welp, midterms come out on monday and i just checked up on my grades. i've got a D in english, and i have NO idea how that's possible. i have something like 60 out of 660 possible points, or something, and what i think happened was that our GIANT 600-POINT RESEARCH PROJECT DUE IN LIKE MARCH is counted as missing or something due to a computer error. because there's no way we've had >600 points worth of assignments since the semester started, and even if we did i've turned in all my work and i've been getting good grades. A in advanced studies, A in gym (pffduh), A in dev guide, D in algebra (it's a high D! i just totally have no fucking idea what we're doing), B in science, and a D in wv studies (yeah i've been trying, but i swear to god that woman assigns so much work without telling us about it first. or maybe it's just me). well uh at least i'm not failing anything.

uhh, lessee. i saw "there will be blood" with dad on friday. was pretty awesome, i think i actually liked it more than "no country for old men". abused photoshop and made over a hundred icons on saturday (ohh you know you want to check them out. love them. stroke them lovingly with your nastybits in rhythm to 70s discofunk). pulled an all-nighter on two liters of dr pepper. cramped the fuck out of my legs. annnd here i am.

EDIT: i notice i've been using that jim icon like a lot lately

bah, i feel sick.

not really much left for me to do, as my computer's dead (and anyone and everyone with a battery charger is keeping me away from them just because) and i've finished my homework. :\

HEY GUYS
GIVE ME SOMETHING INTERESTING TO DO

is boring and stupidface

i should probably get a new one but i don't want to become one of those people who changes lj usernames more than they change underwear

fgsfds

i dunno if it's something that'll go for a week and then pass or if it's something permanent i should be worried about, but i'm absolutely terrified either way.

i'm not making excuses this time. i thought that when the second semester started i'd be fine because now i can just focus on my work and not have to worry about unfinished assignments dragging me down, but i CAN'T. my add just seems like it's suddenly skyrocketed and i can't focus on anything at all. i sit down in algebra and i look at the assignments, and i HAVE notes and i DO listen when the teacher explains things, but then i see the problems in front of me and it's just...i absolutely can't understand it at all. i can't focus on a problem long enough to even comprehend it. it makes me feel terrible. right now what i think is happening is my add is getting worse - because i want to do my work, i really do, and to think of anything else would be to get desperate for excuses. of course i can't tell my parents because they'll send me to a counselor because i'm obviously "DEPRESSED OMG" and if i say a word to heather i'll get a load about how i'm just making excuses for being lazy.

:(

well yeah i'm not dead. i've been pretty active everywhere else.

just not here.

lolzzz.
haven't updated this thing in like...a month? ish.

i haven't seen or talked to anyone besides my family and heather in over two months. (and i've only talked to heather on the phone...and she stayed over once).

i feel kinda disjointed from the rest of the world.

celebrity lookalikes. hmm.

also it's an old picture so it's probably not accurate...but eh.