| it rubs the lotion on it's skin |
[10 Jun 2008|11:34pm] |
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Birthday tomorrow...
It's bittersweet. The years just keep getting shorter.
and there were so many things that I wanted to do by the time i was 22 that i haven't done.
22...it seems so old, but I still feel like a kid...
Going down to Atlantic City tomorrow with the boy, Cindy, Tom and Adam...I'm excited! and ready to lose lots of money!
It's been 4 weeks since I've seen the boy...finally seeing him tomorrow and I'm so freakin excited!!!! Work was soooo long today because all i was doing was sitting there thinking, "alright, by this time tomorrow, I'll be with him" I can't wait to see himmmm! And I'll take tons and tons of pictures! <3
Work has been awesome, Transformers is going well...busy, busy. I'm doing so much that I never thought I'd be doing a month after graduation. No one understands how lucky I am to have gotten this opportunity. And everyone I work with is amazing. I pretty much walk into my office and have a great time until I leave.
19 minutes until it's my birthday...
*sigh*
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| the ultimate road trip. |
[20 Mar 2008|10:35pm] |
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So i've been reading a bunch of entries from like, freshman year and I used to have a lot of fun!!
This year has been terrible. I was so looking forward to it and it's definitely been the worst of my four years at college. I'm ready to graduate and end this chapter in my life.
Speaking of graduating, I've been looking for jobs all break and found some good ones. I gotta start sending out my resume and such. It's nerve racking...but exciting.
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[16 Mar 2008|05:46pm] |
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updating via my iPod touch.
I had a date with the boy on Friday. It was awesome! But I don't wanna get my hopes up.
:/
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[01 Mar 2008|01:59am] |
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The Red Romance |
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So I texted the boy. I did it yesterday and still haven't heard back from him, which means i probably won't.
Am I surprised? not at all. I can't catch a break with anything recently.
He was a smoker anyway, which probably would have annoyed me in the long run.
I love how i try and make light of shitty situations when deep down, it fucking kills me.
oh well.
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| dreams mean nothing! |
[26 Feb 2008|11:47pm] |
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ugh, now i'm just totally psyching myself out.
I'm never gonna be able to call. :(
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| weightless |
[24 Feb 2008|03:30pm] |
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so, last semester I had astronomy with a really cute boy. We always talked and said we'd hang out sometime, but we never did. I haven't seen or talked to him since December and last night i got the urge to call him. I held back, mostly because it was about 5am. I was thinking about calling him this week sometime. But, I'm such a girl and I have no balls.
but i don't want to miss out on another opportunity. :/
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[15 Feb 2008|01:26am] |
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One Thing is for Sure - The Spill Canvas |
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I'm smitten...and it sucks.
especially when I know nothing is gonna come of it.
ugh... :(
just, super frustrating.
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| I'll slap you off that barstool |
[14 Feb 2008|03:10am] |
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So...it's 3am. I have a bad habit of sleeping when I'm tired, and today that meant from 6pm-10pm. It was a terrible idea and I'm never gonna be able to go to bed, or wake up for class at 9:25 tomorrow morning.
I've been feeling nostalgic recently since I just got back into writing here. I've been reading stuff from like, 5 years ago about high school drama, colorguard and all that good stuff (although high school drama = colorguard, haha) But I'm like, when did I grow up? I'm busy getting my resume together and looking for jobs and getting out in the real world. When did this happen? It felt like just yesterday the only thing I had to worry about was what time I had to be at school on saturday for a colorguard competition. It's just all hit me so fast...and i don't think I'm ready for it quite yet.
And...it's valentine's day. For the second year in a row, i get to sit at home and be miserable. I think I'm buying a new cell phone, though...so that should be exciting. It's days like this when I just really miss having someone. I don't know why the past year has been so hard for me relationship wise. I think I meet someone, then end up getting my heart broken by just another asshole. Everyone will tell me "it's jersey boys, for ya" but i have a feeling that it's all boys.
Speaking of boys, my sister and her boyfriend broke up after over four years of being together. It's really been getting to me for lots of reasons. I love my sister to death and seeing her upset is heartbreaking. She called me when it happened and I felt like there was nothing that i could do for her. It's hard to see people you love so upset and not be able to really do anything about it. I know she'll be fine though, she's definitely one of the strongest girls i know. Also, they were together for four years...after four years, how do you decide to end things? I guess it just doesn't give me much hope for the future knowing that after so long, things can still go to shit. Her boyfriend and I were really close too...i considered him my brother since i never had one. I know we'll still talk, but it just won't be the same. I feel like I kinda lost something too.
wow...i definitely forgot how therapeutic it is to write in this thing.
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| overwhelming proof |
[04 Feb 2008|06:58pm] |
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Hush Hush - The Spill Canvas |
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guys are assholes.
even the nice ones.
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| jk polysource! |
[27 Jan 2008|03:37pm] |
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I've totally been cheating on LJ with facebook...but I'm back!
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I'm scared. :/
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