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Subject:	Two can play this game ...
Time:	12:21 am.
Mood:	enraged ... Again. Fuck..

I tried to play fair. I really did. Some people just don't want to give it the fuck up.

( What really went down ... incase you care ... It's really long ... and dumb )

Now tell me that wasn't out of fucking spite. I didn't do what she wanted so she threw a fit about it.

Guess i'll have to be a little more selective of the people i allow to read friends-only entries. Ya know ... Just incase they decide to throw a hissy fit and think it's okay to COPY AND PASTE a friends-only entry and make it public.

So ... If any of you think you can't have mature, civil debates without resorting to name calling and the like, can't stand up for yourself, or think i should have to fucking choose between my friends, just step the fuck aside now. Save us all a little bit of time here.

I'm sick of fucking babysitting people. If you don't agree with something, say so. If you can't back your shit up, that isn't my problem. If we agree to disagree, don't fucking turn around and make it a whole big fucking issue later. If you have a problem with me, bring it to ME. What a fucking concept, eh?

I tried to play nice. I really really did. I took the issue to her personally rather than making it an issue on her journal ... Where my replies likely would've been deleted anyway. Apparently she prefers the drama.

I'm sorry it had to end over something so fucking STUPID ...

And yet, i can't help but feel a little relieved. At least i'm rid of it all now ...

(Just a recap ... incase you got lost in all the HS BS drama ... It's NOT okay to copy and paste one of my friends-only journals and make it public in your own. I don't care what you think you can do in your own journal, if you value my friendship at all (and hey, who wouldn't, i'm cool, right?), you wont do that to me. I know ... you'd think that'd be a little decency and common sense, but apparently i've over-estimated something somewhere. And got screwed over by it. Let this be a lesson to all ... )

Subject:	Sad
Time:	11:00 pm.
Mood:	sad.

It's sad when you find out people aren't really who you think they are.

It's sad when you find out that not even your friends-only posts are safe.

It's sad when you waste precious project time trying to patch things up with someone who just really doesn't give a flying fuck what you have to say.

It's sad when you have to unfriend people for no reason. And then again, it's sad when you have a really good reason to unfriend someone, and you STILL feel bad.

My own fault though, huh?

Live and learn.

Subject:	Bad Dreams ... ?
Time:	2:59 pm.
Mood:	weird.

Yesterday my cat was making strange noises in her sleep. Like those weird throat meows, then real meows than a mix of both. I looked over and her eyes were still closed. She was dreaming. She does this from time to time.

She just flew off the bed hissing at something ... She looked scared. I looked on the bed and there's nothing there. She's startin to freak me out ...

Time:	8:57 am.
Mood:	ditzy.

I had an awesome sleep last nite. I turned off the TV (i never do that!), turned the radio on low and had the best sleep i've had in a very long time.

I got up at 7:50am and got ready to jump in the shower. I took my shirt off and proceeded to ... throw it in the toilet. I was supposed to throw it on the floor. I missed. Oops. Then i was slightly injured by falling shampoo and body wash bottles in the shower. Oops again.

I think i should've just gone back to bed.

Subject:	True? I like to think so
Time:	9:21 pm.
Mood:	tired.

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The quality that most appeals to you:	Creativity
In a survival situation, you:	Cleverly trick your attacker
Your hidden talent is:	Seeing the best in others
Your gift is:	Sexual prowess
In groups, you:	Act as host/ess
Your best quality is:	Your empathic nature
Your weakness is:	Your overbearing nature

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Subject:	Farmhouse Fire
Time:	12:15 pm.
Mood:	sympathetic.

I keep meaning to write about this ... But i haven't gotten around to it. I'm going to 'get around to it' now.

There was a farmhouse fire pretty close to where i live. I did my last clinical rotation in West Lincoln, which is about 20mins away, and where this all happened. They're saying it was a gas stove or something ... Seven children and their mother (8 months pregnant) all died. The husband/father was in Ottawa planning to move the family there ... Now he has nothing to move.

The story can be found here http://www.canoe.ca/NewsStand/TorontoSun/News/2004/11/14/713753.html but i think the link is only good for today.

The funeral was at a church here in St. Catharines yesterday.

It's weird ... I feel worse for the husband/father than i do for those that died. In a way, they're in a 'better place' ... depending on your version of what happens after you die, i guess. There's a very good chance that they're either happier now or just don't know (b/c, ya know, they're dead). Either way, that's got to be a billion times better than what this man is going through, having lost his wife and eight (including the fetus) children.

It shouldn't take stuff like this to really make you cherish what you have, but it does. At least for me. And that's kinda sad.

Subject:	Yay for clean rooms :)
Time:	5:07 pm.
Mood:	accomplished.
Music:	Simpsons on TV.

I have no idea how my room got to be such a freaking mess. Just vacumning the floor is a huge improvement ... Missy keeps putting litter all over it. Not her fault, i know, but it's quite obvious there's litter all over the place on my forest green carpet.

I have two loads of laundry in now. I feel like i'm hogging the facilities, but my two roommates aren't home and the landlord hasn't come down to use it ... So why not? My bedding is one load and my clothes are one load. I put a blanket down on the floor for missy and i want to wash that at least once/week too. How come i never did laundry this much at home ... ?

I cleaned all the crap off of my desk. It's small, so crap needs to be cleared on a regular basis.

I'm more and more thankful for my fan. There's quite a difference from the temp in the rest of the basement and the temp in my room. The fan is on about 95% of the day (from the time i get up until about dinner time ... I dont leave it on when i'm sleeping, but i might leave it on tonite). It's not even hot out. I wore shorts and a tank top to orientation and nearly froze my ass off coming home. And yet, it's still so warm in here ... ?

I don't know what i want to make for dinner tonite (hopefully i can actually eat it tonite ... My fettucine alfredo w/ spinach was a HUGE disappointment). I need to make my shopping list for tomorrow. I really do'nt need much ... I guess i didn't eat as much as i thought i would this week. All i can think of right now is spaghetti sauce, lunch meat, sun chips and pudding. Hardly seems like enough to go out for. Maybe i won't have to take a cab home after all.

I think i'm gonna call mom tonite. I miss her :(

Subject:	Don't tease the salespeople!
Time:	2:25 pm.
Mood:	busy.

I went to the bank earlier today to get my bank accounts all sorted out. When i opened this account with dad a few years ago we only opened a savings account. I need a chequing account too.

You'd think it's be a LITTLE easier to simply open an account, but it's not. The earliest appointment she had for me was 3pm ... And this was at about 12:45pm. I told i'd be back and walked around the mall. I peeked in a few stores, and i swear it took me no more than 5 minutes to circle the whole freaking mall. That's when i decided i'd come home and then walk back.

It isn't a long walk, at all (about 20mins), but i'm lazy. I don't want to have to go back.

I asked about tomorrow and she said they're booked solid. So if i don't do it today, i CAN'T do it tomorrow, and i don't plan to be back from kingston until Sept 1. And then i'm moving Sept 2. I don't have a whole lot of time to work with here.

So ... Here i go again. There's a book sale on too. Really good books for really cheap. If i can find one that i like, i might splurge :p

Subject:	I'm outta here!
Time:	7:56 pm.
Mood:	excited.

I've been looking forward to this for so long (okay, just a few wks, but it felt like longer) ... My wknd at my Nan's trailer w/ mom and nan :D

I can swim, eat, sleep, read, sleep, swim ... eat ... You get the picture. I don't think i got away to the trailer last summer, and Nan made me promise i'd come this year. Good thing. It's gonna rock.

Hope everyone has a good wknd !!

Subject:	On the news
Time:	12:30 pm.
Mood:	angry.

I just saw an interesting (sorry, maybe that's not the right word) story on the news ...

There was this man ... A 'peeping Tom'. He's standing outside of a five yr old girls window, watching her sleep. His pants are down around his ankles. We can all figure out what's (more than likely) going on here.

So the five yr olds mother comes out, with five of her closest friends, and they proceed to beat the crap out of this guy. For over an hour.

They're all arrested and charged now, with assault, sexual assault, assault with a weapon and rape ("the man was sexually assaulted with a tree branch") or something like that. While the other six remain in jail, this guy remains in the ICU.

Sure, the *right* thing to do would've been to call the police and wait for them to arrest this guy (if they can even do that ... And that's if he doesn't 'finish' first and take off). But if some guy's standing outside YOUR house, looking in at YOUR five yr old daughter sleeping and jerking off, would you not want to ... oh ... assault him with a tree branch? Even if i could restrain myself, i know i'd have a hell of time restraining my 6'0 300lbs partner.

Really makes ya wonder ... WTF is wrong w/ people.

Subject:	Lights out - Aug 14/03
Time:	10:39 am.
Mood:	geeky.

I was just reading the paper and it reminded me that it's been almost a year since we had that huge power outage.

Did you suffer through the power outage too? Where were you when it happened?

I was at home, online doing something or other. I'd just gotten home from work, i think. The computer went off, the radio went off, all the lights went out ... And my phone started making funny noises (it does that when the powers out). I decided i'd have a nap before our team dinner (supposed to be that night at 6pm).

I woke up just before 6, bolted out the door ... It didn't occur to me that we couldn't have dinner out if there was still no power. I picked up two slices of pizza from Pizza Pizza and a friend drove me home (we were the only two that showed up ... Everyone else was smart and stayed home). Dad was home by then, and quite amused by everything that had transpired.

We ate the pizza and talked for an hour or so, then he tried to fiddle w/ a car battery and my radio to see if he could get it to work that way. Not only was he unsuccessful, he broke my radio! I'm still not sure why we don't keep REAL batteries around ...

Dad got antsy and decided he wanted to go for a drive. Umm, hello ... No power ... No street lights ... No stop lights working. Seemed like a bad idea, but being afraid of the dark, i wasn't about to stay home alone. I took my candle and large BBQ lighter thing and went w/ him. The city was DEAD. I mean, it's a small city, so it's not usually very alive, but it was just so strange. We drove for a few hrs and then headed home. The street lights in our neighbourhood were on, so we figured our power must be back ... And it was. We'd only lost power for about 6-7hrs, at most. My mom and sis near Toronto didn't get their power back for over 24hrs after they lost it.

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