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[Jul. 23rd, 2008|09:29 am] |
Yesterday I learnt (quite possibly again) that working, or maybe this job, is the best form of making myself feel better and getting a grip on whatever is going on.
I was pretty down after the weekend and getting my teeth stuck into some numpties that find fundamental manners and proffesionalism too much of a chore cheered me up endlessly.
Bonus of being fired up and giving it a direction also means things get done :o) |
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[Jul. 18th, 2008|09:34 am] |
Went out with work people last night to the Real Ale and Jazz festival in the park behind my house…
Obviously as a big fan of the main Camra festival I was a little sceptical of this much smaller event and as I am not big fan of Jazz I was expecting a good night out but ignoring the music.
We managed to arrive perfectly between bands, got a drink, found our mates, and sat down in time for the second set of the evening. We knew we were in for something special (one way or another) when 6 men in bright yellow suits (and I mean BRIGHT) walked on stage and introduced themselves as the Jive Aces!
It was awesome. As soon as the first chord was played the dance floor was mobbed with people who actually knew how to swing or jive (or possibly Lindy or unconventional Balboa (yes I had a look on the website but I still can't figure out what was being danced last night))
The combination of energy from the band and people really enjoying themselves and mostly looking great while they did this really was a spectacle to behold. Thinking about it I am not sure that I have ever been to a live dance event (and no may pole dancing at a May Day festival when I was 10 does not count).
At one point the most amazing group shift happened where couples stopped dancing as couples and broke into what we can only think of as Jazz line dancing. It was so interesting to watch; it started as 4 people and gradually grew into the whole dance floor doing the same routine.
It turns out that many of the people who were there attend this which makes the Disney style spontaneous formation dancing a little more explainable (cue much confusion and questioning of 'how do you know this dance?' for those of the Enchanted persuasion). However it does not make the whole situation any less impressive nor does it include the many people who didn't know the exact combination of moves who neatly fell into line and got in to the ‘swing’ of things if you’ll excuse the pun.
In fact by the end of it one of the girls from work had managed to pick it up and was delighted to actually get to join in during the following set.
It was quite simply an amazing night out and one to be repeated.
*goes off to find lessons/events and to plot a cunning plan to get James dancing*
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[Jul. 17th, 2008|12:34 pm] |
I realised last night as I was doing a very silly little dance at the prospect of getting into bed that I've started to get excited about things again.
I can't remember if I ever posted it up here but there was a time where I was really sad that I didn't appear to be excited about anything even things I should be excited about.
I kind of put it down to growing up. The whole the older you get, the more you've done, the less anticipation everything holds.
Now I don't think that is the case - probably proved by being so excited I was dancing before going to bed.
In recent weeks I have also been excited about going out with the team on serveral events, the trip to Mazz's and going to the cinema tomorrow.
I have also found that I do not get the horrible sicky feeling about doing something different as badly anymore.
So all in all I think that I can safely say that I am pretty happy at the moment and all the good things are coming back to me :o) |
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[Jul. 16th, 2008|12:50 pm] |
I am having one of those ‘oh God I can’t be bothered’ kind of days. Unfortunately this is the 3rd in a row and my work is going to start suffering if I don’t do something about it.
I am not sure that chocolate is actually the right response but never mind.
I’ve been trying to figure out what it is and the only thing I can come up with is that I would much rather be doing something else. I am trying to organise the work trip out on Thursday, I am going to the cinema on Friday and am asking if anyone is coming with us, I am away at the weekend, I need to sit down and review the wedding stuff and I want to organise seeing some of the Reading people as we haven’t seen some of them since May.
So I think that it is safe to say I have a healthier work life balance than I had a Cognos but it appears that I am using work as a way of getting my rest.
Only thing for it is to shut up and get on with it
Unfortunately |
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[Jul. 14th, 2008|11:19 am] |
I am so tired today - all the excitement from the weekend :o)
Do you think that there is any chance I could just not really do any work today and sit quietly?
No didn't think so.
I really want a bacon sarnie for some reason
and I am freezing cold
*wanders off to the canteen* |
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[Jul. 4th, 2008|02:42 pm] |
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I am so out of practice with lunchtime pub trips! |
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[Jun. 26th, 2008|03:31 pm] |
missing James quite a lot which is sad - there are loads of things that I want to talk through with him and I know I will have forgotten by Monday.
work is manic but I've been productive which is great.
we have work drinks tonight but unfortunately it falls into my driving week so the first opportunity to not worry about it does not work out and that is me on the lemonade and I will force the boys to drink so that I don't feel cheated ;)
I have such a great hunger on at the moment. Is not good as I am not making time for the gym and I do not want to gain weight, I like the weight I am at the moment. All I can think about is going home and eating what I cooked last night, although I worried all morning about garlic breath - last time I drank lemon water in the morning and it seemed to work (something to do with stomach reactions causing the smell not what is in your mouth) hmmmm
I guess I'm rambling |
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[Jun. 6th, 2008|05:02 pm] |
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why do geese eat grass? |
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[May. 22nd, 2008|11:49 am] |
HOLIDAY!!
um so there.
I can't tell you how pleased I am to have some time off with James.
It is alos good that the stomach thing has not happened in the last 4 nights.
I am going to do sporty things, spa-y things and am toying with a fully body massage as I feel a bit like someone has screwed me up and then stretched me out again.
And I get 4 days of playing with my favourite baby in the world at the moment, oh ok, she maybe the only baby I get to play with at the moment but that doesn't make her any less of my favourite
baby swimming
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[May. 16th, 2008|08:23 am] |
I am so pleased I managed to get 9 hours sleep on Wednesday night otherwise I think I would be dead. In 8 nights I have managed 3 without stomach ache, and no not in a nice neat row where James and I might start feeling human.
So more doctors for me today and this time I have a list of things to talk about so I don't forget.
On another note, because I have been awake since 2 I have learnt a few things...
James is having nightmares, whether he believes it or not.
I actually can be a morning person and started work at 6.30 today which means I can stop at 1 which is brill |
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[May. 14th, 2008|06:44 pm] |
Lemon and ginger are good for you - right?
so it isn't that stupid that I've ordered chinese food is it?
*ducks* |
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[May. 8th, 2008|08:36 am] |
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I'm terrible.
I don't post on LJ when I am really happy, like yesterday where I worked from home got V+ installed went to the gym played badminton and Star Wars Lego and obviously actually did some work work otherwise it wouldn't be working from home.
Today I am low so I turn to LJ. I think that the lowness comes a bit from exercising yesterday and it making me tired as I have not been doing too much in the last month.
But also I have blood tests at 10.45, which would normally be fine except I can't eat after 11 because of my ultrasound this afternoon. I'm worried about feeling crappy not being able to eat. I am worried that it will all be delayed and I will end up with stomach pains and dizziness because I'm not allowed to do my normal food regulation thing.
So what do I do to make myself feel better? I start talking to my boss about my current position and that I am concerned that I am not getting the positive feedback I would like (nothing more demoralising than someone wishing your predecessor was still around to your face) I got reassurance that I make his life easier but that he wants to talk about this tomorrow. SO now I am worried that there is something wrong and I could lose my job.
I know - over reaction
Why can't my brain be happy stressing about my tests today rather than hearing unsaid things in msn converstations that it really shouldn't have started int he first place.
I can also hear the to drive or not to drive stress creeping in too. Royal Berks is a pain for parking and expensive and a pay and display ?? How should I know how long I will be. Other option is bus but I don't know how I'll feel by the time I get out....
shutupshutupshutup
must go and do something else now |
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[May. 2nd, 2008|02:41 pm] |
My stomach played up again last night dispite going out and not drinking and sticking to salads which usually are the only things garunteed not to hurt my stomach (or not any more as the case may be)
Took my pain killers and have been whacked all day but fortunately it has not been a show stopped this time.
So met up with the girls from Cognos last night and I was wrong to be worried - it was really great. Is good to know that I don't have to be working with them or absolutely shit faced to enjoy their company. Hoping to go to a rat pack tribute night with them at the end of May. It is not quite my thing but I think that it would be great fun regardless.
Got up early today to go to the doctor which turned out to be excellent. I told her that I hadn't recieved anything about my ultrasound and so she called up the X-ray place while I was there and told them off :o) Turns out they sent it to Brighton Road as this is the address they had from when I had my appendix removed which I think is about 3 years ago, and not the address my doctor sent. Consequently I have an urgent appointment next week (ok not that quick but it is pretty good). I am also going in for more blood work next week this time checking for bacterial prescene in my tummy - apparently this can cause these symptoms and I had a look on the internet and there is a form of bacterial ulcers too (I should NEVER read this shit)
My only question is - should I be scared or reassured that my doctor thinks I am too young for stomach cancer? the comment hinted that the symptoms were not far off but it wouldn't be a problem that the ultra sound was delayed becuase you don't often see it in people my age meeeep
Treated my self to a hair trim which looks lovely and I now have a hairdresser I like near my house, bought some nail varnish and loads of books from the charity shop. Did a big shop at tescos and snuck in 2 tops and pair of sandals and a wait for it....
dress!!!!
I'm not normally made for dresses but it is dead nice and my first every day dress in about 8 years.
So we have loads of food, some new clothes, new hair, new double stregth pills and more books and nail varnish
Not bad going for someone on tramadol.
Now of to the beer festival....
might not be drinking! |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2008|01:11 pm] |
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I miss lunch time pub trips.... |
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[Apr. 6th, 2008|09:20 am] |
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SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2008|09:15 am] |
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Anyone have a fool proof way of moving a work funk without being in work or having any real work to do?
I was thinking of moaning to my boss
Good or bad idea? |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2008|02:43 pm] |
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I'm in such a shit mood today |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2008|07:59 am] |
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I just accidentally flicked my ciggie ash into a spiders web, obviously the spider thought it was food.
Nothing quite as disgusting as seeing a spider trying to eat ash.
Also a bit early in the morning to have the 'Guilt' about possibly poisoning a creature... |
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[Apr. 1st, 2008|04:25 pm] |
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The couple downstairs stop arguing if I sing Billy Joel songs at the top of my lungs....
Could be in astonishment to the beautiful melodies of a classic song writer
or
they've gone out to find their cat to make sure the strange lady upstairs isn't murdering it horribly |
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[Mar. 28th, 2008|10:32 am] |
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I had a good nights sleep and no pain yesterday without taking the pills so that is good
Herbal teas really don't come anywhere close to the real thing but I guess it is good and healthy and nice to have a hot drink this morning
The weather is filthy today
I can't get hold of the person I need from work so everything has already gone on hold today which probably will disrupt the mini amount of motivation I had when I got up this morning.
Work is being really annoying at the moment as people are ignoring me because they expect my year end to be one of the tidiest but as this is my first it is annoying the shit out of me because I could be doing it all wrong for all I know. Being at home doesn't help.
Technically I don't have a job for next week. But as I am the resourcing manager I will be working and back charging but might have to remain off site and I am starting to lose motivation because I am stuck at home.
Just found out my blood test has come back normal so blood work and liver are all working normally - which is good :o)
I had promised myself that I would stay positive this year but this is being really tested by how ill I have been and the mini job wobble.
It is going to be nice to have company this weekend I am going a little stir crazy |
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