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16 May 2008 @ 09:05 am
Slowly but surely....  
I saw my doctor yesterday.  He said I am about 70% healed.  He thinks over the next month I should get to 90-100%.  He does not think surgery is necessary if I continue to heal.  He also gave me an okay to travel to New York next weekend.  I am having a CT scan on Wednesday.  

This is good news.  I know it is.  I am just frustrated that I'm not completely healed.  Monday will be th 12 week anniversary of my accident.
 
 
frizz_ease
15 May 2008 @ 11:40 am
Get a grip!!!  
You know, I was feeling way sorry for myself last night.  In fear that I would go on an eating binge, I drank a glass of wine and went to bed at 10:00. 

But this morning, I am reading the news headlines about Myanmar and China.  I'm imagining, being a mother in either of those two countries.  Do I know where my children are?  Are my children dead, sick, missing?  Can I keep them safe?  Do I have food, shelter, medication?  *feels shame* And here I am bitching and moaning about being old, having a chipped tooth and having back pain.  You know what?  I need to get a grip.  My life is hella good!  

I'm going to go hug my boys!!!
 
 
frizz_ease
14 May 2008 @ 07:15 pm
Getting old sucks!  

I just ate dinner and managed to crack my bottom front tooth.  So should I see the dentist before my physical therapy or after my appointment with the neurosurgeon? 

 
 
Current Mood: frustrated
 
 
frizz_ease
12 May 2008 @ 10:39 am
Monday update....  
 Mother's Day was nice.  I tend to down play these "special" days because I feel they are just one more push for mass consumerism.  But Jason brought me coffee in bed, Dylan was nice and talked to me a lot and Render fed the cat (barfs him out).  I never got out of my PJ's and watched movies most of the day!  Can you say, "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH."

I just put in my resume for a Guardian Ad Litem job though Domestic Relations Court.  I have been a volunteer GAL through Juvenile Court for two years now.  I don't really feel the court has a lot of respect for my work.  This tends to be the case when a job is volunteer.  In theory I am an arm of the court and an advocate for the child.  But it just doesn't seem to work out that way.  Can you say, "FRUSTRATED."

This Friday I see the neurosurgeon.  He will let me know how my back injury has progressed.  I am hoping I will get the green light for a trip to New York.  But I am concerned because I still have pain late in the day, and all weekend my back and shoulder have been tingling.  Now sure what it means.  Can you say, "OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
 
 
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10 May 2008 @ 12:26 pm
This just grosses me out!  
 
I just found out that my sternal fracture was NOT due to blunt force trauma...it happened at the exact same time as the  compression fracture of my spine.  I hit the floor SO hard that my spine compressed and my sternum cracked upward!  EWWWWWWWWWW!!!
 
 
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09 May 2008 @ 09:21 am
My friend's son is hysterical!  
I got this email from her yesterday:

Holden was hugging me goodbye in the driveway this morning, and I told him if he remembered to do all his HW and keep the playroom clean at the end of each day, he can keep the Wii out and use it.  He said, "well, you know I'm a kid and we kids just make mistakes.  That's why they make edible glue."

Out of the mouths of babes...
 
 
frizz_ease
06 May 2008 @ 06:41 pm
I might be clueless...  
Our area Children's Services Board has a campaign, to get parents and kids to eat together.  They are asking parents to pledge to eat with their children at least 4 nights a week.  Okay, I am probably clueless...but we eat together every night.  I just assumed everyone did.   Help me out here, why aren't parents eating meals with their children?  Do you eat with your kids?  I'm not trying to judge, I'm really trying to figure this one out?  Where do parents go when kids are eating?  Why is there a campaign to get parents to eat with their kids??????
 
 
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05 May 2008 @ 11:00 am
My decision....  
I have decided to boycott this year's Olympics in China.  And instead I will be watching THIS.

I am totally hooked and there are no crazy politics to get me mad!  Oh and when I am done watching Ninja Warrior I will spend my time watching
THIS

We might start out own Eco-Challenge team.  We will be TEAM ROCKY ROAD (yes the ice cream!!!).  But I'm going to make up our own challenges...like walking to the video store and going without fast food for a week!  The training will be pretty grueling ;-)
 
 
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03 May 2008 @ 09:17 pm
My kids...  
Don't you just want to protect your children forever?  Tonight Jason had a dose of reality.  He went to a birthday party.  He thought he lost one of his video games and was searching the house looking for it.  When he went upstairs to look for it, one of the boys said, "okay let's take a vote, who thinking Jason is a baby and who thinks he is just gay."  All the boys laughed.  Dylan (his older brother)  over heard.  He told Jason what they said and then called us to pick them up.  Dylan said, "nobody treats my brother like that."  Jason was so upset, he was crying.  He couldn't figure out why the kids would treat him that way.  I listed his friends and asked him if any of them would treat him that way, and he said "none of my friends would ever do that to me."  I told him the only people you can ever count on in life are your friends and the rest are a crap shoot.  But he really doesn't get it...he keeps saying, "I would never treat ANYONE  like that." 

My boys are typical brothers.  They don't always get along.  Jason is forever complaining that he HATES being the youngest!

When we got the boys home, Dylan turned to Jason and said, "I'm sorry about what happened to you tonight, and if you need anything just tell me"  I was in tears.  Jason told me, that for the first time in his life, he was glad he was the youngest because he knew he would always have Dylan to protect him. *deep sigh*
 
 
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02 May 2008 @ 07:48 am
 
Happy Birthday to [info]mace94

Hope you have a wonderful birthday!!!!!
 
 
 
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28 April 2008 @ 10:02 am
What I do on Sunday...  
For the last year I have been going back to churches.  That's right churches.  Render says, I'm a member of The Church Of The Month Club!  I grew up catholic and found myself really missing the community of the catholic church.  So I started going back.  But once a month, there is a WONDERFUL restorative yoga class, with lots of quiet and deep meditation.  So I started going.  But Render grew up in the Unitarian Universalist church, and we have family and friends who attend.  So we go there.  For the past year, you would have found me at one of these paces, every Sunday.  But last week I bumped into the pastor from our local United Church of Christ.  He invited me to their contemporary service, so I went yesterday.  I loved it!  I think I will move this church into my rotation schedule!!!  I know this may be a symptom of my inability to commit.  But I like belonging to the church of the month club!
 
 
frizz_ease
25 April 2008 @ 04:06 pm
Be careful what you wish for...  
I have always battled with my weight and have an ongoing issues with my body image.  My emotional state, revolves around the bathroom scale.  If I gain weight...I'm depressed.  If I lose weight...it's a good day.  I have gained and lost the same damn pound at least 100 times!  My dear friend Salma has also struggled with her weight.  She is very petite Bengali woman.  She is 50 years old and the entire time I have known her she has been a size 14 and 150 lbs.  We tried walking programs.  But we would just go as far as Starbucks and end up sipping lattes!   We tried support groups but they became pot luck dinners.  We even thought of Weight Watchers, but it's right next door to Panera so we didn't even risk it!!!!

Just recently, Salma was diagnosed with stomach cancer.  In a blink of an eye, she was taken to Cleveland Clinic and had surgery.  Her entire stomach, spleen and part of her pancreas were removed.  She spent 9 days in the hospital and returned home last week.  The doctor said, she has stage 3 stomach cancer.  She has a 22% chance of being alive in 5 years.  Yesterday she asked if I would take her shopping because none of her clothes fit.  We shopped and found out she has dropped from a size 14 to a size 6 pants, from a large t-shirt to an extra small, her weight is now 104.  She will meet with her oncologist in a few weeks and a plan for chemo and radiation will be developed.  The doctor wants her to maintain her current weight, but Salma says getting in enough calories is very hard.  I wonder if she, like me, used to dream of having those pounds fly off her body???  Yesterday while clinging to her size 6 pants, she said, "Why me, Michelle, why me?"  I told her this isn't fair and there is no reason she should be sick.  She just smiled and tucked the pants into our cart. 

When I got home, I thought long and hard about my struggle with weight.  I decided I need to come to terms with my own fears and insecurities and most importantly,  I need to be very very very careful what I wish for.
 
 
frizz_ease
21 April 2008 @ 01:53 pm
GUILTY! GUILTY! GUILTY!!!!  
Sunday was my first pain free day in 9 weeks.  This is very exciting and I am loving my physical therapy!!!  WOO HOO LIFE IS GOOD!  But now I want to go back to New York and see my friends.   The last time they saw me, I was a fractures mess.  I would love to see them when I am healed!  Render is terrified I will fall down their stairs again!  I think I will leave it up to my neurosurgeon.  I see him again in May.  Oh and guess who just got a jury duty notice???  Yup it's ME!!!!
 
 
frizz_ease
14 April 2008 @ 03:35 pm
Hack, cough, hack and cough some more!  
For over a year now, Jason has had a chronic cough.  It is around for about a month and then disappears for a few weeks then comes back again.  Sometimes he coughs all day, other times only at night, making it difficult for him to fall asleep.  Our pediatrician did everything he could think of:

1. Sinus x-ray
2. Treatment for seasonal allergies
3. Treatment for asthma
4. Medication to stop the coughing reflex (maybe it's just a cough habit)

Nothing has worked.  We tried a new pediatrician and he is back on an inhaler.  Not helping.

But you know what has not been mentioned?  Environmental allergies and/or food intolerances. So yesterday I started monitoring every food and ingredient that is going into his body.  I told him no more eating out until we figure this out.  And I made an appointment for an allergist.  I hope it works! 

Has anyone experienced this?  Any suggestions?
 
 
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09 April 2008 @ 06:34 pm
I love Wednesdays!  
Tonight is Top Chef!  I don't know why but I really love this show.  Top Chef and Project Runway are the best.  I think I love seeing people with real talent.  Even those who are sent home in the first few weeks have more cooking and sewing skills than I will EVER have.  Tonight is the night I pick a favorite.  I bet you are all excited to hear who it will be (humor me, okay).  Any other fans out there???
 
 
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08 April 2008 @ 03:31 pm
Can you tell I'm feeling better???  
Okay time for a rant....

 In 1981 I decided to become a  teacher.  I went off to college to "become" a teacher.  After one semester I was frustrated.  I wanted to learn about how a child's brain worked, how to integrate learning and experience and how to make learning meaningful.  These courses were not offered in the education department.  (They were provided in the psychology department.  And all of these coursed were considered electives).  The emphasis in my program was how to teach groups of children ...not how an individual child learns.  Oh but I learned plenty about diversity in the classroom, social foundations in American education and how to design a damn good felt board.

Fast forward to 1999, I send my child to public school.  I discovered that nothing had changed.  Teachers still knew nothing about brain development and meaningful learning.  (But hey, now instead of felt boards they had computers). Teachers would tell me that my son had to complete very specific tasks at very specific times during each school year.  I would ask why?  They would tell me about the curriculum standards.  I would ask questions about learning readiness (basic to brain research).  They would stare at me blankly.  It was clear that they didn't know what the research said.  I would ask if it was even developmentally appropriate to ask a 6/7/8 year old to be able to master all of these very specific steps  in the kindergarten/1st/2nd grade curriculum?  Again the blank stares.   I even became PTA president at my child's school, hoping to facilitate some change.  I went to school meetings and district functions, begging the schools to emphasize learning in real world contexts instead of sets of abstract standards on a checklist.  I wrote letters to the superintendent talking about programs that work.  Where collaborative and cooperative learning is stressed.  Where authentic assessments are used, giving feedback about learning and not letter grades.  I was thanked and dismissed at every turn.

So now I is 2008.  I am homeschooling and have been happily educating my children for six years.  I am NOW able to be the teacher I have always wanted to be.  To have my child learn the way their brains were designed to learn.  To create an environment where learning has meaning...because without construction of meaning, there is no leaning!

So today, I read an article about the dropout rate in urban schools, "The dropout rate of more than a million students each year 'is not just a crisis; this is a catastrophe,' said former Secretary of State Colin L. Powell, founding chairman of America's Promise Alliance, which presented the research."  The Alliance seemed shocked at this "crisis".  But I'm not.  Urban students are saying what I said in 1981 and again in 1999 and still in 2008, students need an environment where leaning is meaningful.  There is no meaning in current high schools for a majority of urban students. 

So what is the solution?  Students are leaving the schools in record numbers.  I would think their voices are  loud and clear.  A program designed with no meaning for the student is viewed as valueless and a waste.  But if our leaders couldn't figure this out, well then why not ask the students themselves?  That's right, let's ask the customer why they no longer desire the product being sold to them.  ASK students why they are leaving!!!!  Exit interviews...hmmm that makes sense right?  "The alliance announced plans for 'dropout prevention' summits in every state over the next two years, bringing community, school and business leaders together 'to develop workable solution and action plans for improving our nation's alarming graduation rates.'    *Head thumps on desk*  I give up.
 
 
frizz_ease
07 April 2008 @ 12:38 pm
Great news!!!  
Great news, my CT scan showed significant new bone growth  around my injury.  What does this mean?  The neurosurgeon wants to  
"drag his feet" and put off the surgery, believing that I may heal on  my own in the next 6 weeks!  I am trying to just work half days for now.  My goal was to stop and rest at 1:00 but it is now 12:30 and I don't think I can work anymore.  Oh well, as the saying goes, "ONE DAY AT A TIME."

Thanks for the encouragement guys!  Oh even though I'm not commenting a lot, I am reading all of your blogs.  I will just have to live vicariously through all of you, for now.
 
 
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02 April 2008 @ 05:19 pm
 
I saw the neurosurgeon today.  He feels I might be a candidate for Vertebroplasty http://www.radiologyinfo.org/en/info.cfm?pg=vertebro#part_five He was concerned because the angle of my compression makes it difficult to access during the surgery.  He ordered a CT scan so he could ensure the procedure can be done safely.  Apparently my shoulder is in the way of easy access.  I am so over sleeping on the couch and being  limited in my activity, I was about ready to tell him that my right shoulder was expendable!  

I had the CT scan today and will meet with the neurosurgeon again on Friday.
 
 
frizz_ease
28 March 2008 @ 06:14 pm
I have to recommend to you all...  
Render and I watched Orfanato, El (2007) last night.  OMG you guys...it was sooooo good.  Yes it is in the horror genre but don't let that spook you...it was so worth watching.  It is being released on DVD April 22nd.  I want you all to see it!  Okay????