Does anyone else feel anxious? *sigh*
 

We got mega rain! Yay! Parts of Greensboro got anywhere from 8-12 inches of rain in one day. :O Crazy no? Were I live got 4 inches of rain today, places in Randolph county got 10 inches. :) I love rain...but we did get some bad flooding in different areas.

Pray for the peeps with the flooding?

Another quiz!

You scored 66, on a scale of 25 to 100. Here's how to interpret your score:
25 - 29		Hardcore Skeptic -- but interested or you wouldn't be here!
30 - 39		Spiritual Dabbler -- Open to spiritual matters but far from impressed
40 - 49		Active Spiritual Seeker – Spiritual but turned off by organized religion
50 - 59		Spiritual Straddler – One foot in traditional religion, one foot in free-form spirituality
60 - 69		Old-fashioned Seeker -- Happy with my religion but searching for the right expression of it
70 - 79		Questioning Believer – You have doubts about the particulars but not the Big Stuff
80 - 89		Confident Believer – You have little doubt you’ve found the right path
90 - 100		Candidate for Clergy

You scored 39, on a scale of 0 to 110. Here's how to interpret your score: WATER
0 - 20		Earth: You're the stable, practical kind people love for your nurturing spirit. Rooted in family or other commitments, you can be stubborn and resistant to change at times. Be open to new ideas and ways of doing things. Read more about your element.
21 - 50		Water: You're sensitive and fluid, responding to feelings more than anything else. Dreams, visions, love, and the mysterious attract you. You may be prone to depression, so try to balance your emotions with rationality. Read more about your element.
51 - 70		Air: You're smart, witty, and process-oriented--but may be a little abstract and spacy at times. You're drawn to ideas and love to learn. Just make sure to leave room for feelings and sensations. Read more about your element.
71 - 100		Fire: You're willful, passionate, and intense, following your instincts in work, relationships, and more. People admire your courage and, well, your fire. Just don't let your impulsiveness lead you astray. Read more about your element.

My day: Sleepy, Hyper..hyper...energized and more hypr, calm

I'm thinking of going over to buy something, seeing as I have this 25% off coupon. Yeah, not much going on in my life that I haven't told you already and is exciting. I actually opened up my iPod box and started getting songs on it. Bought an album from iTunes, Circle of Women, and found out it doesn't work on my iPod, so I'm wondering if this computer has a burner in it. At the least, I can listen to it. Hopefully...hopefully...I'll burn it, and have it to listen to. *sigh* *crosses fingers* I do so love that cd. Anyway...

I'm in a good headspace. I'm thankful. I'm glad to exist. 

I don't have much to say right now. And I'm cool with that. Just wanted to say "Hey, I'm alive!" and "Yo, I'm in a good mindspace."  Other than that, not much. I'm gonna run along. Latah.

I got to go and do girly things with Jami, mainly get a pedicure. I now have shiny blue toenails. I can still feel the massage chair on my back, thank God. Now that was just what I needed. I spent maybe a little too much money today. I'll just have to be more conservative in the next two weeks to make up for it. We also went to eat at her favorite Thai place....mmmmmmmmm. Red shrimp curry. It wasn't as hot as Thai Garden, but tasted just as good. Don't get me wrong, the heat was there, but it only made me sniff a couple times instead of having a runny nose and eyes from the spice. Yum so good! Then, of course, I had to have ice cream after. So...I ate too much today. But, I got to hang with people. It made me happy. 

I finished two books, Marley and Me by John Grogan about a man and his dog. I loved it. I could really relate because of my pup experiences. My brother has let me and Mom borrow two books on cd. The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch and A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. I'm still working on Eckart's, but Randy's book... I'd say it's one of the most moving books I've read/listened to in a long time. There are books that make you think.  There are books that inquire on the meaning behind life and love and existence.  Then, there's The Last Lecture. It puts things into perspective so to speak. I would listen to it over again (as I have been in my car though the past week or so) to get the tid bits I missed while contemplating the rest.  If you see it on sale somewhere, get it. If you google it, you will see a youtube performance of his actual lecture entitled "The Last Lecture" based on the premise that 'you're getting ready to die, what words of wisdom would you pass on?' only he really is dying. Anyway...puts things into perspective. Trust me. I wish I had it to highlight.

Then there's Eckart's book on tape, I mean cd. Man, I'm never going to get used to saying 'book on cd'. He's the one reading it and he has a very calming voice. It is very intriguing. I'll update you when I'm done completely. So far, I like it, but I have to be careful not to go to sleep while listening to it. Well, that's update on life and books and stuff. Yay pedicures! First one and definitely not the last!

~me

Try it and you'll realize that you aren't being as good to yourself as you should. I know I did. It's just a good exercise for those of us that forget to remember ourselves when in this big world doing things, saying things, and basically living. So, as an exercise, try it.

I believe that I am now nocturnal. The sun rises, and I go to bed. Eh, I'll get that reversed someday. Just...for now...I am the bat in the night.  One more day of off work, and then...zing! More work all the way through the weekend. Woot. Ok, that was a sarcastic woot. It's going to be busy and people are going to be angry that we're going to run out of hot dog buns and slaw. Sorry. You shoulda gotten here earlier. Eat that wienner sans bread and be a rebel. Can't help you with the slaw. Maybe you should make your own. Cabbage...mayo...and I'm sure other stuff. Figure it out! 

Yeah...they have me working till midnight most this week and then...poof! I have to be there 8am Saturday. To others 8am isn't such a bad wrap. To me...well, it's not all sorts of bad, just, *sigh* I'll be a zombie.  I usually go to bed at 5 or 6 am nowadays. 8am is my sleepytime. Perhaps Friday night I'll do some sort of marathon through the neighborhood and clean everything I can find...*sigh* 

I mowed the lawn today. Mom keeps thinking I've never done it before. It's like she blocks it out so she can say next time I mow "Wow, how does it feel mowing for the first time ever?" *chuckle* It's not too far off point. I don't mow the lawn often. But, I imagined I was combing the sand in a zen garden and the trees/shrubs/natural areas were the rocks while the grass was the sand. Very nice. Nice because the weather was only 82 degrees and mostly cloudy. Perfect weather. Oh, and we had a breeze and a drizzling of rain. This time next month...*chuckles again* I'll be baked and broiled sitting on that wonderfully non-push mower. I love it really. It's a fast moving, drivable mower that has headlights if I so choose to mow at night. Not a bad idea seeing as I'm awake this late. Well...maybe not a good idea concerning the neighbors.

Ok, I'll stop. I'm about to start rambling about inch worms and blackberries. So, I should go to bed. :P Goodnight/morning!

Just wanted to say I'm thankful. Ok, done! Yay! :D

Let mercy come to wash away...

A different perspective on astrangement:

A new day to start. A new compassion. A forgotten compassion. Remind yourself that regret hides in places we don't like to talk about. Cracks and crevices that are dark and clandestine, even to yourself. But, to be secretive...to hide, it is not mysterious. It is not curious. At least, not in a sexy way. It is curious and mysterious only in the most neutral of senses. The most basic of mentions. Regret is something that must be banished, or else you'll see it as a part of who you are. You will build yourself upon this feeling and you will lose wisdom.

How could we have lost this? Pride is a lion, because it guards itself so well. But, strength calms the beast till it is only a sleeping cat. Strength is washing it away. Let mercy come to wash away...regret for the things I've done.  

Love is patient. Love is kind. Love is not boastful. But, here's the real version:

1 Corinthians 13:

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor, and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

Ane now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
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So, remind yourself of these things. It might help you tame your lion.