Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	sound of cars off on Detroit

Important Site Update
I've been doing some soul searching, and decided that even though overall I try to dissassociate myself with Tori Amos related things on account of the hate mail and what not that some people feel the petty need to put out in the universe, this was different because this was personal.

so I put this link up. because it is important. because it might help someone get help, and if it helps just one person, it will be worth whatever influx of crap mail it may inspire.

<http://www.peppermcgowan.com/2003/links.asp>

the one that says "unlock the silence"

for years i made it nobody's business. and it isn't really now, but you know, i've dealt with this horrible thing for half my life, and doing this with the thought it might help someone else trapped in silence makes it worth whatever else i may have to face for my honesty.


i am not a poster girl and this is not a pretty poster. this is not me in gauzy wings holding a gerber daisy looking off camera. that's a real gun with a real clip in it, and my real anger that hasn't cooled even after "dealing with it" an assault is like a death. You may learn to accept that it happened, but it will change your life and you won't ever "get over it." I put the song Veteran on adoptaband fearing some of what feedback I might get.

And yes, I got some nasty stuff. But those who say that it hit a nerve that helped them get to a better place, it's for those people that I take what I do out of my studio and out in the world.

it's for those girls, and boys that i talk about this.

because i am with you. i may not have walked in your shoes, but i have walked before you, behind you, or beside you.

and LJ user AGITATED made some really wonderful points in a diaryland post that I never even was supposed to read but she sent to me. So I thank her for that, and I thank anyone who has ever been through anything for their strength, and their bravery.

It *will* be okay someday.