers club song* chris wont b happy, dad and him had a bet on the game and he is an avid kangaroos supporter :P hehehehe im home now and waiting for everyone to get the shit together so we can go to jen's 21st. she lives in japan atm and has come back for 6 days for her 21st. should b good fun! will b great to see her too :) thoughts... hmmm... why do i always hurt the ones i love? the one i cant live without. im fucked in the head. Current Mood: moody Current Music: Delta Goodram - Lost Without You (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 19th, 2003
12:16 pm	had a semi productive week i guess...got one out of 3 assignments done...trying to work out the times to do the others *sigh* went to the casino last nite, won a little bit on keno but we gambled the winnings away and went out with nothing :P oh well i only spent $7 there so its not that bad hehehe. going to mandurah tomoro for easter to visit the grandparents... i dont mind really cos we havent seen them for a while... as long as we r not there alllllll day i'll b happy. hmmm thats as exciting as things have been this week it seems. Current Mood: mellow (Comment on this)
Monday, April 14th, 2003
1:15 pm	procrastination..the silent killer ok its the holidays now... i have said it repeatedly lately.. ive got assignments to do... i cant be bothered doing them... im thinking about it... just cant go and do it... grrrr friday nite we went and saw fat pizza, wasnt a bad movie, quite funny and all, but i'd probably wait for the video :) saturday stayed at chris' and watched vids, was good to do not much actually. sunday we went to little creatures, the place is pretty good but u realllllly need to b a beer drinker and since im not i probably wouldnt go back there in a hurry. nice atmosphere tho. hmmm i dont have alot of deep philosophical stuff to say, i dont have any major thoughts or concerns, geez that is weird :P (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 11th, 2003
4:03 pm	quick update.. hmmm the week has passed by fast once again, where does the time go! uni is out for 2 weeks! yaya, altho first week is purely my assignment week, second week is to relax :) the weather has again ruined some plans, we were gonna go and check out the sexpo but that is not going to happen 2nite thats for sure, going to go to the movies to see Fat Pizza instead, it looks really funny and better still is indoors where the elements cant get to us :P dont know whats happening 2moro nite but if the weather stays the way it is i would say nothing major will b happening with the social side of things. im going to b playing basketball again! cant wait, starts in 2 weeks. it will b good to get back into the fitness side of things again, im finding it hard to get motivated, the thought is there tho. basketball will give it the start i need. my bed just got delivered, about to put it all together but im waiting for chris to come round cos it looks slightly technical and i cant b bothered working it out myself :) i have to decide i where i want to do my prac by the 9th of may, i dont know yet i have a few ideas but i just dont know what to choose, maybe a womens refuge or something with addictions, i was thinking DCD's but i have changed my mind on that. its a pretty big decision so i better sort that out on these holidays too. lou and i went shopping last nite for the beginning of my winter wardrobe since i have nothing decent, got a pair of jeans and plan on getting another one that i have my eye on and a couple more jumpers. then i will save! :) k thats the latest for now :P Current Mood: happy Current Music: Tool - 46 and 2 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 6th, 2003
6:02 pm	bungeeeeeeeeeeeeee well i mite as well start with todays happenings....woke up at about 10am, had a shower then made my way around the corner to a champagne breakfast. chris and michael also came. it was an 18th birthday thing with family and close friends....kinda boring but it has to be done. came home for about an hour after that and then left for asseel's bungee jump!!! today was the day. lou and i bought it for her 21st present. quite alot of us went down to watch her take the plunge. i think we were just as nervous as her! she did it and loved it and wanted to go again! hehehehe. least she enjoyed herself :P last nite we went to the leedy again. we like the music there on a saturday nite basically. when we got there we saw some of our friends who we have been meaning to catch up with for a couple of months now...was a great suprise. we stayed at the leedy till about 10 30pm and then went to another 18th, one which we had to do the appearance thing. stayed for about 30 mins max and that was the nite. i was tired tho cos we got home late fri and i had work all day saturday so i didnt mind a rather early nite. yoga again 2moro nite. should b good :P more uni work to do all day 2moro, try and get alot of it done so thats less to do in the study week. geez i sound a bit nerdy saying that hehe. pay of my queen size bed this week :) then i gotta reorganise my whole room, shouldnt b too much of a big task i hope. hmmmm i just had dinner, had an argument with my parents, mainly mum of course. i need to get out of here. Current Mood: enraged (16 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 31st, 2003
5:22 pm	another concert been and gone another great weekend has just past...it comes and goes so quickly now. just as i get into relaxation mode, its back to work and uni, oh well holidays in 2 weeks! so yes friday was merrick and rosso at the regal. i had heard their name b4 but didnt actually know how funny they were or anything, so i was pleasantly suprised when we went. it was hilarious! i really enjoyed myself, altho towards the end my damn headache came back :( but that didnt ruin the nite! saturday worked all day, came home and got ready in 25 minutes so i could b out the door and on the way to the silverchair concert. and let me say what a nite that was! the concert was at belvoir amphitheatre which is outdoors. it was also the nite of a storm. we got absolutely saturated. it basically poured down the minute silverchair came out. we all looked like drowned rats. i was soooooo cold, i had to snuggle up to lou in the end ;) still despite the rain the show went on, and i must say they played really well, the sound quality was excellent, the stage was excellent, and the performance was excellent. some ppl left during it, but we had no intention of leaving cos of the rain, even tho towards the end it was really bad. we will never forget that concert! rachel told me the next day her relatively new fone got water damaged :( on sunday i spent alllllllllll day with chris, had a nice meal there and we just hang out at home all day. was a great end to the week. when i went to go home tho, my battery was flat cos i accidently left my lights on the whole day (it was darkish when i drove to his house ok!) so once i got that jump started all was good :P started my health kick today, went to my yoga class at 9 30am, was good, i wish i never stopped going, was soo relaxing as well. pump on fridays now too. and this arvo i have been studying all day, which is a crap thing to do on ur only day off but it has to b done. got a bit done, but have to do heaps of readings 2nite for an assignment. im on top of things tho so im not too worried about anything. been pondering thoughts of my 21st, even tho its in july, im sure time will fly and it will b my birthday b4 i know it. i wasnt going to do anything big but then the other nite i was thinking about it and im gonna have a big do somewhere, 2 venues to decide btwn atm. im gonna have friends and family there as well so it should b a good nite. quite alot of things to plan with a 21st but ive got alot of help so im not going to stress too much about it :) im going to go do these readings now...there's ALOT to read. Current Mood: content Current Music: Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 27th, 2003
10:57 pm	lou u knew i couldnt resist this one! :P Your Baby! You're a great person who thinks you can change the world. You get along great with your family and love to help people. Which Dirty Dancing Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 24th, 2003
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Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
9:54 pm	well what a past couple of days... was not feeling to good wednesday, i was feeling reeeeeallly run down, sore throat, the whole lot. went to the docs and apparently had a virus, but i also had alot of the symptoms for glandular fever so i had some tests done and find out the results tuesday. so thurs i slept and got a good 15 hours in :P friday was relaxing and watching vids. chris came over during the day and then jas, rach and teresa came over later that nite to watch more vids. had work all day sat but had sooooo much energy, i felt alot better so i really dont think i have to worry about having glandular fever now, i just needed time out! sat nite we went to the leedy. i caught up with a good friend of ours from highschool who we hadnt seen in ages at work that day and they asked if we all wanted to go there for some r&b thing. the whole group went and it was heaps and heaps of fun, we basically danced the whole time we were there. i loved it and i think its going to become one of those regular things now :P went to the taipan after but i have to say that i really think im getting over the taipan now *gasp*. the band is good but its just changed the whole atmosphere there, brought in a new crowd (some would think this was a good thing hehe) and yeah i dont like it much. so leedy saturday nites here we come! had another lazy day today, im so tired, i really should b getting off to bed. in fact i think i will :) Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 19th, 2003
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